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Caitvi, Butchfemme

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what if act2 but nobody gets better, they get worse instead🌚

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Unfortunately the only way I can tolerate my misery is by romanticizing it. Somewhere there is beauty in waking up shaky and putting on the same jeans you wore yesterday and driving to the job you hate and drinking black coffee all day and getting 5 hours of sleep and spending every night alone.

Hmmm. Somewhere.

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I have grown past being insecure about my happy trail 🙌

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Please do not complain about your boyfriend to me I’m just gonna tell you to dump him

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When you realize you’re no longer 12 and have the power to make the silly little fandom music videos that play in your head when you listen to your favorite songs

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choosing alcohol over cutting because there’s no visible harm therefore it doesn’t count

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Definitely didn’t think I would be a month away from 20 and STILL suicidal about things that happened when I was 14. Oh well.

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Boynton Canyon, Sedona, Arizona [OC] [4032x3024] - Author: wallerhilliard on Reddit

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Breaking free of heteronormativity has been one of my biggest struggles for so long. I have punished myself, felt shame, and felt guilt for years. I have spent many nights crying over my future children and the guilt I would feel about them having two moms. I cried over the fact that my future wife would not be able to get me pregnant and we would have to use alternative methods. I was afraid that nothing I would do and none of the things I wanted, would “count”. I struggled to accept the fact that dressing masculine didn’t make me less of a woman, so I tried my hardest not to and I felt insecure when I did.

There are so many things I was worried about that I now realize are complete bullshit. Who cares if my kids have two moms? Lots of kids aren’t raised in a traditional nuclear household. I have a mom and a stepmom for fucks sake. Who gives a shit if I need IVF to have children? Hundreds of thousands of heterosexual couples do too. It will all still “count”. It will all still matter. Who gives a fuck what I wear? I’m still a woman whether I’m wearing a dress or a tux. I’m still beautiful and I can still be feminine. I don’t need to impose heterosexual standards on myself and my relationships because I’m not heterosexual. And that’s fine!!! I have spent years feeling guilt and shame for not being straight. I have experimented, I have lied to myself, I have degraded myself, I have felt like an outcast to my family, I have tried to “pray it away”.

I am so sick of torturing myself like this. I’m so sick of being embarrassed to exist. I’m so tired of making rules for myself. It’s been exhausting. I’ve finally been letting it all go. It’s not all gone yet, but I’m getting there. It feels so good to just exist as myself without all of these made up rules and restrictions, irrational fears, and all of that SHAME.

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Just read a fanfic that echoed my own life in a way that was so devastating I don’t think I’m going to recover

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Man makes a video about how he didn’t believe that women face more danger on a day-to-day basis than men until he saw proof right in front of him.

Women share their opinions.

Man spits back misogyny.

At the end of the day, no matter how supportive they claim to be, men are not on our side. God forbid they receive an ounce of criticism from the oppressed group they’re making a video about. They will always turn their backs if it is not a constant stream of validation from women. Their egos are so fragile. They demand praise for the most basic of stances. Men are a fucking joke.

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Man makes a video about how he didn’t believe that women face more danger on a day-to-day basis than men until he saw proof right in front of him.

Women share their opinions.

Man spits back misogyny.

At the end of the day, no matter how supportive they claim to be, men are not on our side. God forbid they receive an ounce of criticism from the oppressed group they’re making a video about. They will always turn their backs if it is not a constant stream of validation from women. Their egos are so fragile. They demand praise for the most basic of stances. Men are a fucking joke.

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Do NOT watch Arcane if you like women and have a tendency to yearn. Worst mistake of my life !!!!

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Imagine Vi finding Cait right after losing Jinx. Seeing her lying there with her stab wound and eye bleeding out. Thinking she just lost Caitlyn too. Auuuaghhh. I’m gonna be sick.