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still can't believe that Jesper, who frequently forgets things he did and said, was able to remember every freckle, every eyelash, every slight curve of Wylan's face, and the exact color of his eyes, so vividly enough that he could recount it to another person even though he had only known that face for a few days, and been apart from it for about two weeks. One of the most beautifully romantic things in the entire Grishaverse and to be frank we have yet to give it its flowers

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hc that kaz in an attempt to make the crows visit him more often without sounding clingy spreads rumors about himself like "omg did u hear the bastard of the barrel got mugged on the streets word is hes rly banged up rn girl" and wylan and jesper just comes over like

"kaz if you wanted us to visit you could've just asked" but ofc kaz downplays it everytime lmao

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dyslexic wylan is very important to me.

every time there's an author who lets him uses text to speech in their moden!au fics, an angel grows a pair of wings or however the saying goes

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A couple that steals shots together…

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Is it a controversial take to say that Jesper Fahey is one of the best representations of depression SPECIFICALLY in parentless/adhd teens from the past decade or is that too strong

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i miss him (derogatory)

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i think about this daily

can we talk about the fact that Jesper Fahey was about to be captured by the Kherguud, knowing that they’d take him to Shu Han and force him to take parem and use him as a slave until he inevitably died and his first thought was “At least I’ll never be able to disappoint anyone ever again.”

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today i learned that the williams board told alex that they couldn’t take into account the opinions of george during his contract negations because george was almost “too supportive”

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the jesper and inej siblingism >>> 😭🥹

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most of the kuwei hate in this fandom is absolutely racially motivated and most of it is probably subconscious but i NEED to talk about this.

and not because i think people r thinking "i hate kuwei!! he's asian and i hate asians!!" tbh most anti asian racism on the internet goes way deeper than that.

basically, what i believe to be the most prominent type of racism against asians, especially on the internet, is stereotyping. specifically "uwu-ification." the east asian entertainment industry likes to paint asian people as cute, submissive and sweet because it markets disturbingly well to american audiences, and whether people mean to or not, they internalize it and it affects the way they think of asian people as a whole. This mostly happens to east and southeast asian women, but definitely a lot with men too, especially in more recent years with the whole yaoi culture thing (i fucking hated typing that) becoming more popular. simply put, it's fetishization.

so how does this relate to kuwei? well, when kuwei is introduced to us, and im not gonna dance around it— he is pretty stereotypically asian. he's shy, innocent, small, good at math/science and— you guessed it— no speaka engrish. leigh bardugo lays the perfect trap for fandom white girl weeaboos to gush over this guy. once i came across a modern au where kuwei's whole northern chinese-mongolian ass is a "shy japanese transfer student." i really wish i was making this up.

but then we find out that kuwei is actually a conniving little shit who is really quite terrible at science and spends all day making shitty drawings of his crush instead of doing math or wtv. The turning point where we are told this is the jesper kiss. This is the point where we find out kuwei is not the yaoi uwu baby we thought he was. and how does fuckin 2/3 of the fandom react?? hate. instant hate. If you search "i hate kuwei" on twitter there are tweets both defending and attacking him, but there is significantly more of the latter.

most of them claim to hate him for kissing jesper but like... jesper kissed him. He doesn't say anything because, in his own words, "we're all probably going to die anyway." does no one see how tragic that is?? he let his first (probably) kiss be taken by someone who he knew didn't even like him because he thought it would be the only one he'd ever get.

and yet the only thing people see is that he "got in the way" of wesper and he's evil. throughout the series kuwei is given no agency, and that's the point of his character. everyone on the planet treats him as a weapon or a bargaining chip. he gets tossed around like a rag doll and to white (or otherwise not asian) audiences, that makes him the perfect picture of a little asian cutie i almost vomited typing that holy shit. but the moments where he takes something for himself— insisting on going to ravka, kissing jesper back— that's what makes people hate him. and don't even get me started on the way people project their hatred onto the other crows, especially wylan. yall will act like wylan loathes kuwei with all his being. he doesn't!! wylan is not a hateful person and he always defends kuwei!! but nooo, kuwei sucks and he deserves it for daring to be a person instead of an idea.

and hey?? guess what?? kuwei was NEVER in the way of wesper. there was no love triangle. narratively speaking, there was never any threat that kuwei would end up with jesper instead of wylan. never ever. the kiss was literally only put there to create drama for wylan and jesper. we never even hear how kuwei feels about it. stop using that as an excuse to hate on kuwei when we can all see it's because you're subconsciously mad at an asian person not being nice.

also disliking kuwei does not automatically make you racist, im just saying a lot of hatred towards kuwei is rooted in racism.

tagging my fellow aapi moots (that i know of) because i wanna hear yalls thoughts on this! @hauntedacousticversiontv @dramaqueentruther

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really random but my new favourite fun fact about me is that i've seen freddy carter jaywalking with my own two eyes

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inej would 100% be the one to propose to kaz. especially after having every life altering decision torn from her hands from the age of 14, after having corrupt men’s false notions of love forced onto her.

and kaz would have deserved to be proposed to, to be offered a real promise of safety and love and a person to run home to. to have it not be a hoax or a selfish con.

inej would use a ring that perfectly matched the crow’s head on kaz’s cane. fabrikated by the one and only jesper fahey.

inej would have rooted out the sleight of hand required to perform the trick of a ring appearing seemingly out of nowhere. she spent every minute of questioning and practicing and deceiving her own eyes in the mirror thinking of how kaz would’ve had to do this as a boy.

when it was time, inej would ask kaz if he fancied a magic trick. she’d do the trick and hold the ring out and offer a steady hand of truth with it. no con, not this time, not ever.

and for the first time since kaz was a boy, he would’ve felt captivated by the magic. the curiosity, the enthrallment, the itch to make the magic his own.

but the magic wasn’t in the trick. rather, it was in the girl before him. all infatuated brown eyes and warmth. all goodness and hope.

and so kaz let’s himself say yes, he lets himself feel like magic is more than deception.

and jesper? well jesper would take more than a firm glare from kaz to stop boasting to everyone they knew about how he fabrikated the ring.

inej would roll her eyes fondly, and kaz would never let him know that he’d never felt more like a brother to him.

and when he asks jesper to be his best man, he all but blows the roof off the slat.

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JACK WOLFE'S PLAYING ORPHEUS IN HADESTOWN BROADWAY!?

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“The mind tends to repress troubling memories.”

Her daughter was only ever a replacement for her son. If Gabe hadn’t died, Natalie wouldn’t of been born. Diana forgot her daughter because she’s a reminder that her son is dead.

Natalie’s existence is as troubling as his death, that’s why she forgot she had a daughter

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obsessed with caissie as ever 🎀

and there was distant music simple and somehow sublime giving the nation a new syncopation the people called it ragtime

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If you ever feel like you’ve made bad decisions just remember that somewhere out there is a theatre director at an all-white high school about to choose the spring musical

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ASOCAS4 wesper panel. The question to Jack and Kit was what other sort of roles they would like to see the other in.

Kit went on this very sweet little spiel about how he can immediately think of things that Jack would excel in, but “he’ll get all those in the next six months” and wanted to think of something that’d be challenging but fun. Eventually he said he’d like to see Jack in a Mission Impossible type movie, jumping out of planes and such.

Jack paused a moment, looked at Kit, and said, “I think I’d like to see you in Cats.”