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Nothing like reminiscing over the memory of a cry help. A desperate plea years in the making. Finally able to bring forth the words and emotion to the surface so someone can help. And the soft joy of crying your little heart out after they say they’ll help. You’re away from home right now, but once you’re back we’ll help get you what you need.

And then nothing. My wobbling voice reached out to my parents nearly two years ago. And nothing at all has changed. Except, perhaps, that if I ever manage to cry out again, it will not be to them.

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There’s something rather satisfying at being shit at a secondary language and coming across a couple of sentences in the wild that you can still make sense of.

Can I read it word for word? Fuck no!

Can I still tell you what it’s saying? Hell yes!

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My mom’s a fucking transphobe is trying to make me watch her transphobic propaganda. Send help 🙃

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Just rewatched The Sound of Music

Fantastic movie! Wonderful music!

Wondering just how the hell I forgot about there being fricking Nazis in it!

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More issues with the mailbox key~~~~

I’m having so much fun~~~~~

:(

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There’s something kind of frustrating, watching a younger sibling get the help they need, knowing that you needed the same or similar help as well and never got it.

I’m glad he’s getting help. I really am. I just can’t help but feel a little resentful, and I hate that I feel that resentment.

Feelings are hard, man

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I need people to understand that sometimes autism is just this

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Diagrams are helpful to me

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Saw a thread on Twitter of "gifts to give a person with ADHD and autism" that was full of stereotypical and quite frankly patronizing items, so here's a list of I (autistic individual) want instead as a gift

Money

Fourteen billion dollars

Free coupon to kill somebody with my teeth

Suitcase full of money

Cool looking rock

Scratching post for me to sink my claws into

An albino elephant

The head of Jeff Bezos mounted on my wall

Uncooked rice

A cup full of blood

100k in cash

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ok so for those of you who don’t know, there’s this twitter account of a japanese local hero mascot named dentman who went viral recently due to this tweet

but yeah he saw the tweet. and his response went viral as well (which is how i found his account)

and he just has like. hourly posts reminding you to brush your teeth

oh and his rival? his name is mr. mutans. whenever dentman posts he makes a post of his own, ofc

but THAT’S NOT ALL. literally while making this post i found a THIRD ACCOUNT that’s all about taking your meds

safe to say i’m losing my mind

anyway the point of all this was that people are ALREADY beginning to draw them ship art 😭

and the reactions are everything

I CANT ADD ANY MORE IMAGES BUT TRUST ME THIS IS SO FUNNY

toxic one-sided dentman yaoi wasn’t on my 2024 bingo card but it DEFINITELY IS NOW!

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Apparently, my supervisor is kind of ableist! Yay…………….I can expect no help from this man :(

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Why so sad little man :(

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In addition to this. After a pause while thinking about the mail key, I asked if we really did only have the one key. Did we not have a spare? What would happen if we lost the key we had?

Nary a straight answer to be found :(

An adult. A rent-paying adult. Subletting from my parents. There are perks for sure.

Cheap

My only ‘chore’ is to maintain the area I pay for

No access restrictions on the communal areas

My parents dogs

There also downsides. As one would readily expect from living with one’s parents.

The struggle of this day is mail.

Specifically, access to our mailbox.

I don’t have a mail key. My mom does. She has the only key as far as I’m aware. She checks the mail most days, so this is rarely a problem, and yet here we are.

I received a package yesterday, but she didn’t get the mail. I was fine with waiting, and she did say she’d get it today, so no worries.

Except she doesn’t get it today. And another package for me arrives. That’s two now. I ask about them and she says later, when she comes back from the store she’ll grab them. Nope. The hours pass, groceries are put away, she’s doing other things. She’s busy. I get that. I ask to borrow the key so I can go get them myself and she seems offended. She goes ‘No. I’ll get it,’ with voice of frustration like I’m being difficult in wanting to pick up the things I payed for. And she rushes out the door right after plating her dinner. The second I ask to do it myself, why does it turn from ‘later’ to such quick actioned obstinance? Why??

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An adult. A rent-paying adult. Subletting from my parents. There are perks for sure.

Cheap

My only ‘chore’ is to maintain the area I pay for

No access restrictions on the communal areas

My parents dogs

There also downsides. As one would readily expect from living with one’s parents.

The struggle of this day is mail.

Specifically, access to our mailbox.

I don’t have a mail key. My mom does. She has the only key as far as I’m aware. She checks the mail most days, so this is rarely a problem, and yet here we are.

I received a package yesterday, but she didn’t get the mail. I was fine with waiting, and she did say she’d get it today, so no worries.

Except she doesn’t get it today. And another package for me arrives. That’s two now. I ask about them and she says later, when she comes back from the store she’ll grab them. Nope. The hours pass, groceries are put away, she’s doing other things. She’s busy. I get that. I ask to borrow the key so I can go get them myself and she seems offended. She goes ‘No. I’ll get it,’ with voice of frustration like I’m being difficult in wanting to pick up the things I payed for. And she rushes out the door right after plating her dinner. The second I ask to do it myself, why does it turn from ‘later’ to such quick actioned obstinance? Why??

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Why are my art supplies considered hoarding right up until they’re considered useful, and then it’s straight back to hoarding afterwards.

‘You have too much stuff~’

It’s just disorganized. A messy stack always takes more space than the same things when clean and orderly. I know I need to straighten up.

‘You never use these~’

I’ve literally used every single kind of item I’ve bought. I might not have used all of each, (eg. a set of five stamps, but I’ve only used two so far), but that is just a matter of time.

‘Why do hold on to these things, they’re garbage~’

I specifically only hold on to a set amount of what you called ‘garbage’, and I reuse these items as I see fit. Old, non-donate-able clothes are now practice cloths for embroidery, cheap filling for pillows, patches for quilts and other decorations. Those paper towel rolls are supports and filler for papier-mâché. Those jars are, well, jars. I put things in them. I use scrap lace and leftover patterned paper on homemade cards. Cardboard boxes can be cheap canvas, supports for 3D projects, or just boxes. Maybe put the jars there lol

‘Hey, I need tissue paper and card stock for this gift I’m wrapping. Do you have any?’

And suddenly my apparent over abundance is no longer just some eyesore, but your great boon. Because yes, I have twelve kinds of tissue paper and two kinds of card stock. I also have wrapping paper if you’d prefer, dozens of kinds of ribbons if you’d like, and a calligraphy pen with four different nibs and three kinds of ink if you wanna get fancy on the card.

And they walk off with gift, impeccably styled, and my art stuff is all seemingly just junk to them again. The same stuff they were so grateful for just a moment ago. I don’t understand it. Why can’t my art supplies just be art supplies.

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Frogs

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Gotalotl Axolotl?

I gotalitl Axolotl.