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[justsadthingsaboutme]

Sitting on the couch

You heart the door being unlocked

Daddy is home!

You get up, you run to the entryway

"Hi daddy!" You say, a big smile on your face "Welcome home"

Daddy closes his eyes for a second

Like your voice is an annoying chirping

He takes a deep breath

And sighs tiredly

"Hi" That's all he says

Daddy passes by, going back to ignoring you

You stand there

Eyes full of tears

Your throat closing up

You wonder

What did you ever do so daddy doesn't love you?

[justsadthingsaboutme]

I kept him inside of me, like an oyster keeps a pearl. That's what he was, a beautiful shiny pearl that mesmerized the world but only came to be through my wounds. At some point, someone killed me and pried me open so they could take him and put him with all the other pearls, where he belonged. While I was eaten and spit out, never to be talked about again.

[justsadthingsaboutme]

I grew up in a loud house

It would get filled

With screams, fights and slaps

But then, it would go silent

Not a single sound

I grew up in a loud house

There would be beatings

Tears falling down

But then, it would go silent

Not a single sound

I grew up in a loud house

Screams until it hurt

Hiding in my room

But then, it would go silent

But then, I should act normal

But then, I should pretend I didn't cry

But then, I should smile

I grew up in a loud house

But there wasn't a single sound.