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i met god and he was bisexual and desperately wanted to fuck his creation

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I think destiel has trended at least once every single day of pride month so far lol let’s keep it up

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Every idea I have is nostalgia. Look up: there is the sky that passenger pigeons darkened and filled— darkened for days, eclipsing sun, eclipsing all other sound with the thunder of their wings.

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Dean pulls Cas toward humanity, emotion, and personal freedom

Cas pulls Dean toward belief, self-worth, and that feeling of cosmic significance

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@valdelion destiel freak4freak 😌

Big fan of romances that revolve around two very strange individuals weirdo maxxing together

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DEAN Yeah. Yeah, you know. He was just one of those guys. Took some terrible beatings, just kept coming. So you're always thinking to yourself, he's indestructible. He'll always be around, nothing can kill my dad. Then just like that (snaps) he's gone. I can't talk about this to Sammy. You know, I gotta keep my game face on. (clears throat) But, uh, the truth is I'm not handling it very well.

And this right here is the crux of every single time Sam tries to pressure Dean to be vulnerable and talk about his struggles / trauma / feelings before he's ready to do so, or when he simply just does not want to talk about those things with Sam.

In this scene Dean easily opens up to Gordon, a near stranger, and is vulnerable with him, divulges personal feelings about his childhood, experiencing things his peers couldn't understand, his feelings about John and his complicated grief about John's death. Dean is self-aware of his own feelings. He's not repressing his grief or the fact that he's not coping well. He openly admits all of this to Gordon. He just can't bring himself to talk about it to Sam. Because Dean feels he needs to be a pillar of support for Sam. He needs to keep his game face on, be the strong older brother.

A lot of fanon tends to reduce Dean to the one who never wants to open up or talk about feelings. The one who is RepressedTM and can't cope or isn't even aware of the root of his feelings. This is partially how Sam views Dean, though, but Sam's POV isn't the objective truth. We see Dean contradict Sam's POV (and Sam isn't here in this scene with Gordon to know that Dean is opening up, that Dean is talking about these things with other people). But reducing Dean to the biased and limited POVs of other characters while disregarding what we literally see Dean do on-screen is just bad media literacy. This is only one example, because this is the episode I am currently rewatching, but we see Dean open up to others and acknowledge his own feelings of worry, fear, grief etc all throughout the show. The fanon misconception that Dean is allergic to all feelings and can't have honest vulnerable conversations with others is truly just that, misconception.

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deancas learn how to selfie 

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if i must bleed, then let it be by your hand  if i must die, let me feel your skin caress  mine once more, fingers against wrist, palm to cheek  promise, to be sweet. my blood is yours.

➥ for Jenna @bloodydeanwinchester // bloodnatural // carver era destiel // purple💜  

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I still can't believe Dean took the angel blade right from the inside of Cas's sleeves. What the fuck. And then he proceeded to not stab him with it even under the strongest and most ancient magic of all time. Wut. Wtf.

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Thinking about the werewolf from the hate mail Lemgo council pharmacist David Welman (1595 - 1669) got after being accused of being a werewolf

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just came here to say that i think the quote “he’s in love, with humanity” (by metatron about castiel) is the perfect encapsulation of castiel’s internal calculus and why I believe he doesn’t want to be a human. I know a lot of people say it’s just “he’s in love with dean” (as a joke or seriously) but I truly don’t think it was just about Dean. Castiel always cared for humanity, back when he saw it as his Father’s creation, and later when he fell and saw the value in it through Dean’s eyes and then his own.

but the thing is, when you fall in love, you love all of it—the beauty, the pain, and most importantly I think, the differences. Loving doesn’t mean that you want to be a part of something, that you want to emulate it, or become it. Loving means you want to step into place beside it, and to fit it into the space beside you. Castiel loves humanity, he does, as a protector does. As a companion, in the way that only someone inhuman can.

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can you expand on what you mean about 12x22 and berens? i’ve never really looked at the writer patterns before but i’m intrigued

so jensen did a solo panel at JIB 8 in 2017 and an earlier question prompted him to recount his experience having difficulty connecting with the mary & dean relationship in s12 and the character motivation behind it. (and i think he's correct in saying that fans picked up on him not gelling with it which actually works in some episodes but feels off in others.)

anyway! berens was on-set when they were filming 12x22 "who we are" and jensen told him "oh god i get it now!" with the "i hate you, i forgive you" speech (that dean's character arc was him needing to forgive mary) and berens had no idea what he was talking about.

hopefully this embedded correctly to start at the right time code, but if not, he starts talking about it at 19:45

which yes, there's the possibility that berens was just yanking jensen's chain* about not realizing the "i hate you, i forgive you" was the thesis of mary & dean's relationship arc in s12. but also i really am inclined to believe he didn't realize he'd tied up the whole arc bc berens has been such a chronic dean misunderstander over the years. like folks will talk about dean as the "angry man" in late seasons and... that's mostly berens, baby!**

and i know you didn't ask but this is why the confession falls so flat for me. it rings hollow bc this is the writer who has done more than anyone else in the last few seasons to make dean an un-likeable prick. i do like the confession as a radical act of self-love (that "having" doesn't matter and "being" is more important) but as cas confessing his love to dean? yeah, i just can't buy it given the other stuff berens wrote over the years and the narrative framing is just off. much like the finale, it's tragedy wearing an ill-fitting ballgown and looking in a fun house mirror.

so, in summary (x)

* this is a bit unkind, but jensen is such a consummate pro that i would not be surprised if the "maybe he was yanking my chain" was a way to save face for berens since jensen has disagreed with him on his episodes before.

** i did not jive with 14x20 "moriah" until i re-watched it without the baggage of 14x18 before it (14x19 isn't great but does set up the "logic" of dean's actions in 14x20; never 5get that cas wanted to put jack in the cage... how is that different from a ma'lak box?). i think berens was just not a good fit for spn and especially not the direction they were going in during dabb era. i'm not a big fan of him in carver era either but he fit the vibes and direction way better.

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he wouldn't be proud of me 😵🥴

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