warm wild wind .
warm wild wind, what are you trying to tell me?
you swim through the trees so recklessly
what is it you long to tell me?
sometimes a whisper sometimes a roar
your swell it serenely surrounds me
and nudges me home to a familiar front door
where i fumble in darkness for keys.
you haunt through my hair
rushing against my ears
and always reverse on a dime
destruction occasional
seasonally sensational
what is you keep on your mind?
and once in my room, you greet me soon
and dance life through two tired curtains
i sit down to talkÂ
but you suddenly stopÂ
your message left vague and uncertain
the stir you possess still silent as all,
i drown in a stagnant seaÂ
of aimless air that sifts through the hall
with no ambition or reason to flee
warm wild windÂ
please visit again
what is it you are longing to tell me?
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spring
the night I saw your soul
I lowered to my knees and
cleaned the curiosities from my skull
i pictured your death prematurely
through my wine glass across the table
while the singers held their flat notes from the stage
i watched you gnaw at the skin around your finger tips
maybe youâre hoping to pop one open and have the magic flow freely
from your mind to the page
from your voice to the stage
we harbor the split flame
from winds wild and untamed
we share the anonymous name
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lake lessons
ready?
do you wanna go together? come, lets hold hands.
no?
alright.
all that matters is that you do it, okay?
.. are you sure you donât wanna do it together?
alright.. Â !
each of your feet slapped flat and hard against the white dusty cliff until your skinny frame shot itself into the sky. we were half naked and suspended above an unfamiliar lake somewhere in texas. well, now it was just me. night was rolling in slow as all hell. the habitual hit from the one hitter didnât soothe my nervousness. to be straightforward, tossing my body into the abyss is not my thing. i like the ground. i like the stability. planes make me cry. roller-coasters make me cringe. i like to just sit and watch the sky roll over the lake, not risk being harmed by one of its unseen watery perils..
an oval of water burst upward from where you carved into the lake- the explosive hiss of unhappy water yanking me from my brain. sheepishly i gazed over the edge to see what became of you. it appeared you had survived- treading water with one eye locked in an accidental wink, peering up at me. you smiled big and echoed gentle encouragements into the cove below in a soft-spoken southern accent. the hair on your head matted itself to your forehead in strangely stylish curls. â1,2,3, fuck it! â. you kept spitting out deliveries of lake water between wide toothy grins.
minutes were passing and i had hardly moved. talking to myself anxiously, trying still to remain some degree of coolcalmandcomposed while facing these subconscious shadows publicly. i felt sickened by the symbolism of my inner demons confronting me with such an unoriginal yet classic scene. your smile was fading gradually due to your legs growing tired, even though you didnât let on.
fear, my constant constriction. my choke up. my backout. my way out. but this time i knew the only way out was through. my feet betrayed my brain and thrust me forward and up and off.
i had toyed with some ideas about what form iâd take prior to jumping, but none of them panned out. i claimed an awkward and ungraceful pencil dive and held my nose prematurely. the fall was eternal. the seconds were looping. i could hear everything for a long time. your holler bounced off the walls of the cave. my body heaved into the oblivion of the luke warm lake.
when i emerged i was concerned with my makeup. a tell tale sign i need to work on my priorities. Â you were there with me, once i smeared the uninvited water from my eyes, grinning and congratulating me. i felt silly getting praise for something so seemingly simple as letting go..
you held me near in the dark choppy water as we clung to the cove walls of the cliff. color flood my face. maybe adrenaline feels a lot like love.
i finally felt close to you.
i wanted to stay down there a little longer. where there were no distractions. no phones no cigarettes no coughing no traffic talk no sleep no sex no drugs no radio. we couldnât hide from each other. i wanted to stay and swim and look into you, unabashedly wet and stoned and well-intentioned. graze pale loving bodies beneath the green hue of the lake. but you grinned, cleared your throat and talked to yourself about your footing as we sought a way to scale the rocks back up.
iâm sure i could have said something.
told you how i felt.
but that fear thing.
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april showers
 i trace my ring slowly across the curve of my upper lip. the smooth squareness of the stone soothes me. the barista is pissed because i ask for more half and half.  i nuke my coffee three times and still never finish it. the desktop background is a pixelated galaxy. i choose a clump of imaginary nebula to stare at as the phone rings in my ear. i picture you kissing me somewhere we shouldn't be kissing, not that we should be kissing anyway. someone answers the phone. i exhale. the pizza boxes are stacked in the dark. my laundry receipt holds my place in a hemingway book. my one consolation in planes is knowing that if i die, at least it would be an easy perfectly usable excuse for not having made anything of myself. i am peeved. if i have to see one more sharply waxed mustache on the L train or sit through another shitty pseudo folk band that dresses like they're from the 1800's i'm gonna slit my throat. my coffee is cold again.
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filmed & edited this little montage of a life in queens with some friends of the century. enjoy!
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myself, incase you were otherwise unaware on this personal blog o' mine
Mackenzie Greer, 2013
As we all know, the key to any great friendship is having compatible senses of humor. Iâve always been fond of my relationship with Mackenzie because of the fact that weâre constantly able to amuse one another. The majority of the time we spend together, we spend laughing and the thought of the first time we met still makes me smile.
Looking back on it, we crossed paths in the center of 26th street with nothing more than eye contact, followed by a grin and a low, noncommittal wave my shy self invented to avoid looking a fool if she failed to notice.
After sharing almost two years worth of college classes together, we both graduated and moved onto other interests. Mackenzie is currently a self proclaimed poet who can often be found conducting readings at The Waltz Astoria Cafe and sheâs also working as a video engineer for Fox network.
Apart from her charming life in Queens, Mackenzieâs almost always exploring a more familiar landscape right on the other side of the Hudson where she grew up.
In other words, sheâs the flame that never goes out.
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laughing too loudly at yourself
Iâm always afraid youâre gonna kiss me in the elevator
you ask me out to lunch and I always think you mean it
we just wind up at the nearest mock irish dive
every bartender in midtown knows your name
even when itâs swarmed by the christmas crowd
they always point to you, give a nod and laugh
we pull up stools in the mid day snow
my nose whines over the piss floors
we order warm whiskeys and work on the crossword puzzle
you say my company is charming but
youâve never asked me a single question
and your eyes are always on the room
but when everythings still and no women are near
sometimes youâll stop on mine
I take your picture in the snow
remember the morning I left and startled you with an exiting touch
your cheek painted with drool
I couldnât sleep the night I stayed
so I scribbled neil young quotes on your chalkboard walls
listened to you snore, waited for the sun
walked through stuytown like Iâve lived there all my life
boarded a train back to the man who loves me
prayed both of you never care too much
and that I start soon
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i wait to see you on trains
 you tread the city so quietly. tip toe delicate around me. don't send a word, don't wave a flag. and I wait to see you on trains and avoid brooklyn like the plague. if you wrote me I would drown. the boy who loves me would wilt, knowing I hear your voice still. although soft, although dreamt, like notes that rise slow to the surface from an underwater piano.
I'm still waiting for the song the end.
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odd things at open mic.
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hood life is the good life.
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tired of your girlfriend coming over. she leaves her half smoked cigarettes all over the stoop. she drinks all the fruit punch and keeps the blunt for too long.Â
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bought 6 dead carnations from a little girl. came up to me while i finished a smoke on the fountain across from radio city. said i was beautiful, apologized for interrupting. i forked over three bucks and smiled. "thanks" she said exasperatedly "i was getting really tired of people saying no". i watched her bundle the weak bouquet back together and disappear down sixth ave.
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Nobody saw you casting shadows on your ceiling 35 floors above park avenue
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i only sing to myself when you're around
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on feeling ambitionless
" you're a walking expression" he said confidently, his head tilted on it's axis, gazing downward into the wine that he swirled so violently. i felt a little empty. he was handsome. i could see the winged tips of his ribcage protrude toward me whenever he stretched or adjusted his posture. "lately i feel like i'm always having miscarriages with my creativity." i said, my eyes transfixed on the miniture hurricane of burgundy. "like i'm there, everything is correct and pure and plentiful- and then it just kinda crumbles halfheartedly back into chemistry". i never say things like this. he nodded wistfully. i couldn't tell if it was forced or not. he followed it by adding some statement more profound than my own and suggested that we head out into the night. it was getting late. i nodded lightly a few times and began to clumsily button my flannel up across my flat chest and noticed him staring strongly at me across the table. "you know" he smiled, zipping up his coat, "any woman can look sexy getting undressed, but it takes a charming one to carry the same effect while putting on clothes." i laughed, admired the wit, wondered if the line was borrowed, felt nauseous, carried on.
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allo tumblur.
iâve been shooting a lot lately.
hoping to incorporate that habit back into my life.
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night is young / 2013
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