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I’m actually a little overwhelmed with how much love “Fearing I’m Insane” is getting despite having a five month hiatus 🫶🏻 It even gave me motivation to start the fourth chapter already

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At this point it'll be years and I'll still not have finished this fic

Hello! Is anyone still here? I hope so, because I will be abandoning this fic over my cold dead body.

Here is the long-awaited chapter three. See you probably in another five months (jokes, hopefully not, I will actually cry)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/61010101/chapters/169796932

Fic where, after Arthur has legalised magic but before Merlin has revealed his magic, Arthur hears that a sorcerer named Emrys can see into the future and grant prophecies, and decides to seek him out to ask him about the future of Camelot and Merlin panics

So Merlin tries to convince Arthur the whole time that maybe it’s not the best idea to seek out this apparently all knowing oracle, and what about whether this guy is even real or if he has the abilities in the first place (because as far as Merlin knows, he’s not a seer. Sure, he can see the future if he looks into the Crystal Cave, but it’s not an innate ability like Morgana’s visions)

But Arthur is determined so he takes Merlin and his knights and sets out to where Emrys is said to reside (and Merlin can’t help but think the entire thing is nonsense anyway, because where did this guy get his information from? Merlin very obviously does not live where ever they’re going)

The whole time he’s also thinking about ways to disguise himself once again if he indeed does have to present himself as Emrys to Arthur.

Anyways, they get to the abandoned castle where “Emrys” lives and surprise surprise, it’s an imposter

Merlin is now very angry and annoyed but for totally different reasons

He very subtly tries to discredit or trip up this “Emrys”

Merlin: I thought Emrys was a dragonlord

“Emrys”: Of course I am

Merlin: Then, why don’t you call a dragon?

“Emrys”: Ummmm

Arthur: Merlin, don’t be silly, all the dragons are gone, you were there when it happened

Arthur: Please, Emrys, I seek to know what will become of Camelot under my reign

“Emrys”: A kingdom is only as strong as its leader. There will be times of hardship, but also times of peace and joy

Merlin: Oh please, that’s so vague.

Arthur: Merlin, do not insult the all knowing, all powerful sorcerer

Merlin: So, how do you get your visions? Through sleep? By looking through a crystal?

“Emrys”: It comes to me naturally, like breathing. My magic always has

Merlin: Interesting, can we see some magic?

Arthur: Merlin, we are not here for entertainment

Eventually it’s revealed that this “Emrys” is a fraud and that Merlin is in fact the real Emrys, but then Arthur keeps expecting him to know about the future

Arthur: Merlin, will I die if I go on this quest to slay the beast?

Merlin, gritting his teeth: How would I know?

Arthur: Mm. I guess I just expected the all powerful Emrys to be a little more impressive

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OH MY GOSH YES

LET’S GOOOO

I added a new act (15) in My breaths are run by your compass as a special for the ides of march

Compulsory tag to everyone I know has read the fic because you guys deserved more fluff and I don’t want you to miss out on it:

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I hope as hell that you all have the same handles as your ao3 accounts and that I haven’t been tagging people who don’t need this shit thrown their way 😂

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I really wish we saw more of Arthur denying his kingdom for Merlin within the show, although I believe the true extent of that really only comes when there's already been a magic reveal - my original post was a thought I had while talking about one of my fics with a friend in which Arthur commits treason for Merlin (this is before he's king but the point still stands)

Although you could argue that the times in which Arthur flat out disobeyed his father is a version of him denying his kingdom and therefore his very self as he saw his father as the ideal king and what he should strive towards, even if he did have different opinions than his father on certain matters.

We literally see it in, what, episode 4? Arthur puts Merlin's life above his own, and that is essentially putting Merlin before his kingdom because he's literally risking the security of Camelot's future (so I guess yeah, we do see Arthur at least somewhat play fast and loose with his kingdom, but I really wish we saw him truly put Merlin before it a few more times, but that's mainly because I love the angst it produces)

Canon does not shy away from how devoted the two of them are from each other, but I wish we had received a magic reveal earlier because imagine! the choices Arthur would have to make!

And if I said that Merlin would deny his magic for Arthur, and Arthur would deny his kingdom for Merlin, thereby giving up the part of themself that is the core of who they are?

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And if I said that Merlin would deny his magic for Arthur, and Arthur would deny his kingdom for Merlin, thereby giving up the part of themself that is the core of who they are?

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Vamos lesbianas! 🩷🤍🧡

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If you see this you’re legally obligated to reblog and tag with the book you’re currently reading

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The motivation I needed to finish the next chapter of my Merlin fic comes to you from the worst week I’ve ever had in my entire life. If you want to find out more just wait for the author’s note of the next chapter lol

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I agree wholeheartedly with this. I think making all of the main characters pair up in HOOs was not the best choice? Idk, when I was 12 I thought it was cute but I do think it makes all the relationships a little cheap, plus it makes the friendships not as centre to the story because we’re focusing more on the couples.

Leo being Frank’s bi awakening is genius though, I love that

But yeah, Rick has a bad habit of needing almost every single character to be paired up in some way, which I think is also more of a product of the 2010s in general

so many of the pjo couples don’t feel made to last (to me)

like Percy and Annabeth get to slide bc they’re one of the few couples that had a slow slow burn and went through actual hell together.

But Calypso and Leo? Calypso needs a girlfriend and Leo needs someone who respects him. Falling in love out of a curse can’t be a healthy dynamic to aspire to T^T

Jason and Piper (duh. self explanatory.) Piper and Shel probably won’t last long either, mostly because Shel feels like a heavy rebound to me and dating someone after your friend just died is lowkey a cheap shot. Piper will still 100% end up with a woman but it probably won’t be Shel.

Both Nico and Hazel’s relationships with their various partners feels very,,,, baby’s first girl/boyfriend. ���But Nico and Will went through hell together!!” I hear you cry. They went through Diet Tartarus. I’d actually say that them going through hell together would make their relationship crumble faster. I’ve read ToA, I’ve read Sun and the Star, but Will just feels so one dimensional as a character to me. If Will had been a side character during HOO and then further developed more in ToA, then I feel like having solangelo become canon in the tower of Nero would’ve been more fitting.

And Hazel and Frank do have good chemistry— but it’s battle chemistry. I think that their run as praetors will be the best Camp Jupiter and New Rome has ever been. But they’ll both break up on year three mutually, remain good friends for th rest of their lives and retire at the end of their ten years of service to Rome. Hazel will go and be a badass Amazonian and Frank will finally go make out sloppy style with Leo once, have a bi-panic and immediately evaporate into the ether to return to Canada and live a nice quiet life in the woods with Lupa and her pack as the occasional visitor

HOO relationships and onward just feels like a very botched attempt of trying recreate the success of percabeth without any of the original formula that made it so intriguing.

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I urge you to read the article and watch the videos. It is some powerful shows of democracy working

Just wanted to share some shockingly good news in these difficult times. The full article is really worth reading. [Find it here]

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Just wanted to share some shockingly good news in these difficult times. The full article is really worth reading. [Find it here]

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Leo in the Titan army would be incredibly fascinating. We don’t really hear much about demigods who went to Luke’s side and came back, so imagine a Leo who went to the other side, and then the next year is expected to be a part of the Prophecy of Seven!

I want to mainly focus on Percy, Annabeth and Leo’s friendship in my fic so I won’t be exploring this, but imagine a Percy and Annabeth who went through the first war, and have such complicated feelings for Leo who was on the other side! Because even in TLO (which I’m currently re-reading) Percy is still trying to save demigods on the wrong side (Ethan, a random demigod on the Princess Andromeda) so obviously he’s not going to be completely hostile to Leo, but it would be such a complicated dynamic!!

And it would give us a perspective of a demigod who joined the Titan army and then came back to camp and dealing with the fallout of that

ship so good it might compel me to write a full rewrite of a series and a half

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Going feral as I think about my greek soulmates percabeth who were Perseus and Andromeda in a past life and Odysseus and Penelope in another. Falling in love in every lifetime. Finding each other every time. Their love is true and unconditional. Listening to “Would You Fall In Love With Me Again�� from Epic and thinking about post Tartarus Annabeth having to cope and deal with the more cruel and dark version of Percy she saw in the pit and coming out the other side still loving him. He hesitates before reaching for her and his touch is so gentle and barely there, his hands tremble slightly as if he’s afraid he’ll hurt her and Annabeth is sure that no matter what he does, he’ll always be hers. He’ll always be her love. He’ll always be her best friend and soulmate. She’ll always love him.

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reblog if you think aros and aces (or anyone on the aroace spectrum) are queer

trying to prove something to my mother ^^

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Drew Tanaka gives Percy the safe space he needs to be a complete and utter bitch without remorse and thats why I believe with all my heart that they’re really close friends. No, I do not take constructive criticism.

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OH MY GOSH YES So (forgive me because it’s been a while since I read that chapter) Leo would be an established fighter by this point because of the fighting ring?

Also a Leo v Percy fight *chefs kiss* oh my gosh I love them so much

I’m halfway through my rereading of BotL and finally found where I’m going to put Leo in and oh boy does it feel like the book was made to have Leo show up specifically at this part, I’m so excited to start writing.

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@sentient-stove I HAD thought about bringing him in during the Antaeus chapter earlier, but in my re-read (and this is a spoiler for my fic (that is not even written yet lmaooo) but like it happens immediately so whatever) there’s a part in the book where the gang GO TO A TEXAS RANCH and then IMMEDIATELY AFTER GO SEE HEPHAESTUS

So it’s like… Leo is likely to be in Texas (even though he moved around a lot, and did end up in New Mexico and eventually Nevada at the Wilderness School, he’d still most likely stay in Texas for a lot of his childhood in the system) So if we have Leo enter right after the Texas ranch and right before Hephaestus, we have a Leo who doesn’t know he’s the son of Hephaestus but maybe suspects that he does, and we have a super awkward Hephaestus who is like “Why is my child here? I haven’t claimed him yet what’s going on?”

BUT please please please tell me about your AU PLEASE because the only reason I’m writing this is because there is a severe lack of this AU around

I’m halfway through my rereading of BotL and finally found where I’m going to put Leo in and oh boy does it feel like the book was made to have Leo show up specifically at this part, I’m so excited to start writing.