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Late to the party, as usual, but here's MY NO AI starter pack!

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Messy hair, messy studio

[kylekozmikdeluxo]

'Bout four days into Pride. No new stuff at the moment, no diaries, or new outfits, etc. I'm determined to help do my part and make all the queerphobes out there big angy. I hope to do at least one cool thing for myself, too.

Anyways, I'm a nonbinary queer autistic artist/writer/designer/maker of all kinds of things whenever my brain wants to be nice and let me exercise my arty muscle lol. I make a webcomic, currently halfway through its first chapter...

... it's also very queer and neurodivergent and all sorts of things. I hope to be done w/ the first chapter by the end of the summer. My other art can be seen on Cara (same handle as here), and I do YouTube stuff and ao3 written works too. Other, much larger projects are always in the works, and I aim to release them in some way or another. Lifestuffs have to be sorted out, too, ya know?

But yeah, queer artist/maker/creator over here. Hope your month goes great!

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Idk lol

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Lol, that was IT?

He can't even do the dictatorship part right. Aren't those supposed to be scary?

It's becoming obvious to me, that a lot of Trump's scariness is not so as much him and his cronies (though, someone like Stephen Miller is repulsive in every way imaginable), BUT his acolytes doing the work for him. When you see the bigotry on FULL display from your fellow Americans, even your own family and long-time friends. What they're OKAY with and what they CONDONE... It can feel bleak and miserable, it can feel as if these assholes will win and make America worse and worse.

But really, the way I see it, he's ineffective, he backs down to courts telling him no, he only seems interested in winning more so than actually running a country, is super-incompetent, there's so much protest against him that far outnumbers that parade. Sen. Padilla being assaulted on camera for everyone to see tells me that these thin-skinned wimps can't take any pushback or criticism, and really don't know how to silence their enemies like actual fascists do. The politically-motivated assassinations of Melissa Hortman and her husband also shows me this in a way; they can't work with people and solve problems, they have no good ideas, they would prefer to harm and blast their way out of their grievances.

And for a lot of Americans, that's the utter rot the whole Fox News/Newsmax/OAN/Rush/AM Radio misinformation ecosystem does. That these people somehow see any Democrat as this horrifying enemy that needs to be slain, while the lot of us just want to lock the actual fascists away... Again, these people do Trump's work for him. I feel they stoke the fear in us more so than he and his loud mouth do. He and his administration are the school faculty actively encouraging the bullies run wild and fully ruin the school and make it so hard for everyone there, as opposed to an indifferent faculty that does a fairly shit job at curbing bullying. (Our two options, it seems.) That's why I particularly hate this administration. What they do is probably not much worse than what Bush and Reagan got away with, but how they message to Americans that they can indeed get away with being their worst selves, amplifying their worst flaws, doubling-down on their prejudices...

They do terrible things AND make Americans more hateful, belligerent, and anti-self reflective... They're also pathetic, scared, they don't know how to do their jobs, they unravel in real time, they show no decorum or professionalism. A true dictatorship wouldn't be flubbing THIS much, they'd get away w/ several atrocities by now without us even knowing. These fuckers think they're of an authoritarian regime, but they SUCK at pulling it off and we're pretty much on to their every move. That's our greatest gift, no matter how scary it seems that a lot of Americans are against you.

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Out of context images from my webcomic, TERRA'S COSMIC START-OVER:

It's about an autistic queer woman who left a decaying Earth and tries to make a new start on another planet, while trying to rekindle her sense of self. Currently on Chapter 1. Read it all here.

[kylekozmikdeluxo]

This hits hard, very very hard. Like my heart is heavy.

Thank you for... Those days, where I heard the songs for the very first time in the background somewhere, and quite digging them. Introducing me to pop and rock music sounds I was unfamiliar with 'til then, birthing a fascination for them. I distinctly remember, some time around 1998/99, really liking the "Get her outta my heart" song, among the others, like 'Surfin' USA', 'Little Deuce Coupe', and 'Fun, Fun, Fun'.

Thank you for... Those jolts I got from *really* listening to their music for the first time at age 11 1/2, through the SOUNDS OF SUMMER compilation in the summer of 2004, which was a time of change in my life to begin with. I carried it aaaall the way to the fall, I fell in love with the songs. The inspiration that subsequently came from it...

Thank you for... The rush I got from discovering their entire catalogue later on, I immersed and entrenched myself into those songs, those albums, those unreleased goodies, the whole scope of it all... I saw him live, TWICE. The second time, when they were halfway through their live rendition of the entire PET SOUNDS album, I feel that I briefly entered another plane of existence...

That's just how much Brian Wilson and The Beach Boys' music meant to me...

Thank you for all of it...

RIP Brian Wilson

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yeah hi, when i was a preteen and teenager, I struggled in middle/high school. it was often a barrage of absurdly bad luck, people playing mind games with me, ridiculous scenarios where I just wouldn't win for standing up for myself, I didn't know how to actually stand up for myself in a way that would make it worth it. it was the 2000s and it wasn't typical bullying you'd see on a sitcom no it was more people insulting you or getting angry at you when you were just merely existing, people were often annoyed with you, and you were somehow in the wrong for that. despite the good and the people who did enjoy being with me, this shit spawned the kind of ptsd that just stiiiicks with you (doesn't help when you sometimes get treated like that later in life, treated like satan for no really good reason even, by grown ADULTS), makes you second-guess everything and it's probably why my exec-dysfunction is bad too, why I retreat to safe little hobbies to a point where I don't get much else done. it's probably why i amounted to little as a lonely 32 1/2yr old with little to no future in a fascist country that hates neurodivergent and queer people (and damn near everyone else). a present where everything is boring, bland, corporate, ai, fascist crap. i really did miss out on so much of the 2000s and what that decade had to offer in pop culture and vibes because of how shit everything else was, i have a very up-and-down teenhood where I don't reach my full potential, i come of age and do this life thing better (finally) at the end of my 20s, and now everything's shit and it's hard to make friends irl and it's hard to flourish online even when you're just a tiny ant entering a whole land full of life forms. and i brought a lot of it on myself too. why did 2004, 2005 and 2006 in particular have to pelt me w/ so much shit that fucked my brain chemistry up? why didn't i have guides like who I am now to really help me channel my best aspects and regulate my feelings? oh how much could've gone differently if i could do it all again knowing all of this...

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can she interest you in a plate of dino nuggies?

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Idk lol

[kylekozmikdeluxo]

'Bout four days into Pride. No new stuff at the moment, no diaries, or new outfits, etc. I'm determined to help do my part and make all the queerphobes out there big angy. I hope to do at least one cool thing for myself, too.

Anyways, I'm a nonbinary queer autistic artist/writer/designer/maker of all kinds of things whenever my brain wants to be nice and let me exercise my arty muscle lol. I make a webcomic, currently halfway through its first chapter...

... it's also very queer and neurodivergent and all sorts of things. I hope to be done w/ the first chapter by the end of the summer. My other art can be seen on Cara (same handle as here), and I do YouTube stuff and ao3 written works too. Other, much larger projects are always in the works, and I aim to release them in some way or another. Lifestuffs have to be sorted out, too, ya know?

But yeah, queer artist/maker/creator over here. Hope your month goes great!

[kylekozmikdeluxo]

Messy hair, messy studio

[kylekozmikdeluxo]

Late to the party, as usual, but here's MY NO AI starter pack!

[kylekozmikdeluxo]

Tales of the silly halfway there enby

[kylekozmikdeluxo]

Late to the party, as usual, but here's MY NO AI starter pack!

[kylekozmikdeluxo]

The me of 2005 would be super jealous of me right now: Living on my own, driving, making some money, making webcomics and getting a book lined up, openly being queer and talking about my kinks w/ other hotties online.

The me of now is jealous of the 2005-me, because they're still a kid, unscathed by politics and world happenings, they have IRL pals, isn't worrying about how their sexuality - which they aren't really aware of/open about - could get them into a life-threatening situation at the hands of a fascist government, isn't dealing with a plethora of mental illnesses, isn't dealing w/ social media addictions, had something of a routine-

Funny how that works.

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Become non-binary, go from tomfoolery to they-hem.

Tomfoolery actually transitioned and only does she-nanigans now