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Okay, so: in early drafts of Jules Verne's 1870 novel Twenty Thousand Leagues Under the Sea, Captain Nemo is a Polish guy bent on revenge against the Russian Empire for the murder of his family in the January Uprising. Verne's editor objected on the grounds that Russia was a French ally at the time of the book's writing, and in the actual, published version of the story, Nemo's national origin and precisely which empire he's pissed off at are left unspecified.

Later, in the 1875 quasi-sequel The Mysterious Island, Nemo is retconned as an Indian noble out for revenge against the British for the murder of his family in the Indian Rebellion of 1857 – basically the same as the original plan, simply substituting a different uprising and a different empire. Verne's editor raised no objections this time around, because fuck the British, right? Though Twenty Thousand Leagues and The Mysterious Island aren't 100% compatible in their respective timelines, this version of Nemo has customarily been back-ported into adaptations of Twenty Thousand Leagues ever since.

Now here's the funny part: perhaps as a jab at his editor, Verne made a specific plot point in Twenty Thousand Leagues of Professor Aronnax repeatedly trying and failing to figure out where the fuck Nemo is from. At one point his attempt to pin down Nemo's accent is frustrated by Nemo's vast multilingualism. At another point, he tries and fails to trick Nemo by quizzing him about latitude and longitude.

(To contextualise that last bit, at the time the book was written, there was no international agreement on which line of longitude should be zero degrees, and many nations had their own prime meridians; Aronnax hoped to identify Nemo's national origin by calculating which meridian he was giving his longitudes relative to. Nemo, however, immediately spots the ploy, and announces that he'll use the Paris meridian in deference to the fact that Aronnax is a Frenchman.)

The upshot is that at no point in the course of any of this Sherlock Holmes bullshit does Aronnax ever bring up the colour of Nemo's skin as a potential clue. In light of the book's publication history, this is almost certainly simply because Verne hadn't decided that Nemo was Indian yet. However, taking into account The Mysterious Island's retcon, it retroactively makes Aronnax the least racist Frenchman ever.

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Hey, you've been mentioned here because I've a question for pro-endo/non traumagenic systems (and I'm very scared that if I only mention one person, they won't respond/see). The systems I've mentioned are systems I've followed/looked into their for some amount of time an another account. I am sorry if you don't want singlets to interact with you, I'll edit the post and unfollow you. This account is new because I can't post on my main (personal reasons). I wanted to ask this in anon but stupid tumbrl won't let me ask questions without verifying my mail and I used a fake one for this account (for personal reasons).

TW// mention of suicidal and $h thoughts, mention of $A

So, I am a singlet and I am very mentally NOT okay. Even more recently, I think of h@rming and k1ll1ng myself everyday, I've gotten a lot of $A flashbacks and my h¥pers3xu@lity has gotten just worse. I tried everything, but it only makes me better for a very short time and I CAN'T get a therapist (personal reasons). It has been a moment I'm reading pro-endo stuffs online, resources, experiences, terms etc.. and I saw "created systems". I think that, if I was a system, I could deal with my mental health easier and on a longer term than with the stuffs I tried. So I really really REALLY want to become a system. But like, a LOT.

Is that bad? Weird?

Honestly, I just want an answer. Even if it's "That's so weird, you're a weirdo ew DNI", I just need an answer, I'll take anything at this point.

Sorry for my bad English, it isn't my native language and if you feel like I'm justifying myself too often and that I say sorry too often. I'm very sorry if that's so. And sorry for the long paragraphs. Also, if you're anti endos, don't interact, boundaries work both ways.

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Portrait of Michał Gorstkin-Wywiórski

Jacek Malczewski, 1892

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Two young men, circa 1895

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Konstanty Górski (1868-1934) "Self-portrait" (1896) Oil on canvas