ok but this is just how my brain feels ALL THE TIME fr
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I wrote in my journal last night that I really wish I could have a long deep hug from someone who knows me well. I have friends here on campus who will hug me, and gladly, but I’m too sheepish (and outright afraid, lately) to ask to be held onto. I need to learn how to be bold enough to ask for people to care for me, I guess.
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Ah yes, “Car Trouble” by Owl City, or as I like to call it, a modern day Odysseus’s theme song
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you know when you clench your fist so tight that your whole hand hurts and you hold it that way for a while and then it feels like you might not be able to open it again when you want to? that's how my brain feels lately. :(
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I must be honest this Christmas evening: I really miss my tumblr days. The knitting circle* was a real blessing to me while I was here consistently. I don't have many friends nearby where I live at the moment, and this place filled that hole quite well for a long while.
I love you, friends, and I hope you're all doing well. I'm going to pray for you all tonight. May the Lord richly bless you and keep you.
<3 merry Christmas
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hey friends
I'm surviving <3
I made it through my first semester of university (🎉) and I think I've made a few friends. but I'm still not quite where I want to be. there are so many things inside my mind and heart that I can't put into words and I just wish I could say aloud and be free of.
thank you so much to those who have been praying for me all along, and those who have sent me DMs since I've been away; it's meant so much to check in here every now and then and see that I haven't been forgotten.
I'll see y'all around <3
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i've been thinking and i think a lot of celebrity discourse wouldn't be a thing if more people understood how PR works and that these famous people have been carefully curated as products for consumption 99% of the time. the reason a lot of actors seem so much like their characters is because, a lot of the time, they're deliberately playing that aspect of themselves up to promote the project they're in. why do you think so many straight actors starring in gay films have vaguely gay anecdotes prepared for interviews? why do you think leads promoting rom-coms often play up their chemistry in interviews? none of it is accidental. pedro pascal isn't walking around calling himself daddy because he happens to genuinely call himself that. it makes him more marketable. i think a lot of us know that celebrities' public personas are curated, but it doesn't stick because we want to be entertained and to like these people. the more I interact with PR people as part of my job and am made aware of the "rules" surrounding celebrity interactions and interviews - the more I've realised just how much of a performance all of it is. now i am not saying it's a Bad thing, i think this curation is mostly in place to protect privacy and keep promotion focused on the show/film. but i don't think it would hurt for more people and fans to remember that almost everything you know and see about celebrities is incredibly curated and tunnel-visioned to make them living breathing promo material for whatever they're in, which is to say that these are the last people who should be looked to as role models for moral and ethical guidance because they aren't *for* that.
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