ik-sperment-626

[ik-sperment-626]

03-11-21

Current situation: Looking for a new place to live and I have come to the conclusion that it is very difficult because of the two Siberian Huskies and my three cats. I refuse to get rid of them because they are like my children and also they have helped me emotionally and mentally helped me through my hellish life so far. Like I have mentioned before I have other animals that are in terrariums and one rabbit named Sven that bullies me on the daily and gets free roaming time from his two story condo. But yeah.. So far finding a new place has proven to be very difficult, but hopefully we can find a new place soon! 

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03-09-21

I probably ramble too much and it’s probably because there are so many things I have withholding that I can no longer hold back... Sometimes I feel like I’m a ticking bomb just waiting to explode. The problem with that is that I personally know the amount of damage I can cause. I am truly a force to be reckoned with.  I honestly believe that there is only so much a person can take before they go completely mad. I can feel myself going deeper and deeper into that dark place I don’t like to be in, but they have been forcing my hand. I DON’T KNOW HOW MUCH MORE I CAN TAKE.

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03-08-21

Today, I realized that no one cares... I have been surrounded by people who consider themselves “family”, but all they do is disrespect me as a person. Everything hurts because I am hurting so bad and no one notices... or at least they don't care enough to. I had to move back home with my parents in July of last year with my fiancée, my rabbit, my bird (R.I.P. Kiwi), two dogs, two cats, two rats, and my many reptiles. You see they went and offered to help with a house and living here was going to be only for three months. Those three months passed and the promised house fell short. Now we have to deal with the people under the stairs as we like to call them (Yes, they are a reference to the movie ‘The People Under The Stairs’) or creatures since they are like leeches and feed off of others (my parents provide them jobs, a roof over their heads, and nanny service). I honestly don’t know how much longer I can take with them thinking they can disrespect us for... My fiancée and I literally don't bother anyone we just keep to ourselves and care for our animals. Every time they come home to visit their kids the people under the stairs complain about us and we don't know why... Sometimes it will be over stupid things, too. My parents side with them because of one thing and one thing only... MONEY. We have offered to give them “rent” money, but they have refused so it’s not like we’re moochers. These people have all that they have because of my parents.... Well this is it for tonight.. 

[ik-sperment-626]

03-07-21

Hi, I’m new here. I honestly don’t know where to begin. I could go on and on about my life story, but it’s too long and too confusing to write all in one night. So I will just start with a bit of the beginning. My life is kind of difficult, but honestly who’s life isn't... right? Everyone has a life story some worse than others, but mine out of most people that I know seems to be a bit worse. Let me know if me rambling about my life seems like something you would like to read. At the same time it will help me heal by talking about it. 

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