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It is truly criminal that Chuck Tingle is known as "the guy whose porns have weird names" and not "the guy who wrote the fucking rawest expression of queer rage I've ever laid my eyes upon." Anyways read Straight by Chuck Tingle.

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Could you maybe reblog this post if you think respecting trans peoples' names and identities is a basic right and not a political opinion?

No pressure. Just seeking some validation of my sentiment. Due to some. people

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One thing I will always resent (affectionate) my trans masc brothers and masc leaning enby siblings for is, that if you're on T your voice drops organically. Like, there can still be voice training required, but the voice still changes nonetheless.

Plus, some of you get these wicked af looking top surgery scars.

Meanwhile, we get honking tits, so I feel like it balances out

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No one mentions how hard it is to have unsupportive supportive parents. Yes they say they love you and they don't kick you out of the house after you come out, they might even support your decision on transitioning and changing your name ect. But on the flip side they don't make an effort to use your pronouns or your name, they misgender you without a second thought and they even sometimes do it in front of people and act surprised when you correct them. There's nothing worse than going home knowing that you're going to face a whole lot of misgendering and deadnaming but when someone asks you about it you have to say "well they support my decision to transition" like it's an acceptable excuse.

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Time for some love and positivity for the trans men!

Reblog to give a freshly baked bread roll, a bowl of homemade soup, and a soft fleece blanket to a trans man and tell him he's gorgeous!

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Quiet and peaceful lay the meadow,

Not a bird was in the sky.

A giant oak tree threw its shadow

On a corpse lying by its side.

A metal plate guarding its breast;

Metal and flesh sunken into dust,

A long steel sword sticking out of its chest

Covered in notches and destined to rust.

A mighty soldier this might have been.

What epic battles he must have fought!

Was he slain by an enemy of kin

Or did he fall prey to the fortune he sought?

But no! This death was not the end

For he was chosen by the odds.

His fate was for him to be meant

To sit in Valhalla, feasting with the gods!

A gust of wind ran through the fields,

And – observed by people forth and nigh-

A sudden silver beam

Breached the clouds within the sky.

A woman stepped out of the light

With armour guarding arm and knee,

A heavy breastplate, dark-blue eyed:

It was the lady Valkyrie.

With sharp edged sword and silver hair,

With light-blue armour and steady stand

Her words of magic filled the air

As she began her divine chant:

„Soul“, said she,

„You have been slain in fight.

So I was sent, the Valkyrie,

to help you in this plight.

By Odins will and with the gods' consent

I shall take you as a whole.

Your wounds and armour I shall mend -

It shall be engraved upon your soul!“

An azure flame rose from his chest

And into the maidens palm.

She took the man to his well earned rest

And once more the wind was calm.

The Valkyrie, she took him in,

The warrior wise and brave.

A small white feather fell from her wing

To the ground and marked his grave.

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she’s also a lesbian <333

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Bridget aka my daughter i would die for 💖🏳️‍⚧️

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If we're too masculine then we're disgusting freaks. They collect the most masculine of us - innocent women minding their own business trying to live a life that was denied to them - and mock us, openly discussing how nobody could ever love us, how nobody could be fooled that we're women.

If we're too feminine then we're stupid men. They find the most tone deaf quotes from trans girls, usually those who have been out for only months if they're out at all. They find these quotes of girls still learning how to be women, post them everywhere as proof that we are just pantomime caricatures of women.

If we are too strong then we are violent and dangerous. We are an unfair factor in sport, evil men just trying to steal victories from real women. We could lose our temper at any moment. We are a risk that cannot be tolerated. If we're too weak then we are to be mocked. They call us failed men who ran to womanhood because we couldn't take it. We're victims of our own masculinity. Poor feminine men to be saved... In the same way that Republicans want to save those 'poor unborn babies.'

If we lose our temper we're back to dangerous men. But if we cry, if our shoulders buckle under the weight of endless, endless, ENDLESS, ENDLESS, ABUSE. Then they mock us again. They share pictures of trans women crying and laugh over it. Of course they make sure to find the pictures where our stubble is showing, our makeup has already run. It's not the way that women are mocked for weakness; it's the way men are. They find videos where are lips are trembling. Where our voice has gone deep because we don't have the energy to keep it at its heightened octave.

If we find ourselves ugly they mock us. But if we're happy with ourselves then we're disgusting degenerates. "Autogynephilic." Medicalized. They find the tweets of newly out girls who said something improper in their tiny moment of not guarding themselves. An awkward, amateurish attempt at roleplay or dirty talk becomes a meme. A woman who likely spent years growing the courage to begin sexual exploration, probably for the first time in her life, sees herself come up every so often in their replies, their threads, their gifs. What happens to these people? Is it even possible for them to ever resume that exploration?

We're trying to trick everyone into dating us. We should be required to show visible identification on us at all times; to be trans without the people around you knowing is deceit. But also, nobody would ever date us, everyone can tell, immediately, always. Everyone knows, the terfs say GLEEFULLY. Reveling in the idea that our subconscious is constantly telling us this. Basking in the thought of our depression and anxiety eating our minds until there's nothing left.

Even the terfs never stay the same for long. One moment it's a wall of 'concerned mothers' with all the passive-aggressive venom of a white woman calling the police because she doesn't want to put a leash on her dog; make ABSOLUTELY NO MISTAKE that these are the same people. The next it's anime-avatar alt righters. The next it's puritanical Christians claiming we are the natural result of the "rainbow agenda." It's lesbians saying that we're destroying lesbianism, following right on the heels of a pastor saying that anything that isn't a man and a woman is unnatural.

Half the URLs are Mumsnet and half are Kiwifarms. How many are bots? Sock puppets? How many really are just transphobic housewives accessing Kiwifarms from their phones? How many took the full plunge? The answer to all of the above is, we don't know, but it's a whole lot more than zero.

Every time we go into a bathroom, there's a chance we'll be the next screen shot pasted over reddit. It doesn't matter whether it's the men's or women's. They are equally unsafe.

If we need a women's shelter, we flip a coin on whether the person running it has already decided she hates us, because of these people.

We cannot upload a picture to facebook without this risk.

We cannot post about our lives without this risk.

We cannot appear at our work without this risk.

We cannot exist without this risk.

Every possible action we could take will be judged. There is no outcome that isn't negative. There is nothing we can do that isn't negative. Masculinine, feminine, pretty, ugly, angry, sad, sexual, frigid, proud, ashamed, strong, weak. Pre-op, post-op, non-op. Vagina, ovaries, chromosomes, fertility: womanhood is defined as whatever we aren't in that particular context.

I don't want to think about how many people this has killed. To call it a moving goal-post is inept, it is a void, an endless mass of hatred that follows us no matter what we do. Nothing is good enough. Everything, every single thing, is just waiting to be weaponized against us.

It has killed so, so many.

It won't kill any more.

If you're trans and you're reading this you already know everything I said. We've lived through it. You already know that I've spent time as all of the above because you have too. That when I get SIX HUNDRED COMMENTS calling me a man I want to swing my fists and I want to cry and I want to curl into a ball and I want to scream and I want to end my own miserable existence. The ugly beautiful girl in the mirror is so angry and sad and prideful and ashamed and violent and passive and this constant stream of abuse has torn me apart and created so many ugly things in this mind but if there is ONE. FUCKING. THING. THAT. THEY. WILL. NOT. MAKE. ME.

It is dead.

I will live. I will survive. And I don't even care about justice anymore. These people will get away with all this. Somewhere in that mix of the trans population and the infamous 40% number is a figure of how many people they've killed, but they'd never care. I'll live because all of their jeering and mocking and gaslighting and those goddamn fucking insufferable legions of laugh reacts, they don't do a fucking thing.

That's all it comes down to in the end. It's hard and it's painful and it hurts, it just ENDLESSLY hurts to weather their blows. But my name is Alexia. I am a woman.

You can hurt me all you like, but that won't change, and you can die mad about it.

- Lindwyrm Weisseritter