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If I Was a Dog...

If I were a dog, I would feel your painAs you tell me where it hurtsBecause I want to make you feel betterI don't want to lose you.If I were a dog, I would hear your voiceTelling me what it is you needBecause I want to fulfil your every desireI don't want to displease you. If I were a dog, I would protect youFrom all sicknesses that you can't put in wordsBecause I don't want to see you struggleI…

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May I Breathe…

May I Breathe?As I feel this knot in my chestBurning and hurting my heartWhen all I ever wanted was to exhale.May I Breathe?As I feel the world suffocating meHunting and traumatising my soulWhen all I ever wanted was to exhale.May I Breathe?As anxiety steals my breatheAnd bipolar making me sickWhen all I wanted was to exhale.May I Breathe?As I try to be normalBut life denies me of my rightsWhen…

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I Didn't Say a Thing...

I am proud to say, ‘I let it go’When you made the same mistake againMaking me cry and confusedI didn't say a thing; I let you go. I am proud to say, ‘I let it go’When I told you how I feltAnd you shout at me insteadI didn't say a thing; I let you go.I am proud to say, ‘I let it go’When you called me namesI didn't understand whyI didn't say a thing; I let you go. I am proud to say, ‘I let it…

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Tears Don't Fix Anything

Tears don't fix anything; For years I was told to cry out lot, They said it's fine to let it outTears can unburden the hearts weight It can ease the soul from sorrowBut it never did,When I was diagnosed with mental disordersI cried out loud but ended up losing my breatheI realize that tears don't fix anythingTears made me swallow pills in agonyIt made me bitter and traumatizedWith tears, came…

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Air-Pril

Dear April, I can’t breathe, The memories still linger in my brain, I can't seem to let go, I think I need air. Dear April, I can't breathe, The pressure is getting too much, I can't seem to handle it, I think I need air. Dear April, I can't breathe, The pain hurts too much, I can't seem to escape it, I think I need air. Dear April, I can't breathe, My heart is broken, I can't seem to mend it, I…

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Too March

Dear March; Life is too much, The sun ray of the sun is too much. The strength it takes to get up is too much. The pain of getting through the day is too much. The struggle of pretending to be okay is too much. The effort of taking pills is too much. The scars of my past is too much. To forgive the ones that hurt me is too much. The fear of tomorrow is too much. The stress of the traumas is too…

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My Feb

My Feb, let me love my selfLet me cherish my sorrowAnd restore my soulFor I have nobody to love meMy Feb, let me love myselfI've been through a lotI deserve a breakFor I have nobody to love meMy Feb, let me love myselfIt's hard to breathe with anxietyAnd to concentrate with mental illness,And I have nobody to love me.My Feb, let me love myselfFor I came alone in this worldAnd depending on people,…

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January Mood

Dear January;It took me a while to write this because I didn't know what to write for my heart is blank and my mind is hurt. I have been dreading starting over in a new year. There is so much I wish for, but I just can't think about it because I am afraid of failure.Last year was a very bad year for me and I fear that history might repeat itself. I don't want any of last year trauma to repeat…

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Dear Mr Santa

Dear Santa;I am writing this letter with a heavy heart, not cause I’m hurt but traumatised. I lived a pure life yet I’m suffering like I’ve been in your naughty list, what have I done wrong, Santa?Firstly, you let me be alone. I don’t know mind but sometimes I need someone to help me deal or help me forget a little. My troubles are too much to handle on my own.Secondly, I don’t understand.…

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December Climax

Mind, body and soulI need healing for allYou took my youth And left me cold.Mind, body and soulI need healing for allYou let them hurt meAnd leave a scar in my heart.Mind, body and soulI need healing for allYou left me lonely And confused yet brokenMind, body and soul I need healing for allYou let life take advantage of meAnd left in miseryMind, body and soulI need healing for allYou let me go…

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Numb November

Dear November; I took a pill, so I can breathe, But it still hard to exhale. What's the purpose of my existence, When I feel trapped and cursed. Living seems to be an expense, So, I tried suicide to escape, But it rejected me like I am a virus. All I can do is cry my eyes out, Hoping November would numb my pain. ©Kitty Minaj

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What Is Wrong With My Mind?

What is wrong with my mind?They say I have depression disorder,But I am not stressed at all,Yet I can feel that I am not normal.What’s is wrong with my mind?They say I have anxiety disorder,But I don’t feel anxious at all,Yet it’s hard to control the panic attacks.What is wrong with my mind?They say I have bipolar disorder,But I don’t have mood swings,Yet I do break things when I’m angry.What is…

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Unknown October

The unknown of the morning,Makes waking up very hard.Fearing the outcomes of the day,Makes the soul trembles.The unknown of the pain,Makes life unbearable.Fearing the failure that come with it,Makes the soul trembles.The unknown of the lover,Makes a relationship unstable.Fearing being heart broken,Makes the soul trembles.The unknown of mental health,Makes the patient scared.Fearing that they…

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BROKEN

I will cry till I can’t breathe, It’s only tears I can produce I will regret some actions, Even though I know I was right And I will choke on the bad memories, Cause the goods, dead with our love I endure the pain, Because I believe this is going to last But then I remember I'm broken No one loves a broken vase Thats why I am heart broken. ©Kitty Minaj

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Restore September

Dear September As I close my eyes, chase away the bad,Restore the innocence of my precious life.As I take a breathe, let me live,Restore the purpose I was meant to lead.As I calm myself, help me be humble,Restore the peace that was broken.As I swallow these pills, heal me,Restore the sanity I had at birth.As I write this poem, let me inspire,Restore the positivity of living with a mental…

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Oh, Dear August

Dear August, Why have you forsaken me? You were supposed to make me happy But instead, I am falling apart. I am struggling to breathe, As I watch all my dreams crumble And my love breaks apart. I am in a cold space, Wishing for death again Cause I don't understand Oh, August, please help me. ©Kitty Minaj

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Suicidal Birthday

It's my birthday today, But I woke up feeling like hell Wishing I could go back to sleep Instead, I felt like I could just die. It's my birthday today, But I had a fight with love Wishing it could show care Instead, I felt like I could die. It's my birthday today, But I felt like a failure Wishing I had a chance in life Instead, I felt like I could die. It's my birthday today, But I still had to…