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The last

Of all the dreams I've dared to dream You're the best I've ever had I'm holding back unspoken lines But this one should be said

Of all the poems that I wrote Heavyhearted, self-engrossed Some are hopeful, others sad But this one hurts the most

Of all thoughts inside my head My "you" is dim and overcast Today I'm still in love with you But this one is the last

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To whom I love the most

To whom I love the most Let me turn you into art Deathless ink of poetry That's bleeding from my heart To whom I love the most In the shadows of my mind Between my sealed unspoken truths And all the words I'll never find To whom I love the most Oh whoever you might be Who's captured now within this poem Signed in love by me

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Child abuse

When I was a little child The title makes it clear And ever since I'm living with An untold, secret fear After ten years, maybe more I've found a very trusted friend So finally I told my secret Brought the silence to an end The secret's gone, the fear is not And I don't know how long takes I'm wondering if he feels guilt With every single child he breaks While usually I love to write Right now that's not the case I drown in anger, hatred, pain With every sentence, every phrase But still, it's time to raise my voice And speak for those who haven't yet Just to make you think about The crimes a child cannot forget

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Let go, my heart

Love is pure and beautiful At least that's what they say And that I have to win a heart I guess I've found my way Now I am locked within that heart Kept prisoner inside Or am I maybe free to go But too afraid to leave the hide? I feel the heart contracting Every single, scattered beat Pumping fire through the veins I'm burning in the heat Soon enough I'm burning up I have to leave, I know And I will beg, before I die Let go, my heart, let go                                                  

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Just a word

I care about you, very much You're all I have and ever had Yet, it's time for me to say The hardest thing I've ever said My words will hurt both you and me Please don't get me wrong I only kept them to myself For I have loved you oh so long But I have come to realize That love is just a word A word I never should have used And one you never should have heard

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Happy memory

Your eyes, they shine at me Ocean blue with sparks of gold Your youth will never fade You're never getting old I play for you, you sing along Waving at me, smiling bright And when I see you waving now I should be happy, right? If not somewhere in my mind There was one hidden spot Knowing that this memory Is everything I've got

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Instagram: iamoutofink

Hey friends and fellow writers! This is the first time I post something that is not a poem.

When I first started sharing my writings I never thought anyone would actually like them. And since poetry is quite personal, I never felt comfortable sharing this side of me with the world. But here I am now and I am glad that I finally had enough courage to do it. 

Honestly, I still don’t get social media but I guess it’s about time to learn. That’s why I decided to make an Instagram account for sharing my poems. If some of you also have an Instagram account, feel free to text me! I’m excited to see all your posts on there! With that said, thank you everyone for your support!!! It means so much to me that we can all share our thoughts and writings with each other! <3

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Burnt

Your fingerprints burnt into my shivering skin, all over my body, underneath my clothes. Your words burnt into my shattered mind, all over my brain, in every thought. Your love burnt into my shaken life, all over my past, and into the future. You burned your name into my shallow heart.

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Unrequited love

High on unrequited love The only kind of love I've found Bring me down, and wreck me into Shattered pieces on the ground Addicted to the way I crush And oh to everything there is To voice and smile, to touch and smell To thoughts and words and lips to kiss From very high to very low Drawn to what I shouldn't do So that I can't help wondering Is it the pain or is it you?

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If you don’t listen

Hello mum and hello dad Hello brother, sister, friend I need you all to listen And I need you all to understand You know I want to change the world You know my ideology I know you think I'm crazy And I know you're making fun of me But what I say is not a joke Or some defiant protest phase Our world cannot go on like this We humans have to change our ways So listen to me, try to see Or continue deaf and blind This life is yours and yours alone Though, you need to keep in mind No matter how much words I waste No matter how much ink I spill In the end, it's all on you If you don't listen, no one will

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Can I stay?

Here and now So frail and brief Can I stay And never leave? Half to go And halfway done Nothing lost And all to come Wondering 'bout how it goes Stop the time And no one knows

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Lights on

When I was a little child, I was afraid of the dark. People were telling me that's normal. So I got a little lamp and I switched it on at night. Until I became older, and I stopped being afraid of the dark. People were telling me that's normal. So I threw my little lamp away. Now I'm grown up, and everyone seems to be afraid of the light. People are telling me that's normal. But I'm switching it on anyway.

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I wonder if I am crazy

I wonder if I am crazy. I wonder what crazy even means. Being trapped in a dream world, all alone? I wonder if I am alone. When I'm alone, I tend to dance through my apartment, wrapped in darkness and surrounded by nothing but the sound of some gloomy classical music. I wonder what other people do when they're alone. Sealed off from society. Unnoticed from anyone. Invisible to a stranger's curious eyes. They themselves being the only ones that could ever witness their behavior. Judge them, maybe. I'll never know. I wonder if I am just dreaming. When I dream at night - and I always dream - it can be quite scary. Nightmare-colored darkness of thoughts forming themselves unrestrainedly to unknown fears in the shadows of my mind. I wonder what other people dream about. At night when their thoughts drift off, entirely uncontrolled, uncontrollable. I'll never know. I wonder if I am crazy. I'll never know.

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Temporary love

I might have loved you for a while Though it has never been enough To exceed this well-known state That I call temporary love

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Nightmare

I'm not afraid of common fears Spiders, dentists, darkness, god Flying, needles, blood, and heights Most people are, but I am not They say that what you fear the most Will be revealed while you're asleep I guess my nightmares never really Dive into my mind that deep And every night before I sleep I stare out the window for a while Looking at my face reflection But I never seem to smile Tonight has been a rainy night I fell asleep to the trickling sound I woke up in my dream again To watch the rain another round And through the window I could see The world outside in nightmare black And I could see my face reflection For the first time smiling back Though dreams are freely fabricated Fragile, framed, fallacious, fake The real world never felt so real And I was never more awake So I kept staring at myself Through the window, through the rain Eventually I realized That I am afraid of my brain

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Phoenix

You and I just didn't work And there's no way to make it right But I have made my peace with it Why do you feel the need to fight?

You've hit and shattered me before And you have burned me to the ground So many times, so many years You want to start another round?

I'm done with it and done with you With all the sympathy I've had I won't fight back, and I won't run Just fire at me, go ahead

And I'll be smiling through the flames I'm stronger than you think I am Like a phoenix from the ashes I will rise up once again

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What I talk about

You're asking what I talk about Cause you're confused by what I say? Then let me spell it out for you In my most clear and simple way I talk about how we still hate On gender, ethnicity, and race How we are rude behind our backs But super friendly face-to-face I talk about how we destroy Our planet, forests, and the sea Climate change and plastic waste Meat consumption, constantly I talk about how we keep up A life style that we can't afford And how we trade integrity For outworn habits and comfort I talk about how we ignore All corruption, bribe, and fraud Massive mind manipulation Killings in the name of God I talk about how we stay quiet Out of undeserved respect And a whole society Of decreasing intellect So this is what I talk about The issues that I can't ignore Every one I listed here And many, oh so many more