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2x04 rewatch thoughts with bonus asta being cute as fuck

also a good episode. i was lookin forward to rewatching this one for the stuff w d'arcy's parents for my Research. and there's not much given but enough to paint a picture. lots of passive aggression :( the fact that she literally cant handle 5 minutes alone with them without liv... oof.

also elliott...! i was feeling mixed about coming to this storyline not because I don't like him but I guess because it makes me feel so torn, because I DO like him. i was mostly relieved the show didn't bring him back to make a happy romantic ending for d'arcy, idk if that was something they would've done if the show ran longer, but it definitely would've felt rushed if they had brought it back on the existing timeline. 'cause she has a lot of other issues that are not solved by just getting with someone who treats her nicely. (yes, I realize this may sound ironic when most of my posts are about shipping her and asta, but clarification that this is for fun and whimsy beyond canon; speaking in regards to what unfolds in canon, I think where she ended up is probably the best place by far). anyways in my d'asta-shipping-goggles life elliot being here is Complicated because as I said I want so badly to just relate everything to their deep love and need to smooch but it's also hard to ignore that he's like... compelling! i'm a multishipper but it breaks my heart a little i guess because the way it is written in the show feels too real. like the potential of how good they are together is so real but also the way it crumbles is so real and true to d'arcy's character that it just feels rough. elliott is goddamn charming though. that first scene where he asks d'arcy out? he is a Man among men.

also asta in this episode... first off "you don't care unless it's me? well, it's me again!" is an all-time line. also... her going back to jimmy at the end... UGH also painful to watch because it feels too real. i have been thinking a lot as i try to flesh out my understanding of the characters' backstories about the weight of asta being with jimmy for essentially 17 years straight. in a way it's hard to get your head around with how much of a piece of shit he is but like. it has to... on some level... fulfill some need for her. as awful as he is there have to be some parts that helped her justify it in her head for so many years. (i do not mean this in a victim-blamey way if that is not clear, i mean it in a way that addresses how complicated those feelings are and that it's not so simple to just decide to leave an abuser you've been with for over half your life). and it's so sad that like. as bad as he is he's also... so familiar to her, yknow? for better or worse she has probably spent more time with him (or at the very least equal time compared to like, her dad or d'arcy) than anyone else in her life. and it totally makes sense that feeling her guilt about jay she would turn back to him. cuz that's the reason she ended up marrying him at all. :(

i'm simultaneously looking forward to but also dreading the asta/d'arcy fight in the coming episodes i forget exactly when it starts and how long it lasts but i know it'll hurt (so good but also so bad) lol

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episode 2x03 really is top-tier. girls' night, alex borstein doing fun guest star things, classic drunk d'asta and friendship between ALL the women of the show, d'arcy being the "coolest gal" in town but also it's the thinnest veneer over the internal disaster threatening to go off the rails at any moment... and i have to say the way d'arcy and kate are basically FLIRTING throughout this episode... it's so. mwah. d'asta is my number one but d'arcy/kate or d'arcy/kate/ben are both tantalizing tastes as well.

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did not just see a post saying clexa is queerbait... not the first time ive seen it but first in a while. QUEERBAIT AND BURY YOUR GAYS ARE SEPARATE ISSUES. THEY'RE NOT THE SAME THING. IT'S NOT QUEERBAIT IF TWO WOMEN HAVE A CANON RELATIONSHIP THAT DOES NOT END HAPPILY

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Please do post your headcannons for post tmdoms ❤️

ahh okay anon thank you for the encouragement <3 I actually have a ton of random small headcanons, various conversations, concepts, moments, (some of which I've kinda got into with maevelena marriage counseling, some of which are just like... sitcom-esque humorous ideas that take place various amounts of years after tmdoms, and also there IS a half-written epilogue that takes places a few weeks/months after the fic that i've just never locked in and made plans to post but... ahh)

anyways back to the point here are some thoughts I was having the other day about how raising a kid together would make both maeve & elena love each other in new ways

raising dot, a kid with S-tier superpowers similar to Maeve, would be a very challenging experience... even though Maeve is perhaps more equipped for it than the average person, it's still wicked hard!

for elena, it would be both physically challenging (and dangerous) as well as emotionally tough trying to thread that needle of how to be cautious and practical but not accidentally hit a sore spot with maeve (or instill shame in dot). while embracing all those challenges though... i think it would allow her an even deeper understanding of maeve. seeing firsthand how hard it is as a parent (and understanding more of why donald was the way he was with maeve, and how hard that would be for her too)... and how hard it is for the kid, too. like, at this point, maeve has shared a lot of her lowest moments with Elena to SOME degree - she did tell her about all the people she's killed in her life, including those that happened when she was a kid. but hearing that it happened, without any of the visceral detail... it's not the same. and there are sooooo many more mundane but still formative moments from maeve's childhood that i think she still has NEVER told elena about becuase why would you bring them up?

so all that together and even though elena thinks she "knows" what to expect she is also surprised every day. seeing this baby grow and learn and struggle in a world that is not built for someone like her. breaking her crib while she sleeps cuz she put up her forcefield while dreaming, breaking her toys while just playing, etc. it's not her being "bad" or "irresponsible" - she's just living and exploring like any other kid but the world around her gets hurt/punishes her for it! and while it would be challenging i also think that would unlock a new level of love and protection from elena wanting to try to understand how to make it easier for dot. and also a new level of understanding of how painful all of this had to be for maeve growing up with even less understanding from the people around her.

Maeve, too, would love elena even more seeing her rise to this challenge and in some ways understand dot better than she can herself. and seeing/feeling that new level of understanding Elena has. and just being so grateful that she is here, that she gets it, that she loves & supports dot for who she is. one moment that came to me that is just !!!!! pure family love is. I think one day a few months to a year after tmdoms, when dot's still pretty young. Maeve walks in on Elena playing "Bonk" with Dot. doing that of her own accord, while maeve isn't there. and maeve's heart just fucking explodes with love that elena gets it.

Another thing that came to me is - a few years down the line, when Dot is a bit more grown, a small person with her own conscious decisions and feelings who is capable of understanding her actions and "misbehaving" to some degree - Maeve makes a suggestion to Elena. she says, "I should be the bad cop. and you should be the good cop." as in, anytime dot messes something up with her powers... Maeve volunteers to be the stern one about it. Elena is surprised by this, doesn't the opposite make sense? but maeve explains that she's worried if she is just the nice one who is always understanding about it, then it puts Elena in the position of being the Mean Parent who Just Doesn't Get It, all the time, and that seems unfair. so they try it out and it works pretty well! don't get me wrong, maeve would still have plenty of moments of deep connection and understanding with dot when it comes to her powers. but knowing that's kind of the default... that she will always be the one who knows what it's like, putting her foot down when it needs to be done... it lets dot have more of a connection with Elena.

and they also find esp. as Dot gets older that this is very useful. because Maeve, for all that she understands Dot's situation more than most, still would not be a perfect parents. No one is! she might have more patience and understanding for some things but she would still get pissed off sometimes. especially in the "you have no idea how good you have it / back when i was a kid it was so much worse" kind of way. so it turns out to be really good for dot to be able to go and talk to Elena if she's upset specifically after those kinds of fights - because Elena has no claim to understanding exactly what dot's going thru, it's more comfortable for the kid to confide in her and not get pushback. PLUS on the physical level... like, i'm not saying this would be in a BAD way, but maeve would of course be more involved with physically controlling the kid when that needs to be done. like when she's a toddler and a danger to herself/others and maeve's like ok i gotta scoop you up and hold you until you calm down. or if she's really pissed off and dot throws up her force field like NA NA NA YOU CANT GET ME maeve even triying to just like. grab her, shield and all. lmao. but Elena obviously can't do that, and Dot knows that, so she would actually grow more calm around her because she knows she's got the power in that situation. if that makes sense.

yeah!!! getting kind of long so I'll wrap up here but... those are a few of my headcanons :)

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one of the sexier things she's ever done

plus bonus various d'astas from tonight

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hmmm rewatching 2x02 from d'arcy and asta's conversation on the boat it really sounds like asta fully kept the fact that she had a teen pregnancy from d'arcy. which seems a little crazy to me, this whole time from my first watch i kinda assumed d'arcy knew asta got pregnant and gave a kid away but was gone for most of the pregnancy and had no idea that kid was still in patience/was jay. but this conversation really seems to indicate that d'arcy didn't know AT ALL. which makes me a little sad because i had some primo headcanons cooking regarding her knowing it so idk mayyyybe i'm attached enough to fudge that in my own interpretation...

but also damn. that makes it also so painful and flavorful. like the idea of them talking on the phone or whatever while d'arcy is off in europe and asta is just not letting ANY of this on.

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oh my god.... when d'arcy goes back to ethan's place at the end of 2x01... i mean not only is there the entire can of worms to unpack of when and why she seeks out hookups but also... she brings back his PLATE!!!! (the plate she walked out with after he made her breakfast in season 1 and she was like haha i'm allergic to being treated like i am worthy and meaningful byeeeeee)

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"sometimes you gotta slay a monster for your best friend."

"that's like the most romantic thing anyone's ever said to me."

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extra moment to shout out how hot asta is in these cute little overalls

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seeing this sequence out of context you would never guess they are anything but girlfriends

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"i miss your butttt asta, c'mon, sit on me"

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back at it ready to watch d'arcy lose her shit getting gaslit

as sad as it is you have to admire her readiness to try to fight off 2 cops

and it's also hilarious in retrospect that she's like "asta, I know what happened, you and harry killed a guy, but i will help you cover it up" guess what happens half a season later lmaooo

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Last reblog reminds me how I am currently very torn between possible headcanons for whether d’arcy and asta have ever kissed / done anything sexual with each other before a scenario where they actually “get together” (as in confessing romantic feelings). I feel drawn to both the version where they NEVER have gone there because they’re just BFFs and it would be sooooo weird (in denial)!, and the version where they’re like yeah lol we kiss all the time we’re BFFs so what??? (Also in denial)!

but then there is also the secret third option of yes they have done stuff but only when drunk or high (so it doesn’t count, right?! still in denial!)

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thinking about how d’arcy opens this video like “if you’re watching this it either means I’m dead OR we’re all having a drink and laughing about how silly I was to make a video thinking I was gonna die”. And how she probably didn’t end up playing it at the 59 and having a good old laugh about it because it is overshadowed by WHY IS ASTA AVOIDING ME AND LYING TO ME. :( but ALSO thinking about in the world where they DID watch that video together and laugh about it, Asta would see D’arcy saying the above, and while they very openly love each other I do wonder if hearing someone say literally on the brink of death “I wouldn’t want to live without (you) anyway” as quite possibly her final words would hit different than the sort of everyday “I love yous” between them.

crevasse episode rewatch... some gems so far...

d'arcy is completely fucking unconcerned about harry and only shouts for asta when the initial collapse happens and immediately is like "let's ditch that idiot, asta, come with me" before they fall further. love it

asta using d'arcy's flask to sanitize her hands before shoving them inside of harry - not only her winter landscape experience and athleticism save the day but also her alcoholism

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in my maevelena feels today with some thoughts about them raising a kid (dot) together and both coming to love each other even more thru the experience more rambles to come maybe