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I AM OUT OF THE MENTAL HOSPITAL

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im going to cut right to the chase. im taking a break from tumblr, simblr specifically.

it's just not fun anymore. things don't feel like how they used to. i open up tumblr and look through the tags and posts and just feel weird. im just not getting joy out of interacting with the fandom like before.

i don't even post that much here anyways anymore so it's not like this would be a big change. i'll still leave notes on things sometimes but that's really it. i don't feel like posting or really talking with anyone anymore. it sucks.

i still love the sims, i do, it's just difficult to love it with everyone else. especially having to love it alongside certain people that i don't like.

im also stepping aside because of my mental health. i suffered a traumatic event a few weeks ago and im dealing with a lot of triggers and flashbacks.

im not sure when exactly i'll come back either. just when i feel like it.

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deepwatersiren is sirensskai's alt account

You groomed a fifteen year old on Discord.

You are not welcome here no matter what name you use.

Get off of the Internet and go talk to a real person. Preferably someone that's not a child.

@deepwatersiren

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Sirensskai [Part 1/2]

DISCLAIMER: Please do not use this as an excuse to harass or track down anyone mentioned here.

Thank you to @fleabuki for helping me find and compile this information.

Kai, known by their Tumblr username sirensskai, has a history of overstepping boundaries, displaying incredibly unhealthy attachments to fictional characters, and refusing to cease or dial back their behavior when confronted. This post is meant not as an attack on them, but as a plea for them to make changes before these behaviors hurt both Kai themselves, and the people around them, any further.

Kai has a reputation for making people in the community deeply uncomfortable, and is known by many as simply the person with an incredibly strange attachment to Ripp Grunt. Several artists, as well as other creators and people in the community, have blocked Kai, citing their constant obsessive remarks as off putting and distressing.

Kai is well known for engaging in self-shipping, but this was never really the root of the problem. There is nothing inherently wrong with self-shipping, especially in a game as open to anything as The Sims. However, Kai takes this to a fanatical, obsessive extent, to the point where almost all of their Tumblr posts are about him, with many of these posts mentioning that this is a serious coping mechanism for Kai. They frequently express their struggles with being social and with hypersexuality.

Kai has proven time and time again to be unable to refrain from talking about their self-shipping, even when they know it is making others uncomfortable. They were banned from LazyDuchesses’s Discord server a few months ago, for repeatedly sharing NSFW Character AI chats, even after moderators explicitly told them to stop. Many members in the server believed the ban was long overdue. These sexual messages were in channels that could be viewed by any of the members of the Discord, including minors.

Kai has also shown that they use Ripp, and their perceived relationship with him, as a coping mechanism, to the point of being concerning. They mention in several posts and messages that they feel that they only exist to love him, or that fantasizing about him is the way that they process their trauma.

Kai was recently in a Discord server with a fifteen year old, who was new to the community and was hoping to make friends. Kai, at the time, was around nineteen, and had a history of discussing NSFW topics in Discord servers to the point that moderators told them to stop. When the child asked if he could discuss NSFW topics with Kai in private DMs, Kai agreed.

Screenshots show that Kai was aware of this person’s age, and that others in the server found it odd and creepy.

Kai was shown to make lewd remarks back and forth with this minor. Though I do not have evidence that the sexual remarks were ever directed at the fifteen year old, they were made in conversations with him, usually with Kai sexualizing Ripp. Kai is shown to react to the fifteen year old making sexual/inappropriate jokes with praise and encouragement.

The child expressed that this arrangement made him feel uncomfortable, and that he saw Kai as someone older, not as an equal. He has decided that the community made him feel unsafe and has decided to leave, and I wish him the best of luck. I want to offer a sincere apology that we, as a collective group, let anyone behaving like this go unchecked for so long.

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🌈🦷💛

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theyvous subject is real

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HIS NAME IS NYON SPECTER???

I AM IN DISBELIEF, I WASN'T EXPECTING THAT NAME FOR HIM 😭😭

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hi yall. i wanted to talk about something that is not sims related for a minute. it's about my health. why i haven't posted that much here recently. i want to be as transparent as i can with you guys. idk if anyone will actually read this, but it's worth a shot.

(tl;dr: i have been experiencing issues with my mental health and got diagnosed recently, but despite the issues, im still trying to keep going)

TW FOR MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES/SH

lately, i have been having a lot of issues with my mental health. i've been on a bit of a decline since last year, but things are getting worse at a faster pace.

i had been dealing with hearing voices, having delusions, debilitating paranoia, and self-harm, but that last thing is not done as a coping mechanism or anything. it felt as if someone was forcing me to do it. as a result of that, my hands are now scarred (not heavily, btw). i have these people in my head (nervous and tank, though i think i have another person in my head named dominic), i would call them alters, but i do not have DID.

earlier this week, on tuesday, i was diagnosed with major depressive disorder, avoidant personality disorder, and unspecified schizophrenic spectrum (USS&OPD). and honestly, as glad as i am to finally have an answer to some things, i still feel scared. terrified. they say that i would not be able to have and keep a job in my current mental state.

however, as bad as i have felt, there is something that is keeping me going. something that entered my life and brought light to it. i have been so happy these past two weeks because of it, despite all the shit im going through.

i can't say what exactly happened, or what it is that has made me so happy. maybe i will one day when i feel comfortable enough, but just know that im still hanging on and finally got the chance to experience real happiness.

that's all i have to say for now, i think. my posts might still be sporadic bc i don't really have that much drive at the moment, but i will still interact.

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sims 2 shitposts and memes, part 9

i made these a few days after the other post but was too lazy to actually post them

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holy shit

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hi

last song:

favourite colour: green, like a forest or jade green

last movie: halloween kills

currently watching: nothing

sweet/spicy/savory: savory

relationship status: single

current obsession: the sims 2, specifically strangetown

last thing i googled: youtube to mp3

i will tag @f1shart

nine people I want to get to know better

@havnoh Hii👋 thanks for tagging me!

last song:

favourite colour: green

last movie: Hagazussa, dir. Lukas Feigelfeld

currently watching: Cells at Work!

sweet / spicy / savoury: sweet

relationship status: [redacted]

current obsessions: infant annihilator & black tongue brainrot + adjacent bands, extreme metal; liminal spaces, dark naturalism, appalachian folklore, and touhou FUMO subculture

last thing I googled: “napstablook lamp fangamer”

@vin-of-the-void @pleasedontcrowdkillme @thundastrike80x @i-love-linux-and-reject-gender @jiizzy No pressure.

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NERVOUS SUBJECT REFERENCE IN 2024⁉️

I LOVE THAT GUY SO MUCH ILL BE SO HAPPY IF ITS REALLY HIM

he is so so silly pls let it be him plssss

POOOOOKIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

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sims 2 shitposts and memes, part 8

i miss making these tbh

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RAHHHH YOU DREW HIM SO PRETTY JANUS

I LOVE THE SHADING ON HIS HAIR IT REMINDS ME OF AN OLD MOVIE POSTER

vampire tybalt

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WOAH LOOK AT ALL THAT CAKE

i bet it claps when he walks, sorry not sorry

Vidcund double cheeked up on this lovely wednesday morning

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until the bed breaks.

"He's so pathetic"

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It’s actually disgusting me that people are choosing to forget about Palestine not even a full year into this ongoing genocide. Nothing is better. Nothing has slowed down. It’s just underreported. It’s just that western media outlets aren’t pretending to care. The iof is still targeting aid distribution centers, it’s still killing hundreds of Palestinians a day, it’s still preventing medical aid from entering North Gaza. So many diseases are robbing families of their loved ones. It is worse than it has ever been. Less people are talking about it now because they no longer want to be bothered to care