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my collection of drug doing kitties

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t shirt that says i've misunderstood many social interactions

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Flail earrings handmade by Moon and Serpent

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aforementioned romper ♥️

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i thrifted a "formal" romper in red (a perfect red) and i love it so much. now i wanna complete a small collection of 3-4 rompers i think...... i love this one 😇

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“Death to Videodrome. Long live the new flesh.”

VIDEODROME (1983) - dir. David Cronenberg

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video moments captured by tom sheehan

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Giant otter By: Francisco Erize From: The World Conservation Yearbook 1976

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Centipede By: Unknown photographer From: Wildlife Fact-File 1990s

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waiting for melatonin to kick in and looking for restful sleep. had a nightmare for the first time in a while the other day and that was not good. i just haven't been sleeping right lately but then again i've been getting over strep & and ear infection. both are happening at the same time and that's annoying as fuck.

but i need to take better care of myself and for me that starts with sleep and how i spend a day. it's important to me to get as much as i can out of each day so it's especially difficult if i sleep a lot. i don't berate myself for it but i cherish each day and am grateful for the comforts i have and i want to absorb them as much as possible, that's the truth.

i'll take better care of myself, i know how to. it's been really hard since the move. i left so much of what i'd been grateful to build up in my life with california. literally dust in the wind, some of it. i miss it all the time and think about it constantly and it hasn't gotten lots easier. but i also have a lot that i am grateful for that has come with the move, of course i do. i know that.

but i always think about california. i dream about california still. usually if i dream, it has something to do with california.

i actually got to live for the very first time there, and i'll never let go of that or forget it. that's the truth. i had time and space and opportunity to bloom and actually become myself, and lose so much of the noise—i did that surrounded by the noise.

but i so gratefully always had myself, as i always have, and that's a strength i'm proud of and grateful for.

i made art earlier and next to the artworks i wrote a lot and a lot just came out so easily in words, i kept writing. i still have more in my head that i know i could include. one of them i think i'll share with everyone, maybe i'll scan it. the rest are for me. it's multiple parts. it was very cathartic and i loved creating it and drawing and writing.

guess i can't overstate how much art i've been making this year, grateful for that too. i draw all the time, haven't had a big gap in creating in some time and i'm glad for it. i've noticed my skill increasing as well which is always stunning to see. i really sit back and look at something and i feel surprise and accomplishment that i made it, it's my own work. my hard work.

i've loved art my whole life and i am absolutely determined to do more with it. so much of it is seen by so few. it could make others feel and think and i would absolutely love for that, love to bring that to the the world, to others. that's what i would want most with my art. what if it could make someone learn or ruminate or feel resonated with? that is what i want.

i've written a whole lot, haven't i?

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⛓️ recent outfits 🐯

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Frog mimicking bird droppings By: Edward S. Ross From: Life Nature Library: Animal Behavior 1965

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Prairie dog holding off a coyote By: Unknown photographer From: Walt Disney's Vanishing Prairie 1955

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Jaeheon Lee (Korean, 1976) - Three in One (2022-2024)