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enough for you

angst - felix x gn!reader

wordcount: 541

(trigger)warning under cut !!

(trigger)warnings: selfharm, blades, cutting, reader has anxiety | please don’t read this if you’re triggered by any or this !! let me know if i forgot smth !!

—- this has a good ending dw 😭😭 | isn’t proof read

you went to the bathroom to do it again.

since felix wasn’t home at the moment he probably wouldn’t notice - or do you thought.

some time ago he did notice it tho.

at the upper drawer of your bathrooms cabinet used to be the place where your blade was hidden in.

but one day when you and felix decided to shower together and he went to get a shampoo, he found your blade by accident.

and after that the night consisted of him comforting you.

at the following morning the first thing he did was throwing your old blade away.

and since then it actually did got better - you would’ve never thought felix would be so understanding with your struggles.

but the part of it all was that it got worse again.

through having anxiety it was hard for you to handle things others did — socializing, standing up for yourself and all that stuff.

felix knew you would get anxious easily and that you have issues with trusting people.

since you two talked about it all, it actually made you more comfortable with him.

the problem with it all is that you wouldn’t be able to relax when he was out for too long.

right now he’s outside to get snacks for your movie night but he really took his time.

before he got outside he made you a meal and said you could get yourself distracted by watching something.

but just then, how could he know that you i deed couldn’t distract yourself from his absence?

now that you were standing in the bathroom to search for your second blade, you reached for your phone and wrote felix.

some second after you clicked 'send', he already read it.

you put your phone away and thought about what you should do now - scared of him being disappointed if you would cut yourself.

minutes passed and you just stood there with your blade — deciding whether to do it or not.

that’s when you heard keys unlocking the main door and bags being dropped on the ground.

felix ran into the bedroom, but when he didn’t saw you he immediately went to the bathroom.

finding your figure standing there with a blade.

"please put it down, y/n"

you could hear the concern in his voice and saw that he wasn’t trying to even come near you.

he was scared that he would make you feel any discomfort if he did.

but to his sunrise you actually put the sharp tool down.

"i‘m so sorry that i left for this long, i should’ve taken you with me or shouldn’t have taken that long.

you don’t have to tell me what’s going on or anything.

but let me say that i’m happy you reached out for me. it’s never wrong of you to reach out for help."

at first you had taken some steps back because of his words, but now your overcoming your anxiety and went to hug him.

you were never a fan of physical affection but it was your way of telling felix that you trust him.

in the moment felix couldn’t realize or comprehend anything but he hugged you back and kissed your forehead.

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friends with benefits I text imagine

smut - hyung line x fem!reader

hyung line I maknae line

warning under cut !!

warnings: texts about fucking, fwb (friend with benefits), sexting somehow, boobs mentioned

authors note: this is just fiction and has nothing to do w the real people showed here, english isn’t my first language, requests are open

— bangchan + lee know

— changbin + hyunjin

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“i’m not a bottom”

fluff - lee know x fem!reader (no fem!body mentioned tho)

worcount: 761

warning under cut !!

warnings: fighting (??), smutty ending (no smut tho), kind of assasin au— let me know if there is anything else

authors note: idk if i should write a part 2 on this?? (😭😭), english isn’t my first language, requests are open

“you’re starting to piss me off, minho”

“if you’re that mad, why don’t you make use of that anger?”

he was mocking me again, like he always does. right now it was pretty dark outside and about 4am in the morning. but here i was - training with lee know.

since he offered me to train me in order for me to get my revenge, i started living with him or better them.

the practice room had a heated atmosphere from fighting him for almost 2 hours straight. the worst of it all was that he won like almost every time and through that he started to piss me of only by his presence.

minho himself wasn’t even near being exhausted - his hair looked perfectly in place, he had no hard time breathing and the worst of it all was the nasty smile on those lips of his.

“wanna try defeating me again?”

he asked this so casually as if he couldn’t tell you were more than exhausted - sweat drops made their way down your forehead, your hair was all over the place and your lips were parted, so you could breath.

if you two were close enough with each other for him to be able to kiss you, he would definitely kiss you right now. you being a complete mess just did something to him.

you on the other side lost yourself in his intense and sharp eyes, when he suddenly broke the eye contact by looking away.

“what was the question you’ve asked again?”

he chuckled at your question - noticing he in fact had an effect on you so big you would forget what he had been asking you.

“i asked if we wanna go for another round?”

“sure”

and your reassuring answer was enough for him to attack you again. he ran towards you but you were fast enough to dodge his body.

this didn’t stop you to attack him back tho, because as he was fixing his posture you were able to catch him off guard and straddle him to the ground.

you two locked eyes when you were in top of him and in the moment where he wanted to open his mouth to speak again the door bursted open revealing bangchan and felix.

the two guys wore training fits as if they got ready to train in this room but the scene before them hold them back. both of them were close friends of minho’s, which you got to meet through your first dinner at this mansion.

and now they were both standing there in shock because of the position you guys were in.

“uhm, are we interrupting something?”

at the question of felix both of you nodded your heads in disagreement, when bangchan laughed and pulled his phone out in a swift motion to take pics for the groupchat.

“never knew that lee know was a bottom”

minho started frowning his brows at this statement - as if denying it. but with that sentence the two guys left you confused and alone again.

as you were still staring at the closing door minho used the opportunity to catch you off guard by lying his hands around your waist to turn you two the other way around, so he would sit on top of you now.

“try getting out”

“huh-”

it took you some time to clear your mind again and get back to the training. when you started trying shoving off, nothing seemed to help.

that’s why you started struggling, but when you did that with your hips to get him off you his emotionless and frowned face showed some kind of reaction.

his lips parted and let out a quiet but high-pitched sound.

you used his confusion to throw him off your body and stood up again. but it didn’t took him long to pin you down again and you were back to square one.

he opened his mouth to fill his lungs with oxygen again after doing his fast movements. suddenly his hot breath hit the side of your neck he he spoke in your ear:

“i’m not a bottom”

so this is what this about now? why did he got so worked up about a little comment of bangchan?

“i never said that, minho”

he looked somewhat satisfied by your bold response, but there was still something off about him. then you two just continued your training and afterwards you went back to your room to shower.

when your phone screen light up.

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she/they

jeongin and hyunjin biased.

― requests are always open 💬

f - fluff, s - smut, a - angst, t - text

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—straykids

➜ bangchan

| nothing yet

➜ lee know

“i’m not a bottom” (f)

➜ changbin

l nothing yet

➜ hyunjin

my target (f)

➜ han

l nothing yet

➜ felix

enough for you (a)

➜ seungmin

l nothing yet

➜ jeongin

l nothing yet

➜ ot8

friends with benefits (s, t,) I hyung line, maknae line

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my target

fluff - hyunjin x fem!reader (no fem!body mentioned tho)

word count: 587

warning under cut !!

warnings: smoking, making out (its nothing too bad), mafia, gangs, tattoos, angst (if you squint), stalking — let me know if i forgot smth

authors note: this is my first fluff ever so i’m sorry if the writing is bad (😭😭), english isn’t my first language, i’m welcoming any feedbacks, requests or writing aids

‘‘you‘re in my room at 2am, what do you want?‘‘

he sat next to me on my bed and lit up a cigarette as he was about to answer. my eyes directly landed on his silhouette - waiting for a response of his.

when suddenly his raspy voice began to break the silence between you guys.

‘‘you know what i‘m here for, sign it already‘‘

the smoke of the cigarette started to fill the room and the only light was coming from the moon. i locked my eyes with the ones of hyunjin and started analysing his gaze on me.

he looked almost angelic in this light, as if he was just a pure boy. but as he ran his hand through his hair, i couldn’t miss the red droplets of liquid on them.

he must have noticed me spacing out when he cleared his throat to make me answer his question, or rather demand.

‘‘i‘m not signing shit. it‘s the hwang‘s responsibility to end this‘‘

he laughed at my answer, like it was a joke. before reconsidering to say anything, he made sure to take another hit of the cigarette.

‘‘what’s so wrong about you becoming mine? you’re acting as if you weren’t before‘‘

‘‘yea right, that was before we had to join our family’s business‘‘

he wanted to argue at that but suddenly shuffled towards you and offered for you to take a hit. when you turned down his offer he moved even closer towards your body. now that his face was mere centimetres in front yours, hyunjin looked down at my lips and then in my eyes.

i couldn’t tell if it was the little light or because of his purpose for me to sign the contract, but he looked so delicate now.

the few strands of hair falling on the side of his cheeks and as well conversing some little parts of his eyes, made him look kissable. but by now you couldn’t make yourself look somewhat weak and give in to him.

so, he took matters into his own hands and decided to kiss you. when the gap was closed you did give in to him tho and returned the flavour.

his lips tugged at your lower one in order to open your mouth. and that’s when you felt some of the cigarettes smoke began fill your lungs.

when hyunjin noticed you struggling with breathing it out again, he backed up a bit. you two continued on kissing each other just when you felt a hand tugging at your sweater with the purpose of exposing the skin of your collarbone.

your exposed skin got scanned to find the thing he was searching for and when he found it, he bend his head down next to your ear. ‘‘you still have it?‘‘

the matching tattoo you two got one year ago - when things were still good between you. you slowly nodded at him as you asked:

‘‘you still got yours too?‘‘

and as a response he threw his now finished cigarette on the ground and exposed his collarbone too. he still has it. only if things could work out with him and without your family’s interfering.

‘‘let me love you, only for tonight‘‘

‘‘only tonight, without any contract signing?‘‘

‘‘we can talk about that some other day‘‘

and that’s when he leaned in to leave marks on your neck.

‘‘let that boy from earlier know you got somebody already‘‘

‘‘are you stalking me?‘‘

‘‘you could call it that. afterall you’re my target‘‘

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