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My brother who is wearing a T-shirt and shorts: Oh my God, it's so hot, I am going to die. Me with long sleeves and long trousers: Skill issue.

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One year ago on this day my 2 closest friends found out I hurt myself. Today my 13-year-old brother saw the wounds on my leg and asked me what happened. My reply was "I fell down the stairs" and he bought it? kinda? He did ask if I was okay and gave me a hug.

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Me every 5th time I interact with one of or both my closest friends:

These 2 scratches have too much audacity to hurt the amount they do. Just like everything that is triggering me to do this. The audacity. And then "She hasn't done enough for you to be mad at her.". Yes, that's the problem, she rarely does enough.

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Does anyone else ever look at their shblr blog and go "What the actual fuck am I doing"?

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Hugs are not helping

Crying isn't helping

Self-harm isn't helping

Why isn't anything helping anymore?

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At least I don't cry myself to sleep like I did 3 years ago

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That many people relate to this? Damn.

This month feels like a parent going "I'll give you something to cry about." and then throwing multiple things that would make me want to cry, hurt myself or attempt again at me. Like calm the fuck down.

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12-year-old me used to listen to "In My Blood" on repeat, probably wondering if it ever gets better. It almost did. A few times. And then something pushed us over the edge again. I didn't know you could even go that deep. And the worst part? It was mostly our fault for ruining it. I'm sorry. I promise I'll try again. But I don't promise any results.

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at this point tumblr is just for talking to yourself

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I wish self harm was acceptable so that no one would try to stop me. Like please just let me do it I promise I'm safe

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Dude no way I’m making it to 18. I’ve been cutting for around two years I think, on and off eating disorder for a year, drinking excessive amounts of energy drinks 24/7, drinking alcohol, falling asleep at 5am, smoking, casually overdosing

how are my organs still fucking alive

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Just wanna say that adding a “keep reading” on any posts that include sh pics is very necessary because, it’s just general etiquette and people can’t blame you if they saw your cuts

Pleaseeeeeeeeee do it

(This is what the keep reading looks like)

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Talking to her triggers me so much it's not real

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sh culture is recovering and then going back into it and no longer seeing it as terrible

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I'll really be needing stitches if life doesn't let me be calm for more than 10 minutes at a time.

Hehe, get it?

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Why do my scratches bleed more after I pick the scab than when I first make them?

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scratching yourself is self harm. being around people who make you unhappy is self harm. punching things or yourself is self harm. cutting yourself is self harm. pulling out your hair is self harm. burning yourself is self harm. breaking your bones is self harm. bruising yourself is self harm. starving yourself is self harm. sexualizing yourself is self harm. putting yourself down for others is self harm. lying to yourself is self harm.