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[heleftmelikethis]

[heleftmelikethis]

Cryin alone in my bedroom

All I can think is about you

How come we never figured it out

We both had the world in our hands

I gave you every piece of me

And you gave me very little of you

You always turned your back

Always turned your back on me

Then, you'd come cryin to me

Hey baby, I'm sorry, I miss you

Please work it out with me

Baby, I'm sorry don't leave me

Baby, come back, don't leave me

We'd have the time of our lives

You'd take me out

You'd show me how to live life to the fullest

Yeah we could take over the world

Take over the world, you and me baby

But then you'd go and pick a fight

I don't even know why you thought that I might

Go on forever fighting you back

We'd break up, you'd leave

I'd call you, you wouldn't answer

I'd tell you I'm done and I wish you the best

But babe

Then, you'd come cryin to me

Hey baby, I'm sorry I miss you

Please come work it out with me

Baby, I'm sorry don't leave me

Baby, come back, don't leave me

[heleftmelikethis]

I think what hurts the most is the fact that you ended things so abruptly. I spent our entire relationship trying to get you to understand how important goodbyes are to me... How every time you ever tried to leave in the middle of the night without telling me it would end with separating because of the conflict it brought. Because of the pain it brought. I've spent my whole life in temporary homes.. Loving temporarily.. Each time with more intensity and passion. And by the time you had me By the time you tried me out I had already been abandoned so many times. You were my anchor .. But you cut me loose, you didn't even bother doing it with care. You treated me as if we didn't just spend a year of our lives together. As if we didn't have the most powerful connection we ever had before. As if it didn't seem like one helluva lifetime... That's when you became a stranger to me. When you started acting like I wasn't the love of your life Like I wasn't your soulmate. So you became a different person, you were no longer my soulmate, either. And then I was nothing but a play thing to you.. Something you could toss around and fuck and manipulate and then call it "sexy" And when I told you it wasn't sexy... I became the bad guy. I hurt your feelings by expressing  my feelings. By voicing the ways in which you hurt me.. I became your worst enemy Your super villain And that's when you died.

ADaisyWithNoDonald

[heleftmelikethis]

This one's for you

[heleftmelikethis]

She Waited

Sitting in the classroom

Listening to the rain

Feeling the thunder

She waited

Poised in the front seat

Soothing herself with music

Stoplights slowing her down

She waited

Anxious on the bed

Pets by her side

Netflix keeping her busy

She waited

Until along came a text message

One that would get her hopes up

And then crush them all at once

She waited

Nights of movies and long talks

Intimate exchanges of words

And the most powerful of touches

She waited

Body tremors

Tummy aches

And sleepless nights

She waited

Passion

Desires

And so much more

He was the one

The one who changed her life

The one who she thought helped her grow

And the one who she wished treated her so

So she waited

Until she realized

What she was waiting for

Was gone

Long before she came around

-ADaisyWithNoDonald

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Killer Butterfly

Why do I feel this way when I think about you ?

It’s like there are killer butterflies in my tummy

Trying to find their way out

At first it’s just a flutter or two or three

Innocent and happy thoughts

And then it stirs

As the situation circles in my head

It twirls

It turns

Until I shoo it away with smoke

A remedy that manages to numb the pain

Just for a little while

I climb higher and higher

Searching for relief

Sometimes I’m high enough to forget everything

Sometimes I’m lucid enough to feel everything

There’s not really an in between

Because in between was preoccupied with our relationship

You see, we were in limbo, you and me

Fighting the tide as it brought is in, closer, together

Then out, washing us away

I know your reasons for bringing us out to sea

I felt the ocean mist in every touch

But baby the waves were too strong

I was drowning in search of your love

You kept guiding me to the surface only to then let me slip under again

Sending me back into the waves where I was lost in the first place

I don’t blame you for not knowing what to do

Hell, I hadn’t known what to do with myself for years

But see, that’s where I came in

I was to guide you as you guided me in this crazy world

We were supposed to venture the earth’s terrain

Overcome the tallest of mountains

Swim past our sea of troubles

Together

That was up to you

You saw the possibilities

You knew where I stood

Baby, you were supposed to take my hand

But you decided to let go

You watched me go under

And you helped it pull me down

-ADaisyWithNoDonald

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Rose

Her footsteps were heavy as she headed for the door

After such a wonderful night, she hoped he would ask her to stay..

Each step she took closer to the door

Closer to the car

A fallen petal...

A hug goodbye

An empty flower

-ADaisyWithNoDonald

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Skeleton

She felt empty inside

She could almost feel the cobb webs forming

As she searched for something inside

She looked deeper and deeper

And found her heart broken in pieces

Shattered inside her rib cage

Like she had been pushed

And shoved

And beaten

Slowly withering to bone

Every person that stepped foot in her heart

Left scars and damage beyond repair

So now every person she meets

She’s faced with caution and indecision

She has put her trust in too many

Her unconditional love has been felt by the wrong souls

Aren’t they lucky..

-ADaisyWithNoDonald

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Amity

She felt the thunder in her chest

The booming from the bass reminding her how her heart felt

Reminding her of the moment she realized it was all over

The second everything changed

Visions of that night flashing vividly in her head

As if it were happening again

And again

And then it happened again..

-ADaisyWithNoDonald

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Even when you were sweet, you weren’t sweet enough

A poem from when we still thought we had a chance..

“What Pleasure”

She cracked the door before stepping into the hot shower

Hoping the cat might push it open..

As she washed her hair, lathering soap with her eyes closed

She imagined him noticing the door open..

An invitiation ?

Would he come in to check on her?

And turn that into checking her out?

Would he ask to join her?

Maybe...

Maybe he would come in and rescue her from the silence, from the wounds he created

They would enjoy a wonderful, hot shower...

Hands on each other’s bodies

Fingers running through each other’s hair

She’d be so glad that he had brought her dream back to life...

Thanking him with pleasure

And then, as the water turned cold

She felt her heart reach the same temperature..

As she noticed the door still in place, just as she left it

And him, still where he had been before

-ADaisy...Did I ever have a Donald?

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I remember those night in your car

The ones where we would sit for hours, losing track of time

Where we would dance with the idea of us actually working out

I’m haunted by your car, now

I’m haunted by you

And that’s just what you wanted, isn’t it ?

-ADaisyWithNoDonald

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I can’t even say that I knew you loved me...

Because you were a damn good liar

Each time you did something sweet,

I would make excuses for all the not-so-sweet

“That wasn’t really him doing that”

or

“He didn’t mean to hurt me”

But then you got too comfortable

You were turned on by me

And not just physical me..

No, not just the one you took advantage of

You were turned on by me

Not just the idea of me

Just the idea of being superior to me

-ADaisyWithNoDonald

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-ADaisyWithNoDonald

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'Silenced Lips' -ADaisyWithNoDonald

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-ADaisyWithNoDonald

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-ADaisyWithNoDonald

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I felt like you were searching for a reason to break up... I've fought for you for so long. But I've been pushed under the water and brought back up so many times that I can't breathe anymore. It's too difficult. Every time I think I'm in the clear, I try to take a deep, lasting breathe, only to find your hand above my head pushing down again. I don't like the way you make me feel. At times, you make me feel like we can't be defeated. We're unstoppable and invincible. But then you make me feel like nothing. Like a burden. Like I don't matter. I can't handle having a bipolar relationship. I have enough of that to deal with in my own mind.

ADaisyWithNoDonald