iamfavoredgrace

[iamfavoredgrace]

ENDING IS A GIFT

She's single since birth and longing to have a relationship like any other couple. She wished to have a boyfriend . Always praying to find his significant other. But she's been waiting for a long time she's not getting any younger. And so, she decided to do things that out of her destiny.

She tried dating apps and met a guy. The guy told her that he "like" her very much he's doing everything what she wants and they did something beyond a couple could do over the internet. He talked to her everyday. Saying the word "I love you". He always made her feel loved. He always give his attention to her like any other guy would do for his girl. But there are red flags that she ignored because she's enjoying his company. He said he's single. He even include marriage on the talking stage. And she believed that. She believed it because he assured her that she's the only one. And did something for the very first time in her entire life that is kinda make her feel sinful. And she felt she's being used but she still ignored it.

But she's also praying and asking for a sign to end and stop it.

After one month ,2 weeks , and 2 days of talking , she decided to search him on other social media platforms because she missed him very much of course she had invested some of her feelings over him. However , she saw something that shocked her.

She saw a photo of him with a girl. People are very fond of them , 200++ likes and hearts on the photos. "great couple" she read on the comments section. Continued scrolling through his profile and she saw that they were together a long time ago. There are also Anniversary photos.

She new there was something wrong with their set up but she ignored it. Because she wanted to believe that finally she'll be in a relationship with a guy.

She felt very stupid and bad and sad . He is a cheater. Why would he do that? She felt stupid because despite of red flags she still continue entertained him , felt bad for his girlfriend and sad because she thought this is going to be her first successful relationship.

But she's thankful at the same time that this happened. This has to end one way or the other. Because what she's doing is sinful.

She deleted the app and all dating application she's using. And shell move on from here. She realized the she don't deserve him, she deserves more than him.

What would you do if you were her?

She's thinking of revealing it to her girlfriend or wife but , how? and she don't want to hurt her feelings.

[iamfavoredgrace]

Are you in the same phase where in you have a lot of things to do and try but you have limited time and money 🤧

[iamfavoredgrace]

HOPIA

Today, I woke up in a text message and I felt a romantic excitement because it was from someone I admire for being nice, sweet and generous. Not because I'm fond of him. But we have mutual friends who sometimes taunt me about him when he's still single.

I know this person doesn't have any interest in me. And no offense to it. The text was about inviting me out for lunch. They planned this a long time ago, but they've been canceling for one reason or another. (to eat out with fellow workers). I told him I couldn't come because the place is nowhere near where I live. And I get excited about his answer. He said, "Don't worry, I'll look after you," because he's got a car he's gonna drive me home.

Faster, we finally meet... inside his car, he lowers the temperature of the air conditioning because I was complaining about the warmth. He suddenly asked about my sister, who previously worked for Starbucks. He was very interested in how it worked in such a place, and he even asked how much money my sister was getting. I told him that my sister was only a part-time employee and that she no longer worked there and that I did not know how much she earned while working. I wonder why he initiated this conversation. He then utters a girl named Angle. He wanted to know if I knew her. I don't know the name nor the person per se. I said, No, I don't know who she is.. This is where he began to tell stories about her. Which doesn't bother me about continuing the conversation.

We went into one of our co-workers' homes and picked them up. He even asked me to cover up and pretend to be Angle. Because he wants to make a joke and I'm willing to have fun.

They're talking about that chick. I mean, I can see why he's wooing this girl, Angle, who works at Starbucks. The romantic excitement I felt when I woke up after reading his answer that I had kept to myself all the time we were inside his car, pop.

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[iamfavoredgrace]

This week is really stressful week. Come to work on Monday and came home and feel like I already had my 5 days shift. I am so tired. I'm only at my 30's but I want to retire already! But life said "NO you cannot"! Is it only me?

[iamfavoredgrace]

How would you know your own purpose in life?

If you are someone that has a decent job, home, friends and family that you can trust and be there for you through ups and down, and food three times a day. What else you could ask for , right?

But there is still part of you that is still missing and would want to know, search and understand why do you even exist?

[iamfavoredgrace]

I prayed and begged for this.

I told myself I am not going to cry.But, I ended up crying...I cried really hard. No one is there to comfort so I took my time to cry. It was a really good cry anyway. A relief I must say. 🤷🏻‍♀️

Just needed a good cry so I can go back to reality.