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tw:

i feel dangerous again. idk what will happen.

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dangerous

i feel dangerous now tonight. like i should be punished. all i ever do is cause problems when i open my mouth about how i feel and everyobe disregards what i say anyway or doesnt listen in the first place.my chest hurts but when doesnt it any more. to anyone who thought i was getting better lol jokes on you if anything im worse. but my body deserves what it gets. im just a big waste of space anyway. fuck.

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this looks so mega nice right now.

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AH! I HAD ONLY EVER SEEN THIS POST IN SCREENSHOT!

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i love this.

Probably my favorite kind of lips… 👽💖🌙

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In which there was fuckery a foot:

So i’m just gonna tl;dr this shit. basically a customer acted like a spoiled child because they gave me wrong info. this lead to my being kicked out of a SUPPORT GROUP she was a mod of. i asked her fellow mod/friend/whitenight about it and got chewed out because obvi her buddy can do no wrong. in the same message she both said that “there are two sides to every story” and that she did not want to hear mine. mega fair right? i was also told the original would n’t show her the conversation (maybe because she was not the perfect little angel she pretends to be?). in any case i won’t reveal the exact name but i will say that this is the last time i take a job from a person with such a reputation of being a “lolcow”. and you know whats most annoying? i actually defended this cuntnugget. i stuck up for her and now i have been shown that she really is exactly as everyone said.

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i’m dying over herr....

i’m a cringy weeb guys XD

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i don’t know how long...

i can keep this up. i really hope i live through the summer at least. my heart hurts.

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I don’t think i’m going to eat tomorrow.

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Sometimes...

...i really feel like i’m dying.

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and i dont have very much of either. fuck.

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Feel like I’m dying.

I always do lately. How long can i keep this up? I’m trying to get better i really am but im not getting better.

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yup dude.

Reblog if you have used dude as a non gender specific term.

My mom often corrects me and my sister when we call each other dude, which really shouldn’t matter, but she’s making a big deal out of it anyways. And as someone who often doesn’t conform to what the defined box of what a girl is, it kinda hurts to be shoved back into place by one of the people who is supposed to accept me. So she told me to construct a survey and here’s part of it. Reblog if you’ve used dude (or other things like bro or man)as a non gender specific term before.

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Well fuck.

Out of my safe food. Shit well i guess its just like a day and a half til i can pick some up.

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Shit dude thats rough. She doesn’t deserve your time.

0h. Okay. Someone sent me this when I tried to have a civilized discussion about the fight we’d had. I was explaining why she had upset me without any mean terms and she sent THIS.

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Finally found a shade of bb cream that works with my skin tone to hide the broken capillaries in my cheeks (from purging) now if only i could make my hair look thicker. thank god for hats.

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I wish I could stop...

I really wish i could just stop this form of slow suicide. I don’t want to die, i really don’t but i can’t seem to stop. I’m trying but failing terribly. This hurts.