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pouty. pouty boy go "☹️".

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one day you think: I want to die. and then you think, very quietly: actually. actually. I think I want a coffee. a nap. a sandwich. a book. and I want to die turns day by day into want to go home, I want to walk in the woods, I want to see my friend, I want to sit in the sun, I want a cleaner kitchen, I want a better job, I want to live somewhere else. I want to live.

- via duckbunny

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dean in his little dead guy bathrobe rb if you agree

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exhibits A, B & C. you know i'm right.

dean is bi, but not because of castiel or some rando, no, dean is bi because at 16 he sneaked out to go to a metallica concert and saw james hetfield take his shirt off and play the guitar like that. you don't see james hetfield half naked and not Feel Something.

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dean is bi, but not because of castiel or some rando, no, dean is bi because at 16 he sneaked out to go to a metallica concert and saw james hetfield take his shirt off and play the guitar like that. you don't see james hetfield half naked and not Feel Something.

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pov: u got caught making out in the janitor's closet.

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thinking about how sam & dean's last words were each other's names.

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adding to this, i just remembered sam spent around 120 years in hell... where his only solace was probably remembering his childhood with dean, all their happy memories together, the comfort he found in their hugs (anything to distract himself from the torture).

what i'm saying is, sam spent more time remembering dean than knowing him, and it hurts.

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if u dont feel empathy for sam winchester/think he’s boring/think he’s comic relief/(god forbid) hate or feel any sort of ire towards him, i simply dont think we could ever be friends. this isnt even a fandom squabble sort of thing but i think it says a lot about u

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I felt that I breathed an atmosphere of sorrow. An air of stern, deep and irredeemable gloom hung over and pervaded all.

SUPERNATURAL + THE FALL OF THE HOUSE OF USHER for @wincestwednesdays prompt: American Gothic (pt 1: Beginnings)

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I love the fact that Dr. Sexy was tall, tan, hot, and had long brown hair. Remind you of anyone? He is literally Sam in a different font

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i have this soft early seasons hc that the moment smartphones became A Thing and you could finally take instant HD pictures of anything, sam started taking pictures of everything. a cute dog he saw on the street? snap. an interesting brick layout? snap. a squirrel eating a piece of bread in some park? snap. an ancient, pretty much decaying book in a library? snap.

snap. snap. snap.

and then when he'd get home (by that i mean, dean, at whatever motel room they were crashing in at the time), maybe to find dean making something to eat or cleaning his guns, & he'd go up to him all excited and show him every picture he took, give him small explanations, talk about how amazing it is that the pictures look so smooth and colorful and "just like the real thing, dean!" — and dean would look at all of them, and listen to sammy's explanations (even if he sometimes went on tangents dean couldn't understand), and he'd make comments, definitely tease sam a lil about his nerdyness. it didn't matter how long it took, because seeing his baby brother so happy about something so small just- made his heart hurt, filled him with affection. made dean realize how much he missed it, missed sam going on rants about science, about books, about whatever nerdy sci-fi thing he was into at the time. missed that glint in sam's eyes, the happiness that made him look so alive (missed when life was simpler).

sam smiles as he shows dean a picture of a blossoming flower and all dean can think about is how much he loves this kid.

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gonna start gatekeeping sam winchester. he's mine now. don't even look at him or think about him or know of him. i will talk obsessively about him but if you acknowledge him then you're dead.

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I unironically hope that there continues to be supernatural dram for the next 15 years. I hope that in 2038 it comes out that Jared Padelecki ate a human heart on set or something.

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i can't rewatch spn season 1 because every episode dean's like when we find dad we can be a family again. and sam goes i dont want that (i spent so long fighting for my own freedom. dad disowned me and hurt us and i dont understand how you can forgive him so easily and act like nothing happened. how can you keep making excuses for him? i had to work so hard to build a life without him, without you. and you never even came to find me. how could you ask me to go back?)

and dean's like why not? (i gave up so much so you could have something even close to a normal childhood. all those years spent arguing with dad and hiding things from you so you could grow up carefree. i have to accept that dad did the best he could because the alternative is too much for me to bear. you said you didn't want anything to do with the hunting life so i kept my distance. you look at me like im a stranger instead of your brother and im starting to think that all these years ive spent alone, everything ive sacrificed, was for nothing) and im just supposed to be normal about that i guess