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why are you doing this? (part1)

Story: It is about the twin sister of James Potter and she is secretly in love with his best friend. That is a story with two parts. Warnings: Everyone can read it. There is nothing bad in it. This is a short story for the beginning. I hope I can write part 2. Tomorrow but for the fact that I have no followers it won’t make a difference.

You were going through the corridors of hogwarts. You were deep down in your thoughts about your brother and his friends. You needed this time alone, just you and the silence of hogwarts. It was around 5pm the most pupils were sleeping. Some of them were awake and did some uninteresting things. You woke up early because of your brother and his friends.

 They were a fix part of your mind and this was dump and annoying. You wished you could have one day, you don’t care what those freaks are doing. You cared to much about them.You worry about them every full moon. And the most difficult thing was, you were in love with one of them, even though he was basically your adopted brother. You always felt a stab in your heart when he kissed a girl. The worst fact was that he wasn’t doing this once or twice in his career. No he was doing this once a week or sometimes twice a week. 

------7pm, Gryffindor Common Room 

You were sitting with Lily, Mary and Marleen on the couch and were working on your homework in Dada. “Y/N, we need your help now!”, screamed a voice behind you and you turned your head around and there he stand James Potter aka your 3 min older brother. “I am going. I hope I am right back”, and you walked with James upstairs to the boys droom. In there were Sirius, Remus and Peter. Their eyes looked at you and you knew they wanted something from you. “So Y/N I know you have your explosions balls in your droom, we need them so please don’t be an adult and give us three we need them for our next prank”, begged Sirius. You turned around to leave because you wouldn’t give those balls to them. (Info: before hogwarts you were a pranker and you made a lot of pranks at home. Your dad had some ingredients at home  and you invented those balls. You have them alway with you and save that James don’t take it, because those are dangerous) So you can’t leave the room because James blocked the door. You raised your eyebrows and you mouthed a no. “Okay then you can go only if you are going out with Sirius and if not you go and bring us those balls!”, James replied. That words confused you like hell. Six years James  preached you that couldn’t go out with someone because he would for sure break my heart and now he explain me that I have to go out with his best friend. You look up to him, yeah he grew really high. Your eyes were looking straight into his face to see if he means it serious. He really meant it. So you raised your eyebrows a second time. To increase his last words he said,”Yeah, I mean it and don’t look at me so!” You take a deep breath and began to speak, “James, no, you don’t get them and no I don’t go out with Sirius!” After a while of argumenting you amouned with going out with Sirius. You look at him and he told you, that the date is next Saturday.

You turned around and walked straight out of the door. You went to your room because you needed time to think what you have done. You knew that you made a mistake with those balls but you can’t give them those because when you tried them out as a child. The explosion was amazing but your mother didn’t thought that way and you had to promise that you didn’t use them again. 

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Dark Academia Corona special

Is the absolute workaholic, cold coffee, half croissants, learning a new language, night walks, the smell of coffee is everywhere, paper with not finished poems are laying everywhere, piles of books are on the desk, you are sitting on the floor and wondering what you can do next, midday sleep, candles are burned down and you don’t notice it, colortubes are all over the desk, the only light is coming from the cold light of your computer

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my thoughts everyday

why can’t I am in Hogwarts?  Why is Sirius Black not my boyfriend?  why am I born as a muggle?  Why is English not my native language? Why is my fantasy world not real? Why am I so young? Why am I using technology? Why is school so early? Why can’t I wake up in the gryffindor common room? What is my cat eating all day?