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i'm finally listening to a band i used to love. I stopped listening to it because of who the band reminded me of and made my heart hurt just a bit. I don't think I'll stop thinking of him when I listen to the band any time soon, it's already been 8 years the memories haven't faded yet. It's funny because i never actually started a relationship with him, but somehow this makes feelings stronger? the what if of it all, even if i know deep inside that it wouldn't have ended well. All this to say that I am mazed at the connections that we make between the people we love and the things they love and at some point that thing will continue to remind us of them after they have left our lives. I'm finally listening to the band again and somehow are now okay with the fact that it reminds me of him. And it reminds me of some of the little things about them that I have decided are worth remembering.

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Happy birthday to AO3 🎂🎉

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things I wish I’d known when I started writing fic on ao3

use & for friendships, colleagues, familial relationships and use / for romantic or sexual relationships (or encounters)

not everyone reads fic. Lots of people use screen readers, and screen readers can’t see what’s on images. use descriptive text to help them out.

lots of people download fic to read on other devices, not all downloads capture images too.

there’s a big difference between No Archive Warnings Apply (NAWA) and Author Chose Not to Use Archive Warnings (CNTW). NAWA means that there’s nothing in the fic that needs to be warned for using the official Archive Warning system. CNTW means there might be something that requires a warning and the author is either avoiding giving out spoilers or they are unsure how to interpret their plot point with respect to the official Warnings. (in both cases, additional tags are where it’s at - you can explain yourself there) 

the reason why the number of bookmarks in the fic is different from the number of bookmarks on your stats page is because your stats page number includes bookmarks that are hidden

there’s a preference setting where you can receive emails with your own comments/replies.

there’s a site skin that hides stats so you don’t have to see them

writing in rich text format makes my life easier

knowing html allows me to do fun things in the comments section like comment/reply with reaction gifs

knowing html also allows me to do interesting formatting in my fics that I can’t do with rich text alone

those little blue bubbles with the question marks in them will answer my questions a lot of the time - and also teach me something new

the FAQ is linked under the word About in the header

if you write your fic in the draft window, you might end up losing it so make sure you copy the text before you hit Post, just in case

they aren’t kidding when they say drafts are deleted after 30 days

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all this ao3 discourse is reminding me of a few things

that a month or so ago i was "exposed as a groomer", why? on a mutual's post that quoted chris evans call the people aggressively opposing the queer rep in lightyear "idiots" someone reacted really angrilly and stated that this was their last straw and they could no longer support him. i pointed their account out in the replies so other people could block them like i had. they took a screenshot of my blog and posted it stating i was a groomer/supported grooming bc i supported queer rep in a kids movie

being very newly out to myself over a decade ago, and reading youtube comments from people claiming that gay people were doing unimaginable shit around children and saying that it was just part of our nature and we were dangerous predators

the first queer book i ever read was Annie on My Mind, a sweet story about two young girls who fall in love, it was the first YA book that portrayed queer characters positively and that is one of the most challenged books in U.S. history (being actually burned at least once), one case even making it to federal court

homophobes think children being aware that queer people exist at all is inherently predatory and that we're all groomers, look more recently at the right wing response to drag queen story hour and the repugnant things said

queer content is not safe, they will come for it under the guise of "protecting the children" and you all need to understand that, this isn't paranoia, this is our reality

as Rabbi Steven Greenberg, an openly gay orthodox rabbi and major advocate for LGBT+ acceptance in the Jewish community says in “Wrestling with G-d and Men: Homosexuality in the Jewish Tradition”,

“Gay sex life, unlike straight sex life, is never a private matter. When a man and a woman walk hand in hand, it is their love that they make public. When two men walk hand in hand, it is their sex life that they make public… Our words are acts; our privacy is public. This reality stems from the nature of homophobia.”

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Censorship will not solve a single problem. Putting ban and restrictions on AO3 will drive creators away. You won’t be making your platform look appealing to outsiders. You’re destroying your own platform by driving the majority of your creators away.

The exact same thing happened to fanfiction.net and Tumblr. So many people quit. AO3 is one of the very few platforms creators have.

Censorship does not solve any problem. It does harm to creators.

If you can vote, vote against Tiffany G.

Liking this doesn’t help either. Reblog so more people can see

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“Tiffany G also mentioned that they work in a governmental organisation in China. Just consider why a pro-censorship, fandom newbie(Tiffany said it themself), and government staff wants to run for the election of an organisation that is holistically against their agenda. In my personal worst imagination, once they got the seat, they will immediately pack all the information of Chinese users in AO3 and report them to the Government. The consequence will be horrible.” — A Chinese Ao3 User

go read their full post! don’t fall for Tiffany G’s propaganda filled interviews! this person is fucking dangerous and could endanger other people’s lives in china in addition to endangering the integrity of Ao3.

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I watched the second season of Birdigerton and have been reading some fanfic Kate x Anthony fanfic. And now my school assignments are started to sound like I live in the Regency era.

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Hunger Games- Mockingjay

I've been thinking about the series as a whole lately and I've remembered that I was kinda upset about how people blamed Gale for Prim's death. Like I get that he had the idea but didn't Beetee help him develop the idea (and I'm not saying that Beetee is responsible, because he is not, but like clearly people can acknowledge that creators can't always control their ideas once they are out there). Also Gale was a soldier, not really a leader or someone with power and influence to authorize a bombing. The decision of the bombing was never his, it's the decision of a high-ranking military official or the president. A decision that was probably taken by Coin to have Katniss debilitated and/or blinded by grief, so that she would blindly follow Coin or at the very least not challenge her. If the decision had ever been up to Gale, he would have not let it happen, he knew that Prim and her mom were part of the paramedic unit and would not have put them in danger. He cared for them as his family, maybe at some point he only helped them because he was friends with Katniss, but after so much time together he surely saw them as family. He did not take care of Prim and her mom while Katniss was in the games for people to blame him for Prim's death. He did not save them and many others when the Capitol bombed 12 for people to accuse him of murdering Prim. I saw a post about how Gale was selfish by asking whether it mattered if it was his bomb when Katniss asked. But like legitimately any another military tactic person could have come up with the idea. And I think he might have said that more because even Katniss would always link the bombing to him because he spoke about. Like if he said no, there was no way for him to prove that. Also can we think about how Gale must have felt? He saw Prim as family, he probably felt horrible, guilty, anger, and a bunch of other things because she was also important to him. He periodically helped and saved Prim.

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dear white male writers: DO NOT DO THIS

These horrific, sexist, racist paragraphs - screenshotted and shared for posterity by James Smythe, to whom we are all indebted - are the work of one Liam O’Flynn, a writer and English teacher. Evidently, they come from his book Writing With Stardust: the Ultimate Descriptive Guide for students, parents, teachers, and lovers of English, and are intended as examples of good writing.

UM.

Dear white male writers: DO NOT DO THIS SHIT. IT IS SUPER GROSS AND FETISHISTIC AND ALSO TERRIBLE WRITING. THIS IS WHY WE CAN’T HAVE NICE THINGS. 

Like I just. “Her virility-brown eyes -” WHAT DOES THIS EVEN MEAN? How can you have an “Amazonian figure” ON a “wafer-thin body” when “figure” is a word that describe’s a body’s shape, and Amazonian means pretty much the DIRECT FUCKING OPPOSITE of “wafer-thin” in the first place?  What the shitting fuck does ANY of this mean, apart from “I am only nebulously familiar with the concept of women and completely at a loss if I can’t compare their various bodyparts to jewels, animals and footstuffs”?

STOP 

GO TO WRITING JAIL

GO DIRECTLY TO WRITING JAIL, DO NOT PASS GO, DO NOT COLLECT $200

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so I got into grad school today with my shitty 2.8 gpa and the moral of the story is reblog those good luck posts for the love of god

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Reasons I Should Quit My Job

- My boss is a bit of a creep

- made a hugely inappropriate comment about my dress

- hugged me without warning and permission

- There is an attorney that I definitely don't like

- was there when my boss made inappropriate comments and she did not call him out

- later referred to it as a 'funny' incident

- I work reception that attn and boss have exceedingly unrealistic expectations about my job duties

- on average I have to deal with over 120 calls a day

- most are very upset and mostly because my boss won't actually do his telephonic appts (and other ppl on the legal team)

- that attn straight up told reception to never transfer her any calls, to always make appointments at least 2 weeks out, so obviously clients get upset when I won't even transfer them

- boss expects calls with clients to be under 3 mins? Super unrealistic because clients rant for at least 5 minutes

- i have to be super great an conflict de-escalation

- the actual clients can be assholes and take out their frustration on reception since no one else picks up calls

- also some supervisors and other people in legal team want reception to do their job?

- like checking case status, doing change of address, or doing inquiries with NVC or USCIS

- some stuff I did because I technically knew how, but that is not at all my job and reception should not be expected to do paralegal work

- the pay is shit, minimum wage for so much work and stress

- i've had other jobs that are less stressful and pay more

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Not writing related

I need to rant about my job, I work at reception and man are the paralegals petty as fuck and like pretty lazy? today this lady had the nerve to say that I did not notify her that her appt had arrived but I did? like in front of other ppl and she had the fucking nerve to send a message on the entire office group chat that it was reception's fault she did not see her client until 40 minutes after her appointment and that made her late for her next appointment? like wtf? she can look at her own schedule, is she a little kid that needs to be reminded that she has to do her fucking job? honestly sometimes its super hard for me to notify paralegals that their appointments have arrived? Like I call their line and they don't answer, I send them a private chat and they also don't answer, and like 20 minutes later I can tell they haven't seen their message so I have to go look for them in person around the office to notify them? like i have 5 calls on hold and I have to keep them on hold while i go look for the paralegal for the next 5 to 10ish minutes?? And like she is a paralegal that like 90% of the time does not pick up her calls so then clients get super angry at reception because she doesn't pick up her calls? but i don't say shit about that

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what’s your fanfic life like? 

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New story is up ☺. I tried writing a hannigram Valentine's Day story, but didn't finish it until today.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/29531037

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i really want to keep watching Start-Up. But honestly don’t know if I will, I really wanted for Han Jipyeong to end up with Dalmi. I like Nam Dosan, I do, he’s a great character. I just feel that they sold Jipyeong as the person Dalmi would end up with? I’m at the point where the the coding team is leaving for Silicon Valley. I just feel that so far Jipyeong has done more for Dalmi and has been self-less about it. Like he went through the trouble of finding the real Nam Dosan because he wanted her to be happy. He did help Samsan Tech when he could, and yeah he could be very harsh but at the end of the day starting a business is not easy and he does have to point out their mistakes before they have actual consequences. It might seem like he is killing their ideas, but everything he asks them is something they should have an answer for and not be blindsided when they are finally asked the same by another person. Also when her grandma asks who she prefers, Dalmi says that the Dosan from the letters. So I wanted her to end up with the Dosan from the letters. I know it’s really tempting to see Jipyeing as this self-assured person. But her really isn’t?? I feel like he is as insecure as Dosan, I mean Jipyeong is not shown to have any friends or other women that are interested in him. I feel like he is also really lonely and he did want to reconnect with Dalmi because she understood him. I think if Jipyeong was the confident figure we think he is, he could have avoided the whole mess and just showed up to the networking partying on his own and say that he has used someone’s else name because he had felt inadequate at the time. The fact that he continues to use “Dosan” as a way to communicate with her shows me, that although he is materially successful he is still insecure about who he is. Also I would like to point out that he was willing to give up Dalmi so she could continue to be happy once he finally recognized that he had feelings for her. I don’t know I just thought the Jipyeong deserved better. 

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Continued Hiatus

Honestly I’m a pretty bad writer in terms of consistency, I only write when I have inspiration (which is usually only when I have really important assignments due and I want to procrastinate). Writing during this pandemic is difficult because I don’t have my own room and DO NOT feel comfortable writing around my family, so yeah that’s why I haven’t written in a while. And will probably get worse in the next months because I just got a full-time job, on top of being a full time student (and 2 of my classes are law class, so it’s a lot of reading dense court cases, I love it, but it’s a lot). Anyway just wanted to vent because I just turned in a subpar essay for one of my law classes and I’m feeling pretty shitty about.