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Not a monster: Prologue

Esmerelda's POV:

Journal Entry 1:

My dad told me that it would be a good idea to start keeping a journal of my thoughts as a way of release, so here we go.

Throughout my life, I had proven time and time again that I never belonged with others. I had powers, others did not. I was HYDRA, others were not. HYDRA played - and still plays - an important role in my life, despite my (adoptive) dad's involvement in S.H.I.E.L.D. HYDRA is the reason I am who I am today... they are the ones who took my life and turned it into their own little puppet show before they got tired of me and abandoned me on the busy winter streets of New York.

No one wanted to help out a poor, abandoned, little girl back then, but dad did. He found me huddled in a little ally and took me to a hospital, trying to help trace back my origins. According to the doctors, it was as if I had just appeared from nowhere. They could not find a thing about my parents; their names, their whereabouts... I was a nobody. A nobody who would develop powers, most likely the results from tests HYDRA performed on me that revealed themselves only years afterward. A nobody who would grow up to become almost as of high intelligence as Tony Stark, except in the medical field. 

Dad tried to help me get the most normal childhood he could possibly give me. He let me live my life on my own terms, with some conditions. I lived out my high school career trying to get away from the stereotype I had made of myself... the nerd. I joined a band and became their lead singer, but we have not been able to perform as much after college since we are all out living our lives. We do come together to perform at bars on weekends though if we have the time.

One of my most prominent memories was having to wait in anticipation whenever dad was out on missions because I was always scared he would one day never make it home. That was how I would end up with Tony. He was an old friend of dad's, and even though the two never get along anymore, dad thought it would be a good idea for me to have someone to look up to, someone to keep me safe when he couldn't.

When I was a kid, it was still a dangerous world. Hell, it still is. Dad knew what would happen if he left me alone - either HYDRA or other enemies of S.H.I.E.L.D could come for me. I spent time in Tony's lab whenever dad was on missions, and we soon grew a tight bond. It was deeper than just both of us having high intelligence. We both had parents we lost, and were orphans to some extent. He shared my love for science, and he became like a brother to me, despite being old enough to be my dad.

Dad's boss, Nick, had often tried to recruit me for a little idea he had, something about being the world's greatest heroes. I never really took an interest, I was more of the guy in the van. I knew he only wanted me in because of my powers, and that was another reason why I would always turn him down. I am more than just my powers, I am fearless, proud, cunning. I can make it on my own, I don't need help.

End entry.

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Boys 👏 can 👏 be 👏 demisexual 👏

Rb if you agree

boys 👏 can 👏 be 👏 asexual👏

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BLACK LIVES MATTER. If you say all lives matter but then only say blue lives matter, fuck you, you racist

Reblog if Black Lives Matter to you

Where are those woke white people at!?

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Christmas is basically like you going all out for your best friend's birthday except this time everyone gives and gets presents, there's music, and a tree that will become a fire hazard after a day

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*popping knuckles constantly* sorry, what?

Meirl

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I'm not that surprised, you are what you eat.

So this was fun and actually pretty accurate? I got “Casually feminine”

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I want your source. Daaamn

I want Your SKIN

wtf?!?!?

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And with this in mind, this is the only way Donald Trump can ever be a true American.

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LET'S TURN AMERICA BLUE!!!

THIS RIGHT HERE

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Please remember ❤️

100 Reasons NOT To Kill Yourself

1. We would miss you. 2. It’s not worth the regret. Either by yourself if you failed or just simply left scars, or the regret everyone else feels by not doing enough to help you. 3. It does get better. Believe it or not it will eventually get better. Sometimes you have to go through the storm to get to the rainbow. 4. There’s so much you would miss out on doing. 5. There is always a reason to live. It might not be clear right now, but it is always there. 6. So many people care, and it would hurt them if you hurt yourself. 7. You ARE worth it. Don’t let anyone, especially yourself, tell you otherwise. 8. You are amazing. 9. A time will come, once you’ve battled the toughest times of your life and are in ease once again, where you will be so glad that you decided to keep on living. You will emerge stronger from this all, and won’t regret your choice to carry on with life. Because things always get better. 10. What about all the things you’ve always wanted to do? What about the things you’ve planned, but never got around to doing? You can’t do them when you’re dead. 11. I love you. Even if only one person loves you, that’s still a reason to stay alive. 12. You won’t be able to listen to music if you die. 13. Killing yourself is never worth it. You’ll hurt both yourself and all the people you care about. 14. There are so many people that would miss you, including me. 15. You’re preventing a future generation, YOUR KIDS, from even being born. 16. How do you think your family would feel? Would it improve their lives if you died? 17. You’re gorgeous, amazing, and to someone you are perfect. 18. Think about your favourite music artist, you’ll never hear their voice again… 19. You’ll never have the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day 20. Listening to incredibly loud music 21. Being alive is just really good. 22. Not being alive is really bad. 23. Finding your soulmate. 24. Red pandas 25. Going to diners at three in the morning. 26. Really soft pillows. 27. Eating pizza in New York City. 28. Proving people wrong with your success. 29. Watching the jerks that doubted you fail at life. 30. Seeing someone trip over a garbage can. 31. Being able to help other people. 32. Bonfires. 33. Sitting on rooftops. 34. Seeing every single country in the world. 35. Going on roadtrips. 36. You might win the lottery someday. 37. Listening to music on a record player. 38. Going to the top of the Eiffel Tower. 39. Taking really cool pictures. 40. Literally meeting thousands of new people. 41. Hearing crazy stories. 42. Telling crazy stories. 43. Eating ice cream on a hot day. 44. More Harry Potter books could come out, you never know. 45. Travelling to another planet someday. 46. Having an underwater house. 47. Randomly running into your hero on the street. 48. Having your own room at a fancy hotel. 49. Trampolines. 50. Think about your favourite movie, you’ll never watch it again. 51. Think about the feeling of laughing out loud in a public place because your best friend has just sent you an inside joke, 52. Your survival will make the world better, even if it’s for just one person or 20 or 100 or more. 53. People do care. 54. Treehouses 55. Hanging out with your soul mate in a treehouse 55. Snorting when you laugh and not caring who sees 56. I don’t even know you and I love you. 57. I don’t even know you and I care about you. 58. Because nobody is going to be like you ever, so embrace your uniqueness! 59. You won’t be here to experience the first cat world emperor. 60. WHAT ABOUT FOOD?! YOU’LL MISS CHOCOLATE AND ALL THE OTHER NOM THINGS! 61. Starbucks. 62. Hugs. 63. Stargazing. 64. You have a purpose, and it’s up to you to find out what it is. 65. You’ve changed somebody’s life. 66. Now you could change the world. 67. You will meet the person that’s perfect for you. 68. No matter how much or how little, you have your life ahead of you. 69. You have the chance to save somebody’s life. 70. If you end your life, you’re stopping yourself from achieving great things. 71. Making snow angels. 72. Making snowmen. 73. Snowball fights. 74. Life is what you make of it. 75. Everybody has a talent. 76. Laughing until you cry. 77. Having the ability to be sad means you have the ability to be happy. 78. The world would not be the same if you didn’t exist. 79. Its possible to turn frowns, upside down 80. Be yourself, don’t take anyone’s shit, and never let them take you alive. 81. Heroes are ordinary people who make themselves extraordinary. Be your own hero. 82. Being happy doesn’t mean that everything is perfect. It means that you’ve decided to look beyond the imperfections. 83. One day your smile will be real. 84. Having a really hot, relaxing bath after a stressful day. 85. Lying on grass and laughing at the clouds. 86. Getting completely smashed with your best friends. 87. Eating crazy food. 88. Staying up all night watching your favourite films with a loved one. 89. Sleeping in all day. 90. Creating something you’re proud of. 91. You can look back on yourself 70 years later and being proud you didn’t commit 92. Being able to meet your Internet friends. 93. Tea / Coffee / Hot Chocolate 94. Sherlock season three. 95. Cuddling under the stars. 96. Being stupid in public because you just can. 97. If you are reading this then you are alive! Is there any more reason to smile? 98. being able to hug that one person you havent seen in years 99. People care enough about you and your future to come up with 100 reasons for you not to do this. 100. But, the final and most important one is, just, being able to experience life. Because even if your life doesn’t seem so great right now, literally anything could happen

IF that isn’t enough:

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Heck yeah, let's punch those racist homophobes. Punch punch mother fucker!

it's 2022. donald trump has died in disgrace days after being impeached and jailed. my chemical romance's new album is coming out the same day as the new spiderverse movie. the lizzo and janelle monaé collab song is blowing up the radio. lil nas x has a verse in it. you and your partner have time and energy for dates after work after jeff bezos' assets have been seized and distributed to the public in the wake of his arrest for keeping employees in unsafe working conditions.

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This is a POV I wanted to do for my Japanese side:

Un-American

My own blood is now my enemy. It did not matter I moved here before I could even jump rope. Nevermind I moved here when I was three. I am still seen as the enemy, as other. Never would I imagine that my life, so carefree and happy, would be overshadowed by the fear of "real Americans".

December 7th, 1941 - coincidentally, my birthday. Instead of playing with my friends in the neighborhood or going to school, I am sent to an internment camp, because I, at 8 years old, could be a spy. I am feared by those who do not look like me, and the only thing I fear is the unknown. For me, the unknown is everything I will come to know in the next four years. The blood I share with my dad is ignored, and all they see is my mom's. Instead of Japanese-American, all they see is "traitor", "possible murderer" and, worst of all, "un-American".

The place I call home has now turned against me. It hurts me to know that the only place I can really call home now is across the ocean, and even they may not want me because I am "American".

What pains me most is my brothers. They were born here, on American soil, but they were sent with my mom and I. They're four and six years younger than me, and do not understand what is really happening.

I watch a little boy, no older than my younger brother and no younger than me get killed by an American soldier for get too close to the barbed wire. A grown man, scared of a little boy who did not even understand why wire was there. A little boy, who doesn't understand the words "Get back! I'll shoot!"

I have no home anymore. I will never know that black people fighting for their own rights, are also fighting for my freedom because they understand captivity. I will never see my father again. I will never see the inside of my school or live my life because one year later, my fate will be the same as that little boy. The fear in my appearance, in the end, was my downfall.

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It took me all I had NOT to throw something at the TV when he was talking.

Trump said he's the least racist person in that room!

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To be honest, it's not going to be hard to cancel him... he's always looked like a baby that's eaten a sour grape, except ugly. And that's not even bringing his personality to play.

If you like Chris Pratt and want to defend him, that’s your decision. But friendly reminder:

Brie Larson was boycotted, had her movie Captain Marvel review-bombed, had thousands of hate Youtube videos made about her, had death and rape threats, and been compared to Hilter, for almost 2 years for her opinions of diversity.

Natalie Portman was blamed for Thor 2 flopping and attacked for playing the next Thor in Love and Thunder. 

Elizabeth Olsen was bullied out of Instagram for not speaking about Chadwick Boseman’s death soon enough. 

Don Cheadle is hated for his liberal opinions. And he, Idris Elba, Zendaya Coleman, Tessa Thompson, Anthony Mackie and the cast of Black Panther had racist hate for playing black superheroes.

Comcisgaters and “anti-woke” people rioted against the idea of an Ironheart Disney Plus show to a point they made a rumor that black people harassed Lexi Rabe believing she would be MCU’s Ironheart when it was really about white people bothering her for signing autographs. And plan to attack whatever child actor who will play Riri Williams.

John Boyega, though not Marvel, has been getting death threats for playing the first black lead in Star Wars and accused of getting in between the Reylo ship, accused of being sexist by white women for making a sex joke about Rey, and called out for Disney’s racism.

Chris Pratt getting defended over a Twitter joke but the people I’ve listed above didn’t get as much of the help from big white male stars when they were harassed for real.   

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You might say burning and looting is unpatriotic. And sure, it does not get people listen, but do realize that OUR COUNTRY WAS LITERALLY FOUNDED ON POURING HOT TAR ON THE BRITISH AND THEN PUTTING FEATHERS ON THEM FOR DOING THEIR JOB LIKE WHAT-

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TrUmP iSn'T a FaScIsT!!!