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sometimes all i want to do is get rid of everything i own. it takes up too much space. i want my room to be empty from any thing ledt that resembles me. i cant stand the thought of people knowing anything or remembering about me either, whether i kill myself or not

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maybe all i really fucking need is to become another person for a day so i could beat the living shit out of myself

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how can people just go on with their lives without the absurdity and lack of meaning of life constantly bothering them?

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i feel so alienated from society. i dont understand people at all. i generally dont understand how to interact with them and i dont know what to do from now on

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every year i reach new lows and wish i killed myself earlier

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sometimes i like to daydream about people burning my belongings and forgetting about me after my death

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too sick to be considered normal, too normal to be considered sick

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someday when the maggots eat my dead body i will be alright i think

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killing myself is just not enough, i literally NEED all proof of my existence to be gone and the memory of me wiped off from everyone's mind

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" remember how you used to do such stupid things like self harm? " im literally going to kill myself in front of you

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can't decide whether i should slit my wrists or just distract myself

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why do i have to have the worst urge to cut right when summer is approaching :(

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ever since i was a little girl i knew i wanted to die by self-inflicted shotgun wound

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there's an itch in the back of my head only a shotgun can reach

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lowkey thinking about ruining all my relationships and killing myself