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Eternal

I can't imagine you getting older. I feel as if to me you'll always look the same. I'll get older, my hair will be gray, my face full of wrinkles. But you will be the same. Same eyebrows, same nose, same mouth, same eyes. Forever as you're now. Eternal.

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Animal Farm - George Orwell

Third book done. This time it was Animal Farm by George Orwell.

I bought it (along with a copy of 1984) and to my surprise this edition also included some of Orwell's sellected essays which I'll add to my reading list. I also read it in english.

I do have to admit I haven't really read physical books in a while, I'm not really used to it anymore. Specially when it comes to taking notes, which on an app are always easier to check.

I've also got to admit that it took me a while to write this post. Not because I didn't have anything to write about the book, but rather because I felt it's such a straight forward message that it felt as if anything I'd write about it wouldn't do it justice.

Now, back to the book:

SPOILERS AHEAD

I already had some idea about this book's plot, as I had seen stuff about ir online. I'm also pretty sure I must have seen a movie about it (the animation one) when I was younger, but I can't remember for sure.

The plot is pretty straight forward: farm animals rebel against their human master and start their own independent state, ultimately ending up in the same conditions as before their rebellion but under another group's control. It's a fable that criticizes the birth of the USSR. I've got to admit that the book having some notes about Animal Farm helped me understand better the historical references made, as my knowledge about this topic wasn't very extended.

Going back to the plot, the farm animals (or, rather the animal) that starts the whole rebellion is a pig named Major. He is a fictional representation of Marx, their message being pretty much the same: a working class who works for themselves and lives in an egalitarian society. In this case, the working class are the animals, while the power class/bourgeois are the human masters. Major knows sooner or later there will be a rebellion against the human and believes that in the meanwhile all animals should work together to secure that free and egalitarian future, even if those animals won't ever live or even get to see that future. While I was reading Major's manifesto I could remember vividly the first time I read the Marx's Communist Manifesto back in highschool (it's also in my reading list, as I want to read it again soon). But, just as it happened with Marx's ideas, once put in use they turned sour pretty soon.

The rebellion took place under the pigs leadership. These animals, said to be the smartest among the farm animals, represent the most educated individuals among the working class. Smart and charismatic enough to convince others to follow them in the fight for a better future, managing to get over some initial doubts about what would happen if they rebel and if that bright can even exist ("Some of the animals talked of the duty of loyalty to Mr. Jones, whom they referred to as 'Master', or made elementary remarks such as 'Mr. Jones feeds us. If he were gone, we should starve to death."). But the pigs couldn't have done it on their own. They needed the help and power of the masses, represented by the other animals. As soon as the rebellion ends, the humans are exiled from the farm, and the power and control of the society is now in the hands of the animals, they decide to give it to the pigs, so that they'd be in charge of everything (with the approval of the others, of course, through somewhat of a voting system). But the hunger for power is sadly an intrinsic part of human nature. Or, in this case, of a pig's nature. Soon after the rebellion, the first red flag appeared: the milk's disappearence. This could have been a crutial moment that would've changed the story's ending if the other animals had reacted. But being the uneducated masses who believed blindly in their liders, they didn't realise what was going on.

More on this note, the pigs do try to educate their illiterate comrades. The pigs, who learned to write and read before the revolution, write the Seven Commandments on the side of a barn. The idea is trying to teach all animals to read and write, but sadly only a few other animals were able to learn how to read, let alone how to write.

After the rebellion the animals conditions improve. The two main lidering pigs, Napoleon and Snowball, always try to make the best decisions for the group, and only approve them after debating with the rest of the animals. But as the story avances we can see there are some disagreements between these two. Napoleon (who represents Stalin) seems to have a great hunger for power. He usually disagrees with Snowball, even if Snowball's ideas seem to be in the interest of the whole farm. After the farm's dogs have puppies, he takes them and raises them to be his loyal "soldiers". Napoleon uses them as an intimidation method to keep all animals under control <,through fear and violence, and to exile Snowball. As soon as Snowball escapes from the farm, Napoleon takes full control. He becomes the one and only lider, head of the hierarchical society he begins to build. In this new reality, all pigs work under Napoleon's orders. Meanwhile, all other animals slowly go back to their lifes before the revolution, without even realising.

Napoleon insists in building a mill, so that the farm can have an electric supply, even tho that had been Snowball's idea before his exile, to which Napoleon firmly opposed. The mill's construction and it's usage for electricity is more of a dream than a true palpable and achievable idea. The farm animal have barely got the means to actually go through with the project. Due to this, the project fails multiple times, them having to star from the beginning all over again. Napoleon and the other pigs (specially Squealer, who represents the propaganda) lie to the others, telling them all bad things that happen to them are because of Snowball and the other farms that surround their own. Those become the enemy, and fear becomes a part of the animals.

No one bats an eye against all strange things that happen. They don't react when the Commandments are changed. They don't react when the Commandments are broken by the pigs (by them drinking alcohol, or living in the house). They don't react when the sheep's slogans are changed (from "Four legs good, two legs bad." to "Four legs good, two legs better."). Through propaganda and their own reassurence that they're way better now than they had ever been before the revolution (which is false, as their quality of life is the same or even worse than it was under Jones) the farm animals keep pushing through the rough times and giving more and more power to the pigs, and thus to Napoleon. As the end of the story comes around, they trust the pigs so blindly that they don't even react when they take Boxer (the farm's horse, most hardworking animal) away in a van with "Horse Slaughterer".

By the end of the book the pigs are unrecognizable. They talk, walk, dress and act as humans. The rest of animals are living the same (or even worse) than back then, before the revolution. The humans are no longer the enemy, but rather the pigs allies. The most important change is the last commandment, that changed from "All animals are equals" to "All animals are equals, but some animals are more equal than others".

As I said before, the plot is pretty straight forward and the story could be described as a fable that criticizes the birth of the USSR. George Orwell was an english socialist, but he didn't blindly approve of any comrade. Specially those who got blinded by power. Even tho I already knew about the plot, and how the story ended, it still shocked me. I could see many resemblances between the book and today's reality. I think it's the kind of book everyone should read. I don't see it as a critique of communism, but rather a critique of dictatorship, of blindly trusting those in power. It's a cautionary tale of what can happen when the masses are uneducated, when they give all the power to a few individuals, when those in power get blinded by the hunger for power. It a warning of what can happen. Or what is already happening in some places.

Here are some quotes that stood out to me:

"Man is the only creature that consummes without producing. [...] Yet he is lord of all animals."

"I have no wish to take life, not even human life."

"I could show you this in his own writing, if you were able to read it."

"The creatures outside looked from pig to man, and from man to pig, and from pig to man again; but already it was impossible to say which was which."

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Just like your father

It is said girls end up dating guys who are just like their fathers. As if trapped in some sort of Electra curse.

I believe it's because of the familiarity. They know what to expect, they've seen it all before, they know how to react, how to enjoy the good moments and to protect themselves from the bad ones.

But I don't want that. I don't want someone like my father.

My mother always says: "If you could find someone who loves you at least half as much as your father loves me I'd be more then happy". I don't know if I would be tho.

Don't get me wrong, he is not a bad father or a bad husband. But I wouldn't say he is a great one either. He tries to be, he loves us, but he has many bad sides, too many sometimes.

He has good sides too, but it feels as if they're few in comparison to the bad ones.

He is not patient, he gets angry too easily sometimes. And his angriness can be scary, can be violent. His screams make you feel uneasy. Make you freeze.

My mom is similar to him. She's more patient, but just enough to make a bit of a difference. Just enough to make you feel trust and lure you into her arms. Not enough to save you from her issues.

But this is not about her. It's not entirely about him either.

This is about how I don't want to love someone like him. How I long for someone as hardworking as him, but who is also patient. Who doesn't curse or scream when things don't go out as planned.

Someone who loves his family more than anything, but who doesn't blame others when things go south, who doesn't blame others for his mistakes. Someone who doesn't seem to enjoy making others feel bad, feel small, feel insignificant.

There are many more things, but it feels tiring to talk about them.

The idea is that I want someone different, someone better, someone who is not like my father. Who is not like me.

"You are just like your father" - my mother

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just as a general reminder

learn how to fact-check for yourself, cause soon enough, most online sources won't be reliable

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Miss me, Miss you

You'll miss me. I hope you do. I hope you wake up in a couple of days, without having heard of me at all, and miss me. Miss my messages, my posts, my snaps, my selfies, my small trinkets of love.

You'll miss me. I hope you do. I hope you realize in a couple of days that you miss my face, my hair, my eyebrows, my lips, and miss me. Miss my eyes, brown and big and looking lovingly at you, longing to see you face to face.

You'll miss me. I hope you do. I hope you will think about my voice, realize you haven't heard it in a while,miss my laugh and my words, and miss me. Miss the way it changes between languages, while remaining the same, while still being me.

You'll miss me. You don't know it yet. But you will. And when you do, I hope you dare to tell me because I miss you too.

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Tender is the Flesh - Agustina Bazterrica

Cadáver Exquisito - Agustina Bazterrica

Like I've said on my post about 1984, I much rather prefer reading books in their original language (if I speak said language). So I've read this book in spanish. Due to this there will be some quotes in spanish in this post, but don't worry, I'll translate everything.

Well, this has been the second book I've read this year. Had already read it last year, but I really wanted to read it again. I will include some of my first thoughts on it in this review/analysis.

Now, back to the book:

SPOILERS AHEAD

Agustina Bazterrica is Argentinean, which means she uses expressions and words typical of her country. Of course this is far from something bad, but I thought it's worth mentioning it. Lots of non spanish speakers and even some spanish speakers tend to forget how different this language can be from a country to another. For me it's always so interesting seeing these small and big differences.

The plot is frightening, scary and disturbing, tragic and depressing. Because of a virus, which only affects animals and which makes those animals (both dead and alive) deadly to humans, meat can no longer be consumed. The meat industry, along with governments, come up with a drastic solution: cannibalism. Some humans are chosen to be bred for consumption and through institutionalization, industrialization and normalization, it becomes the new reality. This whole process is The Transition. Of course some more small changes had to be done. Things such as calling those individuals "heads" instead of people or humans; calling their meat "special meat"; making them go through different interventions (such as taking their vocal cords out, not allowing socialization or education) to dehumanize them.

Our main character, Marcos, works in this semi-new industry, in a slaughterhouse. He's somewhat of a right-hand man for the slaughterhouse's owner. Marcos has to deal with breeding centers from which to buy heads, tanneries to which to sell skin, butcher shops that will sell the special meat they provide. But he doesn't like it. He is repulsed by this new society he lives in. He hates people who are comfortable with this new norm. He is not a happy person. He's not only depressed by the reality he lives in, but also by his personal life: his father suffers from dementia and lives in a nursing home, that's why he needs to push through his job, to support him; he's going through somewhat of a divorce, his wife having run to her mother's house, due to the loss of their baby; he hasn't really got any more friends or family except from a good coworker and a narcissistic and cold sister. He is like the only sane person left in this mad world, while suffering from a depression that barely lets him keep pushing through. Or at least that's what he seems.

But we will come back to him later. Now, let's talk a bit about world building and the other characters.

Bazterrica's world build is pretty rich and detailed, even tho some quite important questions are kept unanswered. How were the first heads chosen? Where they poor and marginalized people? Is the virus real or is it indeed a way to justify cannibalism and it's "positive" consequences (such as end of overpopulation or reducing the meat industry's pollution)? How unaware are the heads of their situation?How did the Scavengers appear, and are they part or not of that society? If not, where do they live or work? I don't think of those as plot holes, but rather as a way of showing the society's dissociation from the reality they're in (as well as a way to not overcomplicate the story, which would've had most likely taken away from the strong message it sends). But still, they're questions left unanswered and that only makes me more curious about the world this book takes place in.

The other characters seem more like NPCs than any other thing. They're mere objects that the main character needs for his story to advance. That doesn't mean they're not interesting or important. Just that they're not given the enough spot light for them to become more. These characters are also a way to show that the only humans that could not only thrive but basically live in a society like the one we're shown, are those who lack empathy, who only care for their own interests, who are comfortable not only making differences among humans but also not seeing some people as humans due to those differences.

Mr Urami and Urlet are psychopaths who truly enjoy the world post Transition. They seem to have been born for it. They get pleasure from hurting others, even if they're not seen as humans in the society they live in. They're immigrants who've come to this country because (or at least most likely) they've got a bigger freedom to do their activities here, than in their own countries (such as is the case with Urlet, who hunts heads, something that's not allowed in Romania). On the other hand the sister is the perfect example of those who simply accept changes from the power classes, without truly wondering about whether or not those changes are actually good for the population or if they're just a way of controlling the masses. Due to her narcissistic personality, she not only accepts this new reality, but also try to show off through it: she gets a domestic head, that she keeps in a special room at her own home, and that represents a status symbol. Spanel, Nélida, Doctor Valka, El Gringo, Mari, Cecilia, all these characters are the same. They only care about themselves and their interests. As long as they're not the ones being slaughtered, they don't care about how the world works.

And Marcos is the same. Even tho he seems different, deep down he isn't. He keeps calling the heads humans, but then as soon as he gets a domestic head, he basically behaves just like everyone else. He only sees her as a burden, as a problem, keeping her tied, dirty, hidden in a barn. And then he uses her. Maybe not like his sister uses her domestic head (cutting pieces in such a way as not to kill it, something that no one would do to a domestic animal in the real world, now that we're mentioning it) but still using her for his own interest nonetheless. He r4pes her, uses her to feel some sort of warmth, of comfort. Due to her being trated like livestock her whole life, she can't understand or consent to anything he does to her, she's just an animal/object to him. He understands the immorality of his actions, as it'd be more easily compared to bestiality than any other thing. But he justifies his actions reminding himself that she's human, even tho no one has ever treated her like that, not even himself. He also justifies them with the fact he treats her "like a real human" which is naming her Jazmín, letting her inside the house, to watch TV, to eat human food, to wear closes; showing her (tho the correct term would be teaching her or training her) how and where to relieve herself, how to keep entertained while he's gone, how to please him. And then she becomes pregnant. And he cares even more for her, treating her even better, loving her even more. Bur none of those things is true. He doesn't care for her, but for the safety of the baby, HIS baby. That's the only thing he care about, his second chance at fatherhood. And when she starts labouring he calls his almost ex wife, a nurse, to ask for help.

That's the moment I knew I'd be broken by this book. Cecilia (the ex) comes to the rescue and, tho she is repulsed initially by the whole situation, she behaves like a true professional and safely delivers the baby. For a moment she talks to Jazmín like she would talk to any other mother giving birth, like to a human. And then it all goes south. Marcos and Cecilia instantly feel a connection to the baby, completely forgetting about the tired woman who lays in bed, trying desperately to hold her baby. And when they realise she is still there, still existing, still feeling love and pain and sadness over the whole situation, Marcos decides to slaughter her (tho Cecilia thought they could use her to have more babies) because "she had the human expression of a domesticated animal".

And just like that my head was blown. I was left there looking at that last page, that last phrase, and I didn't know how to feel other than disgusted or what to think other than "fuck!".

This book is not only a criticism of the meat industry in this capitalist world we live in, an industry in which living breathing beings suffer and are being mistreated and abused without a second thought. It is also a feminist book, that reminds us that the fight against the patriarchy has to be closely related to other social movements, such as veganism or racial equality. Social movements can't fight against the common enemy (patriarchy and capitalism) on their own or if they're fighting each other; they need to be united.

To end my review/analysis, I just want to say I loved the final plot-twist. I usually find it pretty easy to see in which direction books or movies or TV shows are headed, and thus predict plot twists or endings. But that didn't happen here, I wasn't even close. Marcos is such a good unreliable narator I didn't even realise on my first read how hypocritical he is and what a superiority complex he has. I was so blinded by his "relationship" with Jazmín (his domestic head), I so wanted her to experience love and humanity, that I was unable to even imagine the horror she was gonna experience at the end of the book. Not even when Cecilia appeared did it even cross my mind how the end was gonna work out.

Also as a fun fact, after reading the book the first time I very strongly considered going full vegan. I was so disgusted by the human meat industry (described and inspired in today's meat industry) and so shocked at everything that went through in this book that I couldn't even look at meat without feeling sick to my stomach. After a while tho, it stopped and I went back to my usual diet. I do try to consume as little as possible and as ethical as possible, but sadly meat is a big part of my life, culture and traditions and I can't fully renounce to it.

Here are some quotes that stood out to me:

"Mientras caminan para la salida pasan por el galpón de las preñadas. Algunas están en jaulas y otras están acostadas en mesas, sin brazos ni piernas." - "On the way to the exit, they pass the barn where the impregnated females are kept. Some are in cages, others lie on tables. They have no arms or legs."

"Lo que vendemos está muerto, se está pudriendo y parece que la gente no lo quiere aceptar." - "What we sell is dead, it's rotting and apparently people don't want to accept that."

"Hoy soy la carnicera, mañana puedo ser el ganado." - "Today I'm the butcher, tomorrow I might be the cattle."

"El ansia por la carne es peligrosa." - "The craving for meat is dangerous."

"Dale mamita, pujá, pujá, así, dale que vos podés, más fuerza que ya sale, dale, ma, vamos, vamos." - "Come on, honey, push, push, that's it, come on, you can do this, harder, it's on its way now, come on, love, that's it, that's it."

"Jazmín está en la cama y estira los brazos. Los dos la ignoran, pero ella abre la boca y mueve las manos. Intenta levantarse y, cuando lo hace, choca con la cadera la mesa de luz y tira la lámpara." - "Jasmine is in bed and she stretches out her arms. They ignore her, but she opens her mouth and moves her hands. She tries to get up, and then she does, and bumps into the night table with her hips, and knocks over the lamp."

"Tenía la mirada humana del animal doméstico." - "She had the human look of a domesticated animal."

Rating: ★★★★★ (5/5 stars)

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Reading 1984 by Goerge Orwell is so fun like omg I sure hope that this society depicted in this story, a society that heavily monitors and dictates media consumption doesn't end up becoming a actual reality because there's nooo way countries are banning books or flooding social media platforms with bots in order to manipulate reception and reality hahah no way

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1984 - George Orwell

So, I've finally read 1984 by George Orwell. I had wanted to read it for a while now, but always pushed the idea away. Kept thinking it'd be too tedious, too hard to read , as it was written in 1948.

I had started reading it in december 2024 and stopped before reaching a third of the book. I think that's why I decided it'd be my first book this year.

Now, back to the book:

SPOILERS AHEAD

I decided to read it in english instead of my mother tongues bc I'm a ferm believer books are always better in their original language. I still hold onto my idea, but I've got to admit I did have some hard times while reading it because of the english mid twentieth vocabulary and way of speaking/writting. I learnt some new words and such, so it wasn't a bad decision.

The plot is heartbrokening. A totalitarian society that acts as if it isn't but that reminds you at any given moment that it in fact is. It sometimes reminded me of our current socio-economical and political situation worldwide. Countries fighting against each other for land, labour force, resources or, most importantly, power; with no regard towards the impact on not only their people, but those who live in the middle of the conflicts. Countries in which there have been wars for decades now, who soon won't remember a time in which there was peace. And all these real wars seem to follow one of The Party's slogans: WAR IS PEACE. Average people living in developed countries rarely think of the worldwide wars. Unless they affect them, of course. But otherwise, they're an unalterable reality: there are wars, and those wars have a reason to exist, and that reason is closely related to keeping their way of life, their freedom, their peace. It's sad it affects others less fortunate, but there's nothing we can do.

It also impacted me the way a writer, who lived in the first half of the twentieth century, was able to imagine technological problems so closely related to our current times. The use of technology to spy on the lower classes, the stagnation of technological advance so as to not make people too comfortable or intelligent, the seeming uselessness of technology in making work and life truly easier. Nowadays it is a fact technology spies on you, one way or another. Me using this account to express my thoughts and condemn these acts is only possible because I accepted some terms and conditions which I didn't read and that most likely "make me aware" that my data is no longer mine and that it can be used however this platform wishes. Another Party slogan comes to mind now: FREEDOM IS SLAVERY. Tho, to make it easier to understand and connect to what I'm about to say, we will turn it around into "Slavery is Freedom". Nowadays lots of governments try and even succeed in baning certain apps under the premise that they're "used by external and villanous world-powers to spy on our dear and helpless citizens and to use their data for who knows what, while feeding them manipulated content that'll brainwash them". They only ban those apps to protect you, to maintain your freedom, your right to express yourself. And they also give you platforms on which to do so, platforms they've verified and approved as safe for you. But that nonetheless do the same, only difference is who wields the power and information. And we accept it. We become slaves who only use the "safe" platforms so that we have the freedom to express ourselves and consume and decide whether to see or not how the world works.

I think it is now a good moment to say that all I'm typing is not only my own personal way of understanding the book but also the world. This is how I view right now our world, how I believe it works and it affects us, the masses, the proles. It is based on the research and education I've made myself go through, but it isn't the absolute truth. It is my opinion and anyone is free to disagree.

Having said this, I'll go on with my rant. Orwell was also somewhat right about the stagnation of technology in almost any field except war. Nowadays we could have technology that'd make our lives significantly easier, but it isn't the case. Because less work means more free time, more free time means being able to learn more, and that means more intelligent masses. And collective intelligence is powerful for the masses and dangerous for the higher classes. IGNORANCE IS STRENGTH says the last Party slogan. Prole's IGNORANCE is The Party's STRENGTH. Even those in The Party must be ignorant but aware of their ignorance, as to not educate themselves too much so they'd lose the ignorance. Not long ago there were elections in my home country. I hadn't read the book yet, but I already learnt this last phrase. The biggest part of my country's people are illiterate, mostly in the sense of not having any type of comprehension skills, no critical or logical thinking, no general knowlegde. And that's the corrupt parties strength, what keeps them in power. They know how to manipulate the masses because the masses don't even truly understand what manipulation is.

Although I liked this book a lot, there were still some parts I didn't enjoy. And not because they were sad, or heartbreaking, or dull. But because it showed the book was written by a man who lived a century ago. Who although was ahead of his time, still held onto beliefs from the first half of the twentieth century. And even tho I understand this, it's still hard for me to get through those words. The way he described women and the main love interest, Julia, lacked any depth. They were merely objects not only in the main character's eyes (Winston), but in his own. They were objects of desire, of hatred, human beings whose flaws made them perfect to live under The Party's leadership. The woman working for The Party were stupid, gossipers, snitchers, evil. They used their bodies against men, against Winston, by refusing to give into their desire. But those women who didn't work for The Party, the proles, were reduced to being either s3x workers who lacked self respect or mothers and grandmothers whose rough life turned them ugly and cheap.

The only time Winston seems to truly understand that women are human beings is moments before being arrested. As he watches through a window the woman who he's heard sing for weeks, who he's seen wash clothes continously but without resentment, he realises she's beautiful. He's surprised of such thought as he never believed a woman of fifty, big and sturdy, a prole, could be beautiful. He has no desire for her, no ulterior motif, as it happened with Julia, who he only desired and resented up until she declared her love for him. No, with this prole woman is different. He sees her for what she is: a human being, with her own problems and dreams, who works tiredlessly for her family and sings in the meanwhile just because she enjoys it.

Now that I've mentioned Julia a couple times, I have to speak of her too. Her character is an object. She could've been so much but was made to be so little. She loves Winston, no true reason behind it. She just knows he's unorthodox and that makes her love him. And he ends up loving her too, his reasoning being she's young, rebellious, dirty minded. That's it. Her unorthodoxy is related to her desire of better quality products, of sexual liberty. But she bares no real interest in ending The Party's leadership. She doesn't even truly believe in that possibility, she just follows Winston because she loves him. I don't hate her character, I just think she could've been more if Orwell was a man product of other times.

Speaking of love and such, I'll mention briefly my thoughts on O'Brien. One could believe Winston had some deeper interest in O'Brien that he wasn't aware of. The way O'Brien is described is much more profound than Julia. I even believed for a moment there might be some hint at homosexuality as a form of rebelion against the regime. But that wasn't the case. Winston loves O'Brien. In which way? That's up to you, tho I'm sure the writer certainly didn't intend it as romantic love.

To end my review/analysis of the book I want to talk a bit about the ending. I had seen online that there was a plot twist at the end, that the end was so unexpected. When I saw that I had already started reading the book. At first I thought the twist would be he was gonna be arrested and brainwashed into obedience or killed. Then when Julia appeared I changed my mind: I thought the plot twist would be they would survive, would join The Brotherhood, would end BB or at least start the revolution against it. But then they joined The Brotherhood. And it didn't give off the feeling of making progress agaisnt the enemy. So I was back to my first thought. And it turned out I was right. It didn't disappoint me tho. I just hoped to be wrong about my forecast, to be surprised with another ending that would impact me. I do think tho it was the perfect ending for this book. Hopeless but realistic. Winston never stood a chance, BB was smarter, stronger, more powerful. He trusted people blindly because he was blinded by his arrogance. 1984 could not have ended any other way, otherwise it wouldn't have the importance it holds today.

Here are some quotes that stood out to me:

"Nothing was your own except the few cubic centimetres inside your skull."

"They could not alter your feelings: for that matter you could not alter them yourself, even if you wanted to."

"If there was hope, it lay in the proles!"

"Perhaps one did not want to be loved so much as to be understood."

Rating: ★★★★☆ (4/5 stars)

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2025 Reading List

I didn't plan any new year's resolutions. I wasn't in such a good place mentally, so it didn't even occur to me until I was struggling to eat the 12 grapes.

Anyway, after a week and a half or so, basically last thursday, I decided along my usual useless never fulfilled resolutions (lose weight, eat healthier, do more exercise, stop overthinking, etc) I also wanted to add another one: READ MORE!!

I used to be a booknerd in my tweenage and teenage years, but slowly doomscrolling and getting brainrotted bc of it took my time and will to read away. Not completely, of course. I'd still read a book or two, maybe even up to five, during a year. But I used to read way more, at least 3 books a month. Maybe that's not too many either, but for me rn it feels like an unachievable thing.

So I've done a rough draft of books I'd like to read in 2025. Maybe I'll add more, maybe I'll erase some, idk yet. But for now I've got 34 more or less. Some are books I've already read, but I'd like to reread them so there's that.

I've also thought about putting some use to my tumblr account. So, to keep track of the books I've read and my opinion on them, I've decided to post a small review of each on here.

I think this is pretty much it. Let's see if I'm able to fulfill at least this resolution.

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Somewhere out there on a planet very far away is a civilization that has included our sun in a beloved constellation of some animal we couldn't dream up if we tried

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[joxies]

Ține hora, dă-i bătaie și n-o lăsa să se-nmoaie!

Și la stânga și la dreapta, nu lăsa să plece fata!

Hop, una, ş-aide două, ș-aide trei să-i dăm bătăi!

Hop, una, ş-aide două, ș-aide trei să-i dăm bătăi!

He-heeei

A uwu ă, A uwu ă, A uwuuuuu ă

A uwu ă, A uwu ă, A uwuuu uwu ăăăăă

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aia de la primarie: si faceti cererea in word, printati, semnati, scanati in pdf si trimiteti pe email

bunica-miu la 90 de ani si cu 4 clase: ce?