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[findingmyplaceintheworld99]

Does anyone else become so obsessed with movies and tv shows that they come up with elaborate plots in their head. These plots involve your OTPs and favourite non-canon chips. And you really wish that they were real.

Just me?

[findingmyplaceintheworld99]

I miss reading platonic relationships in books without constantly fretting over when they're gonna fall in love

[findingmyplaceintheworld99]

I have recently finished reading Loveless by Alice Oseman, and when I say this book has change my life I mean it. There were times while reading where I felt like I was being personally attacked, it hit close to home and helped me figure some of my shit out. I knew about the term asexual and had related to it some in the past.

Bit of background I dated a guy for five years, he asked me out when we were 18 and had just left high school, I said yes, I had never dated anyone so I thought why not. We had a lot in common, we liked all the same things and we were both introverts. We didn’t see each other very often, even when we lived 10 minutes away from each other, I was happy to text. It wasn’t until people I knew, who hadn’t been dating very long started getting engaged and moving in together when I realised, I didn’t want to live with him, I didn’t want to marry him. I did love him, but as I friend. So I ended it.

So here I am 2 months later, I’ve just finished Loveless, and I finally feel like I have answers. Just like the main character in the book I have began to realise that I have never had a crush in real life, when I think of perfect couples they are my fictional ships. I never had romantic feelings for my boyfriend or anyone.

I am an aromantic asexual.

That feels good to say. I have no idea what to do now. I have to figure my shit out and find my place in the world.

HELP ME!!!!!