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Sephiroth has never had sex because that would mean he would lose his virginity, and he never loses

he just likes being included

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Otto trying to take cross dressing from Subaru's warm dead hands

?

are you saying it's not?

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Julius just doesn't know how to flirt, he's doing great

happy pride month have julirein

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ATTENTION

If you see this you are OBLIGATED to reblog w/ the song currently stuck in your head :)

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The "B-Boost!" Turned me into a skeleton

this is what having sex with sonic the hedgehog sounds like btw

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I have a crippling addiction to horrible men

assortment of mingos from BSKY

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THEYRE SO CUTE!!!

Final reinsuba doodles after my clip studio just expired.

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Oh storms I just realised that Jimmy Mouthwashing and Regulus Cornyass are the same person, one of them just has super powers.

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I so desperately wish I could peer into the minds of people like that, who want free works or content but degrad and disrespect the ones that make it.

And gleefully too, like I can understand being a petty asshole in the heat of the moment but to tell someone that you would have done premeditated assholeary to them after the opportunity was lost is so pointless cruel.

And you know for a fact that these people don't write or make anything of their own.

Creative black holes

Sorry for rambling, this made me surprisingly angry this morning

Okay, so, this interaction from a few days ago is still on my mind, and it’s kind of the culmination of an issue that’s been going on for a while now, so I’m gonna go ahead and make a proper post about it.

There’s been this ongoing pattern ever since my fic blew up and a bunch of y’all started coming over here from AO3 where I feel like I haven’t been treated like a person nearly as much as I used to be. And it’s — well, you know, I write fanfiction for FUN. I’m not getting paid here, I literally just do it because I want to and as a way of socializing with others in this fandom space. And that means I’d really appreciate it if y’all would remember that I am, in fact, a person. I’m not a content machine that you plug prompts into that then spits something out.

The interaction that brought this on was — alright, you remember how that spoiler post got out ahead of time and I deleted it in a panic like 30min later? Well, someone mentioned that if they’d seen it before I deleted it, they would have screenshotted it and posted it on their own blog for everyone to see regardless of whether I wanted it or not. And I am telling you right now: that right there would have been such an ASTOUNDING level of disrespect that it very well may have stripped me of any desire to continue those fics, for good. It definitely would have upset me enough to get me to step away from them for a while, and it might have even chased me away from writing ANY fics for this fandom ever again.

I feel like I’ve been pretty good about keeping my cool over these past few months, for the most part, and that I’ve responded pretty amicably even when I — probably shouldn’t have, tbh. But like, there’s a difference between being cordial and being a doormat. And I just…I’m not gonna lie: I’m getting a little fed up, here.

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Bees can just do that dog

I still think that something MGS3 had that no other entry can replicate is having your first boss fight proper be a dude who yells "Tommy Gun!" and materializes a Tommy Gun out of bees to then shoot you with. It's important to note that whether he can materialize frag grenades or just very succinctly hand them to his horde of bees to drop on you is not clear, and he's definitely spitting out special Bullet Bees that lodge into you like actual bullets and they hurt even more than bullets, but the Tommy Gun? There's no ambiguity there, he materialized a Thompson.

Yeah there's psychics and ghosts and all that jazz, but we know of those. We didn't know of any matter replicator in the series until that point. The other freaky guy, The Fear, is just hungry and double jointed, but The Pain legitimately just created matter or at least transmogrified it by turning bees into a Thompson machine gun. That's a pretty good trick to have when you are fighting World War 2 alongside a guy that can photosynthesize because he recycles.

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The racist mug is now a part of you

stuff happening on r/discoelysium

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MY BUG BABY BOY!!! (he's a depressed alcoholic)

First @engraverszine post! Otto moments,,

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*Subaru actively staring at a man's ass as he bends over* what did Tappie mean by this?

Can you elaborate on your evidence for julisuba? I am having a hard time reading that snippet as anything other than some very insecure guy trying to describe Ryan Reynolds when he is talking to a girl they like. Like of course Subaru is going to point out every reason he looks good, Subaru doesn't look like that. I can really see this with the eye comment because Subaru is constantly referred to as having scary eyes so him making that sort of comment is something I can realistically see. I read it as him trying to find every reason Emilia would prefer Julius over him, I mean he was put on guard when Julius recognized Emilia through the hood and then Julius calling Emilia beautiful, I wouldn't put it past him to already insecure about the kind of relationship the two have that he doesn't know anything about. Then there is also the doylist reasoning of having to describe Julius' beauty to the reader somehow but that doesn't feel like a good point for my argument as it could be argued that it didn't have to be described that way. Because I will admit the word supple is an interesting adjective to describe someone but I can't base an entire ship off a few interesting adjectives. I genuinely would like to understand your viewpoint of this relationship better. If later snippets make the ship more apparent please let me know.

Okay so, smaller thing first: I don’t buy the Doylist lens, because Re:Zero in particular is very heavily perspective-driven in its prose. Unless directly stated otherwise, it tends to be pretty explicit that all the narration is from the character’s POV rather than from an impartial third party. This is why sometimes the narration makes a big deal about some characters’ actions “making no sense” despite them having very clear reasons for behaving the way they do (ie. Beatrice getting upset “for no apparent reason” when Subaru begged her to kill him in Arc 3). So, if a character is described with language like THAT — it’s pretty safe to assume that it’s how the POV character sees them, rather than an unbiased account of what they look like.

As for the general Julisuba thing…honestly there’s so much that I’m not sure I can fit it all into a single post lmao. If it were just that one quote — I mean it’d still be fun to ship it, but I wouldn’t consider the insinuations an intentional part of Subaru’s character. Hell, I might even assume it was a mistranslation.

But…it’s really, really not.

Like, Subaru doesn’t just use the word “supple” once before being one and done. He also says THIS SHIT:

“A man with an apologetic face and a sweet, soft spoken voice. Just from hearing it, many women would assume it to be the voice of an angel. An amusing pipe dream, but the voice did have the necessary color, beauty, and strength. That was the voice of the Knight of Knights, Julius Juukulius, which existed solely to vex. At least, that was how it felt to Subaru.”

“As he spoke, Julius spread his legs apart and reached toward the ground. Subaru couldn’t help but admire his control over his slender legs and the suppleness of his hips as he lowered himself to the ground.”

““Everyone is physically attractive,” was Subaru’s miserable realization about this Parallel World at this point.” ← This blatantly includes Julius.

“Repeating Subaru’s words, Julius closed his eyes, which were bordered by long eyelashes. Subaru consciously kept breathing out deep, long breaths as he stood in front of the handsome man. He mustn’t be overwhelmed. At least, it’s that his feeling was to not lose.”

Like, this wasn’t a one-time thing. Subaru just says this shit about Julius specifically, and he does so practically every time the man shows up.

And then, when he’s asked to describe his relationship with Julius:

“Looking at only their trivial words at the end of their conversation, maybe they did look like friends. But it was himself and Julius, so that wasn’t possible. He wasn’t a friend, he was something infinitely more annoying. / Although it was impossible to say exactly what that was.”

“Viewed objectively, it did seem to resemble friendship, but there was no way Subaru and Julius shared that. They were something worse than friends, but Subaru couldn’t put his finger on what exactly. / ‘Well, we’re not friends. That much I’m sure of.’ / ‘So stubborn…’ / ‘He really is, I suppose.’ / Emilia looked exasperated while Beatrice simply sighed and agreed with her. For some reason, the two were so in sync that it made Subaru feel like he was being left out somehow.”

And then, on top of all that, he says THIS:

“The new white scar on Julius’s profile, combined with his unfamiliar appearance in a Japanese outfit, emphasized his dignified and handsome aura, giving Subaru a strange sensation. / It was not to say that the influence of “regression” had not affected Subaru’s perception, but it was probably more due to the changes on Julius’s side that caused this sensation.”

…I mean — if you have your protagonist constantly make comments about another character’s sex appeal while getting visibly flustered, consistently duck the question of what his relationship with the other person is and only describing it as “something infinitely more annoying than friendship,” and then have him turn to the camera and say “Seeing that guy in that dignified and handsome outfit inspires a strange sensation inside of me” — at some point I simply am not going to believe that it wasn’t at LEAST intended as a possible interpretation, lmao.

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People will say this is unrealistic, those people are fools as this is basically everyone I have interacted with

I love how every ds2 npc is like

"Don't talk to me. I want to be alone"

*hits talk again*

"god I'm so lonely. Thank you for talking to me."

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People will say this is unrealistic, those people are fools as this is basically everyone I have interacted with

I love how every ds2 npc is like

"Don't talk to me. I want to be alone"

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"god I'm so lonely. Thank you for talking to me."

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My piece for the Torn Pages From the Book of the Dead Re:Zero zine last year- precursor to the @engraverszine coming soon that I’m also going to be in!!

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dreamt there was a disco elysium style game where you play as vegeta on namek. there was a multiple minute skill argument about trying not to piss yourself when frieza goes into his final form, and the line "no warrior would piss himself in fear. a warrior pisses himself as a threat" haunts me