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Them | Art Donaldson

MASTERLIST | AO3 | KO-FI

Relationship(s): Art Donaldson x gn!reader (unrequited romantic), Art Donaldson x Tashi Duncan x Patrick Zweig (romantic)

Summary: You'll never be them.

Warnings: Angst, unhappy relationship. (Let me know if I need to add any)

Word count: 0.3k

(A/N: I saw Challengers today and… oh boy. This throuple is so fucking compelling, I like depressing shit, and I had a crush on Mike Faist's Connor Murphy when I was a teen, so I figured why not write something to combine my crush, my love of depressing shit and my fascination with this throuple to write a little thing. I thought it'd be a really interesting dynamic to explore. If you'd be interested in seeing more from this idea, let me know, and I'll happily write something! I'm tempted to write an angsty thing where the reader is finally open about the fact that they know about Art's feelings for Tashi and Patrick.)

You’ll never be them. 

You’ll never be Tashi Duncan, whose gaze he craves like sunlight. It’s like he searches for his reflection in her eyes- no matter the distance between them- because that’s the only place he wants to exist, or can exist. He gets lost in them. It’s a good job he doesn’t want to leave; he couldn’t if he tried.

You’ll never be Patrick Zweig, whose smile would make his knees buckle were his legs not strong from years of training. His stare can’t stop time quite like Tashi’s, but he’d probably melt if Patrick looked at him for long enough.

Their history is something you’ve pieced together from scraps of anecdotes he’s reluctantly offered up over the time you’ve been together. Each one serves as a bedtime story you can’t help but tell yourself late at night, the ceiling a screen on which to project memories that aren’t yours. Art always faces away from you when you’re in bed together. You used to wonder if he was dreaming of them, or just her, or just him. But, one night, you noticed the moonlight reflected in his eyes, and you realised he was lying awake, too, as tortured by Tashi and Patrick as you.

He can love more than one person at a time. Maybe he loves you, too. But, he doesn’t love you like Tashi, or like Patrick. You know that. He can say those three magic words all he wants. He can kiss you. He can look at you. It all rings hollow when adoration practically radiates off him when he locks eyes with Patrick or Tashi. You recognise it because it’s like the adoration that radiates off you when you look at him.

But, you don’t say anything. Just like how Art doesn’t say anything.

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I want to write some Wallace Wells x nonbinary!reader headcanons, as a companion to my Wallace x transmasc!reader headcanons, but I'd like to recycle some of the transmac!reder stuff for the nonbinary!reader stuff because plenty of it works. I don't know if people will see something wrong with it even though it's all my own writing, but I'm still a little nervous about it regardless.

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Alright so I've gone from a transmasc crisis to a genderfluid crisis. So, I might write some genderfluid!reader or some nonbinary!reader hcs, if anyone would be interested in them. For the transmasc!reader hcs I've already written, I'll probably write an equivalent set for an enby!reader. (I'd also happily write some transfem!reader hcs, just let me know if you're interested).

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Could I PLEASE get some more Ray Stantz/Reader, specifically male reader if you don't mind 👉👈

of course! i've got a couple of Ray WIPs with a gender neutral reader, but i'd be happy to write something with a male reader specifically. do you have any specific scenarios you'd be interested in seeing? if not, i can wing it.

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I'm looking forward to finishing the Walking Dead solely because I'll be able to consult characters' Wiki pages to help me write mostly accurate fics without being completely spoiled about if/when/how they die (my toxic trait is that it severely bothers me when my own work isn't canon compliant, even when most readers won't care nearly as much as me).

I won't say I'm a huge anti-spoiler person, BUT since I'm watching the show with my brother, I don't want to have to silently live with the knowledge that something's going to happen or someone's going to die, even if he's seen a lot of it through YouTube shorts, and he knows that I've seen a lot of TWD stuff on Tumblr (I haven't mentioned specifically that I've read a lot of spoiler-heavy TWD reader-insert fics, since I'll never hear the end of it). Also, I just like having some tension, you know? If I know that so and so is going to die in this way, the tension's mostly gone when the show briefly teases that they're going to die in a different way.

(Though I did know that [redacted] would die in season [redacted] episode [redacted], but it was still really fucking shocking and disturbing in a way that a lot of horror media simply isn't, for me. at least.)

Anyway, I'm on season 7 of TWD, so I'll add it to my fandom list when I'm on the last season of the show, with a note saying not to spoil the last season when sending in asks. I've reblogged some TWD fics that I've enjoyed on my fanfic rec account, @cosmicballet; if you have any good reader-insert fics that don't spoil anything beyond season 7 and have a gender neutral, nonbinary, transmasc or male reader, feel free to send me a link or tag me or something (either with this blog or @cosmicballet). If it does have any spoilers, just let me know when you send it to me and I'll save it for later. I'm mainly interested in reading for Daryl because I'm basic af, but I'd be interested in reading for other characters, too, male and female, romantic and platonic. I'm also a Eugene simp but I know that a lot of fics about him feature spoilers for future seasons (I know the spoilers but I'd still like to avoid them for now). Michonne, Carol, Glenn and Maggie are my other beloveds, but again I'll read a fic centred on anyone as long as it's interesting enough. If it's Carl, I'd want something platonic, unless he's definitively 18+ in the fic. I'm not that into smut unless it's got fluff, angst and/or feelings in it. I prefer one-shots and headcanons but I'd be happy to read some short series. I don't have any triggers, but it'd be handy if fics were accurately and clearly tagged. Feel free to self-promote, too.

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I've only posted one fic for the Ghostbusters fandom, and I've been in this fandom for such a short space of time, but honestly this is one of my favourite fandoms I've been part of! I swear I'll be writing and posting some more Ghostbusters stuff. I've got some reader-inserts that I've started, and a Phoebe/Melody fic that I'm going to work on soon. Thank you so much for supporting me, and I hope you enjoy the stuff that is yet to come!

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Hi. Fellow trans boy here, I’m trying to cope. I don’t wanna be a woman but I keep calling myself one i know im not one so I actually got into male reader fics for once. I can understand your struggle.

Sending my love. You’re doing great man.

ah thank you so much, that really means a lot!! wishing you the best, too!!

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I'm currently working through a transmasculine crisis, so I've decided to write some fics to help me. I'm working on some sets of headcanons about characters having trans boyfriends, since a huge hurdle for me in considering the possibility of me being transmasc is the idea of being a masc-aligned person in a relationship and how that could look/work. So far, I've written a set of hcs for Wallace Wells, and I'm currently working on some for Alexis Rose. So, does anyone have any requests for characters they'd like me to write for? If you're not a regular on this blog, just check out my fandom list beforehand! I've indicated who my favourites to write for would be, so try to stick to them if you can.

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I've written two sets of headcanons over the past couple of days, which I'm really proud of! It's weird that I get so motivated to write when I'm sick, but I'm not at all complaining.

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Headcanons: Being Wallace Wells' Trans Boyfriend

MASTERLIST | AO3 | KO-FI

Relationship(s): Wallace Wells x transmasc!reader (romantic)

Warnings/info: Trans typical stuff, like dysphoria, transphobia etc. etc., sexual remarks, he/him pronouns for reader, headcanons were written in one sitting, when I was feeling not great. (Let me know if I need to add any)

(A/N: I've been reading a lot of Succession fics over the last few days. Last night I read a Roman Roy fic and for some reason it gave me this overpowering wave of dysphoria that I still have yet to fully recover from. Annoyingly, I have yet to actually watch Succession so this could have been avoided; I just think Kieran Culkin's hot and very gender so I couldn't resist pretending that someone with his face was my boyfriend. Reading about Roman made me think 'oh shit. Maybe I'm a flawed and pathetic little guy on the inside. But I just look like a woman who likes to kiss women and everyone treats me like a girl and uses my girl name and girl pronouns and that feels super gross and makes me want to live in a hole. Now I'm going to feel bad about that for the next few days.' So, yeah, I'm having another transmasc crisis that I'm using fanfiction to get me through. I figured Kieran Culkin started this, so I might as well write something featuring a character of his that I can actually write for. This is a self-indulgent and self-explorative treat for myself, but I hope that transmasc readers can enjoy this, too. If you'd like more Wallace stuff, trans stuff or Wallace AND trans stuff, feel free to send in a request. I really want to provide more fics for transmasc readers because you guys are super underrepresented (and, y'know, Papa Gonzo-rella wants to explore his gender a little more). Also, I swear that I will get around to watching Succession, and I more than likely will end up writing for it when I do.)

Respectfully, Wallace does not give a shit that you’re trans.

Of course, he doesn’t flat-out ignore it, because it’s part of who you are, but it isn’t an obstacle in your relationship by any means, and it doesn’t bother him in the slightest.

If you’re feeling dysphoric and/or otherwise insecure about yourself, he’ll pinch your cheeks and tell you how handsome and sexy you are.

If you’re feeling especially bad, like ‘not getting out of bed and hiding from the world’ bad, he’ll keep you company and say what he can to reassure you.

Being mushy and sincere truly isn’t his thing, so whatever he says will sound either slightly insensitive (but still pretty sensitive as far as Wallace goes), facetious or like he wants you to get over how you’re feeling so he can fuck you.

But, he genuinely doesn’t want you to feel bad and you can tell he cares, because otherwise he wouldn’t be there for you when you're feeling your worst.

Wallace is very affirming, but in his own Wallace way.

He lovingly refers to you as his lameass boyfriend.

If Scott ever compliments you about anything, Wallace will call him gay.

He will shout ‘gay’, like the Senor Chang meme.

"Hey, man, I like your shirt-"

"Ha, Scott's gay!"

"I-I'm not gay! I just like his shirt."

"What's wrong with being gay, Scott?"

"Nothing! There's nothing wrong with being gay!"

"You really need to work on your internalised homophobia, Scott. To think, my gay lover and I share a bed with a bigot."

If you’re doing anything that he knows will make you dysphoric or exacerbate your dysphoria (for example, scrolling through social media and looking at cis dudes that give you gender envy) he’ll shut it down.

Using the aforementioned example, he’ll snatch your phone off you and close the app, saying: “Nope. Make better decisions.”

And, while you’d initially be annoyed at him for grabbing your phone, you will appreciate it in the long run.

If you have testosterone shots but you’re not a fan of doing them yourself, he’ll begrudgingly help you with them.

He will make a very Wallace comment, though

“Stabbing? I didn’t know you were that kinky.”

If anyone’s a dick to you about being trans, Wallace is always ready to go with a snide remark about the other person, because of all the things you could possibly mock his lameass boyfriend for, being trans is at the bottom of that list.

(He should know, as the person who makes fun of you the most.)

Also, he cares about you very, very much and he doesn't want people being transphobic to his boyfriend.

If you’re cool with it, he will make trans jokes, but nothing ‘attack helicopter’ or ‘attack helicopter’ adjacent, because he’s too clever for that and he can come up with better material that isn’t just derivative, transphobic garbage.

If you get your period and it makes you at all dysphoric, be prepared for this exchange:

“Don’t worry. Scott pissed blood last month and cried about it and he’s still a man.”

“Did-did he go to the doctor?”

“I don’t know. He seems fine now, though.”

If you still have boobs and don’t mind them being touched or otherwise acknowledged, he will use them like a pillow.

If you decide to get top surgery, he will make the following request:

“Well, if you’re not using them, can I have them? I need a pillow that Scott won’t steal. And, he wouldn’t steal your tits, because he knows I’d call him gay for it.”

“Why are you like this, Wallace?”

“Selfish.”

Being trans doesn’t make your relationship much different from any of Wallace’s other relationships.

You’re just, for better or worse, another one of Wallace’s boyfriends.

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SCHITT'S CREEK MASTERLIST

ALEXIS ROSE

Alexis Taking Care of You When You’re Sick (headcanons)

DAVID ROSE

David Taking Care of You When You’re Sick (headcanons)

STEVIE BUDD

Stevie Taking Care of You When You’re Sick (headcanons)

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Headcanons: Alexis Rose, David Rose and Stevie Budd Taking Care of You When You're Sick

MASTERLIST | AO3 | KO-FI

Relationship(s): Alexis Rose x gn!reader (romantic or platonic), David Rose x gn!reader (romantic or platonic), Stevie Budd x gn!reader (romantic or platonic)

Warnings: Reader has a common cold, which gets ever so slightly gross at points, if you squint. Possible grammatical oversights because I'm sick myself. (Let me know if I need to add any)

(A/N: This is my third cold of the year. I have no idea why I keep getting sick, but at least it's inspired me to write more than I did last year, I guess! The first time I got sick, I wrote headcanons and a ficlet for Yellowjackets, Community, Dead Poets Society and Scott Pilgrim characters taking care of a sick reader. This time around, I felt motivated to write for Schitt's Creek. I haven't finished the show (I'm on season 5, I believe), and as of writing this A/N I haven't added it to my fandom list yet. But, anyway, it's nice to pretend that these guys are my friends or lovers who are taking care of me in my feeble state. I made it ambiguous because I figured more people could get more out of this, plus it didn't feel necessary to make it solely romantic or platonic. Anyway, feel free to send in Schitt's Creek requests, especially for Stevie and Alexis, my beloveds.)

ALEXIS

The word ‘ew’ comes up a lot.

Alexis 100% keeps her distance*.

She’ll be in the room with you, but she will have one foot out of the door.

At some point, you will ask her for a box of tissues, and she will throw them at you from across the room like she’s feeding something she’s afraid of.

If she hits you in the head with it, she will offer up an apology.

*She’ll work up the courage to inch closer and closer to you, until eventually she’s at your bedside.

She’ll spend a lot of time on her phone to the point that it feels insulting that she’s blatantly ignoring you when you’re feeling this awful, BUT she is actually spending a lot of time looking into the best ways to treat your cold.

She might get distracted by some gossipy headlines between medical articles, though.

You will be able to tell when she audibly gasps and reads out the headline to you with shock and glee.

You’ll have to tell her if you want anything because she will not, at least to begin with, take initiative.

She tries to get out of going to the drug store herself, and she asks Ted, Twyla, her parents, David and Stevie if they can go on her behalf because she claims to be too busy taking care of you to go herself.

But, she’ll go herself when no one ends up being available, and she’ll ask you not to die while she’s gone.

If you’re asleep when she gets back, she’ll repeat your name, poke you and shake you until you wake up, startled and slightly irritated.

But, it’s just because she’s worried you’re dead/dying, which you are absolutely not allowed to do on her watch.

It comes from a place of caring about you <3

According to her, it would be ‘super embarrassing if you died from a cold’.

She’ll proudly show you everything she bought from the drug store, and she’ll buy you an unnecessary present because she knows that receiving a gift would make her feel better if she were ill.

By the end of it, she actually kind of enjoys taking care of you, and she’ll take great pride in your recovery.

DAVID

David is very similar to Alexis when it comes to taking care of you.

He will ask you if you’re sure there’s no one else available to take care of you, and he will resort to suggesting people you’ve barely spoken to until he eventually just caves.

Like with Alexis, David will not make an effort to disguise how utterly repulsed he is by you.

He will insult you so many times, mostly without meaning to be so offensive, and he will sheepishly apologise for it when you send him an unimpressed glare.

He’ll keep his distance, not as much as Alexis, but he definitely keeps you at least at an arm’s length.

He ends up stinking of hand sanitiser because of how often he keeps applying it.

If you ask him to get you something, he will do it with a sigh.

Every time you cough or sneeze, he flinches like a brick’s been thrown through the window.

He’ll tuck his nose and mouth under his top if/when you have a coughing or sneezing fit.

He’ll go as far as to offer to make you soup or go to the store so he doesn’t have to be in the same room as you.

But he’ll insist that he just wants to help you feel better.

You do not buy it.

Despite his boredom, he’d feel rude spending too much time on his phone (or you might tell him to get off his phone because you’re bored, and he’d rather not deal with that), so he’ll end up putting a trashy reality show on to distract you from how you’re feeling (and to entertain himself).

Seeing you so under the weather does make him feel genuinely bad for you.

The only reason he accepts his role as your unqualified nurse is because he cares about you, whether or not he clearly expresses that.

But, he does start to think more about you than himself as the day goes on.

Like, he forgets about his own self-pity that he felt about having to spend his day taking care of you.

Regardless of how awful you look and feel, he will tease you about being sick.

Any pity he expresses for you is said with heavy sarcasm and condescension.

You can get back at him by throwing a snotty tissue at him.

It will deeply upset him.

STEVIE

Of the three of these guys, Stevie is the least repulsed by you.

She’s still at least slightly disgusted by you.

But, she’s nowhere near as dramatic about it as Alexis and David are.

She will only slightly hesitate to get near you.

But, it’s more because of her guarded nature as opposed to any aversion to your sickness.

She’d rather not get sick herself, but she won’t go to the lengths that Alexis and David will to avoid it.

A small part of her wouldn’t mind getting sick only because it’d be funny to upset David with it.

Like David, she will make fun of you and laugh at you for being sick, because one of her main love languages is mocking the misfortune of her loved ones.

She will tell you how gross you are, even if it doesn’t actually bother her that much.

She will half-heartedly apologise if you’re obviously not amused by it.

Of Alexis, David and herself, she is the most proactive, which might be surprising considering that, when she’s working, she rarely bothers to get up and do things unless prompted, and even then she’s pretty hesitant.

But, she’ll offer to go to the drug store before you have to ask her.

She’ll insist that you’ll feel better after a glass of wine, but it’s obvious she just wants a glass of wine, too.

She’s very attentive to you.

Sure, she’ll go on her phone, especially when you’re sleeping, but she won’t neglect you.

She enjoys your company, which she doesn’t express in any way besides the fact that she will have conversations with you that last for hours.

Like with David, you’ll probably end up watching some dumb TV show to distract/entertain yourselves.

She will take it upon herself to remember when you have to take your medicine, and she’ll be great at reminding you to drink something when she notices you haven’t in a while.

Of course she’ll say it in her own Stevie way that makes it seem like she doesn’t really care (but you know her well enough to know that she does).

“You might wanna drink something if you don’t want to sound like the Babadook anymore.”

Stevie’s concern for you and your recovery may not be at all overt, but she does sincerely want to see you get better.

After all, just sitting with you in your room all day gets pretty boring when you’re not feeling like yourself and you keep falling asleep.

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GHOSTBUSTERS MASTERLIST

RAY STANTZ

Being Married To Old Man Ray Stantz (headcanons)

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Headcanons: Being Married To Old Man Ray Stantz

MASTERLIST | AO3 | KO-FI

Relationship(s): old man!Ray Stantz x gn!also old!reader (romantic)

Warnings: Possibly inaccurate science words, because I'm a simpleton. (Let me know if I need to add any)

(A/N: Here's my first Ghostbusters thing! I've got a few other Ghostbusters fics in the works, mostly Ray-based reader-inserts because I'm in love with him, but I've also got a Phoebe-centric character study in the works that's based on part of her storyline in Frozen Empire. By the way, I loved Frozen Empire! I've already seen it three times, and it's such a joy. I'll try to catch it a couple more times at least before it leaves cinemas. Anyway, I haven't included any explicit spoilers for Frozen Empire in this, so you're safe to read this if you haven't seen it yet. I'd love to write more old man Ray Stantz fics, especially something involving Phoebe. I'm really excited to write for Ghostbusters, so feel free to send in requests! I've only seen the movies, but I plan on watching the Real Ghostbusters at some point soon. Also, even though I took my mum to see Frozen Empire the other day, I still don't have anyone to talk to about this movie, so please feel free to talk to me about it!)

It’s evident that, even after all of these years, Ray is still madly in love with you.

The adoration with which he looks at you is clear as day.

Venkman has always loved to tease you both about how sickly sweet your relationship is.

He will make fake gagging when either of you are affectionate to one another when he’s around.

(He won’t admit it, but he actually finds your relationship to be kind of cute)

It’s not like either of you are overly lovey-dovey, especially now.

Ray’s naturally a very passionate and expressive guy, but he’s rarely mushy.

Still, you show one another how much you care.

I have this idea that your silent way of saying ‘I love you’ to each other is holding the other’s hand, stroking their knuckles with your thumb and smiling at them.

It just seems so cute to have this thing that you’ve been doing for your whole relationship.

Ray knows you like the back of his hand, and you know him just the same.

It’s almost scary how well you know one another.

I can imagine that there’s been a time that someone’s asked one of you a question, and the other has been able to answer it with ease.

I love the idea of Ray being with someone who’s not a scientific mind like himself.

So, if you’re not as knowledgeable about the supernatural as Ray, you’ll still have picked up on plenty of information against your will, and Ray will always be impressed with and proud of you when you manage to regurgitate or understand his ‘science-y word salad’ (as you have referred to it).

He will also find it very attractive when you talk supernatural or science to him, but he tries not to make it obvious.

His eyes still light up like he’s a kid on Christmas when he explains supernatural stuff to you or tells you about a new psychically charged item he’s bought, and you find it so endearing.

Also, I can imagine him practically forcing you to listen to Podcast’s podcast when he discovers it, and you both end up getting really into it.

As devoted as he still is to his work and his supernatural endeavours, spending time with you is his greatest priority.

He might miss being an active Ghostbuster, but the silver lining of it is that he gets more time with you than he ever used to.

Even if you both used to be Ghostbusters, it’s nice to spend time together that doesn’t involve being covered in ghost slime and shouting over nuclear accelerators.

If you’ve not got anything else to do, I think it’d be sweet if you kept him company in his store.

Phoebe and Trevor are your honorary grandkids and you and Ray are beyond proud of them, especially Phoebe, who you’re closest to of the two of them.

Phoebe will always remind the both of you of Egon, so whenever she does something particularly Egon-like, you will exchange a knowing glance, and when she’s gone you’ll end up reminiscing about your old friend.

If Phoebe or the other Spenglers ever want to hear about Egon, you’re both more than happy to talk to them about him.

Even in his golden years, Ray is still the same sweet, passionate, excitable man you married all those years ago.

Sure, the regular excitement that came with Ghostbusting is long behind you both, but you both cherish this quieter time together just as much.

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Hi idk if you still write for Ted lasso but could you possibly do another Jamie tartt x reader? Male reader if you write that but if not gn is fine too :))

hi! i plan on rewatching seasons 1 and 2 and (finally) watcing season 3 before i write and post anything for TL again (like, i've got a Jamie fic in the works, but i wouldn't want to release it until i've seen the show again) BUT i'd be happy to write something with a male reader when i eventually get back into the show! do you have any specific scenario/prompt?

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Do you write dark or yandere stuff?

not really, sorry. i'll write fics that might be quite dark in terms of content, but i won't write 'dark' versions of the characters.

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I've officially added Ghostbusters to my fandom list! I've included the original characters and the characters in Afterlife and onwards. If I've missed out a character you want me to write for, feel free to ask if I'd be okay with writing for them. Full disclosure, I'm currently focusing on some self-indulgent Ray fics. I don't know when they'll be finished, but I'm really motivated to write them so I hope they'll be out soon-ish. I've got a duology, a one-shot and a set of headcanons in the works.