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The Citalopram Diaries
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hellocitalopramdiaries · 5 years ago
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Entry 4
24/04/20
Symptoms
Dizziness - Nausea - Mania - Restlessnes - Stomach Aches - Palpitations - Depression and Anxiety - jaw pain
Today was rough I didn’t get much done other than things on my computer but sometimes that’s the best I can do esp in Iso. It’s hard to know what to do with myself. I was very Tired Today I fell asleep about 2am and woke up about 1pm and right now it’s almost 3am so I can’t sleep again. Today I went through my normal routine generally speaking, I played some music and edited it out and I felt happy and motivated to find some ideas relating to my work. later today I got to talk with my family through the Internet and one other friend who lives in Aussie now trying to connect and make sure my brain still reaches out and makes connections. I also did some pictures for my flatmate and went through to edit them, while I was sitting on the couch though we were watching a doco on drugs or some kind of war on drugs I kind of zoned out and came to and I just felt frozen, I was having a panic attack I imagined and the last time that happened like that was over a month ago in an airport where I zoned out thinking about something terrible and when I cam to my body went into some kind of shock. So I went into my room and kind of crouched over my bed and hoped that it would stop I try doing breathing but often it doesn’t help much while it’s happening. I had a Propranolol which is a Beta-Blocker sometimes I take Lorazepam for anxiety but when it’s bad I just go straight for the Pro. Anyway I managed to get myself to calm down I bit have a shower and think about something different, I did feel like the mix with C and P made it stronger for me I felt I lot more dizzy and kind of weak and tired than usual which is not the best feeling tbh. I always feel better lying up and tonight that’s what I am trying to do. It’s really hard to manage and it feels crippling to balance depression with anxiety and panic attacks, it’s hard to know what to do half the time I don’t even know what triggers these things. I just kind have to wait it out and it sucks
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hellocitalopramdiaries · 5 years ago
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Entry 3
23/04/20
Symptoms 
Dizziness - Nausea - confusion - mania although less than day before* - shaky - impulsive - tired - clenched jaw
Today I was supposed to filming some things as of right now like the rest of the world I am stuck inside, where I live it’s full lockdown so that doesn’t help a depressed being I also struggle with Anxiety exp within the last 6 months since sobering up. Anyways today was unproductive I felt tired even though I did get enough sleep I still felt unmotivated although mania was creeping in I had enough brain energy to do some write ups I didn’t get any physical work done. I’ve also noticed along with this intense feeling of nausea the amount my appetite isn’t as strong as before and I do feel more stomach ache type sensations. I will have breakfast with my citalopram you really should eat something even if it’s small because if you don’t it just makes the stomach situation even worse trust me. I have noticed my mood has leveled out but I still feel more positive when I speak. I have a hard time not overthinking everything and becoming paranoid about what people say and think of me I get roped in to alot of “drama” nonsense which has unfortunately become a huge part of my life, I mean I guess that’s why I started taking C again because I was so sick of feeling that way. In a way I enjoy feeling all of those things and being able to cry it all out I can still do that on C but off of it, the feelings are stronger I guess. I suppose it’s hard to explain unless you have experienced it in a similar way but I know that other times I don’t want to feel that way so I wish I was on C, that’s why I flip flop quite often I suppose on taking it and not taking it because I want the best of both worlds. Even if that isn’t healthy 
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hellocitalopramdiaries · 5 years ago
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Entry 2
22?04/20
Todays Symptoms
- Tired - Jaw clench - anxiety - nausea - mania - shaking - 
Mood. Uplifted I bit waverly some Paranoid thoughts but happy
Today I woke up around 10 I was extremely tired and felt like I could go back to sleep but my body didn’t let me this a normal sign of the the side affects of taking C I usually get very tired but I can’t sleep. I had my dose with breakfast and did some singing I have only really had the confidence and the real want to sing when I’m either extremely happy or sad I guess in different ways to let out what ever emotion I am feeling in that moment. I had nausea has per usual, I also had some shaking and sometimes that causes pain in my muscles becasue I become more tense I don’t know why these things happen with a serotonin boost they just do for me. My jaw is still extremely sore but that has been a problem since before I started in C which I think may get worse, may need some pain killers. There is a vague feeling of burning that I get in and around my head almost like a fuzzy kind of buzzing, I know I tend to get more headaches as the weeks go on using C but this feeling is almost like I have static in my head like a T.V that’s slowly getting turned back on
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hellocitalopramdiaries · 5 years ago
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Entry 1
21/04/20
So Today is the first day I’m back on it I guess I’m going to keep it pretty short 
but just as always the first side affect is Nausea, I really struggle with my weight on and off of citalopram but this SSR really fucks with my eating habits. I will always have a food in the morning with it even if I don’t feel like it which is often the case. In fact before I actually started over I would have it at night to prevent the nausea which did help but it kept me up at night and right now I am struggling with insomnia real bad which is also a side affect to Citalopram *Okay I’m gonna refer to Citalopram as C from now on*. So anyway just a segway on why I decided to go back on my meds and why I kinda stopped which you should never do by the way- in a nutshell I came off because I just stopped for god knows what reason and I felt happier than ever I was getting stuff done I didnt feel like I needed it all but the truth was that I was just being avoidant of my true feelings and then something went wrong and one after another and after another things started to fall apart I didnt have my saftey net aka C to catch me so I cam crumbling down, but that’s the about being able to talk to someone and becoming self aware of your own actions is that I got to catch myself before it got any worse back into the really dark parts. So that’s exactly what I am doing now I have realised things are going south so I’m going back and figuring it out, I know it won’t be as easy as 1,2,3 been there done that but It’s a good choice. Ding! okay so I did struggle to sleep it was 3 am before I finally dosed off with the help of a sleeping pill, which by the way make sure your drs. knows what your taking before you take it some other drugs really don’t mix well so be safe. also some other side affects I’m gonna list which I might just end up doing a list before I write next time a general scope of what I’m feeling but today was 
-Nausea - Insomnia - Clenched Jaw - Light sensitivity- Confusion- Faint - Tenseness and Anxiety - Mania
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hellocitalopramdiaries · 5 years ago
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Opening Entry
Hey ya’ll just wanted to start A new blog or whatever you wanna call it about my experiences on Citalopram. I have a big history with this drug I started in it when I was decently young eniugh maybe 15 or 16 which usual you have to be 18 they don’t like giving it to children which is fair enough. As anyone of you will know who have been on or still are on Citalopram they first fews weeks are often rough I mean i can’t talk for everyone but that’s been my experience. Anyways I am 23 now so as you can imaging I have known the ins an out of the personal process around citalopram and the effects of stopping and starting and just how detrimental that can be for your recovery. I understand why I stop and why other people decide to stop and I believe from over the years the the number on under lying fact to this is Guilt we often feel Guilt for having to take it and also guilt for happinnes and Guilt after we stop taking it cause now we are creating a miserable world for ourselves and the loved ones around us. I also struggled with how do deal with my new emotions it was like a brand new way of processing so often I found it hard to cry to begin with when before I started I would cry practically everyday and within in that kind of depressive state it feels familar and with anything that feels familiar esp for people who don’t like change, if we are being honest that’s something that people with trauma never really want to deal with. This Familiarity almost becomes a comfort because you know how to deal with the depression but you don’t know how to deal with the I guess a more serotonin filled brain and that’s why people like myself stop using it, it’s not good for you and in alot of cases it makes things worse than before. But I try not to let myself sink into that word again guilt, I pick myself up again and again and again and I have to tell myself to keep trying life isn’t easy for anyone and this drug is here to help it’s not going to save everything for me I have to help myself and be in therapy and work hard to get what I want out of it. So yeah, I’m Obvs no health professional I’m just a hooman on Citalopram and other things but this blog is about Anti Depressants and how they make me feel, remember everyone is different and react differently to Citalopram so don’t take this all as gospel, it’s just to share my experiences I also know I get my side effects are more intense than most. So here I go again xx Kia Kaha and look after yourselves 
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hellocitalopramdiaries · 5 years ago
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Citalopram Generic Name: citalopram (si TAL o pram) Brand Names: CeleXA
Medically reviewed by Sanjai Sinha, MD Last updated on Dec 19, 2018.
What is citalopram?
Citalopram is an antidepressant belonging to a group of drugs called selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs).
Citalopram is used to treat depression.
Citalopram may also be used for purposes not listed in this medication guide.
Important information You should not use citalopram if you also take pimozide, or if you are being treated with methylene blue injection.
Do not use citalopram if you have used an MAO inhibitor in the past 14 days, such as isocarboxazid, linezolid, methylene blue injection, phenelzine, rasagiline, selegiline, or tranylcypromine.
Some young people have thoughts about suicide when first taking an antidepressant. Stay alert to changes in your mood or symptoms. Report any new or worsening symptoms to your doctor.
Report any new or worsening symptoms to your doctor, such as: mood or behaviour changes, anxiety, panic attacks, trouble sleeping, or if you feel impulsive, irritable, agitated, hostile, aggressive, restless, hyperactive (mentally or physically), more depressed, or have thoughts about suicide or hurting yourself.
Do not give citalopram to anyone younger than 18 years old without the advice of a doctor. This medicine is not approved for use in children.
Before taking this medicine You should not use this medicine if you are allergic to citalopram or escitalopram (Lexapro), or if you also take pimozide.
Do not use citalopram if you have used an MAO inhibitor in the past 14 days. A dangerous drug interaction could occur. MAO inhibitors include isocarboxazid, linezolid, methylene blue injection, phenelzine, rasagiline, selegiline, tranylcypromine, and others.
To make sure citalopram is safe for you, tell your doctor if you have:
a bleeding or blood clotting disorder;
liver or kidney disease;
narrow-angle glaucoma;
seizures or epilepsy;
heart disease, heart failure, a heart rhythm disorder, slow heartbeats, or recent history of heart attack;
personal or family history of Long QT syndrome;
an electrolyte imbalance (such as low levels of potassium or magnesium in your blood);
bipolar disorder (manic depression); or
a history of drug abuse or suicidal thoughts.
Some young people have thoughts about suicide when first taking an antidepressant. Your doctor should check your progress at regular visits. Your family or other caregivers should also be alert to changes in your mood or symptoms.
Taking an SSRI antidepressant during pregnancy may cause serious lung problems or other complications in the baby. However, you may have a relapse of depression if you stop taking your antidepressant. Tell your doctor right away if you become pregnant. Do not start or stop taking this medicine during pregnancy without your doctor's advice.
Citalopram can pass into breast milk and may harm a nursing baby. You should discuss the risks and benefits of using citalopram if you are breast-feeding.
Do not give this medicine to anyone under 18 years old without medical advice. Citalopram is not approved for use in children.
How should I take citalopram? Take citalopram exactly as prescribed by your doctor. Follow all directions on your prescription label. Your doctor may occasionally change your dose. Do not use this medicine in larger or smaller amounts or for longer than recommended.
Measure liquid medicine with the dosing syringe provided, or with a special dose-measuring spoon or medicine cup. If you do not have a dose-measuring device, ask your pharmacist for one.
It may take up to 4 weeks before your symptoms improve. Keep using the medication as directed and tell your doctor if your symptoms do not improve.
Do not stop using citalopram suddenly, or you could have unpleasant withdrawal symptoms. Ask your doctor how to safely stop using this medicine.
Store at room temperature away from moisture and heat.
See also: Citalopram dosage information (in more detail)
What happens if I miss a dose? Take the missed dose as soon as you remember. Skip the missed dose if it is almost time for your next scheduled dose. Do not take extra medicine to make up the missed dose.
What happens if I overdose? Seek emergency medical attention or call the Poison Help line at 1-800-222-1222.
What should I avoid while taking citalopram? Ask your doctor before taking a nonsteroidal anti-inflammatory drug (NSAID) for pain, arthritis, fever, or swelling. This includes aspirin, ibuprofen (Advil, Motrin), naproxen (Aleve), celecoxib (Celebrex), diclofenac, indomethacin, meloxicam, and others. Using an NSAID with citalopram may cause you to bruise or bleed easily.
Drinking alcohol can increase certain side effects of citalopram.
Citalopram may impair your thinking or reactions. Be careful if you drive or do anything that requires you to be alert.
Citalopram side effects Get emergency medical help if you have signs of an allergic reaction to citalopram: skin rash or hives; difficulty breathing; swelling of your face, lips, tongue, or throat.
Report any new or worsening symptoms to your doctor, such as: mood or behavior changes, anxiety, panic attacks, trouble sleeping, or if you feel impulsive, irritable, agitated, hostile, aggressive, restless, hyperactive (mentally or physically), more depressed, or have thoughts about suicide or hurting yourself.
Call your doctor at once if you have:
a light-headed feeling, like you might pass out;
blurred vision, tunnel vision, eye pain or swelling, or seeing halos around lights;
headache with chest pain and severe dizziness, fainting, fast or pounding heartbeats;
severe nervous system reaction--very stiff (rigid) muscles, high fever, sweating, confusion, fast or uneven heartbeats, tremors, feeling like you might pass out;
high levels of serotonin in the body--agitation, hallucinations, fever, fast heart rate, overactive reflexes, nausea, vomiting, diarrhea, loss of coordination, fainting; or
low levels of sodium in the body--headache, confusion, slurred speech, severe weakness, vomiting, feeling unsteady.
Common citalopram side effects may include:
problems with memory or concentration;
headache, drowsiness;
dry mouth, increased sweating;
numbness or tingling;
increased appetite, nausea, diarrhea, gas;
fast heartbeats, feeling shaky;
sleep problems (insomnia), feeling tired;
cold symptoms such as stuffy nose, sneezing, sore throat;
changes in weight; or
difficulty having an orgasm.
This is not a complete list of side effects and others may occur. Call your doctor for medical advice about side effects. You may report side effects to FDA at 1-800-FDA-1088.
See also: Citalopram side effects (in more detail)
What other drugs will affect citalopram? Taking citalopram with other drugs that make you sleepy or slow your breathing can cause dangerous side effects or death. Ask your doctor before taking a sleeping pill, narcotic pain medicine, prescription cough medicine, a muscle relaxer, or medicine for anxiety, depression, or seizures.
Many drugs can interact with citalopram. Not all possible interactions are listed here. Tell your doctor about all your current medicines and any you start or stop using, especially:
cimetidine;
lithium;
St. John's wort;
tryptophan (sometimes called L-tryptophan);
a blood thinner (warfarin, Coumadin, Jantoven);
any other antidepressant;
heart medication;
medicine to treat a psychiatric disorder; or
"triptan" migraine headache medicine.
This list is not complete and many other drugs can interact with citalopram. This includes prescription and over-the-counter medicines, vitamins, and herbal products. Give a list of all your medicines to any healthcare provider who treats you.
See also: Citalopram drug interactions (in more detail)
Further information Remember, keep this and all other medicines out of the reach of children, never share your medicines with others, and use citalopram only for the indication prescribed.
Always consult your healthcare provider to ensure the information displayed on this page applies to your personal circumstances.
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