princess nokia // brujas
“witchcraft, bitchcraft
light magic, it’s nothing”
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Mirrors
Entering a hologram of perception and morphed deception. There is only one way to know what is real. That is: to touch (palms to thighs), to breathe (nose to abdomen), and to feel (in the way only you can) for your own heartbeat
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The Falsitude of Creating
Is it possible to write and not be a thief? Or is the very act of existing stealing from the lived experiences of others - not always those brighter or bolder, but those dull and dimwitted too. Stealing. From those with everything. And stealing, even more, from those with nothing. Perhaps this is the true nature of the world. Theft. By each and for each. Until we sit together under a common blanket of creativity - each weave threaded by yarn stolen from her neighbour's wheel.
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On the Anniversary of My Death
The 19th of May 2002. I died a
certain death. You killed me. You,
the man I didn't trust but had no
choice except to. You broke not
only my skull by my spirit and my
soul, for at least a hundred years.
Today. The 19th of May 2023. I sit
adjourn to you. Why? I ask myself.
I don't know. I'm almost pleased at
the thought of your death, I think. No,
I correct myself. I couldn't be. I still
don't know that you weren't pleased
about mine.
What I do know is that neither of us
asked for this. You didn't want to break
my skull nor do I want your chest cavity
sawed open.
The difference is you made a choice. I
was endowed with a burden, that came
wrapped in a deceptive silk bow. In it
three adjoining parts;
forgiveness,
responsibility,
and the smallest but strongest called
love.
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Learnt Language
After being
held
captive
for
an entire
existence.
You've become so
accustomed to
the pain
that instead of
wailing a
grimace forms
on your face
as natural
as a smile
and tension
pulls
the corners
of your
mouth closed.
The whip cracks
skin open and
a sting
permeates. Blood
barely
drips
before the
next crack strikes -
Effortless. Fluid.
Whip-pa.
Whip-pa.
Whip-pa.
All of a
sudden you
realise that
the lashes
and lacerations
are at your own
account.
It's not a betrayal
of your
body unto
itself.
But the only
language
it's ever
learnt
to speak.
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Wings
So much of my
energy,
life force,
chi,
is used
in daily combat
against
the oppressor.
What would happen
if for one second
I expended all
that energy
inward.
How high would I
soar
until they
decided to clip my
wings and have me
plummet to
the ground?
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What's in a name?
Mine. Has
three syllables,
whose sounds
combined
are my soul -
who I've been
since birth.
Maybe
even before.
They, can
easily say
things that
define them
like:
aveugle
and
sourd.
But still
dare
to get me
wrong.
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Oasis
- Within -
Darkness. A room,
a field, an expanse of
black. Inside it a
certainty, that things
are not okay. Never
will be. Quick
sand at the center, a
box - made of the bones
of ox. Without a
key. Demons
dance inside it. All
night
and rest in the day.
- Without-
Sitting in the
inflection of the
valley. Calves
folded in, neck
extended over
knees. Spiritual tremors
overtaking breathing -
involuntarily. Hair flowing
upside down into
the pool of salt water
streaming out of
eyes.
Mountainous walls
rising above in
all directions. Bare back
facing the distant,
unreachable sky. Not
being broken. Just
being.
Dew gliding seamlessly
out of glossy ducts
into the swirl of vivid
algae kissing legs.
The box one with
the pebbles - a granite carbon
complement - softened and
smoothed over eons by
gentle streams of
water.
The animal. Nursing its
wound. Naked. Bare bottom
folded into a an acute hug
of self-preservation. Blinking
and realising that
no matter how hollow
or cold or dark the box is.
It is a part of this oasis:
the hideous marriage
of demons, mountains,
quick sand, the sky, ox bone,
salt water and human blood.
This. Oasis.
Here. Where
the animal
is abundant. Rich.
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Mural
For at least nine years, he stood, in his woolen hat at the concrete corner junction asking strangers for money. His dwarfism, may have been the reason for his struggle. Or just one part of the injustice of being born coloured into this sick society. The years embedded wrinkles onto his eyes. And now he's become immortalised, by a mural in Oranjezicht.
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Magnificent Splendour
Splendour. Tiny waves lapping - not crashing - against the shore. Toes digging deep into grainy sand. Sweaty hands on the face of a rock, knees bent, body heavy. Squinting in response to the glare as a large glint of sunshine pokes through a thick grey cloud. Splendour. Not a child's laugh, but the throaty giggle made when defenses come down in front of a lover. The sound of the black keys piercing gently through the white when a piano is played. What a daisy looks like when held up against the blue sky. The sun bouncing off your best friend's eyelashes. Sharp canine's sparkling as you throw your head back in laughter. Splendour. Sensory seduction at the birth of spring. Swallows in a swoop above pylons at dusk. The light touch of your sand papery palms on my cheek. Splendour.
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Gift from the Sun
Does it make you feel
powerful? This distancing
you do. Withdrawing from
the full brightness of the sun,
not to hide in shade - or rest -
but to enclose yourself in
a molehill of experience.
Don't you know that the sun's
sole purpose is to highlight the
vivid blue of the sea thrashing itself
against that one jagged cliff. Gifting
you with the luxury of watching it
from above - or immersing
yourself in it forever.
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Monsters sans masks
My eyes
were stitched
closed
so that I could
not see
the perpetrators
of the wounds
A thousand
paper cut
lacerations
stung
deeply -
everywhere
Confused -
unable to
make sense
of where they
came from
Not realising they
were there
until I felt
them come
alive with
the lifeblood
of a hot burn
days later
Bathing them
in salt water -
solitary - until they
would heal. It
became ritual -
Recovery
Then one day -
body
piercing all over -
My hands reached
up of their own
volition
And picked each
stitch carefully
from
my eyes - Pus
oozing out through
scabs and crusts
Lids heavy, my
retina adjusted.
The slime
coagulated
to the bottom
And for the first
time I saw their
truly
hideous faces
and set myself
free
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Ma (Grandmother)
Your cataracts blinded
you from seeing what
your son had
become. The torment
he inflicted on the
five women
in his
life.
Your big curly white hair,
wild and unruly, like your
spirit in the face of
late night screaming
matches.
The FBI are not after you,
mummy, he would say.
No-one is trying to steal
your identity.
My teenage
angst led only to
anger. Seeing you
as a burden.
I sit here, in wonder,
at the woman you
must have been.
What it took for you to
raise a house full of children,
a child yourself, a victim of
a bearded patriarch with a red
hot staff in his hand.
His death, leaving you with nine
mouths to feed, then their
premature deaths.
Rebellious entitled sons.
If only you lived another life.
I like to imagine your potential.
Then I remember that you
do. Through me.
Not for a second, do I forget
that my life started in
your womb.
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Letter to my (broken) beloved
I knew you, from before the moment you tottered taking your first steps toward your mama. I followed you, a bird perched on your shoulder, chirping as you picked up the scissors to cut your hair yourself. Little hands trembling. I held you. By the arms, stopping you pulling brows from your face, only moments after your first fight with sweet Adele. I never left your side when you immersed yourself in the joyous pleasures of young adulthood. Waiting for you to return home so I could stroke your hair, and wipe the expired mascara from beneath your eyes. Then, when you stumbled over your own feet into your first true love I drew arcs over your head with my toes, making a halo for you.You never needed to look up, but I was always there. And I’ll be there - I am here - now that that love has morphed into nothing more than the withered root of an orchard still attached to beautiful but already dead blooms.
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Rage (Part I)
Head heavy. Cranium
full of lead. Frontal
cortex bursting
with pressure.
Rage.
Fills my body.
Rage. From the
numbness in the tips
of my fingers to
the roots of the
ache in my lower
back. Rage. Is the
sound of the scratched
echo that plays
inside me.
Rage. At the thieves
who've stolen my
emotional land. At
those oblivious
to the difficulties
of our condition.
At those who
dare to be
their authentic
selves without
consequence.
Rage. At the
injustice of this
affliction.
Rage. At it all.
Except
there is
no rage
towards
my melanin.
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The Opening
I have
never
felt
a
vulnerability
like
this
before.
A listless
ache
behind my
eyes
and a raw
opening of
every
door
inside me.
People
wandering
through
the corridors
of my soul
while I watch
from below.
Mute.
Emptiness
follows their
footsteps as
I float
ceaselessly
through
space.
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The Rose Garden
I stood naked on the ground, feet sinking into the sponge of the dewy grass. He met me there and sprinkled the seeds around me, in a loose circle. We agreed to water it together The sun set on that summer and the roots that sprouted began to spread. with each sun set and rise millimeters of green veins were added. We learned that for the roses to flourish they would need support so we added a metallic arch over my head - naked body still enduring seasonal shifts With autumn came the first buds, the bloom glorious. Tiny blushing drops eventually spread open, filling my nostrils with the scent of molasses. My thighs and hips were covered in dustings of nectar as he pruned, watered and tended to the new born sprouts It continued this way - and by the seventh cycle the archway was laden with the weight of roses so dense that a single flower would weigh down the cup of your palm As the garden flourished, I kept looking up in awe of the beauty that we nurtured, only rarely ever taking note of the large and heavy vines that entwined around my waist and breasts, coiled around my feet - cramping my calves and aching my back It was a byproduct of the beauty, a cost at which the garden came. In the winter I even took solace in the tight green shelter - it offered welcome protection from the frosty cold. I was safe. But all this time, I failed to see that as the roses grew so too did the jagged, thick and sturdy thorns. Blinded by the velvet plush petals, it took me by surprise how the thorns stealthily grew so large that they barely noticeably pierced their way through my rib cage, puncturing my lungs. Making it impossible for me to breathe.
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