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ok one more osrs complaint. why they gotta keep making twinflame staff more useful! I don't wanna have to go grind giants. signed somone who got fairly lucky on both prayer scrolls
#at my level titans are pretty easy to kill but they're jusssssst click intensive enough that i dont feel like grinding them out as a chill#'zone out' type boss#i might make huey my next attempt for that with the buffs. never done a solo before so i wonder how it is but#it seems easier since you do have to move but it's not one specific safespot it's just dodging#not sure how much of an issue food is in solos tho#if u play lazy and take hits i wonder if u can run out before finishing a kill#hmm#all kinda moot rn because i haevn't felt much like playing RS lately#but i know it'll come back... eventually#osrs sp#d
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reading summer sweep up update and a ton of it is good obviously but in classic osrs player fashion imma bitch about the few things i think are not good
Duke prep multiple kills per trip is ... kinda okay with me, but I think is just gonna result in people bitching until it gets changed to the (pseudo)infinite prep from leagues V. which feels stupid. even as someone who doesnt like the prep very much i was like - that's part of the boss! just deal with it! i haven't done the speedrun times myself but i have a ~suspicion~ this change either completely trivialized them OR made them way harder
stupider is the unpolled new unique ring for deranged archaeologist... like, why? why did that thing need more reason to kill? and why is it a ring that is better IN ANY WAY than a suffering (i)? and one that mostly outclasses a granite ring, even if you imbue it? like yah i know it's not better OVERALL than either of those rings and i know defensive rings are mostly trash anyway so it's semi moot but why should it be beating rings that have significantly higher requirements in ANY way??? they could've made it like +15 or even +20 in melee defenses and it still would've filled a midgame niche without being weirdly sometimes better than rings with much higher requirements
and literally why the fuck does a random demiboss that has been fine as mostly an easter egg/a few CAs/a source for hardcores to get runite limbs need a new unique? what is the fucking point? i havent logged in to see if they put it on the collection log but if they did then it'll get in the way of the possible intention of 'reward for low level players' and get flooded with high levels trying to get the drop for the log, because that is one of the few (these days) non-instanced bosses. also why would we care about drawing more people to deranged arch... it's... not a fun boss. could've used this defensive ring for some future content. unless this is their way of saying 'we're not doing any early/mid pvm content for a while because we've just done a ton'. but i doubt it. this ring could even be appropriate for a mid tier slayer mob, if they made it comparable to granite ring (which is already pretty lackluster for what it takes to obtain).
ok that's it thanks for coming to this episode of kvetching
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goddamn in the hidden secret post in the tags of my last post it's only been like 30 seconds and I already thought of at least 1 additional case where my established rules for dante's powers in TMDOMS creates a plot hole (in addition to a couple questionable cases I had already thought of and angsted over)
#(breathing into a paper bag) NO ONE would think about this but me. NO ONE WOULD THINK ABOUT THIS BUT ME#fic stuff#tmdoms#queen maveve sp
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in addition to often thinking way too hard about the ~implications~ of minor details in established media (details which are obviously the way they are for expedience/concision/narrative function), i also think way too hard about the ~implications~ of minor details in my own writing.
for example: from TMDOMS. consider maeve's secret stash of cash, which elena says NOT to use but as soon as they're not fully living together, maeve starts using it for everything, including (ashley's) rent.
TMDOMS AU where maeve gets found out being alive because ashley gets audited, anyone?
#āashley gets auditedā *cue always sunny theme*#maeve's duffle bag of cash was one of my favorite 'dont think about it too hard' narrative conveniences in that fic tbh#along with dante's power and the lack of clear rules surrounding it#i DO have the rules set in my head. and they BASICALLY have consistent internal logic to them#i had to remind myself over and over that no one would think about it as hard as me#but because i really do appreciate a 'hard magic' system with set rules i couldnt help but think about it#i basically went thru the death note shinigami eyes mechanics checklist in my head and altered where i needed for narrative convenience#but there are a few small aspects where if u think about it as hard as i have it doesnt make a ton of sense#if anyone cares i would explain them in detail and RUIN the fic for u :)#butttt i told myself it was ok for the greater narrative good#and ALSO to be fair the boys universe is a very 'soft magic' universe when it comes to superpowers#i.e. they do NOT have consistent rules or logic#so despite my own desire to move in the hard magic direction - it's somewhat of a lost cause lol#fic stuff#tmdoms#i wonder if anyone enjoys the fact that there is always an extra post (or two) in the tags of my posts#different thoughts come out here. what can i say?#queen maeve sp
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favourite dynamics ā quinn & rachel (unreal)
āsheās worth five crashed ferraris.ā
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meaningless spelling/vocab pet peeve to get off my chest: "risk adverse". idk why, it might be one of those psychological effects, but i feel like I've seen this mistake more times in the last few weeks than i had in my whole life before that.
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bitches will be like "t2 prep is too RNG based you can only finish in time if you get lucky" and their preps look like this
#NO SHADE to OP of course i just thought this was funny#in the comments someone told them about the guaranteed fish room they avoided and they were thankful for it lol#to be fair most of the tips for optimizing prep are not very obvious or intuitive you have to really dig thru various resources to learn#but don't mind me getting superior about failed t2 preps being a Skill Issue#it's because I had that skill issue myself and worked hard to beat it#and it's one of the few things in the game i can do that not everyone can!#i know it's not a real flex!#but it makes me FEEL like it is when people are like 'prep is just luck'#gauntlet diaries#just a memeeee#d#osrs sp
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"South African entrepreneur Phumla Makhoba is on a mission to solve the āglobal south housing crisis.ā And sheās doing it by using clothing waste.
Her invention, Texiboard, is a material that combines fibers found in textile waste with lime cement to create a durable, affordable, and circular building material.
The result is a textured, white square, almost tile-like, that is created with recycled materials ā not emission-generating wood or concrete.
āIt can be used to make furniture, flooring, walls, or even your entire home,ā Makhoba said in a video for social media account We Got Earth.
The first iterations of the Texiboard included colorful cotton threads that were compressed together, with multiple attempts to remove cracks and seams and perfect the ratios of size, shape, and material mass.
With her design firm, Studio People, Makhoba has been working since 2022 to perfect the TexiBoard.Ā
Makhoba has since created a solid panel, with shredded textile fiber and natural lime cement fully cured. Finally, it can be formed into a full sheet of building material.
Once realized, the Texiboard will confront the estimated 92 million tons of clothing waste generated around the globe each year. But it will also provide safe and stable housing that Makhoba says only 20% of South Africans can afford.
āGrowing up, I saw two worlds: one with polished buildings, and one built from scrap,ā she said in a video. āI always wondered, why do some people get homes that last and others get homes that leak?ā
Now, the Texiboard design is available as an open-source resource, and Makhoba and her team host in-person workshops for locals living in shacks to learn how to build their own supportive and sustainable housing.
āJust having a roof isnāt enough,ā Makhoba said. āA real home should protect you from the weather, work for your daily life, and not fall apart in five years.ā
Her approach includes a full theory of change. Right now, Studio People is in the input process, building partnerships and funding to scale their operation. From there, they hope to develop a fully sustainable supply chain to manufacture and sell Texiboards and help build affordable housing for people in need.
Once that dream is realized, Makhoba outlines the tangible output of this work: Economically inclusive waste management, circular building materials, green jobs, and a sustainable housing and manufacturing market.
āInformal settlements can be transformed when we all work together,ā she shares on the Studio People website. āTexiboard is the seed of innovation that will create updated trade jobs in the innovative building industry.ā
Although the Texiboard is still being completely perfected, the goal is to provide a weather-proof, cost-effective, and circular way to house people by democratizing the act of building.
āOur goal is to create an egalitarian and sustainable urban environment, helping shack dwellers and youth out of poverty,ā Studio People shared on LinkedIn.
āWe empower the underdog, including people and businesses, to co-create solutions in our fight against the housing crisis, unsustainable building materials, and unemployment ā one board at a time.ā"
-via GoodGoodGood, May 28, 2025
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#no one has ever done it like themā¦#unreal#Rachel Goldberg#quinn king#big āif this is you broken stay brokenā energy#except more toxic just how they SHOULD be <3
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Ik u said ur not part of the yellowjackets fandom much but the EXACT same lesbian vs bi/pan discourse is happening on twitter right now about like 5 different characters. also top/bottom discourse. the more things change the more they stay the same
it's the stupidest and most eternal discourse in any wlw-focused fandom. (the bi/lesbian discourse). and the top/bottom shit is the stupidest and most eternal in all shipping. it's just fuckin hetero gender roles with extra steps. idk maybe it's because I just generally tend to like ships that have a more fluid/variable dynamic but i am so rarely like "X is a top, Y is a bottom" just rigid like that.
part of the reason i have stayed far, far, from the yj fandom (aside from not being all that invested in the show) is I could tell early on it was slated to be a disaster fandom. i mean, tbh any fandom of a certain size is a disaster. not that KE was even that big, it was pretty small by major fandom standards but since then i have literally retreated into smaller and smaller fandoms that barely qualify as fandoms and i think it's partly because, as much as i love being a fan and making/appreciating fanworks, i cannot fucking stand "fandom" anymore. seems like any fandom of appreciable size is just annoying discourse all the time, purity politics, and so much bickering that makes the actual media less enjoyable for me too. of course the best way around it is finding a small group of friends that you vibe with and having a private or semiprivate forum to geek out together, but that's not always easy
anyway, old woman yells at clouds... but yeah that discourse irks me to no end
#testament to how small/chill the kcfh fandom was that we never got into that discourse really about patty#i feel like most people probably viewed patty as a lesbian but no one was like fighting about it#and on the other hand it was kinda surprising to me i rarely/never saw any allison mcroberts comphet warriors#not that it would be BAD to think that! perfectly reasonable headcanon#but i thought it was kinda neat how the entire fandom pretty much agreed allison is bi because of a fucking LL bean jacket...#SADLY some of the peopl einvolved in the show couldn't--[gunshots]#ask#anonymous
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the fact that the video game sound effects poll for the acb spec sound got taken down for being a āscreamerā is one of the funniest fuckinn things. Do nail beast nails next lmao
#itās so funny to me bc#if I didnāt recognize the sound I would probably be super scared by it too#I understand the complaints#but also itās so funny how recognition makes my brain go āitās not that bad wtf do you mean?ā#cuz my reaction isnāt WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT?#itās just heyyyyy I know that awful screech!!!#but also a good reminder of how special the Osrs community is compared to the general populace#we voted to keep nail beasts loud and Iām confident if acb was ever polled we would keep it loud too!#osrs sp
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Would love to see you rank your TMDOMS (or should I call it your āMaeve longficā, LOL) chapter titles!
well SINCE YOU ASKED... here goes. I'll put this one behind a cut lol (probably should've done that for the other post)
okay honestly I feel like ranking these in order might be confusing for both myself and readers so instead I think I will list them in proper chapter order but give them scores. and also, just because this is something I like to categorize in my brain (and mayyyybe would be interesting for an avid reader who didn't spend extra time thinking about the titles?) i shall also denote for each title if it is inspired by the PRESENT events in the chapter, the FLASHBACKS in the chapter, or in some special cases - kind of both! (the Both cases are special to me because I really did try to make the flashbacks tie thematically to the present events where I could - but it was not always possible.)
Rankings on a scale of 1-5, - 1 = feels weak/awk/could be better, 3 = fine, 5 = now THAT's what I call a chapter title!
Happily Ever After (present) - 4/5
New Normal (present) - 4/5
Cottagecore (present) - 3/5
Twenty-nine (present) - 3/5
Failsafe (present) - 4/5
Brother (present) - 3/5
Ideal Woman (flashbacks) - 2/5
Gal Pals (present AND flashbacks!) - 3/5
Blink Twice (present) - 4/5
What's In a Name? (present AND flashbacks!) - 1/5
Any Other Girl (flashbacks) - 4/5
We Don't Do Secrets (present) - 4/5
Character (flashbacks) - 2/5
Mask Off (present) - 3/5
Sort Of (flashbacks) - 5/5
No-Sleep-Over (present) - 4/5
Truth Hurts (Present AND flashbacks!) - 2/5
Next Time I Die (present) - 4/5
Good News (present) - 3/5
Meet the Parents (present AND flashbacks!) - 3/5
Odd Couple (Present and... kinda flashbacks?) - 2/5
Your Maeve is Problematic (special case) - 4/5 (this was a joke title I meant to replace but couldn't bear to. it's both a 2/5 and a 5/5 in my head at the same time, so we split the diff.)
Mamma Mia! (present) (3/5) (this one probably also should've been replaced lmao but at least it doesn't stick out quite as much)
Amends (present AND flashbacks!) - 5/5
Joanie and Maddie and Donnie and Dot (flashbacks, and also present I guess, because Dot) - 3/5 (it's awkward but I didn't know what else to call it - bonus points to anyone who clocked that this is kinda a nod to Vanya and Sonya and Masha and Spike)
The Worst that Could Happen (present AND flashbacks) - 6/5!!!! (when i started out this list I was actually like 'wait are there any chapter titles I would sincerely rank above the rest?' how could I forget! this one is by far the best - it flows nicely, it's evocative, AND it's a brick joke in response to Ashley asking "what's the worst that could happen?" TWO CHAPTERS AGO.)
The Nature of Pain (flashbacks) - 1/5
Mad and Sad and Bad (flashbacks) - 2/5
Big Spoon (present... and... kind of flashbacks. Thematically) - 4/5
Acceptable Costs (present) - 2/5
Maggie (present) - 5/5
All In (flashbacks only) - 5/5 (special note: this chapter altered my brain while writing it. I knew from very early on in the writing process that I wanted to do donald POV at some point to cover some bits that maeve would be too young to remember, but had no idea when or how I'd work it in for a while. even when I finished arc 2 and started working on this chapter in earnest, I had no title for a long time, which is ~usually~ a bad sign for me. I picked this one as a desperate effort right before posting but it has grown on me a LOT since then. He went all in on maggie! he bet EVERYTHING HE HAD on his daughter, and lost her! ... or did he???)
New Generation (flashback AND present, thematically) - 3/5
Pretending (flashbacks) - 2/5
Buttercup (flashbacks) - 4/5 (mainly because the "buttercup" codename was a headcanon of mine for a long time that I had been foaming at the mouth to actually include in a fic. it's so random and forced but feels right TO ME!)
The One With Unagi (flashbacks) - 4/5
Doorknob (flashbacks) - 3/5 (on a standalone level it feels very awkward, but I must confess: a large reason for that flashback and also titling the chapter 'Doorknob' was to subtly call more attention to it because that was actually a calculated setup for a way for Donald to instantly recognize Maeve had showed up at home just by seeing the door, a few chapters later.)
Home (present AND flashbacks!... kinda) - 3/5 (i really wanted something that would work for both for this chapter, to help justify why i saved the story of maeve and elena first meeting for this late in the fic. I'm not totally satisfied with this, it has a far more obvious connection to the present in homelander inviting Maeve to make a 'home' with him, and Maeve deciding to finally go home - but my rationale for the flashback was, Maeve and Elena are each other's 'home'! and that feeling began from the moment they met!)
Sunk Costs (present AND flashbacks, thematically) - 4/5
Complicated (present) - 3/5 (honestly, not in love with this one for a final chapter, can't quite articulate why, but it captures the right sentiment.)
that was fun... thanks for indulging me, anon! (and anyone who ever wants to ask skilly questions like this about my fic... it's like candy for me... don't be shy!)
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she seduced me was like my FAV ke fic AND put me onto natasha pierre & the great comet of 1812 (in 21st-century russia we write letters, we write lettersā¦) so thank you very much for writing it!!!
ok i'll say with my full chest - YOU'RE WELCOME! ...for turning you onto Great Comet. As for the compliment, aw shucks, thank you. Looking back that is definitely one of my better-written KE fics, despite only being my second. and honestly I lived in fear for a good portion of my time in the KE fandom that one day weirdos on twitter would cite the fact that I had written Anna/Oksana as a reason to "cancel" me (despite the fact that, i mean, that fic is not shying away from it being "bad". but it's also from anna's POV and is very inherently biased - exploring how she might've justified her actions to herself. but knowing how judgy/willfully obtuse people online can be, and also knowing the way CERTAIN PARTS of that fandom would go out of their way to make up reasons to work up a hate mob against other people they didn't like online... I was paranoid nonetheless. lmao. terrible times!)
thanks for stopping by to share, honestly really nice to hear that people enjoyed older fics! (especially one I remain proud of hahaha)
#anonymous#ask#fic stuff#that is one of my fav chapter titles and fav chapter formats#the epistolary chapter...!#hoenstly why havent I done that since#it was fun#gotta find another excuse to do some epistolary writing
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not me answering an ask about firecracker/starlight (aka firelight) and then suddenly yeeting into summer 2021 hearing Firelight by Hundred Waters playing as patty o'connor hits her brother over the head with a bottle to save allison mcroberts who just failed to (almost) confess returning the feelings that patty (almost) confessed to her and then they held hands signifying (what should've been) the greatest deepest canon wlw romance i had ever seen on television....
#yet another raeson i couldnt ship the ship SORRY ANON#now that this association has reconnected in my brain...#it's now like a sleeper agent trigger for me#pattison#i'm still so hurt lmao#so passionate underneath my shield of not thiking about it on the regular
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Will you write anything for Starlight and Firecracker? I feel like they're the ones who can benefit/thrive in your writing style.
sorry if it's weird to answer this so fast but you caught me while i'm on my dash and this one is quick to answer...
because the answer is no. (I am so sorry to say this and want to thank you for the compliment (?) about my writing - to quote eve polastri: sorry to disappoint!) I mean, never say never, and I AM highly susceptible to flattery and praise & promise of interaction with fic, but I also do not like to make a promise I won't keep, and I also know myself enough to know if I'm not into the idea then writing it just because I think there's an audience for it is not a recipe for success with my brain.
no hate to people who ship that ship, I can see why... but it does not do it for me. firecracker just doesn't do it for me. i don't think anyone who enjoys her character is a bad person, of course - we all know (at least I hope anyone following me is chill enough to know) that finding fictional characters interesting doesn't mean you share their beliefs or endorse their actions - but like, firecracker reminds me of such a particular genre of person that feels a little too real and close to home in a way that makes me just not wanna engage with her. like it's not that I think she's badly written or a bad addition to the universe, but I quite literally do not spend any time thinking about her outside of when i was actually watching season 4 or rarely when some implications of s4 events cross my mind for other fic purposes
the other possibly more honest answer is idk how likely i am to ever write a fic that doesn't include maeve LMAO i'm not PROUD of having a hyperfixation on only one character in a piece of media (this is, I swear, the first and only time this has happened to me), but it's my #truth. I definitely enjoy the show and like writing many of the other characters but not quite in a way that I think I'm likely to put in the time to write fic about them if it's not orbiting maeve somehow lol
but again, never say never! I have previously written things I once said I had no interest in writing. (famously, one of my earliest maevelena fics has an author's note that says "I didn't know what to write because I don't want to break them up!" and since then I have become a maevelena breakup festishist. so, idk, maybe a year from now I'll be having a laugh about how I answered this ask while I'm 30 chapters deep into a #firelight epic. I can say this for them, that is a GREAT shipname. just too bad the ship is an absolute no-sell to me.)
#anonymous#ask#i never know what to tag my things about the boys that arent actually about maeve bc my non-real-tag is just about her lmao#fic stuff
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tierlist for my own fic titles
as i was musing in tags on my last post it made me wanna do this just for fun. including EVERY fic i have posted to ao3 (and maybe some that I've taken down? lol) ... tier list for purely how I feel about the TITLES, not the actual stories.
S Tier - Kickass titles, snappy + meaningful
Thirst (Villaneve)
Stakes (Villaneve) (part 2 of Thirst - and fun fact, when I came up with the idea of calling a second installment 'Stakes' was when i truly committed to making it a series. the power of titlejoy!)
Show, Don't Tell (maevelena)
Means, Motive, Opportunity & Malum In Se (Villaneve HP AU murder mystery. First one is still unironically one of the best things I've written, story structure-wise, and it is kind of a bummer that it's an HP AU. Second one I had grand ambitions for AND a good title but it bothers me to this day that I didn't finish it due to my love for KE dying out.)
A Tier - Very good, flow nicely, relevant meaning
Savior Complex (Maevelena)
Higher Powers (Maeveannie)
WWMD (maevelena, maeveannie, elenannie... maevelenannie??)
Ghostwritten (Maeveannie)
Gag With It (Villaneve)
From Russia, With Love (Villaneve)
Out of Order (Villaneve)
The Heat of the Moment (Villaneve)
There's Got to Be a Reason (Gemillaneve)
#Queenlight (Maeveannie)
She Seduced Me (Killing Eve - Anna/Oksana backstory fic. sometimes i forget I wrote this one! but I'm honestly very proud of it)
Imagine Me & You (And Our Parents)* (Villaneve) (This one comes with an asterisk because I DID NOT COME UP WITH THIS TITLE! it's an excellent title, but I borrowed it from a joke post by another person in the fandom.)
B Tier - They don't scratch my brain good, but they don't irritate me either.
After (Pattison)
Rescue Mission (Maeveannie)
The Math of Love Triangles (Killing Eve - the origin of Gemillaneve!!!)
The Club (Villaneve)
Anytime, Anyplace (Killing eve, Kenny/Hugo fixit fic! fun fact - my least popular KE fic!)
Second Opinion (Villaneve)
Eternity (Villaneve - Thirstverse - undeniably the weakest of the series, title-wise)
Healthy Competition (Rebecca/Nathaniel, Crazy Ex-Girlfriend)
Marking Time (Villaneve)
What We Deserve (Villaneve)
Never Let Go (Villaneve)
Experimenting With Success (Maeve/Butcher)
Baby Blue (Maeve & Homelander)
C Tier - I'm unhappy with these titles but can live with them.
Good to be Bad (Eleanor/Bad Janet, the Good place. fun fact: this was the first smut fic I ever wrote!)
Freakiest Friday (Gemillaneve)
Conscience (my first ever Queen Maeve fic!)
In Her Skin (Eve/Gemma)
Eye of the Storm (Maevelena)
Control (Villaneve - Thirstverse)
Uninvited (Villaneve)
Two in a Million (Villaneve)
You'd Be So Nice to Come Home to (Villaneve) (this one and the one above technically bug me because they are valid CHAPTER TITLES but not good FIC TITLES - because they are both bonus chapters for IMAY(AOP).)
After (revisited) (Pattison - i mean i literally wrote this in like 30 minutes when i was in my feelings about the kcfh finale so it's no shocker it doesn't have its own title)
The Many Deaths of Margaret Shaw (those who follow me may notice i almost always abbreviate or call it 'maevefic' 'longfic' 'my spinoff fic' - it's not for brevity, it's because i hate this fucking title but I couldn't come up with a better one despite having awesome ideas for the fic and I needed to start posting it so...!)
When God Made Eve (villaneve)
F Tier - what was I thinking? did I even try?
It's So Easy to Leave Me (Maevelena - it's a line from 'Memory' from Cats but it's a niche reference and doesn't flow too well; in my head I call this fic "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Maeve" and probably SHOULD have made that the actual title, even though it's goofy it flows better AND is more indicative of what the story entails.)
The Shocks that Flesh is Heir To (Maeveannie spookyfic, very cool fic I'm proud of but yeah the random Hamlet quote was... not my best choice. it was my compromise when I decided calling it "To be or not to be" was way fucking stupider)
Aiutami (my first ever Villaneve fic, I was still figuring it out - and boy is that title weak by every metric)
#someone stop me before i do one with tmdoms chapter titles#lol that's the only fic i would be able to rank chapter titles for meaningfully#because most of the time with other fics i had 'rules' for my chapter titles#i.e. for thirstverse fics they had to be one word (and sometimes alliterative). for imayaop they're all song titles#for heat of the moment they were all... verb+preposition phrases#for rescue mission they're all nouns that describe annie's relationship to maeve in that current chapter#tmdoms was mostly just vibes thinking kidn of like tv episode titles#and also there are ENOUGH chapters i could meaningfully rank them#maybe i'll do it just fo rme#as a treat#fic stuff
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lately i've been really drawn again to this little fic I have half-written that takes place post-s3, pre-tmdoms, with maeve recovering from the explosion and elena caring for her and them getting acquainted with the new form of their relationship... and... elena coming to realize that she is not quite attracted to maeve in the same way anymore. this lil story is soooo vivid & visceral to me but hard to write - both because a story about (potential) lesbian bed death is not the most delightful thing to most people, and also because I worry that to people who do not have my specific brain chemistry this makes elena seem quite unlikable (but like! the whole point of this story to me is her feeling frustrated at HERSELF and very shallow and stil loving maeve very much but trying to cope with what is undeniably a very major shift in their dynamic! and it's not JUST about the sex it's about maeve being trapped and totally dependent on her too - but i digress, i'm not trying to type out the whole story here...)
anyway. feeling the urge to share one tiny piece of it, which also encompasses a headcanon that is very important to me: that maeve is a bit messed up from the explosion. visibly scarred. and... that after a life of being completely immune to scars and blemishes of all kinds, plus being a celebrity where she was praised for said "flawlessness" and scorned for any other perceived flaws, that she would probably have some insecurity over this, at least at first.
anyway. here's just a snip.
Maeve moaned when Elena left the first few days. āI have to,ā Elena retorted as Maeve weakly clung to her arm⦠which she wouldāve been sure was just teasing before, but now, she had to wonder if Maeve was genuinely using all her strength. āAnd itās good, probably, to have some time apart. So you donāt get sick of me.ā
Each night, when she returned, Maeve would be waiting. Trying to get her into bed. Each time, Elena entertained it⦠despite knowing it was far too soon⦠at least, she entertained it until the first grunt or yelp of pain. Which would turn to protest as soon as Elena would withdraw. āI donāt want to hurt you,ā Elena insisted.
āGod, itās annoying to be on the other side of that,ā Maeve muttered. āCome back. Iām fine.ā
āIām not taking any chances of making your injuries worse, especially not when we canāt exactly call a doctor if something goes wrong.ā
Several of these false starts occurred until finally, one night, about a month after theyād stepped foot in this cabin⦠Maeve made it through some escalating foreplay without a single whimper. And from thereā¦
āYouāre not stopping,ā Mave commented. āDoes that mean my sexy nurse has approved me for strenuous activity?ā
āMm, I think so. Proceed with the disrobingā¦ā
Maeve straightened up, going for the buttons on her shirt, then froze.
āMaeve? Is something wrong?ā
āIā¦ā she shook her head. āI donāt know why Iām nervous.ā
āI am too. Itās been a long time.ā
āNot about the sex. Well. Also that.ā
It hit Elena while Maeveās cheeks went pinkāshe was nervous about undressing. On one hand, it would be easy to dismiss that with a laugh, given that Elena had seen every inch of Maeveās body not only over the years, but especially in the last few weeks, checking on her healing and helping her swap out bandages. But⦠in those moments⦠In the heightened consciousness of her new body, Maeve had let on comments that at first struck Elena as mild sheepishness, but now, in hindsight, seemed to be⦠genuine insecurity. Back in that first week, when Maeve idly scratched at her body hair and observed, āThis is the longest Iāve gone without a wax since college.ā Or, the way she grimaced each time Elena helped her change the bandage over her eye⦠the way sheād stared in the mirror and frowned for several minutes after she was finally able to swap it out for a proper black eye patch. Elena had reassured her in the moment, of course. Yet perhaps because caretaking was so different, it didnāt ātakeā in this setting. Maeve didnāt need a nurse, in this moment. She needed her girlfriendā¦
Stepping forward, Elena undid Maeveās buttons for herāfeeling some resistance, as Maeve twisted away, but holding firm. That was still weird. āYou are as sexy as the day I met you.ā
āSureā¦ā
āShh. None of that.ā Elena pulled Maeveās shirt off, unhooked her bra, then prodded her so she fell back onto the bed. As her legs lifted, Elena began pulling her pants off as well. āI daresay Iām the expert in this matter.ā With the clothes out of the way, Elena took in the woman before her⦠Though it was a very different picture than it was a month ago, when Maeve was fresh out of a radiation explosion, her body was⦠altered. There was no denying it. The bruising had vanished, but faint burn scars snaked across most of her torso, with raised white bits of skin where the tissue had knotted together in healingāa first, for her. Elena leaned forward and ran her fingers across it⦠stomach, ribs⦠feeling the slightly rough texture⦠with Maeve shivering under her touch. Then, she began laying soft kisses on the spots where the scarring was most noticeable⦠She snuck a peek to see that Maeve smiled at that: she recognized the gesture, for sheād originated it. The last time they were together, after Elenaās surgery, Maeve had always made a point to kiss the small scar that marked the spot where Elenaās appendix had once been, before they had sex.
#i actually feel such a strong pull to this fic idk why#it would definitely be the most niche thing i have written even more so than the one where maeve is DEAD lmao#'here's a fic from an extremely minor character's POV about struggles in the bedroom she would have with another secondary character'#'it takes place after canon but definitionally does not have a resolution since it's a prequel to another fic'#i have a sick title picked out for it though#which may be what gets me to finish it one day#that's often how it goes for fics with me#i mean - if i have a great idea but no good title i just write it and end up with a title i don't like all that much#(see: TMDOMS ... among others. lol)#but having a sick title come to me in the ideation phase is often enough to get me to be like: okay I HAVE to finish this to use this title#wait post idea. ranking my fic titles? maybe lol#fic snippet#tmdoms#maevelena#queen maeve sp#queen maeve#getting frisky posting in her actual tag twice in a day
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