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“soulmates aren’t the ones who make you happiest, no. they’re instead the ones who make you feel the most. burning edges and scars and stars. old pangs, captivation and beauty. strain and shadows and worry and yearning. sweetness and madness and dreamlike surrender. they hurl you into the abyss. they taste like hope.” — victoria erickson

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IronHusbands Bingo 2020 Masterpost

Super happy to participate in @ironhusbandsbingo for my first fandom bingo! Thanks to all the mods for running an awesome event. I managed to pull out a bingo at the last second, but I’m super happy I did. Here’s my handful of fills I managed to do:

I3 - Treehouse: In the Dead of Night (1.5k, T)

“I’d climb in there with you but I think it’d collapse,” Rhodey said, his voice was rough from the small amount of sleep he had gotten.

Tony turned his head and smirked at Rhodey, eyes slightly bleary.

“Do you wanna hear how much weight this thing can actually hold? I already calculated it. That’s how I knew it’d hold me, obviously.”

Rhodey rolled his eyes but couldn’t hold back a grin.

N3 - Free (Cuddling): You Would Be My World (1.1k, G)

Rhodey may have been the one to come home for leave, but Tony feels like home has come back to him.

B3 - Bodyguard AU, G3 - Howard Stark, & O3 - “I’m used to the pain”: A Love That's Insured (1.6k, T)

Apparently, people had tried to kidnap Tony one too many times and now Howard and Maria were pushing bodyguards on him left and right. As Howard had put it, the kidnappings “weren’t good for business,” but Tony thought this was taking it a stretch too far.

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love in vain

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ugh this hurts but it hurts so good... incredible!

Steve Rogers remembered every lie Tony had told him, every deception, every betrayal. He was overcome with anger, and killed Tony in a betrayal of his own. It was only after the deed that Steve realised it wasn’t worth it.

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don’t worry, darling

a fill for the @stevetonygames

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dichotomy

It’s cold in the tower. Or, maybe that’s just Steve. Snow is falling heavily outside, and even though his bedroom is a toasty above average temperature, he can’t help the shiver that rattles down his spine. The clicking of the analog clock on his nightstand mocks him, and he barely suppresses the urge to glare at it.

It’s Christmas Eve, and even though he knows he should be celebrating, going out to Mass, or volunteering, or something, he can’t bring himself to. It’s only been a few months since he had been defrosted, and he’s been getting better, but the loneliness he’s been keeping shoved into a dark corner of his mind is practically clawing at his insides now, threatening to suffocate him. 

He feels surrounded by all of the ghosts of people he used to know, of his mother, of Bucky, of the friends he made in the war, and he feels like he’s going to choke on it. 

His next breath comes out shaky, and he swallows thickly around the lump in his throat. 

“You know… I- I remember the first holiday I had without my parents,” a voice behind him says, and Steve doesn’t even jump. 

At some point his body had seemed to recognize Tony’s presence as not a threat no matter what, relaxing into his presence like a warm blanket, and Steve isn’t surprised by his presence. Tony seems to have a sixth sense when it comes to Steve’s bad moods and bouts of depression, and it’s no surprise he’s here, now. 

“Rhodey had to practically drag me out to eat food and not starve to death because I hadn’t left my bed in days. So… I’m not saying I understand completely, because I don’t think anyone can, but I want to be to you what Rhodey did for me,” Tony continues.

Steve continues to stare out the window.

“I’m here, Steve. We all are,” Tony says, then moves to stand in front of Steve, forcing the two of them to make eye contact. “Come on. Sam and Clint made pie and we’re all going to eat it in the living room and watch bad movies. It’ll be fun. I mean, I’m sure Clint will bitch about everything like he normally does, but that’s part of the charm, yeah? A little dysfunctional family, we are, huh?”

For the first time that day, Steve feels his lips twitch with the smallest of smiles. He nods and stands up, forcing Tony to take a step back. 

“Okay.”

Tony grins and grabs Steve’s hand, but Steve stops him before he can drag the both of them out to the living room. 

“I… I don’t say it enough, Tony, but thank you,” he starts, then clears his throat. “You gave me a home. I was so lost those first few weeks, and I don’t think I could have made it without you. Thank you.”

Tony’s cheeks flush an adorable shade of pink, and he stares at Steve for a moment before breaking eye contact and dragging Steve out of the room.

“You’re welcome. Now, let’s go, I’m starving.”

Steve just smiles softly and lets himself be led.

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in the ashes

Tony knows the second that the alien beam hits Steve that they have a problem. 

Buildings are smoldering around them. The corpses of the newly-dead alien creatures are slowly stirring once again; their leader stands in the middle of the pile, dressed almost incomprehensibly, holding what Tony can only describe as a weapon. 

Clint is hurt and was likely being escorted to medical somewhere behind them. They had been confident the battle was won, not worried about being a man down, and then this creature had seemingly emerged from the shadows and shot Steve with his weird blue ray gun, too fast for Tony or his technology to catch it.

So now, as he stands and stares at Steve, half out of the suit and not at all battle ready, he watches as the mist freezes Steve in his tracks. His body sways dangerously, and Tony almost reaches out to stabilize him before he comes back to himself with a sharp jolt. 

His eyes snap open and lock onto Tony’s immediately, eyes so blue they’re almost glowing. 

Tony feels a shiver run down his spine as Steve’s mouth curves into a grin with way too many teeth and says, “Hello, Tony.”

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try again

Steve kisses Tony, and Tony socks him in the jaw.

Steve kisses Tony, and Tony knees him in the groin. 

Steve kisses Tony, and Tony is disgusted.

Steve kisses Tony, and Tony pushes him away.

Steve kisses Tony, and Tony doesn’t kiss back. 

Steve kisses Tony, and Tony can’t look him in the eye. 

Steve kisses Tony, and Tony looks at him like he doesn’t know who Steve is. 

Steve kisses Tony, again and again and again. 

Steve kisses Tony, even though he doesn’t want to anymore.

Steve kisses Tony, even though it hurts.

Steve kisses Tony, and their friendship crumbles.

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it wasn’t worth it

some earth-20318 art done for the @stevetonygames! come join us!  [team angst, betrayal square]

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Rhodey (possibly) canon

The one thing I think fanfic authors miss, is Rhodey went to MIT with Tony. His major was probably aerospace engineering, since many Air Force officer candidates major in this area. You know what another name for an aerospace engineer is? Rocket scientist.

Rhodey is a rocket scientist.

Rhodey is a rocket scientist, y’all. Treat him with the scientific respect he deserves.

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he just wants to read his newspaper in peace, tony ((no he doesn’t))

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steve and tony aren’t here right now, but i can take a message

an edit of an iron man: rapture panel for the @stevetonygames! 

team angst, “mind control” square

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It’s suddenly cold out again even tho the sun is out and it was a while ago I drew a #Tony steals my wardrobe so here he is in what I wore today :)

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hello im,, soft

(pls do not repost or use my art in any way)

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line of fire || a 1872 stevetony edit

a terrible, “lord king bad vid” 1872 edit for the @stevetonygames team angst, free square! 

song is “line of fire” by junip!

warning for death + blood + alcoholism 

view it here

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an anniversary for something that no longer exists

made for the @stevetonygames! team angst + anniversary square.

(made using a free polaroid mockup collection)

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got myself angering over you 

an earth 3490 stevetony divorce playlist

1. disappointing diamonds are the rarest of them all - father john misty

2. ceramic real estate - riley pierce

3. hell froze over - kodaline

4. i don’t love you anymore - the honeysticks

5. deadwater - wet

6. stories we build, stories we tell - josé gonzález

7. the one that got away - the civil wars

8. homesick (piano version) - radical face

9. lungs - townes van zandt

10. supposed to be - jack johnson

11. i remember - devendra banhart

12. days go by - men i trust

made for the @stevetonygames​, team angst, “breakup” square. 

[listen on spotify]