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I have yet to undergo finals but I chose easier classes this year to put off inevitable responsibility so I’ll be ok

I really love (HATE) sanuso

im barely drawing after 😭finals kicking my ass I have more sanuso I swear

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random ass vent drawing thing from yesterday bc I was mad as hell at my brain

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how I look at large companies when my balls itch and turn into two dried cantaloupes (their fault)

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image from Pinterest because it’s goofy-silly, anyway, rambling warning.

would it be so much better being a wild animal? I’m not saying it’s all bad to be a human as there are perks to both and bear with me, I do not hate being human . I was born human and was lucky enough to pull a life where I have things I want to do and people that make me want to be alive so I will continue living

ofc as a wild animal I’d have to hunt and chase prey powered by fierce desperation to stay alive so I wouldn’t have to undergo the slow and agonizing process of starvation. I’d have to fear for every moment that I’d fall prey to something else. on the other hand, there’s the truth that you are just as simple as that, there is no wrong or right only life or death it’s lacks the complexity of humanity where everything has to be pondered whether it brings you joy or makes you want to tear the skin off your face. sure there’s excepting there is no meaning to your existence so you can make it whatever you desire given time and freedom (speaking of that I will cover it later). And then there’s also the kind of thoughts that starts to whisper maliciously that maybe what I do or how I behave or even what I chose to be isn’t me. “I am happy with my identity or I want people to find me interesting and be my friend” always baits in the troubling “you are an attention seeker, why are you so disgustingly greedy, you have a loving family why do you care so much about whether your friends love you and whether those strangers think you as intriguing” as every “I’m so happy I’m a good person who isn’t bigoted, hateful, or perverted” and immediately the intrusive thoughts start clamoring “that isn’t really how you think you’re just a people-pleaser and and do this so your friends don’t leave you” which circles back to being a “greedy people-hogger” tangled with doubts on whether I’m really a great person or not I want to be a decent person okay? Whatever it is I do not want that to be a facade and I do have to accept I am an attention seeker because I am a human at the end of the day and as a social species I desire it.

AND THEN, comes the ominous looming, dripping, mass that is the future, expectation, and identity. If I am a lazy procrastinator who doesn’t want to get my homework done, I’m fucking cooked for the future!! I was born a human and from birth I’m assigned social expectations and an identity that comes inevitably with some organs that just grew on my body because of a chromosome, and when I understand it is no more than a social construct and transition, it makes me feel more comfortable in my skin but theoretically doesn’t change the fact that the more comfortable one is still nothing short of a social construct made up by society as well, but fuck no I don’t want to go back because it’s so deeply rooted between how we;re born to mean anything different and I don’t care anymore I’ll just be what I feel better as

and then the world in chaos, to care about this or else it will change the course of your life to care about that or else.. and very existence forbid I don’t ponder because then i wouldn’t be anyone notable or find my own meaning

but toss that out and pretend to be a coyote or something, suddenly it feels so liberating. You’re but a creature now, built on instinct, freedom to hunt, frolick, run, poke around in curiousity with fur and fangs and claws and it feels so much better and when you do struggle to survive, it’s built into you, programmed by nature and evolution free of that weight of what lies beyond or what could have been or what or who you are, there’s just a you.

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redesigned my scav oc, Rat. featuring The Delinquent, @flyingbatz03 scug

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persona but with furries….. fursona.

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fruits: we can rely on animals consuming us and shitting out our seeds to spread our species

Usopp from one piece if he was an ancient from the 2017 indie game rain world:

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fuck this stupid Baka life vro I slept wrong and my neck hurts and now I have to hit this pose for he rest of the day

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Goofing around during class w/ @inkkvoid, guess who drew what (⁎⁍̴̛ᴗ⁍̴̛⁎)

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I struggle to accept being a bug.

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He does not want me to leave (｡ ́︿ ̀｡)

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Serval doodle

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it’s only 57 days until

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