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I'm blown away by the support I have irl from women. From an outsider within 2 years I've found my lane. I'm making friends and I found if I drop the misgendering shits, life is pretty nice. I never thought I'd be here. This moment I thought was my greatest fear. But now my gf and I are making friends, that align with us. I'm so thankful for the ones in my life. It's all coming together nicely. Being myself and transitioning was the best decision ❤️

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So I've been on hrt for 18 months and everything I've seen had said in 4 different clinics say after 14 months your breasts will stop growing pretty much. I recently decided to hold off on top surgery and broke this back peddling to my doctors office... The kind lady was shocked to hear my decision. I pointed out that umm... they're growing at same or faster rate since last appointment so top surgery seems silly. She said "ohhh, you're one of the lucky ones". I'm now very fucking concerned they won't stop anytime soon, 😒 when stuck shaving jello molds on my chest. I don't need the surface area to further increase my difficulty level.

In other news... My boobs catch anything my mouth misses.

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Most validating thing to have happen is getting clocked by strangers then the question is asked is that a girl? The woman tells her man... No that's a chick.

I feel I must be doing something right finally

And it touched something in my soul.

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Stupid question buried some where below. I for one grew up straight in a semi religious family. So I'm sure this is going to sound super insensitive but I've got to ask it as I'm just a simple trans-girl who knows no better.

Am I the only trans-fem who feels Autoguynaphilia peeps give Trans-women a bad name with their attention seeking shit. Like has anyone asked the question about the loud non hormonal ones just might be making life too hard for the trans community. Or is everyone too fucking inclusive?

I have had problems with them and had to set myself apart as nobody would listen to me due to the horrible way they treated and lied to people before so it was months of proving I was different not nuts and a damn human before they rethought "trans" vs "Autoguynaphilia" and I handed out the definition to people in power to turn the tide.

I'm not saying this distinction would help much but I feel it's a point I haven't heard discussed with people "defending our rights" I feel misrepresented when lumped in with the teacher with unrealistic breastplate to basically push the envelope imo. So now I'm butt hurt wanting to point the finger but of course I haven't looked into stats and what not to see if there's any thing there with my question. So I bring it to the Internet 😮‍💨

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lesbians love and support our trans sisters 💖💖

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Transitioning later in life is a brutal game of patience and constant self-assessment. I'm stuck in this frustrating in-between, where my body is still shifting, and I'm hyper-aware of every perceived flaw. My face, my chest – it's a constant battle against expectations and the mirror. Public life is a minefield. Are the stares admiration, curiosity, or something else entirely? The constant attention, both wanted and unwanted, is exhausting. I'm navigating a world where I feel perpetually out of place, unsure if I'm even 'doing it right.'

And the social interactions? A nightmare. Men are predictably awful, and women… well, it's a whole other level of frustrating. I'm tired of being a novelty, a token for performative allyship. I'm tired of being seen as a 'catch' with an asterisk. I'm tired of the constant questioning, the implicit demands to conform. I just want to exist, to be seen as a person, not a project or a statement.

It's a rollercoaster of dysphoria, anxiety, and anger, all amplified by the current political climate. Without my partner, I'd be lost. This isn't the peaceful transition I imagined; it's a relentless, exhausting fight.

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I'm so torn on moving forward into my second year. So far I was swearing off women entirely and trying to hit up men with 3 interested in meeting up. Then some how this woman started building me up and got me to stand up for myself. Next thing I know I'm blowing off the guys for this woman. She has the audacity to be funny & sarcastic as me. Now some how we are a deeply rooted thing.

Now here is the troubling part going into my second year. How do I present myself in public with current political climate. I've got boobs still growing and hard to hide. Men's clothes irritate me. The times I'm out presenting as fem... Guys come help me out vs gf . I'm taken back as there's no push back in public. But I'm afraid of the tensions stacking in a way the publics opinions will shift.

Do I revert to male status until I can do surgeries to fix my face??? Like my gf doesn't mind any of it. She's some how gone from straight to a Lesbian on paper. I'm blown away by her level of acceptance. I know I couldn't do the same. She's far better person than I could ever be.

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hey so if sex is "immutable" does this mean we are going to stop the whole 'surgeries on intersex infants' thing, or is this more of a "we hate trans people for existing and don't understand basic biology" kinda vibe

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🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️

Boo!!!

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I feel obligated as I'm very pro-gf

lesbians love and support our trans sisters 💖💖

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So the same man who was recorded saying "grab them by the P" is the one making broad sweeping policies against trans? I feel him/others would be embarrassed over the almighty girl penis... Since they can't keep their hands to themselves this is the logical next step.

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Don't Fall for this scam.

Transgender community, please please please do NOT use this product! It will kill you if used, please do not use it whatsoever.

Please reblog and spread the word

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I'm trans-fem... Recovering conservative... That's still figuring life out. I'm sorry in advance.

I see this becoming an issue... Yes I'm MTF trans, No I don't get anything online for HRT. Furthermore, I'm anti-sissy, shitposts! All my HRT is local !