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after an exceptionally euphoric day i spent two hours dancing naked in my empty home, shouting nonsense lyrics to whatever songs came on, half-conscious and dizzy from half a bottle of wine. i think i'm beginning to understand what the bacchanalias might have felt like

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I had to see this so you all do too

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RIP to Todd Anderson, Neil Perry, Charlie Dalton, Steven Meeks, Gerard Pitts, Knox Overstreet, Richard Cameron and most importantly John Keating. All of you would have hated AI

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Meeks would unironically do this thinking its rizz

idk if this counts as evidence but

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Incredibly hilarious to me when I see people quote things from TSH and attribute them to Donna Tartt. It is true, she wrote those words, but it just gets me when I see some crazy shit one of the members said presented in that way. Like: ‘’I prefer to think of it as redistribution of matter.’ -Donna Tartt’

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rip bunny you would have loved those brainrot veiny dih jokes

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My headcannon for Henry Winter (The Secret History) is that if he listened to some tecno music he'd be amazed like a victorian child and he wouln't want to do a bacchanal anymore, just go to raves.

I think he would find that type of music primal and wild and would like it like some type of guilty pleasure.

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this is what it means to be human

Everything, Mary Oliver

The Breathing, Denise Levertov

A Prayer by Antoine de Saint-Exupéry

The Laughing Heart by Charles Bukowski

Like a Small Café, That’s Love by Mahmoud Darwish (translated by Mohammad Shaheen)

Having a Coke with You by Frank O’Hara

Eating Together by Li-Young Lee

The Orange by Wendy Cope

The Quiet Machine, Ada Limón

To Go Mad, Paruyr Sevak

Our Beautiful Life When It’s Filled with Shrieks by Christopher Citro

Hammond B3 Organ Cistern, Gabrielle Calvocoressi

Peace XVIII, Khalil Gibran

Your Unripe Love, Paruyr Sevak (from “Anthology of Armenian poetry")

Here and Now by Peter Balakian

Ich finde dich (I find you) by Rainer Maria Rilke

The Thing Is by Ellen Bass

One Art by Elizabeth Bishop

Miss you. Would like to take a walk with you. by Gabrielle Calvocoressi

I Want to Write Something So Simply by Mary Oliver

What's Not to Love by Brendan Constantine

Where does such tenderness come from? by Marina Tsvetaeva

You Are Tired (I Think) by E. E. Cummings

Living With the News by W.S.Merwin

What the Living Do by Marie Howe

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finished the secret history today, i literally felt like i got shot while reading the epilogue, i swearrr. ending the book was so mindblowing

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ill be trying to journal about my day as if i was writing a book, that sounds so fun istg

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I WILL NOT LET YOU FORGET ABOUT THIS FABOLOUS THING

Neil Perry definitely did it his way.

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How can we go back to being friends When we just killed our mate?

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aww, thank you!! thats so sweet of you for inviting me to this whole sweet thing❤️😭

1. favourite color: cherry red and burgundy, all shades of blue (my heart holds a special place for navy blue!) and deep green.

2. last song: (do you mean the one i recently listenned to?): Illusione Perfetta

3. currently reading: The Secret History, Mr. Norrel, The Iliad and Quo Vadis (Polish book about the roman times and the christianization of Rome - national treasure accompanied by Pan Tadeusz ❤️).

4. currently watching: House M.D, 1670 (polish series - very fun lol. Takes place in the titular 1670 with licks of modern opinions), that one Sherlock Holmes series on Netflix.

5. currently craving: (physically): coffee, steak, chocolate and a marmolade sandwich, (mentally) a great place to rest and think, meet up with my dear best friend or grandma, new book (strictly Kafka's).

6. coffee or tea: cooooffee ☕❤️

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1. Favourite colour: don't have one, but I hate all the warm colours.

2. Last Song : power trip by LEAP

3. Currently reading : picked up Hamlet a few days ago, still waiting on Katabasis

4. Currently watching: my comfort show modern family

5. Craving: Biryani. with raita. And chutney.

6. Coffee or Tea : coffee definitely

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I'm at the 530 page of The Secret History and I feel for Richard so deeply, because I was also once in a similiar situation he got in - not literal murders, crimes and alcohol, but it has also changed my life in a significantly horrible way. 3 years ago I have dropped my friends and became friends-for-life with this one girl - I (like Richard) have fallen for the aesthetics of being friends with her as well. Makeup, ”Bestie Sleepovers” with face masks, selfies and long Netflix-sessions at her modern, and as fabolous as she was, home. Her previous friend with diabetics and a crazy mom has been abandoned and we have gossiped about her a lot, it may even count as bullying - even tho I wasn't as involved in it as the ’queen’ herself; she moved schools. Sometimes I still feel the bitter taste of the first-ever realisation that I've ruined her life. It wasn't until like a year or two have passed and the rose colored glasses have fallen and shattered with a loud noise - she was well, a bitch. She was mean, manipulative, and very self-centered. Suddenly the ’aesthetics’ of our friendship that was once the most exciting aspect in my bland and boring life has been degraded to something as meaningless as the left wrapper of an already eaten chocolate bar. And what was I left with? My dearest childhood friend that used to be my best friend for life has moved schools, my friendship with my another childhood friend has well, got a bit lost in the sea and waves of the fabulous and glamorous ’Regina George’ of my life. And all of it just for the mere aesthetics of the stereotypical normal girlhood I have always craved for, just as Richard who has been craving for the esoteric..

This was a bit of a rant but now the stone that was laying on my heart has lightly decreased in size. If you've read this, thank you - and I hope you never find yourself in a situation like me. I have made up with my previous child hood best friend who has moved schools this year, improved my relationship with the other friend I had and got treated by the ’princess’ like the girl we bullied together got; switched, left, abandoned. But at least I still have one or two people to talk to, and she didn't.. I apologized many times and I hope she's now happy and met many other, better people.