healingfromc-ptsd

[healingfromc-ptsd]

One of those nights when suicide sounds good.

[healingfromc-ptsd]

Things I'd love for the Internet to leave in 2023:

• misusing the word "delusional" or saying "delulu"

• public freakout videos that are just someone displaying psychotic symptoms

• "I'm in your walls" and other paranoia triggering "jokes"

• schizoposting

• misusing the word "psychotic"

• baiting and triggering people online who are openly psychotic or displaying psychotic symptoms

• excluding schizo-spec and psychotic people from any neurodiversity/mental illness awareness

Let's just all try to be better to schizo-spec and psychotic people. And hold others accountable as well.

[healingfromc-ptsd]

*looks in a mirror* you again

[healingfromc-ptsd]

To anyone who was suicidal at age 14 or younger, here’s your permission to grieve. Here’s your permission to not joke about it or just flat out ignore it. Here’s your permission to acknowledge that lost child who felt way more pain than any child should ever feel. You’re allowed to cry for that child, whether you healed or are still suffering the same thoughts. Finally allow yourself to grieve for that child filled with undeserved hurt.

[healingfromc-ptsd]

every year i reach new lows and wish i killed myself earlier

[healingfromc-ptsd]

I'm probably going to fucking kill myself soon

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The emptiness is consuming me, must I really suffer so much?

[healingfromc-ptsd]

One of the girls I went to school with is pregnant. I just saw her photo on instagram and I honestly almost got teary-eyed. All of these fucking bystanders are having kids, travelling and getting degrees as I continue to suffer the consequences of the bullying I endured.

I just exist and suffer, exist and suffer.

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I just can't. I can't explain it, I can't continue, I simply can't

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Ruined ruined ruined ruined ruined ruined ruined ruined ruined ruined ruined ruined ruined ruined ruined ruined ruined ruined ruined ruined ruined ruined ruined ruined ruined ruined ruined ruined ruined ruined

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I’m sick of seeing everyone else get what they want, or worse, seeing them get what I want.

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I want to off myself so badly. But the thought that my mom would miss me stops me from doing anything to myself.

[healingfromc-ptsd]

I feel so ugly and unwanted

Maybe if I was perfect I’d get treated better

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Lake Bled, Slovenia | ( by Philipp Heigel )