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me: let's draw a man!

the man: bucky barnes

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pov: you’re being judged by the court of bisexuals

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“On top of this conflict [Steve Rogers v Tony Stark], Captain America: Civil War follows a second plotline: the return of the Winter Soldier. “For the most part, the other Avengers immediately start to chase him, while Captain America only tries to intercept him. All this runs in parallel to the development of the dispute over the Sokovia Accords,” Evans explains. […] On the loyalty that binds Steve to the Winter Soldier, a key theme throughout the Captain America trilogy, Evans says, “Bucky is Steve’s best friend. He’s been his best friend since the beginning. I don’t think Steve was popular in school and in his group of friends, so Bucky was the only one who was always on his side, [who was] supporting him. And even now Steve considers him a loyal friend. I’m sure that Steve feels guilty for what happened to Bucky, but their tragedies in the end have done nothing but bringing them closer.”

— Chris Evans, Men’s Health Italy, April 2016 issue. (via uncensoredsideblog)

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The thing about Captain America: Civil War is that it's part of a trilogy about one specific man named Steve Rogers. Therefore it is supposed to be about Steve Rogers and primarily from his perspective.

It's the episode right after CATWS, and the story is supposed to directly tie in with the events of CATWS. It's hilarious (= enraging) how people just seem to conveniently overlook that little detail while talking about (or rather, shitting on) Steve's decisions and actions.

When you see him argue against the accords, you're supposed to actually remember that the government was infiltrated in the previous Cap movie and it was only two years ago. And that Steve was right in the middle of the fray.

When you see him trying to save the other supersoldiers, you're supposed to correlate that to him discovering the Winter Soldier and as shown in the last scene of CATWS, finding out everything Hydra did to Bucky.

When Steve says "He's my friend," you're supposed to remember Bucky falling from the train in CATFA, and 2014!Steve saying "even when I had nothing, I had Bucky." And you're supposed to empathise with the scrawny kid from Brooklyn who had no one but James Bucky Barnes in his corner. You're supposed to remember that Bucky would, and did follow this scrawny kid into the jaw of death.

Every single thing he does/says has a background in the previous two movies.

Now you might say "yeah but so does Tony-" yeah and tell me something, is it called "Iron Man: Civil War"? Or "Avengers: Civil War"?

Saying Steve's the bad guy in his own fucking movie is you completely missing the entire point of all three of the movies with him in the title.

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When Bucky hugged Steve for the first time since he got the serum, they were alone in a tent. They had just got back to the base camp after their miles long walk back from the hydra base and they were both exhausted.

Steve is situating himself around the very nice, fancy tent that he insisted on sharing and Bucky hasn't taken his eyes off him since he saw him from the table he was strapped onto. Steve. Little Steve. Steve who got sick every winter and who's asthma played up every summer. Steve who had been 5'4 and had remained as such since he was 14. Steve who got into too many fights and never won but not once for lack of passion.

Bucky has to say something, because he hasn't been saying anything since escaping the base and now he feels like he's about to boil over. "Steve"

The same big blue eyes he's always known greeted him and were quick to lace with concern. "You okay, Buck?"

And generally speaking no, Bucky was not okay, he'd been experimented on, he'd been taken by the enemy and strapped down to a goddamn table and he couldn't even remember half of what they did to him there.

For all Bucky knows he could drop dead at any moment but he isn't thinking about that, because he's thinking about how Steve is here, in front of him, all 6'2 of him. He's thinking about how the breath exiting his mouth doesn't follow with wheezing, or how he can take the full rib expanding breaths when he needs it without coughing until there are tears forcing themselves out of his eyes.

Bucky steps forward, his hand gently presses against the expanse of Steve's chest. He stops himself from gawking considering the fact you could park an eighteen wheeler on this thing, he even opens his mouth to say just that but then he feels Steve's heart beat, steady and pumping under his palm.

It's only slight considering the amount of muscle and thick bone in the way but he can feel it all the same and it's not stuttering and irregular. It's pumping blood, lots of blood wherever Steve needs it, constantly and in all the right places instead of spending most of its time in the lowest point of the body.

If Steve were to get sick this heart would help him get better instead of having to fight to keep itself working, and his new lungs might get congested but they wouldn't spasm every time he needed a breath of fresh air. Steve won't be laying in bed all winter sick and out of his mind with any and every illness that has always loved making his life a living hell.

Steve is healthy.

And suddenly feeling overwhelmed, Bucky clears his throat and blinks away any escaped liquid from his eyes, which are very pointedly looking towards his hand. Because if he looks up at Steve and sees those blue eyes all concerned, seeing right through him like they always do, he really will loose it.

"You're okay.." He mumbles mostly to himself.

It comes off as a statement more than anything and a chocked out one at that but Steve knows, because he always knows what Bucky is trying to get at. He places his hand over Bucky's wrist and just holds him, his hand is steady and must be magical because Bucky grows calm at the touch.

"I'm okay."

Feeling himself falter at the affirmation, he leans in, arms wrapping around the waist he could once circle completely with one arm. But he almost backs out as quickly as he started it, the foreign body giving the wrong signals, like hugging a coworker or a distant relative you see once a decade.

But taking a deep breath to centre himself, Steve smelled like he always did, plus the scent of cheap soap hardly lingering, faded from the long day they both just had.

And when he ran his hands over his back he could feel the familiar humps of his spine and count them all the same. Even Steve's hands find the same spot on Bucky's back as they always used to, where his ribs end and his back start to dip in at the start of his waist.

Bucky can still reach the hair at the base of Steve's head and run his fingers through it like he used to see Steve's ma do when they were young.

Now Steve sighs into the hug and Bucky squeezes tighter since he knows he won't be doing any damage. They stay like that for a long time in their own personal world, the centre of their own solar system, everything else moving around them, floating within their orbit.

When they pull back, Bucky's hands linger on Steve's waist for longer then they should and when he looks up Steve's eyes are so full of admiration but his nose and eyebrows are scrunched up like he's got something to say.

Bucky takes his hands back to his sides. "what?"

"We aren't going to leave each other again, okay?" He says it so sure, like they aren't going to be in the heat of battle every other day but Bucky wants it just as bad as he does so he nods and smiles.

"You're stuck with me pal, I'm not going anywhere"

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fuuuck *bites lip violently*

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Is summer here yet? BD

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mcu releasing cacw like: “sorry mackie ur character who is actually a crucial part of the cap storyline historically can’t get any significant screentime in cap 3 yeah we know it’s the final movie sorry we had to have an endless fucking montage of maria stark trauma porn bc it actually wasn’t already clear tony was emotionally unstable and had mommy and daddy issues followed by the wandavision cooking special for,,,,,, reasons,,,,,,,,,,,, and oh yeah did we forget to mention this is actually another avengers movie and the first spiderman??? best we can do is a scene where sam’s mean to bucky lol …… what about steve rogers??? wait whos that uhhhh is he even in this script?”

(it’s bc they didn’t care about developing sam at all until he was their “only” option for cap and could safely not be shipped with steve if they ever actually interacted wait what huh who said that)

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Long Hair Stevie

I prefer her with short hair but long haired Stevie has really been scratching an itch...

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Transfem Captain America headcanon (cont.)

a continuation of my last posts here and here, drawn up ☆ I really really like the idea of her being gnc as well.

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The Night Out

or "my excuse to draw them in fancy clothes"

Also, no one ever talks about this, but it's my personal headcanon that the whole super soldier serum process would have given her wicked stretch marks. Like, rapid growth is the one thing that would definitely make them, right?

(ps, I'm probably gonna start tagging all my trans captain america stuff, so look out for that ^^)

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sleeping positions that fuck up your spine feel so good for no reason it’s literally the devil’s deepest temptation

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is this how anthony mackie and sebastian stan pitched their marvel show to marvel hq

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how are you reblogging from deactivated blogs girl

dude how did i not see this until now i’m so sorry but uhhhhhhhh but i think it’s always let u do that u can’t see the blogs anymore but the posts live on tumblr forever as long as they’re on someone else’s blog unless u mean how am i reblogging stuff to my own blogs that are deactivated in which case huh??? bc i haven’t deactivated any of my sb yet so that would be super weird

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the funny thing about the steve x bucky ending is that everyone was like “ah boo hoo ur just mad ur stupid little gay ship isn’t canon” as if what steve did wasn’t terrible & shitty through the lens of, you know, friendship 

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you ever think about the fact that earlier drafts of serpent society/sputnik were gonna address buckys entire time away from steve and then contrast that with their reunion and also focus on the memory wiping machine’s “mind crown” which was gonna parallel namor’s serpent crown and thus perfectly tie together the literal/mythrical and modernized mcu hydra elements alongside bucky’s past and then the russos just said “that’s too hard” and made up some random fucking triggers words that they could later DELETE??? as if that makes any sense, thats how conditioning works, that’s how the brain works, or that’s how trauma works