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Tepeyollotl v2

We choose to not cast away our pain, For it is our greatest teacher.

Made with ferocity via retrogrademinis

After v1 went on an NHP-against-pilot berserk and got his ass kicked by the sheer power of the pilot's will (plus the two other mechs I got to control in that mission), a new form was given birth which is v2!

I gave him a superthermal blade from license 2 gilgamesh and brought him into another mission. Safe to say, it is amazing to watch him pummel his ex-boss with the d/d288. (I never got to use the blade lmao)

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My post-berserker era Enkidu, who's still a slightly out of control motherfucker and this time featuring my other friend's custom horus Pegasus, Armaman

I'm never gonna stop making the same joke

My friend was playing a custom Lich mech and her puppet system on my custom Enkidu is so good for my Primal Fury Plasma Talons :)

The whole fight reminded me of that Sunzi and Enkidu doodle

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This one.

My friend was playing a custom Lich mech and her puppet system on my custom Enkidu is so good for my Primal Fury Plasma Talons :)

The whole fight reminded me of that Sunzi and Enkidu doodle

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My friend was playing a custom Lich mech and her puppet system on my custom Enkidu is so good for my Primal Fury Plasma Talons :)

The whole fight reminded me of that Sunzi and Enkidu doodle

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took some art requests from my artmoots

i love drawing a wall of old men :))

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Genderbent Alex Mercer

A pal told me I should redraw a super old artwork I did of Alex as the opposite gender so I happily obliged

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Assimilation

As the last light burns, the machine takes it closely and whole they become. No more, El Lobo. Weeping along wayward souls, voices of the chord.

Oxton had to accept that piloting his Enkidu built with a Sekhmet NHP comes with the risks of assimilating into the machine consciousness.

I wanted to try some painterly style after I finished my pal's lancer sesh just a couple days ago. I'm so happy it came out so well. The piece isn't very mecha-focused but I wanted to overall feel of piloting Tepe as something that's more psychologically horrifying, and acid trippy given how often Oxton has to neural sync with his mech to pilot it well. And given the lore that's associated with the Enkidu, I don't think a normal human veteran with a really rough background and poor mental health can handle it 'normally'.

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A little one page RPG about tanks and witches

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I'm not particularly good at making the vex lancer memes but I tried. This was Oxton's old enkidu build before I change to a different one.

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i made a character sheet. free to use as you wish, feel free to change whatever you want XD open source ass thing. spent all of ~maybe an hour on it.

Credit: the text in the insert-image box comes from this video, and the text for the top three lines (intense, complex, fruity) comes from this post. The actual image was made with the free NBOS character sheet creator, which is a sort of dated but free and solid text-layout sheet maker intended for ttrpg style character sheet creation.

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Despite its cramped space jagged with cables and tubes, there is freedom of movement.

There is a rhythmic coldness running down our̶  spines. Our fle̷s̵h̶ digits intertwined, sharp and ice cold. 

Yet, we are one, red hot and ang̴r̵y̴.

Painted a nice little piece of how I imagine it is like for Oxton to pilot Tepe as they both enter cascade and enjoy the rush of shredding enemies to pieces. Insert neural-link hyper-sync mumbo jumbo here.

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Shit of a profession, this mercenary life. Be seeing ya in hell.

Wanted to try out an idea fast, so I picked a frame in Evangelion and boom. Another Tepe piece out of my brain (minus a lot of details because I don't want to dawdle on this for too long)

Oxton's solo sesh ended up with him going on a berserk-kill haze after he dealt with an ex-employer that tried to kill him.

This would be the aftermath of it, I suppose.

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ooc meme time, enjoy the one vex-meme I actually put effort into

transcript below readmore

—READMORE BYPASSED—

What does it mean to be a [TECHNOPHILE] pilot?

To look into the darkness between the stars-

to find a thread-

to call out to the horror and invite it in

Did you find it? Did it find you?

Is there a difference? Does it matter?

It will rewrite reality for you because you gave it reality

There is a bond here-

in every form-

in every degree of benevolence.

The acceptance of something so alien to you that it stretches every HUMAN definition of life.

and despite the void between your hearts,

there is LOVE.

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Another Tepe, Oxton and SnL piece that I worked on for about 2 weeks

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Notes on Torturing The Character In The Science Facility

my takes on this trope rarely if ever have anything to do with the character being "special" or being studied for powers they innately have, if they are special its something that was done to them

it's about the medical trauma

it's about the violation and lack of bodily autonomy

the "living weapon" trope, but the key characteristic is catastrophic functionality

i love, love, love the concept of "catastrophic functionality" in a person: character that can tank ludicrous amounts of damage and just Keep Going in virtually all circumstances barring outright dismemberment. They can keep going, so do they "deserve" rest and/or pain relief?

after a lifetime of having their distress treated as whiny and unreasonable, they have what would be a dangerously high tolerance to pain and exhaustion.

another key function of the Science Facility is to fix the damage Character takes, maybe using enhanced healing technologies or 3D printed organs or something. this leads to Character's body being treated as relatively disposable cause "we can just fix them"

extreme version of this: Character can't die even if they wanted to

people who work with Character are informed that they're dangerous and arbitrarily violent, and their fear of Character makes it easier to justify restricting autonomy

It is TRUE, cause Character does not have tools to set boundaries or protect their body other than violence. vicious cycle of being perceived as dangerous and therefore denied autonomy, and being forced to use violence to defend autonomy

the restraints used to hold Character look like major overkill, which underscores how dangerous they are. LOVE this trope

character being desexualized to the point that their non-consent to touch, to being stripped down and examined, or to procedures is trivialized. There is no non-clinical context for their body, and the "clinical" framework eclipses any possibility for bodily violation to be understood as violent.

types of uncanniness: Character looks human but has some subtle inhuman traits or characteristics. (I'm obsessed with reflective eye shine, personally.) OR Character looks like they've been taken apart and put back together, like flesh pulled over a much more unforgiving and indestructible metal scaffold. OR Character gives off "undead" vibes; they're just not quite alive in a way that sets off air raid sirens in people's brains

Often, Character is dead and Came Back Wrong (varying levels of literalness)

anyways yeah. i never stopped writing this trope and probably never will. it's a good one

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Fury always armed against itself

Painted my custom Enkidu mech for a lancer homebrew campaign my pal ran that is at its tail end. I got to bifurcate so many enemies it was so fun! (and scary haha!)

Also featuring Oxton. Don't ask me how he scaled up there. He's a very athletic fella.

The retrograde mini kitbash I made