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[johnacex]

Bad For You

“The worst thing we could be is hurtful to each other” I remember us saying these words, like vows, and even though we tried to be honour them we eventually lost our way and burned in the flames of young passion

You were like a dream so perfect and unreal, everyone wanted to be with you, and when you kissed me for the first time, on that cold silent night, the spark felt so warm but rather…

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Domino Effect

I knew I’d hit rock bottom when I had to feed off pain to survive

Sadly, it was all your pain and you made it crystal that I could never understand the little of it, but you still never held back the dreadful wishes that one day I be in a similar situation and break down of such pain

Oh well, love, believe my word when I tell you that I have bathed in the dark storm of your pain, even though I’ve…

[johnacex]

Love You in Secret

I love you in secret, because it’s the only way I know how, in the shadows, alone and with no effort to be someone I’m not, because love has changed me before, made me do things I thought impossible, for love has taken me down paths so blissful and yet trapped with a trail of remorse

I love you in secret, breeding my silent obsession like a baby, so vulnerable like a priceless artefact, so fragile

[johnacex]

Only You

Obviously my only one is YOU Believe I was born for YOU My love & trust is for YOU I dream & hope only for YOU I want no one else but YOU

I’ll forever be here for YOU Laugh with YOU & Cry for YOU And if I’m not good enough for YOU I’m ready to change for YOU Let everything go for YOU Im’a put my focus on YOU Cut off all these chasers for YOU

I wanna be only with YOU Do the unthinkable with YOU Exp…

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Break My Heart, Again

The days are dark The nights are sad, When I think of a happier time, A time that we always woke up next to each other Comes to mind, A time nothing else mattered but just our wild spirits Comes to mind, A time that we gave our hearts to each other with a promise of nothing but adoration Comes to mind

We hoped to share a love So lovely, a love for eternity, Poisoned my heart with expectations, and…

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Lost in the Crowd

I am lost in the crowd, lost my love in the crowd, trying to find my way back to her heart

I am lost in the crowd, amidst all the noises and buzz of activities, I try to listen for her heartbeat because I know it by heart, a memorable melody that always leads me back to my love’s arms, I am lost in the crowd, spinning in circles, overwhelmed with confusion and anxiety, I have an ominous feeling th…

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In the dark, with you

Drag me into the dark, let’s sit in the coldest corner that could tell the loneliest tales of those that have fallen before us, the saddest stories of those that jumped over the dreaded cliff and offered their spirits freedom, let’s sit in the darkest corner, as I find a spark of hope in your eyes, a reason to wake up tomorrow, let’s give our life purpose

Drag me into the dark, take all the time…

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Sorry, meant take the pain out

Lost inside myself, trapped in the usual wild storms of the craziest thoughts I always brew at the wake of anxiety; I figure that there are many ways I could take myself out sorry, meant take the pain out; The madness I self induce to my damaged soul

Yes, I am sick Sick of this world Sick from the torment, the tussles with my demons when our conversations get out of hand, It’s probably why I’m…

[johnacex]

Before The Song Ends

There are songs I cherish so much, songs that remind me of you songs that remind me of us songs that remind me you’re gone, songs we listened to together songs that break my heart as I repeat them every night, songs I can’t delete from my playlists songs I can’t erase from my mind, every lyric digging deep into the treasure chest of our memories

Songs I find myself singing when I’m alone, with a…

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Somebody Else

There are parts of me buried and hidden deep into my heart’s darkest abyss, Parts of me that carry such immense pain and shame, Parts of me that only come out in the wake of the midnight to haunt my dreams till morning’s help arises

There are parts of me I’ve lied to myself to have forgotten at an effort of being happy, but no love, I don’t deserve happiness, not even the faked kind; Parts of me…

[johnacex]

Break My Heart, Again

The days are dark The nights are sad, When I think of a happier time, A time that we always woke up next to each other Comes to mind, A time nothing else mattered but just our wild spirits Comes to mind, A time that we gave our hearts to each other with a promise of nothing but adoration Comes to mind

We hoped to share a love So lovely, a love for eternity, Poisoned my heart with expectations, and…

[johnacex]

Home, at last

Trying to find home Trying to find home A chase for a sense of care, security, warmth, love A need for peace, humming my heart to stillness, peace, Peace with my spirit, peace with my soul

Trying to find home Trying to find me To save my soul, long lost In your memontary bliss, Games we play but fight hard not to win, We never make it across the river, Always losing our way, or rather the courage…

[johnacex]

Domino Effect

I knew I’d hit rock bottom when I had to feed off pain to survive

Sadly, it was all your pain and you made it crystal that I could never understand the little of it, but you still never held back the dreadful wishes that one day I be in a similar situation and break down of such pain

Oh well, love, believe my word when I tell you that I have bathed in the dark storm of your pain, even though I’ve…

[johnacex]

Confessions

taken a hobby in collecting your pictures

every single one more beautiful and glorious

i love to stare at all of them most of the time

they remain a reminder of how much i adore you

but more of a pain of why you aren’t mine

tried so hard not to but i’ve fallen for you

fear of rejection has made me keep it a secret this long

i however think that it’s time i open up to you

whatever this revelation…

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Sequel to the Bartender

i numb this pain of our separation with yet another glass of rum and cloud this reality with dark grey smokes like some voodoo artist, hoping to forget all about you in my high state of wild moon child adventure

the midnight sneaks to the bar at the edge of town, my home, my safe space, become my favorite hobby; the bartender, my savior, i run to you with tales of my betrayal and lessons against…

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Obsession

guilt for hiding all these feelings i have from you

hate for everyone that tries to show some sort of affection for you

jealousy for each joyous moment you have with anyone else but me

disappointment for your consistent lack of noticing me

deep pain for every effort you make to be with another that doesn’t care as i do

~ @ John Acéx

[johnacex]

I for one truly love You

i’m tired of your sob stories and you feeling sorry for yourself because of his reflection

i’m tired of seeing you putting in much effort to be with him ye he doesn’t care enough for you

you have to stop this and accept the reality, move on with your life for you deserve to be happy with someone that truly loves you

i for one truly love you and you know this absolute truth but it’s all up to you t…