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It's my birthday, y'all 😊😊😊

PRIDE & PREJUDICE (2005) Dir. Joe Wright

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Day Seventy-Nine!!

Posting this a little late but as I've said it's been a hectic week. Just trying to get through it. I might hold off posting until Sunday just because that's my first free day in awhile. Wish me luck.

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Day Seventy-Eight!!

I had part one of orientation today and they ordered pizza for lunch so that wasn't ideal but it's such a hellish week that I'm just trying to get through it. Luckily the homework that I had planned for me to get done today didn't take as long as I was dreading so I was able to take the dog to the dog park this evening. Which is good because a heat wave is supposed to come in tomorrow and last til the end of the week. I'm doing my best to be on top of my sleep schedule since I have to wake up early so much this week. I'm already in bed and it's about to be lights out. Tomorrow is going to be a very physically demanding day because it's essentially the physical portion of orientation where we get shown/practice a lot of hands on things. Lots of lifting of heavy things. Many stairs. Probably more pizza. It's gonna be all good. I got this.

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Day Seventy-Six and Seventy-Seven!!!

Sorry I forgot to post. And honestly I can't promise it's not going to happen again in the near future. My schedule is so jam packed that I've been exhausted by the day's end. But I've been doing pretty well. Being busy at least comes with the perk of often times being active. Unless I'm working on my class then I'm stuck to my desk. And somehow there seems to be too much of both happening so idk what to tell my brain except stop complaining. I guess I'm just having anxiety about how much I have to do this week in particular. I had a 5 hour training today, 7 hours tomorrow, 7 hours Tuesday, a 12 hour training/shadowing shift on both Wednesday and Friday. And on top of all that I have to find time to read 80 pages for my class, do two homework assignments, two quizzes, and an exam. I'm really trying to get it all done and I know I can do it, just likely at the sacrifice of some sleep. Which, speaking of, I will be going to bed now. Everyone wish me luck. I'm sure going to need it.

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Day Seventy-Five!!

I actually did quite well on my diet again today. Unfortunately I was tied to my desk doing my online training for work (which I finally got done!! Yayy!!!). And when I wasn't doing that I was in my car dropping off/picking up my spouse from the MCAT testing center. So it's been a day of sitting which sucked. And it was raining for over half the day so a walk wasn't entirely an option. But I'm going to be very busy from here on out so I'll probably miss these days at one point. I'm nervous about having to meet so many new people because of this job. That's always the struggle with me. It's never the people, it's acclimating into a new social setting. It sucks and it's uncomfy. I'm so tired though because I friend my brain from doing online modules for 8 hours. I'm so ready for sleep. Goodnight my internet void people 💙

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Day Seventy-Four!!!

I actually did very well with my diet today, which felt nice. I also went on two walks to break up the monotony of sitting at my desk doing online training for my new job. Which, aggravatingly, I don't get paid for. And it's the kind of slide show training where you can't skip ahead and you can't just read it. It's very irritating.

My spouse has the MCAT tomorrow so it'll be an early night, hopefully. Hope everyone is doing well 💙

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Day Seventy-Three!

I finally went grocery shopping today. I went to two different stores which are about 30 minutes from my home. The whole endeavor took about 4 hours. And now I have a very small amount of money in my checking account. But at least I have vegetables again. And other food group options. I ate pretty decently today, aside from having one small late night snack. I've also been working on the onboarding training for my new job which has been taking ridiculously long, but I have to get it done before the first day of orientation which is this Sunday. I'm about to be so insanely busy. This is good. I'm pretty sure. I've got this. I'm nervous and a little scared, but I can do it. In the same vein of getting things back on track, I finally made a few appointments that I've been putting off for a good while now. Aside from my diet, I really need to make sure I keep up a decent sleep schedule. And on that note I am getting to bed. Goodnight my internet void people 😴

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Day Seventy-Two!!

It was a pretty good day. I crossed a lot off my to do list so I felt pretty productive. I was kind of chained to my desk most of the day because I got through three units in the online portion of my certification class. My diet was pretty good, though it was mostly intermittent snacking and less of actual "meals". I felt pretty stir crazy by the mid afternoon so I did take my dog on a walk which was nice. I think I'm going to finally go to the grocery store tomorrow which will be nice. Though I'm kind of daunted by how much I need to get because it's been quite a few weeks since I've gone shopping. So, all in all, not a bad day today. Hope everyone is having a good week so far 💙

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Day Seventy-One!!

It feels like it's been awhile since I've been able to say this, but my diet was actually pretty good today. I had therapy this morning and it started my day off on the right foot so I think it was helpful riding that high through the day and trying to make good choices. I can't wait for this job to start so I can have that paycheck because money has been extremely tight lately to the point where my fridge is pathetically empty. Like my soul. Lmao. So I don't have anything really in the way of fresh veggies and the only meat I have in my freezer is half a pound of chicken breast and some ground turkey. I don't think I can hold off shopping any longer. I'm practically out of Deodorant and other very essential stuff. Point is, when it comes to healthy options I've got slim pickings right now. I just hope the new structure will help a lot of things. Mostly my diet and insomnia. Which, speaking of, I'm quite tired so I'm going to get to bed. Goodnight my internet void people 💙

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Day Seventy!!

The day was going really well and then we made smores over the fire and that sunk my diet for the day. But I did have a decent amount of veggies and stayed pretty hydrated. It was a fun day with friends and such. I still have to do the stuff for HR but it's Sunday so I'm not thinking anyone was expecting it today. It's on my to do list for tomorrow though. I'm excited but nervous to be so busy again. I feel like I'm almost worried I'll be out of practice with multitasking and juggling a lot. Only one was to find out though.

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Day Sixty-Nine!

Today was honestly a really long and hollow day filled with a lot of cramps and exhaustion. I'm very excited to crawl into bed. I had my class today which was nice because it got my day started early. I also weeded the garden, refreshed my beer traps, and evicted about three dozen slugs. So that was a pretty productive 80 minutes. I also took my dog to the dog park. It was a rough day but still a pretty good day. I do have a lot of emails from HR that all came in today that I do have to answer, though.

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Day Sixty-Eight!!

So, I could have made better diet decisions, but I'm proud that I stopped myself from late night snacking. Also, I went to the gym even though I really didn't want to. I start my certification course tomorrow and I also heard from scheduling at my new job and I got that all squared away. Now I just have to wait for their next orientation which is in less than two weeks. I'm hoping now that I'll have a lot more structure in my life I'll be able to add a workout schedule into it. It's easier to say "Oh I'll just do it tomorrow" when you know you'll have tomorrow free. But when you know you have a twelve hour shift the next day and then a four hour hands on course the day after that, you want to get your workout done and over with. Also, it'll be easier on the diet because I'll be able to pack healthy foods and that will be my only option. That was something that used to help back when I was doing physical training before - I would work during the day and not have access to a whole pantry. I hope this all goes well.

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Day Sixty-Seven!!

It was a decent day. I should have eaten more veggies. I am still obsessively checking my email to see if the scheduler from my new job has reached out to me yet. I took the dog on a walk, put away laundry, and washed my linens/remade the bed. I also started a craft project which is nice because it's been awhile.

I am a little concerned that I'm going to feel a little overwhelmed with my class and my new job starting at the same time. I'm going to try my best to get a head start on my class. But that also means I'm going to have to put my foot down about setting time aside to do it. I'll try my best.

Thanks for listening my internet void people 💙

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Day Sixty-Six!!

Hello everyone! My job interview went well and I got the job!! I'm just waiting to hear from their scheduler in the nearby division to discuss potential schedules with me and then I'll get to start on-boarding paperwork! Which typically is something I get super annoyed with but it's been too long since I've had a full time job that I'm just so stoked. My diet was absolute crap today, and I can hate myself for it tomorrow. I did also play tennis today though so that was good. And I have my orientation tomorrow for the certification program I'm starting so that's exciting too. Things are looking up. Knock on wood. And I'll be so happy to be on a schedule again. I just do so so so much better when I have structure in my life. I'm so excited to be busy again and to see people again, which is a sentence I never thought I'd say. Thank you for being on this adventure with me, my internet void people. Goodnight 💙😴

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Day Sixty-Five!!

It was a rather productive day today and honestly my diet was pretty good. I really trued to keep busy because I have a job interview tomorrow and I'm kind of nervous. I'm both nervous for the actual interview and then if I get the job I'll be nervous about that too. My life has looked pretty consistent (for better or worse) for almost a year now. So I've gotten myself into a pretty deep rut. I know getting back to work full time will be good for me. I need to get a chance to socialize and be active again. Plus, I feel like I don't contribute enough to the financials in my relationship which doesn't sit too well with me. I've certainly gotten better at accepting that I will not always be the bread winner, but I'll be able to accept it more when I feel I'm doing everything I can to make the most money possible. I feel I've been a little on edge, so I'm extra proud of myself for not eating my feelings today. I also did limit my screen time which was nice.

I'll keep you guys updated about the interview. Until then, goodnight my internet void people 💙

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Day Sixty-Two to Sixty-Four!!!

I got home somewhat late yesterday and then un packed everything from the camping trio because I didn't want to drag that out. I had a lot of fun this weekend. It was so nice not having my phone attached to my hip that I actually think I'm going to try and limit my screen time a lot in the future. I also went fishing, hiking, and we had cookouts over the fire pit. I don't think I had access to a single vegetable the entire weekend, unless you count pickles. I ate nothing but junk food and I probably ate too much. And I did have to deal with the self loathing of that yesterday as the vacation came to a close. I feel I need to get back on the ball. I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend/Monday. I'll probably post again tonight. Have a great day my internet void people 💙

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Day Sixty-One!!

Woke up too late today and had to scramble a little to get things together for packing before my double date at a trampoline park. I didn't eat the best but certainly not the worst. And I of course got good exercise in with the jumping. Also, with doing so many flights of stairs by packing what I could in my car tonight. My bedroom is on the second floor and my fishing gear was in the basement. I'm excited for camping, like a kid the night before a field trip. And I get to bring my dog which makes it so much better. And one of our other friends is bringing their dog so it's like a weekend long play date for them. I know I already said this, but I won't have service where I'm going. If I think about it I might write down my days somewhere and post them later but I may be too preoccupied.

Enjoy your weekend my internet void people 💙