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I just finished watching the ending for the n25 wl2 ending and just wanted to share my thoughts warning: (spoilers and a long yap and rant) sorry if its a bit all over the place

My siblings told me i was overreacting for crying at some fictional charactefs hahaha i just couldn't help it and also because i dont really care what they think... in the end Kanade never got to listen to her fathers song

We are def gonna get kanade angst seeming as she seemed to be a bit distance from the others also Mafuyu getting lonely without there daily meet up at 25:00 is so bittersweet

Mafuyu has really grown, not only that Ena and Mizuki as well, all of them being together in the end makes me so happy

I cried so much, more than ive ever cried in my whole life i think, i really just couldn't help it, i watched this fictional characters grow and interact and its just a story in a rythm game and yet i feel so emotionally attached to this characters and technically they are older than me i think

The ending is just... gosh

Kanade remebering Luka's words and creating a song

Ena finding that song and creating art for it and then getting a dm from K saying "Enanan thanks, i will be waiting on nightcord" then Ena remembering her times with them is just- thats the first few tears

Then a Kanaena moment (in my opinion) "Thanks K- no matter where i am, K would always find me huh" then the tears flow even more

And then Mizuki finding the same song and remembering the other members word- the tears starts to become uncontrollable (dont know if i spelled that right and idc)

"I think its because Amia expanded my world, thats why i was able to create that song" words from Kanade from what i remeber was Kana1 (sega can we PLEASE have more KanaMizu content)

"To have been able to see you after a long while.... Im glad" from Mafuyu, which i dont remember where she said it actually its either from the time that Mafuyu ran away from home after confronting her mother or maybe the Nooncord or maybe from the kanade side story

And finally.. the "Lets stay together Mizuki, everyone in Niigo is also waiting" from Ena after the disaster of Mizu5

After reminising she got a Dm from non other than K and maybe i managed to calm down but my pillows were definetly not safe from the amount of times i stopped myself from just punching it due to excitement

And then Mafuyu who remembers in which i assumed from the time where a classmate made Mafuyu listens to one of K's song that was more of a happy tune

Mafuyu who wanted to let them to experience the happiness a little longer and then Mafuyu listens to Kanade's song

And then Kanade runs up with a bit more stamina to Mafuyu calling her name, (soulmates in every universe fr) and i literally screamed when Mafuyu dropped the facade ahdhdhdhdh

Then they met up at their usual time and talked about how weird this dream they were having and talking about working until morning before a knock could be heard from Kanade's room

It was her father and that moment was when the tears started coming again like ahshshhs

They talked and Kanade's expression is just soo aughh she's so cute yet she looked so sad and almost about to cry

She then requested to hear her father sing again which made me cry so much and in the end she woke up before she even heard it... WHICH WAS THE MOST CRUELEST THING EVER I COULDN'T EVEN AHSHDHDHHD

WHYYY I CANNTTTT IM GONNA CRY JUST THINKING ABOUT IT

Honestly if i were in Kanade's situation as soon as i wake up, i would've started crying and she seemed like she wanted to cry when she also woke up

Like i get that it was supposed to be a happy moment that they were together again and not separated and alone but aghdhd

Tho Kanade's words are so sweet "no matter if its the past present or future, I'll definitely go search for everyone" ahdhdhdh and you know what this is one of the reason why i love polyniigo whether you see them as platonic or romantic i love their relationships and maybe thats why i cried so much even after the "show" is over..

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Y'know now that i think about it, wouldn't it hurt more if Mafuyu knows that the world link 2 au is not real

Like hear me out for a moment

Since y'know her interaction with her mother, when her mafumom said that she doesn't need to be a doctor she uses her fake smile

And when she heard Kanade's music maybe thats the moment she realize this was not their world and all of it is just a dream

Maybe thats why she visited the shop Mizuki was working at, and maybe thats why she uses her fake smile when talking with Mizuki

Maybe thats the reason why she faked her smile when her friends mentioned Kanade when they were eating pancakes(?) Because she thought about the Kanade in their world and how Kanade would've had a happy life

Maybe thats why she asked Kanade what she wanted to do otherside from composing and try it all with Kanade

Maybe she was happy seeing Kanade and Ena interact even if its not real

Maybe she just wanted to experience the happiness even if its just for a moment

Because its the world where they no longer suffered and experience the happiness they were longing for.

Edit:

HELP ITS ACTUALLY TRUE! MAFUYU REMEMBERS SEGA WHYYYY I JUST GOT STABBED AND THE KNIFE GOT TWIST

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No cause the way that this wl2 is supposed to be a more "happier" version of n25 and an au where n25 was never formed made it even more devastating

Like im supposed to be happy that Kanadad is not in the hospital bed and Ena getting more appreciation from her art and Mizuki working in a cute shop and making her dreams come true and Mafumom being a more accepting and a much more better mom

But gosh it made me more sad about the situation

And it made me realize just how true the line "our suffering is our bond" or somewhere along those lines

Cause they only met because they were suffering and was at their lowest

And its just heartbreaking

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Me probably hating school because your telling me that I MISSED A SHINY DUO HH?????? AHHSHSHDHDHD DAY 11 AS WELL!! I HATE BEING BUSY SO MUCHHH

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IM BEGGING TO HAVE MORE EVENT FOCUS ON THE TWO OF THEM

They are really my favorite duo or ship

i'm thinking about them

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oh look the Gempearl tag finally have 1000 fics in ao3

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I remember seeing something along the lines of Kanade being the only character based of a vocaloid but maybe that's just another dream or a false memory that i seem to keep having

but that's besides the point, i feel like they did it on purpose, them having similar designs to show that their relationship not only affects them mentally but they are also even just slightly connected physically as well

i might be going too far with this but that's just my theory on as to why they look similar :3

I know Luka is Kanade’s vocaloid (I just always struggled understanding their similarities, which has been changing lately since I’ve been actually trying 😭)

Besides that, omg, I never realized how visually similar n25luka and Kanade are

Like you’re going to sit there and tell me that this card isn’t just Kanade with different bangs and pink hair.

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Ohhh i just finished reading mafu6 and there will be spoilers here so be alarmed

The story made me feel like i was stabbed in the heart and they twist it to make it more painful

When things finally started to be better and Mafuyu's smile is starting to become real even at school (judging by emu's reaction)

they just nope and gave us false hope

it's honestly expected and i expected it to not end in a happy ending (like hello the instrumentals is already concerning enough) and its really painful to watch

I really wish the best for the Asahina Family

You could see that Mafumom was trying her best to not hurt Mafuyu and consider her feelings more and is trying her best to support Mafuyu in any way she can but Everytime she thinks she says something wrong she apologize quickly and tries to steer of the conversation, you can see it affect her and she even went to council(i forgot the word for it) to learn how to be a better parent and for Mafuyu..

Mafuyu feels like she's burdening her mother and making her suffer again and she doesn't want her mother to feel hurt because of her and so she went and went back to her old habits and hides her feelings again to not burden and hurt her mother more but in turn it ended up hurting them both in the process

They both experience trauma but they are trying to fix it but sometimes they ended up making some bad decisions so it ended up going back to square 1

Honestly Mafudad is definitely a great dad, He noticed immediately that Mafuyu was hiding her feelings again when talking about the topic and along with Kanade helps Mafuyu say what she feels which then causes Mafumom to realize what shes doing is hurting Mafuyu again which makes her feel guilty

So Mafuyu comes back to Kanade's house again to settle down and calm down a bit..

I really wish the best for them, I hope they could communicate better, they are in a cycle of hurt and im sure with the help of mafudad and the rest of niggo then they could finally heal and move forward... and afterwards its Kanade's turn to suffer whahahaha/j

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Kanade gets her chair that miku stole back

I drew it from memory, it does not look like her at all, its my first time drawing her as well

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Mafu6 trailer is out and my gosh im so nervous for it like the instrumentals makes me so scared cause it reminds me of Bake no hana and a bit of empurple which by the first one is already bad

Plsssss dont tell me i got my hopes up for Mafumom for absolutely nothing! ahh im soo gonna crash out and the events not even out yet

I know its gonna get even worse by the fact that Kana5 is only the rising action of Kanade's story and its already concerning and considering that Kanade keeps pushing her feelings away and only focus and Mafuyu which is WHY the reason for the fact that Kanade's events mostly– infact her events are actually more focused on her and her feelings and the only reason why you guys think that its mostly focus on Mafuyu is because Her feelings are about Mafuyu and how she could save her like how Ena is with her art and Mizuki with her secret!

anyways im getting out of topic I just hope that things wont turn out for the worst (it will probably end up for the worst)

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Wait what did Pearl do to deserve to be in exile!?

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I Headcanon That whenever Gem calls Pearl "wet cat" or even "Pathetic" Pearl consciously or unconsciously shapeshift into a cat and Gem is allergic to cats so Pearl is the only cat she's allowed to go near to and touch

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I think it's time we consider that the April fools are not canon to the life series but an alternate universe on it, like for me the April fools series is just a fun game between friends with no involvement of martyn's lore with Watchers and listeners. with no sun, moon, stars, earth, ect.

I also think since there are now 2 april fools Winner then we could consider that the winners of April fools are separated from the winners of the Life series, Like The April fools life is its own little series separated from the life series but with similarities

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Pearl and her block

If you can't tell the block is supposed to be the Pearlescent Froglight

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Y'know its funny that we joked that the Pearlescent froglight was named after pearl but then we found out that its actually named after her

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Some of my Shiny duo headcanons!

Pearl has a rubber chicken named Larry she always carries around for good luck and sometimes she throws Larry at Hermits for fun (Gem is "kinda" jealous that Pearl is relying on a "stupid rubber chicken" for good luck instead of her)

Sometimes you can see Pearl sleeping on one of the Hermits base, whether its on the outside or inside their base in the middle of the afternoon (Commonly spotted in Gem's base)

Gem will sometimes try to wake up early just so she can chat with Pearl and distract her from doing anything productive

When Pearl actually needs to do something productive she will still get distracted by Gem, and Sometimes she distracts Gem by making Gem do something Productive

Gem will sometimes steal some of Pearl's clothes and roleplay as her even though its a little big on her

Pearl barely feels cold anymore despite it freezing outside (because of the events of double life) and Gem forces her to wear something to help her stay warm because pearl doesn't notice when she's shivering

when Pearl is in need of luck and Larry is nowhere to be seen, She'll just drag Gem along (Gem hides Larry from Pearl sometimes because of this)

Pearl really can't say no to Gem no matter what, even if its dangerous or could risk one of them or both of them dying

Pearl always knows when Gem visits her Base even if she wasn't there to see it, she has to flip every trapdoor that Gem flicked everytime

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Another sleeping pearl, idk why i love drawing her sleeping

just thought i should upload this before i sleep