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thinking abt jamil and kalim today. i don't like when ppl say kalim's life isn't really that great in a way jamil doesn't see and if only jamil could understand that then he wouldn't be so resentful of kalim's privilege. like my opinion is that No that's exactly Why jamil's resentful actually. jamil Sees the ways that kalim's life sucks. but he just does not have a lot of sympathy for kalim because he goes through those situations with kalim, and he sees the difference that comes with the level of privilege kalim wields. and to him that makes those struggles kind of laughable in comparison to his own.

like yeah kalim has had attempts on his life and still sits and eats at the same table as people who try to poison him . and nobody is denying that having people you know trying to assassinate you isn't traumatic. but also like canonically who do you think is most at risk of consuming that poison. Kalim??? or his POISON TESTER. jamils eating at that exact same table And he sure as fuck is not forgiving that assassin the same way kalim is able to because He has to make sure kalim's stupid forgiving nature doesn't open up the perfect avenue for this guy to try murder Again. kalim has the privilege to forgive this guy and be gracious JAMIL DOES NOT!!!!

another great example is the reason behind why kalim doesn't like to eat curry. poisoned curry sent jamil into a coma and kalim got distressed about it. Obviously this is traumatic for kalim . but you know . Who else . It would affect...... THE GUY IN THE FUCKING COMA....? kalim has the privilege to say "I never want to eat curry again because it sent Jamil into a coma" and it's just Done because he's the boss. jamil Does Not have the privilege to say "I don't want to poison test kalim's food again because it sent Me into a coma" because he has to serve kalim. and it doesn't matter what jamils personal feelings are on curry even though he was the one who GOT POISONED BY IT. do you get it now. is it clicking

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Right click -> save as -> ancient curse

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it is an honor 2 be in ur computer

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been oc drawing lately. one girl who experiences the horrors and one woman who is the horrors (though not the horrors that the other girl is experiencing. different horrors)

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one day i will write / draw something about my fan arc for s3 jon trip to america involving the usher foundation. like a "here's what happened offscreen" thing. for now it just exists in my brain and i ponder it like an orb

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the timsashas... my beautiful timsashas....

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i’m sick and tired of people pretending that burger isn’t delicious just to clown on americans. america deserves the ridicule, but why’s burger catching strays? burger did nothing wrong

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first, love ur magnus art! here from tiktok to ask if your martin art are fanarts of spiralatic’s martin design?

HAIII THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! ummm ill be real w u anon i had no idea who that was until this ask . HELP.

i might've seen their art around briefly but that's the extent of it? i see where ur coming from tho it does look kind of similar but to me only in the sense that its a black martin with textured hair and vitiligo. i consider this my own design because i never took inspo from that creator but im getting nervous that it Does end up looking too similar if u think its fanart💔 honest to god my martin design is based off of my bfs martin drawings and my bf doesn't really post art on tumblr 😭 😭

so my answer to this is just kind of a hesitant nnnno? maybe indirectly in some way but again considering i had no clue who that was until i searched them up i dont think it can be considered fanart????? genuinely kind of at a loss here

(first bit of art is my bfs and then the next two are mine for comparison)

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In my opinion it's a lot more healthy to be able to own that you dislike someone for petty reasons than to do all kinds of mental gymnastics to make everyone you don't really vibe with out to be a bad person actually

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the whole "lipstick on a pig" thing makes no sense because the second we gave a pig access to makeup she became god's cuntiest soldier

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explain your gender in 10 words or less without using boring words like “male”, “female”, “nonbinary”, “masculine”, “feminine” or “androgynous”.

go!

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experience i had while on a roadtrip with my dad

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call me annabelle cane the way im obsessed with jon smoking. what a perfect character trait for that little freak. i think he should’ve smoked more cigarettes actually. this gun isnt going to chekhov itself the narrative can be even more doomed one cig at a time

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lets create a hostile and uncomfortable work environment...... together❤️

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I think it would be incredibly emotionally fulfilling to hit someone in the back of the head really hard with a shovel