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Literally still annoyed like

I literally watch movies at work with my coworker all the time using my phone and this is public knowledge, we hadn’t texted in literally almost an hour and a half, and I mute notifications so I don’t get 900 pop ups and you’re gonna text me being a bitch

“If you didn’t want to talk you could’ve just told me”

???????????? I muted my entire phone so I didn’t get pop ups but people could still text if they want, and so I didn’t have to say “I’m watching a movie don’t text” like????? Let’s use our fucking brains

And I muted EVERYONE and if it had been about YOU or just YOU then YOU WOULDNT HAVE GOTTEN NOTIFIED

I literally used the do not disturb feature specifically so people would see I was busy and not expect an immediate response because I was WATCHING A MOVIE

GET OFF MY DICK???

“If you don’t want to talk just say so”

Um I do say so when I don’t want to talk- so if that was me not wanting to talk I would’ve said I DONT WANT TO TALK

Like the actual audacity I’m so fucking annoyed

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At this point I’m pretty much convinced my existence is a fucking mistake lol

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I don’t know what you want me to do

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Cool that really fucking hurt lol

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If one more person asks me for a discount at the till…. One more

Story of my fucking LIFE

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Whyd you make this blog

The short answer is that I’m a salty bitch and wanted somewhere to be a salty bitch without using my main

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I really should just keep my fuckin mouth shut

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What are you supposed to do when you don’t want a therapist but your mental health is getting worse and worse lately and you don’t know why and you know that none of your friends care

And not in an “I’m mentally I’ll and am incapable of believing people care” way but in an “I’ve tried talking about it before and get left on read and then ignored for days until they can pretend it didn’t happen or I get snapped at and yelled at for the way I’m thinking or they just go ‘oh sorry’ and move on” kind of way

I stopped cutting. I’m 15 months clean.

This is the closest I’ve felt to relapse since I stopped

I don’t know. Maybe I’m being dramatic

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Oh my GOD I fucking hate w*ncesties????? These fucking idiots are literally on twitter spewing all kinds of harmful bullshit about Hellers and how we allegedly want Cas to r*pe Dean, I’m having a conniption.

Like??? You ship INCEST????? WHAT ABOUT THAT DO YOU NOT GET????????? WHAT THE FUCK??????

LITERALLY WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE???? LITERAL FREAKS

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Having a rough time tonight. Can’t keep giving myself the “you’re not old enough” excuse. I’ve been old enough for years. I’m 25. I wish this was easier to push out of my mind and get over but I can’t get it out of my head.

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🙃

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Sometimes I wonder if there’s something wrong with me.

I don’t understand.

I don’t know why I struggle so much to make friends. I don’t know why they never care about me as much as I care about them. I don’t understand why I’m always everyone’s second best, or last priority. I don’t understand why all I do is love to the best of my ability and I’m treated like I don’t matter and I’m not worth it.

I don’t understand why I’m not worth it.

I don’t know what I did wrong.

I don’t know why I’m still alone. Why I’m always alone. Why I seek out love and am constantly denied.

I just want to matter to someone.

I don’t understand why I don’t.

I don’t understand what’s wrong with me.

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I’m getting real fucking sick of seeing posts about how Dean is homophobic can people like fucking stop for 5 seconds

Maybe watch the fucking show and understand the source material or understand that his actual reaction got cut out or use your eyes to see that he is clearly crying and clearly choked up and CLEARLY distraught

DEAN WINCHESTER DIDNT GET TETANUS AND DIE SO YOUR STUPID ASS COULD CALL HIM A HOMOPHOBE

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Idk man that shit just sucks

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Sigh

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K I’ll go fuck myself then???? Christ.

She’s literally on the same page as me so if there’s a point trying to be made it isn’t succeeding but pop off I guess

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Well

Theres $30 I didn’t even have completely wasted 😪