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Journal Pt.15

Mostly have been going around El Centro to just see what there is as well as go talk to my uncle, aunt, and cousins shop to talk and figure out things in the area. People here no matter who it is have been great and friendly even if they don't know you which makes interactions bearable. It's really jarring to see federales and estatales around which puts me in an uncomfortable mood knowing they aren't here to protect people but in it for themselves if they work for the cartel or each other if they side with the government. Other than that there is comfort just walking around the city and seeing what shops exist. Planning on going to the otaku shop to see what sort of stuff I'll find there and hopefully people.

Finally for the last three days I've been able to sleep in my room and enjoy quiet and time alone away from family. I can read my books, do tarot readings, draw, and start my calisthenics routine. My mental health is still pretty shit and I constantly think of C but I know I can't have these thoughts and to be better. I don't have much energy to write more but there is plenty of other stuff to speak but that's for another post.

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Ramble Pt.3

I'm honestly just sick and tired of how family treats me or in general Mexico not understanding how mental health goes. I'm sure there's people that do understand but like hell is this crap of "just feel better or stop thinking that way". Or better yet bring up religion to be the answer to my problems if it was that simple I wouldn't have to deal with it to begin with! I get it I should have asked for help early and I wouldn't be here, but understand I'm scared to even tell my own mother when I was in highschool I severely hurt my leg during a marathon and had to endure pain for years. I just can't tell her stuff or my dad when I was younger because they both would over react or say stuff that would be of no help to me...

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Journal Pt.14

My depression has subsided and just seems to be getting worse bit by bit. I can feel it taking a hold of me and making me suffocate. The only family that would understand are my mother's side but I don't live close to them well not like they live right next to me like my dad's side. Since my dad's side is pretty old school and doesn't really care to understand mental health. I am supposed to go to the gym today with my cousin from my mother's side I really want to go, but I just have no energy for it so I'll have to get the strength to call him and ask if we are still on for the gym. At the end of the day it's on me if I really want the help and improvement I want in life.

Other than that it's been raining really hard normally I love the rain but so much stagnant water piles up and a lot of mosquitos start coming out and I seem to get bit to hell more than anyone else. Plus the power lines here are pretty sensitive that that actually might go out at any point. Along with how badly the 1st floor to my house gets flooded.

Me and C talked again for the first time in a while it was mostly just her making sure certain things were happening and asking about stuff but all very generic chats. I still love them and I love our chats even if they are the most generic boring thing that can be talked about. I hope her attitude changes from tense/neutral to a more loving one, but I can't change how people are especially one that has been burnt out so much.

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Rambling Pt.2

Today is the first day here in Mexico that I'm dealing with the severity of my depression, I don't know who to talk to about it or what to do. I'm not comfortable talking about it with people at the moment so I'm keeping it to myself, typing it right now, doing a bit of random doodles, and did a lot of cleaning to keep me busy for the day. My family is terrible at keeping promises on both sides and they don't have the nerve to tell me that it won't be happening at least. It's really hard to do anything in my city it's really small and I don't know where I would walk, plus the heat is dreadful and it's a pain to keep hydrated with the tap being undrinkable and it's hard to find cold water. I miss C the most all day and think to myself to be back one day with them but this is the reason why I'm here because I couldn't get help and used them as a crutch for 7 years. I have therapy set up since last Friday at the end of the month, I hope to survive till then.

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Journal Pt.13

Realizing that both my mom and dad sides of the family are two of the extremes when it comes to life well specifically dealing with my aunt, uncle, and cousins. On my dad side I have my aunt who is my dad's little sister, her husband, and her 3 kids with specificwlly being a year or two older than me. Very chaotic minimal to no rules type of a family which lead to most of my cousins being into drugs, getting into problems with the law, prison, etc. Whatever problems that a person can get into or vices well this side of the family has experienced. It's always given me some sense of freedom from the more subtly control of my life family, I see how life can be experienced and the outcome that vices and these actions can lead to. Regardless it's always fun to talk to them they might be extremely dis functional, but their conspiracy and paranormal talks are always great to hear and be involved in. Now on the other hand I have my mother's brother, his wife, his two sons who are closer to my sister's age of almost 10 year gap. They are hard workers and more of the upstanding side of society, they live carefully since they do have money and are known business owners they get harrassed more by cartel/gang members for money and protection. It shows me that hard work pays off but at the cost of being target by others for the wealth you have and at the end is it really worth it if you can't live in peace. Talking to them and spending time is delightful mostly revolving around politics, economics, and social aspects of different parts of the world. I don't know where I was going with this since this is a post I've been writing for the last two days, but I'll say this no matter what I know what I want but it takes from both sides of my family.

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Rambling Pt.1

I will now add a third new type of post to my journal which relates to me rambling on about different topics on my mind. Especially if nothing of interest has happened in my day to day life to make a Journal entry.

I am not a religious person I am actually agnostic and have always been. Despite the fact that I grew up catholic (surprise surprise from a Mexican), I guess I still retain some aspects and teachings or that could just be the family and environment I grew up with and not the religion. I'd rather not focus on such things actually, instead I'll go into what this ramble is about or try to. I believe in something but I doubt that it cares about the things we do in this world. I believe the soul exists but it's like a different state of energy one that holds your information on what makes you well you, I am really on the fence but tend to lean on the subject of past lives (fact how I refer to me and C in having past lives or have always been together previously), because it feels like I've always known them and feel just great ease being with them. I also have a strong belief in tarot's and the way they work not to tell the future but to give insight to possibilities as well as self reflection to things we might not have been paying attention to and should reconsider and think again on to influence our future decisions or actions.

The Devil has always been that one card that always comes up for me. Upright it's being shackled by addiction, unhealthy habits/actions, materialism, power and control. The biggest ones relate to my cocaine addiction I used as an escape when me and C had a major fight and weren't talking to each other years ago. Unhealthy habits/actions is how dependant I am to C and using them as my main and only crutch for my mental health. Power and control I am extremely possessive of C and would want them to spend every second with me which is obviously no room for them to breath and enjoy things. It always appears upright even before meeting C and once I did meet them it has slowly always been showing up in the reverse position. Which means gaining awareness of my unhealthy habits/actions, inner work and improving myself, breaking free from limitations and my mindset. I always thought C was the answer for these, but I realized that C is the goal I want to achieve and make happy and in order to get that or try to get I need to really evaluate myself and try harder in life and stop blaming myself so much and actually do things to progress without much if any C's help. Which is where I am right now and I hope to return back to them...

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Journal Pt.12

Going to be honest yesterday Tuesday was a blur and I can't recall what happened. Besides the fact making a bank account is annoying since my electoral card I renewed made my previous one invalid since it creates a whole new string of numbers for the ID so will have to wait on that and getting a sim card/number with a mobile plan for Mexico. I think my time of random energy or the pressure of living here is deteriorating and I'm slowly regressing back to my no energy depressed self. Well it's not completely to that point but I am noticing waking up being a slight pain to do. I need to get my therapy set up as soon as I can because I'll genuinely need the help for my mental health if I wanna keep going without breaks.

Currently it's the end of my Wednesday and I had to go early in the morning to the apartments due to a concern dealing with federales going to the newish tenants unit. I had to assess the situation and give a verdict whether I should kick them out or not. Decided what happened is not their fault and they are just doing what was best, but to not let it happen again since I really don't need the federales around the area and putting the other tenants on edge. Really need to.rework the contract that's currently in place to benefit me and give me security as well as the creation of forms revolving around disputes and property damage with the signature of a tenant required. Obviously lots can be improved but like my life it's a day by day thing to worry and think about. The rest of the day for 9 hours I've been busy fixing up the room I'll be taking over. A lot of stuff my folks send here and going to waste or already useless like tvs. Needless to say the room is 40 percent ready to use and needs a unit and a fridge so that my nephew and friends he brings over don't touch my stuff. As well the bedroom needing more locks to ensure security and finally clean the balcony for my dog to play around in.

C and I have somewhat consistent talks or well some messages going to and from us. It hurts my heart to not be with them or around but I need to get better and being back there will just make me use them as a crutch for everything again...

Again another short post so some images will be posted to fill some space.

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Journal Pt.11

Monday was just another plain day here in Mexico I went out to renew my electoral voter card (which basically will be acting as my main ID so I don't need to lug around my passport with me). Went to look at some fridges and AC units for my room mostly focused on their sizes, price, etc, keep tabs on if they do delivery to my home or not and whether they do basic or full installation. Afterwards to the central zone to get some other stuff I'm missing like bug bite cream for my 50 plus bites on my legs, arms, and mostly feet. A belt since I've lost a lot of weight living in Australia 160lb to 135lb. Some sweat garbs to have on me when I go out and don't need to use my clothes or arms to wipe it off and Multivitamins for just general needing them. So that took most of my morning to afternoon in which I got some menudo for lunch. Been a long time since I ate this stuff I only eat the belly and never the feet so I asked to omit that part. Despite the crummy, smelly, bad air quality, and other conditions I don't wanna bag against my home city the food and people will always be great. Went to visit my uncle and cousins at the shop they own in the city and just explain what I've been doing and what I hope we can get done while I'm here they are great and I love my mom's brother he is a great guy as well as his kids, afterwards got some bread for my grandmother to eat and some produce she wanted me to grab for her. Took the taxi bag home but so weird how they are always so full but lucky to manage to snag one with one seat left. Still got a lot left to buy but little by little I'll figure out where everything is.

Talking to C bit by bit but since the end of the day basically means she is waking up or whatever and my day ends since currently I'm so exhausted from the day. I try to stay up as long as I can before sleep grips me and try to talk to them as long as I can. Sleeping at 10 Pm is weird I don't know if it's my weird sleep schedule fuck up or if me being pressured to actively be doing something for myself is making me sleep early and wake up early never consistently been waking up at 5 Am before. I'll bring it up with my therapist or psychiatrist when the time comes to get some mental help. Until next time adios.

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Journal Pt.10

Sunday not much happened other than introducing myself to the tenants of the apartments my mother owns but I'm a co-owner too. Nice people but knowing a politician died next to it, like literally next to the apartments, gives me a weird feeling being there. Anyways my role as a landlord isn't much just collect rent, check on the state of the apartments, and deal with complaints or whatever comes up. And then go to the other two units that are more of houses slightly down the road which are a bit more pricey. What baffles me and actually gives perspective to how bad peoples income and management is. Basically rent is 1,200 pesos which at the moment is around 66 Dollars that's right 66 dollars for rent and people still struggle with it. I want to be strict about payments but I know shit happens in life also but that puts me in a position of being a pushover. I need to figure out a balance for it.

C and I talk a bit more and more I really love them and need to repay them back the funds for the new ticket I had to get from my flight change due to a US entrance issue. I hope you are doing well C, I miss being home it's really hard living here but it will make me a better person because of the pressure and struggle.

Short post this time around so here's some photos.

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Journal Pt.9

Saturday was a busy day with family I checked my mother house (technically mine since my names are also on the deed). My grandmother and a friend of hers went to the central district basically downtown and the the literal central of the city which is like a 25 min walk but in this 100 F heat. It's basically impossible for us to walk there with my grandma and her friend. Stuff here is extremely cheap long as you know where to look but much cheaper than the US or Australia. Managed to grab some stuff from my list and some food I'll be eating since I need to learn a lot of how some old appliances work here. So that took a while to get done with oh and we spend time at a seafood restaurant got myself a classic shrimp and octopus cocktail. My grandma is a talkative person to the point she forgets what she originally started with or it's been 30 mins and she starts falling asleep. Well the return back was more of a pain since taxis where generally full and we were a group of three and most had 2 extra space in them. That whole trip was a good 3 to 4 hours and after that I spend most of it with my two nephews and my childhood cousin I grew up with since his mother is my dad's sister, and my cousins friend. Though the fact he has a kid he still heavily drinks and a drug user he was extremely out of it at the end of it in front of me, my two nephews, and his friend oh and his dad but he doesn't care much about him. But to be honest my cousin despite acting like this is the best of the worse we have cousins who are serving jail for a couple of more years, to decades, to life, those who have been killed or just disappeared. Well the drugs have taken a huge toll on him I've gone through the same conversation 8 times now mostly about him talking about a dead friend of his a guy I knew growing up. But to think his memory has been this hindered makes me reflect on my stupid decision to abuse drugs to forget painful events in the past during the lowest point of my life. I am sure I have moments of memory lapse because C has had to deal with it alot or my hearing problem I don't do it on purpose it's just I don't think it's because I can't hear well, actually a bit of a lie I do have slight hearing problems on my right ear due to a event. But I can hear fine. My cousins and nephew are weird they own actual assault rifles and pistols along with tactical military grade bulletproof vest and plates if I haven't said that before.

I miss C alot, they started texting back a bit helps ease my head and heart a bit. I hope to be with them soon.

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Journal Pt.8

Woke up after my first day and walked around Mexico. My cousin, his wife, daughter,and my mom's brother picked me up at the airport sweet people like really sweet. They are the only ones who I had some confidence talking about my health issues because they understand what it's like to go through with depression and anxiety. Though I didn't expect to get along that well talking about random subjects with them and going randomly political with them. Regardless we all agree family can be a good way to find other views on matters but know that our family is particularly troublesome when it comes to actually trusting the majority of its members and will do anything to get something out of you if you aren't careful with them.

There was a lot of take in Mexico the scenery, the people, the customs/culture. Especially since where I'm from it's not particularly wealthy actually it's basically a slum bottom of the barrel type of place. Military truck convoys appear out of nowhere police don't exist anymore it's all military members patrolling the streets. Lots of Koreans who buy land and build nicer homes in the more desirable zones. Food was great though on our first stop to eat, I had a torta with chicken as filling in green sauce. Lots of small storefronts on the roads, the roads are chaotic with bikes, people, and cars driving about. It feels more alive than what you'd see in the US even more than places like New York it's hard to explain and I can't seem to put it into words.

Water is dirt cheap because we don't have the infrastructure for clean tap water, though people will always opt to get a soda or sweet drink here. Explains the high levels of diabetes in Mexico as well as overweight and obesity problems. My family tends to be on the normal weight end either because of drug addiction taking a hold on them and food is a secondary necessity. Like I said earlier the infrastructure is extremely below what I'm used to living in the US and Australia. My grandmothers house (I'll be living here a bit while we get my mother/my house set up with some basic necessities like a bathroom and a kitchen set up. Though one of my brother's kids lives there but obviously goes to my grandma's house to eat, bath, etc.

Oh on the subject of bathing or using any faucet it's connected to the river that flows by the area so when it rains the water gets a bit muddy noticed it when showering for the first time here makes me feel like I'm in prison especially with the hard concrete walls and lack of a knob and just a off or on nozzle just put on the wall. With a thin veil to separate the bathroom area which yes includes a toilet next to it but no sink just a bucket and tap on the wall. AC? That's a luxury here and most people tend to just be outside in shorts, sandals, and t-shirts. There are plenty of fans located in my grandmothers house on full blast but it doesn't stop the high humidity and heat from affecting you.

Oh right I keep hearing a single phrase here a lot "Money is the only thing that talks so get used to dishing it out for everyone you see or things you wanna use" I understand somewhat this phrase like bathrooms actually have coin operated locks where you need to put a bit of coinage to get them to open up. Asking for help of any kind from friends, family, neighbors, coworkers,etc will expect some sort of compensation for their efforts no matter if it is big or small. It's a give and take system and money is the only real thing people want. People are generally nice here no matter who you are people will tend to treat you well. Maybe it's because you can't really know if the people you might annoy are cartel/gang affiliated.

Adaptation is one word you will need to learn here in Mexico. Commodities regularly found in 1st world countries are now luxuries. Although cartel and gangs only will bother you if you seek it or end up in their path bullets don't care who they hit.

I'm trying to let C have time off from me but I still wished we talked even if it was a bit more than the almost non existent communication we have right now.

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Journal Pt.7

Upon arriving at Mexico City I was pulled for inspection on all my luggage 3 large luggage that was a pain to put together in the first place. I really hope nothing got left behind during the inspection but I did miss my original flight to Monterrey so freakout a bit but got a new one set up just too tired and sleepy and not well fed after almost two days of flying. But water is pretty cheap converted all my AUD to Pesos 28 pesos is 1.55 USD for a large and I mean the largest bottle of water new cars are pretty cheap at almost 12-13k USD gives my hopes up for getting a motorcycle for cheap here. Oh yea upon arrive to Mexico City the landscape is beautiful with the mountains surrounding the Capital but the visible smog is another thing. Also don't wanna be rude just how my flights have been people in Mexico mostly look poor with literal reusable shopping bags as their personal bag. Deseveled clothes is another thing as well I mean I look pretty desheveled myself so I can't say much either. Well I still got another 9 hour car ride to get to my birth city a little little city close to Tamaulipas capital. Also am going to have to meet up with the tenants of the apartments my mother owns that has my name in it as well so that should be fun, my mother is a bit lenient with payments it seems letting some tenants not pay for months but apparently they are good on making payments later so can't complain about them. My English will not suffer it's my Spanish that will test my patience since it's obvious I use English wording structure and bring up English mid sentence. Whatever people will need to bear with it I wasn't raised here I was born only. Oh I can actually see the clouds on a flight for once makes everything down in Mexico look cute in its own weird poor way. I'm not trying to bag on my birth country I just am saying how I see it as a Mexican raised purely American. Actually just noticing a lot of South Koreans travel in Mexico like so many to count as well as a lot of Catholic priest and nuns.

This last flight actually gives peanuts (with dried fruit) C is allergic to nuts so they would be trying to avoid even the flight attendants and flight seat neighbors (not the one I'm next to as he is dead asleep)

Really hope C response at some point I don't think they are ignoring me they are just enjoying their time...

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Journal Pt.6

Still on my second flight currently in it's last hour, it's been a oddly isolated im traveling alone and rarely talk to my own family and friends. I try to contact C but I know they are out with friends and doing sleepovers and it would sour her mood if she has a lot of contact with me and make her sad or something. So mostly been stuck with my thoughts and just trying to grasp what will happen when I get to my home city.  I strike up conversations with randoms to kill time or help them out. I've always love helping people it's one of the few times I feel some sort of accomplishment. Like when I worked as a banker and teller, but for sure I will never miss the entitled customers like those who assume I know who they are "No, do you know who I am?" I would assume the teller or banker would be more known than one customer.

But I currently feel really gross I have greasy hair since I've been wearing my hat none stop for almost 2 full days. Really need a shower when I get to whatever house I'll be in. Apparently it's easy to get a license in Mexico just pay and pop you have a certified driver's license im assuming there's more to it than that. Maybe I should try to get LASIK surgery here on top of my final dental stuff.

Knowing two or more languages is always beneficial in today's connected world until you get into a country where one specific language dominates it because everyone else is on the lower end of education. That's how I see it me living in Mexico for the time I'll be there. I hope to make a friend or two other than my own family to hangout with. But I do live in the top 10 dangerous cities in all of Mexico. (Maybe have another journal spot dedicated to stuff like that still correlates with the I Am Alive theme in a literal sense).

I feel like typing these journal entries have helps me somewhat explain things. Will have to field test it with people and C. Could also be a placebo affect or me going mental with so much social isolation.

To my love check where memories are stored.

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Yay five long post no one will read

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Journal Pt.5

I can't sleep maybe at most for like 30 mins to 45 mins and I havent really slept at all for the past 24 to 28 hours. I realized that I am still wearing the same jumper I wore when me and C talked about being apart so that I can heal on my own and not make them feel like a crutch to burden all the ills of my mental health. The sleeves are drenched in tears multiple times since then and makes me feel like my wrist are shacklee by my own grief and sadness from the situation. I was sad but didn't cry throughout most of this trip but now I just can't hold it. I am thankful I have a lot of tissues on me from the ones I took at C's home. I love C so much I just hope this will be fixed overtime and they see me as a better person the one they fell in love with because I cannot bear to think the last 7 years we spend together Will be gone...

No, I don't they will be gone I know we will be back together but I really can't slack off anymore with my life. But I don't know if therapy can kick my very emotional side because I cry a lot and maybe sometimes for the smallest things in C's eyes. My family in Mexico goes to apparently a good one but it will always be a 2 hour drive to get there. I plan on getting my motorcycle and vehicle license as well as maybe get some certifications. I still wanna play games with C and our friends I neglected I don't mean to I have no real explanation to why I do it again maybe therapy will figure it out because I do it to my friends I grew up with. I know I'm possessive of C to a bad level I tend to them them often and even text them really small things that don't really matter and kinda just seems like filler just to fill empty moments. Yes you can love someone and have a healthy relationship without having to message them every single 10, 30, hour, etc. feels more like I'm drowning C with love. I have dated people before C but like I just agreed to dating because I guess I just wanted to experience it? Maybe not be seen as a weirdo who rejects people? I honestly really don't know on this one I would have to talk to my therapist when it comes to it. I guess when I dated people that wasn't C I would be nice and junk but like I'm just doing it to do it. Not really because I wanna do it out of love? Again I don't know I'll have check with the therapist on this and why I treat my friends the way I do maybe they can bring up an angle I can't see. I love my friends I really do and I wanna do the things I promise them id do but like why do I not do it? Like I genuinely do not hate a single one I might have said I don't wanna see them as a friend because I was frustrated that I didn't djt get invited towards the end with C and them but it's understandable I've been so reclusive. I'll work on just getting my bearings in Mexico and message them again and play games with them occasionally. Instead of saying I am going to play with them, ill ask if I can join. 

I honestly do not know where my optimism comes come it's just a weird thing to have being such a downer, depressed, anxiety ritten mess. Imma try to sleep now after typing all this on the plane the next final flight will be my shortest and the least time I have to wait until take off. Until next time.

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Journal Pt.4

Been reading my Battle Royale book again to kill time really need to bring a backpack for personal along with what I bring already being my luggage carryon would make it easier to grab my toothbrush and put charging cables or headphones or whatever that's easier. Oh right still don't know what gate I'll need to be at until 3 hours before my flight leaves. Once I get to Mexico City then I'll have to be quick go through immigration (will be interesting going into the domestic citizen line) and grab all 3 heavy luggage to my next final national flight to Monterrey. So will probably not make a single post related to my flight since I wanna sleep and need to be in a rush in my domestic flight). Waiting for the last 40 mins to know what gate my flight will be in. I hope you've been well C while I'm gone I know you'll be spending it with friends. Still doesn't change the fact to be safe and I love you.

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Journal Pt.3

I'll will start breaking these past and current stuff into two separate posts to make it more consistent in what I'm talking about. Current stuff will be called Journal pt.x and past stuff will just be called i don't know uh memories pt.x and they won't be consistent timeline wise I rather it be more random moments of me and C. Also I might reconsider what these post are since they appear more like a diary rather than actual progress stuff (obviously will still record my stuff I feel like I'm getting done and improving to feel like a actual person) still keeping the name I like it.

C was with me on the Uber ride to the airport had to wake up at 6am to get to the airport and get on my original flight that was leaving at 10:55 to the US Cali then to Houston and then my final destination in a Mexican city close enough I guess to my city (still 9 hour drive) but with how badly that situation got with me even boarding my flight I felt bad about how the whole thing went down and C having to stay a lot longer to be with me before I depart. First flight went faster when I had C when going to Australia. I miss you...

4 or 5 hours into my first flight:

This will be my second time flying on a plane, C has done it many times to come see me so they are an expert. I'm still clumsy about it. Kinda dumb the US is one of those countries that requires a visa of some sort to just pass by it and won't actually get off there. Which basically nullified and I can say goodbye to the money I dropped on that flight won't be getting it back. Remember I was under DACA meaning I'm pardon by the US because I came illegally to the US as a child. Guess next time I go to C it will be a bit pricier because I'll need a round about way of getting there. Oh well I'm somehow got on my flight last minute the whole security check part still has me confused forgot to put a clear bottle on the X-ray tray thing. I was more worried about not loosing my Polaroid photos of C. I'm clumsy and would have most likely embarrassed them when we were at security if they could go that far with me. Next time I'll have it down better especially since I'll have have to deal with changing to two other flights. Not that I actually have to collect my luggage (please let all 3 other check luggage make it with me I heard some delay on the people at the gate talk about luggage being stuck).

What's the deal with the terrible music selection on flights (guess music is subjective) still only saw David Bowie and Prince as the only decent music. Movies were good watched Bohemian Rhapsody, re watched the remake of Mean Girls (Regina George actress makes that movie the only good thing about it). Oh and my overhead space was full so I had to go further down the isle to find a spot now I forgot where it was besides the general description of people so awkward when getting my stuff back, and the inside is dark as hell so it's even harder to see people. I have to look around to see my bright green carryon in different overhead compartments. Really wanted to read a book but guess my half a day stay in Chile will be used doing that and browsing online and posting this entry.

8 or 9 hours into my first flight:

I haven't gotten a wink of sleep I really should have I tried finding my luggage but felt weird since it's not on my overhead. I'll be feeling really bad at Chile waiting 12 hours for my next flight to Federal District in Mexico. Once I get off I hope C is still up but I doubt it would be midnight and they would already be asleep especially since they are with friends. Also going to be really hungry been trying to eat as much as I can to survive the 12 hours layover.

Last two hours of my first flight:

I accidentally left my oodie back home (Where me and C were living), they asked it's just a oodie. Well yea might just be a oodie but it's the one they gave me first my birthday and has given me warmth while my time in Australia and retains the love, smell and car hairs of our fuzzy buddy. Something that will give me some comfort for the first few days in Mexico without C. Going to look for my carry on and where I put it. Nope still awkward and everyone is covered in blankets so can't see the family I asked whose leather jacket I am grabbing and putting on top of my carry on. Got my last meal it was only two dinner and breakfast had to get hot heavier stuff so arroz con pollo y vegetales (rice with chicken and vegetables) for dinner and Australian omelette for breakfast with some potatoes wedges. Also weird that we didn't have to do any paperwork on the flight maybe it's only for first world country flights. Like how when me and C went to Australia there was a slip we had to fill at some point and give it to the exit gate people.