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𝐌𝐘 𝐓𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐒, 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐓

୨⍣୧｡ 𝐒𝐲𝐧𝐨𝐩𝐬𝐢𝐬 : 𝐀 𝐬𝐞𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐥 𝐭𝐨 ‘𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝𝐬, 𝐦𝐲 𝐡𝐮𝐫𝐭.’ 𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝟐

୨⍣୧｡ 𝐅𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠 : 𝐍𝐚𝐠𝐢 𝐒𝐞𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐫𝐨, 𝐀𝐢𝐤𝐮 𝐎𝐥𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐈𝐭𝐨𝐬𝐡𝐢 𝐒𝐚𝐞

୨⍣୧｡ 𝐖𝐜 : 𝟔.𝟗𝐤

୨⍣୧｡ 𝐒𝐭𝐚𝐭𝐮𝐬 : 𝐔𝐧𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐭𝐞𝐝; 𝐢𝐟 𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦 𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐫.

୨⍣୧｡ 𝐂𝐮𝐫𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐥𝐲 : 𝐍𝐨 𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐬

୨⍣୧｡ (𝐀/𝐍) : 𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝟐 𝐢𝐬 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐢𝐭𝐬 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠. 𝐑𝐞𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐬, 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐬, 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐰𝐞𝐥𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐝!

୨⍣୧｡ 𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬/𝐓𝐚𝐠𝐬 : 𝐌𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐧𝐮𝐝𝐢𝐭𝐲 𝐢𝐧 𝐜𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐍𝐚𝐠𝐢 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐀𝐢𝐤𝐮, 𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐀𝐢𝐤𝐮, 𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐨𝐟 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐡 𝐛𝐚𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐨𝐧 𝐚 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐢𝐬 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐧 𝐒𝐚𝐞'𝐬 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭, 𝐬𝐩𝐨𝐢𝐥𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐧𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐥 : 𝐋𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞 𝐦𝐞𝐫𝐦𝐚𝐢𝐝.

୨⍣୧｡ 𝐃𝐨 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐜𝐨𝐩𝐲, 𝐫𝐞𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐭, 𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐭 𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐬𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐲 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤. 

୨⍣୧｡ 𝐃𝐨 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐚𝐥 𝐢𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐞𝐬, 𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐭𝐬 : @𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐛𝐨𝐲𝐬-𝐛𝐮𝐧𝐧𝐲.

𝐍𝐚𝐠𝐢 𝐒𝐞𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐫𝐨

'Miffy.’

'Hm?’ 'Sweet little bunny.’ 'Miffy.’

’ ‘S that?' 

'Miffy, miffy, miffy, run!’ you exclaimed, pouncing on Nagi, fingers set to work as you tickled his sides, making him squirm. That was probably the most beautiful laugh you had ever heard, his voice echoing through the walls of your shared bedroom after his nap. 

A memory that seemed so long ago. 

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[lazyalani]

| Itoshi Sae × [GN!Reader]

| those ocean eyes

| angst, sae's point of view, short, hurt/no comfort, no happy ending

| Summary: Sae sits down and tries to remember why, how, and where the so called ending began.

| Main Masterlist

| Blue Lock Masterlist

burning cities and napalm skies

It happened in the heat of the moment really. It wasn't supposed to go that far. Despite what other people may think, you and Sae don't really argue hard because you know when to stop.

But where did it go wrong?

Maybe it was your fault, maybe it was his fault. Or maybe it was both of your faults, but it doesn't matter. What matters is that he's currently drowning in his own sorrows because he couldn't control his emotions again. Just like that one snowy night with Rin— He sucks in a breath. No. He wasn't going to go back that far.

His mind is in shambles. Would he go as far as to chase you even if half a week has already passed? He probably would, he thinks. If only he had the courage to do exactly that.

But he doesn't.

So let him drown himself into self-blame and doubt.

fifteen flares inside those ocean eyes

He couldn't. He knows he can't face you. He doesn't have the courage to face you when he every second in his mind he only sees your tear drowned face. Your helpless eyes begging him to take back the things he said, begging him to fix it, to tell you you both will be fine.

But he's Itoshi Sae.

And Itoshi Sae is a stubborn, calm yet egoistic, prideful man who when he snaps, it's all over.

He didn't know where or how it started. All he knew was that this one certain comment of yours triggered his pent up stress over dumb fucks in practice and annoying managers and exhaustion and he just— snapped. He couldn't stop himself nor could he even realize what he was saying.

He never even thought of his words. His mind was blank, he could barely remember anythi—

"—and these worthless plans and trinkets you give and talk to me. What thing of value do you even do at this point?"

no fair

Your head shooked as your hands trembled, your lips were shaking. Your eyes filled with tears and practically begging him to stop talking but he couldn't think.

"These demands you make to me, what makes you think they even matter to me? What makes you think I even care?"

Sae clenches his teeth and clutches his head. It hurts, his head hurts.... and somewhere in his chest.

He refuses to acknowledge the memory. Make it stop. Stop playing that hing in his head. Stop making him see things. Stop making it seem like you left him—

And then it clicks.

It was like every cog in his head has stopped and finished process.

That night. That arguement. The last time he saw you. The ring— where was the ring?

He lifted his head in a hurry and looked around the empty room. It had somehow seemed emptier.

He sees the familiar ring on a table. It was the ring he gave to you as a promise. A promise of forever.

But why was it here again?

"—you care about these useless things instead of doing things that actually make sense. How about you start doing useful things for a change? So you won't be ashamed of showing that ring just to add that you do nothing but cling to me with those useless plans."

You froze as he mentioned your ring. You instantly touched the ring hanging on the chain around your neck.

"S-sae, not the ring, p-please—"

"I'm surprised you still even have the courage to wear that thing."

You shooked your head desperately.

This was the only thing hanging your relationship on the single, thin thread right now.

"Are you even worth giving that ring?"

you really know how to make me cry

His knees almost stumbled and he clutched the ring and his head in pain.

He sits on the bed for support as your helpless face strikes through his heart again.

when you gimme those ocean eyes

He remembers it all.

His cold, thoughtless words.

His mindless, heartless eyes.

The dead, scaryly calm look on his face and words.

And the frightened, hurt look on yours.

i'm scared

He sighs and chuckles lifelessly.

He only ever knows to destroy the most precious things in his life, huh?

But among all his treasures, you were the one who had made him shatter with you.

Itoshi Sae always got everything he wanted. He had always maintained and sustained everything he's got because of his natural talent and potential. His brains and looks.

Itoshi Sae has never lost anything. He has never fallen from his glory.

But hah, how could he have the courage to even say that now?

i've never fallen from quite this high

[lazyalani]

reo's skincare

[lazyalani]

| Diluc Ragnvindr × [GN!Reader]

| With Me

| hurt/comfort, angst to fluff, open ending, hopeful ending, short, reader was taken in by diluc, they were both hurt :')

| Summary: When the death of his father tears both of them apart, he leaves to escape the pain, leaving her to grieve alone. So what becomes of them when he comes back?

| Genshin Impact Masterlist

| Main Masterlist

you're the ground my feet won't leave

You sat on the roof of your home, knees up to your chest and hands supporting your face, leaning on your knees.

Mondstadt really is beautiful, and at nights like this, you find yourself being more entranced by the city. The wind is slightly cold on your skin, running through your hair. It was refreshing.

The quietness, the peacefulness, the wind, the sky, the night. It allowed you to clear your head. To breath, and then think calmly.

Five months.

It has been five months since your red haired childhood sweetheart had returned.

You had been on a mission with Kaeya when you heard the news of his return. The captain had offered to take more duties with you or rest, whichever you needed. You appreciated his concern, really. But the thing is,

You didn't even know what to feel.

You didn't even know what you expected yourself to be feel. Sometimes, you did think about what could possibly be your reaction when he comes back. Would you be sad? Angry? Relieved? Would you lash out and accuse him? Would you hug him and cry? You told yourself you'd just know when it comes.

But even now, you don't.

When you heard he'd returned, you hadn't felt anything but surprise.

So you politely declined your captain's offers and continued the mission despite his subtle concern.

And now, here you are.

You just came back from the mission and quickly came to your roof for a sense of peace, hoping you'd find an emotion to feel of his return.

You had tried to ignore it, really. The cavalry captain advised if you didn't know what to feel then you could just stoo wondering and continue what you've been doing for the past years. You really tried. But it just didn't sit right with you. Your mind wouldn't let you be.

But who knew you'd find the answer when you look at him face to face?

There was a thud on your roof, lightly shaking it, indicating someone had arrived.

so if you're lonely,

You didn't need to look back to know who it was. You could recognize his presence anywhere.

"Master Diluc, what are you doing here in this time of the night?" You spoke after a few seconds of silence, still looking infront.

You felt footsteps until he sat on your side, mimicing your position. Just like when you were kids.

You stoned your heart even more, keeping the kind smile on your face. You could not let your emotions get in the way of your life again.

Not that you even know what you're feeling anyway.

"We need to talk, don't we?" He sighs and stares infront too.

You tried not to flinch. He does everything just like how he used too.

You hummed, still keeping that smile. "Alright."

That silence was back again.

".... I'm sorry."

This time, you were the one who stayed silent, still staring at the stars, your feet unconciously dangling themselves on the roof and swinging back and forth in anxiousness.

You were afraid of this conversation.

Not because you aren't over it yet, but because you didn't know what to say to him. Should you just smile and tell him it's fine? Should you let those pent up feelings burst all at once? Yell? Blame? Walk away? But you knew doing any of those would do nothing but create new issues.

So you sighed and let everything flow calmly. "I was hurt." You didn't think you needed to say it because you knew he knew, but you wanted to rub it a little more. "I was hurt and confused. I was hurt because you left without notice, without a warning, without saying anything, without a trace. I was confused because you left me without saying even just something. Not an explanation, not even a goodbye. I was hurt because did you think I wasn't trustworthy enough to talk you? Wasn't I enough to be a shoulder to cry on? Did you think I'd just burden you even more?" The pain was there, but there was no malice. Because you knew you couldn't blame him even if you wanted to. No, he was more precious to you than that.

darling, you're glowing

He shifted closer again. Just a little bit closer, he thought. "That's not it, [Name]."

"Then what is it, Diluc?"

"I know, this sounds the typical excuse, but it's the only way to explain it, and it's the only reason I have. It wasn't about you not being enough, it's not about you not being trustworthy, not you being a good friend, because you were every opposite of those. You were— still are, more to me than that." He closed his eyes, he was starting to get emotional again. But he can't let himself be weak anymore. He still needed to give you an explanation. He still needed to get you— whatever you had before, back.

You stayed quiet and let all his words process into your head, letting your mind sink in all the answers you oh so wanted and needed for years.

"It was about me. It was about what I felt about everything but you. Everything was just too much for me, [Name]. We were just kids and I, I couldn't believe, I never even imagined something like that would happen. That we would ever end up in that kind of situation. No one was ready. And everything exploded all at once, I couldn't handle it, and I couldn't do anything but blame it on him. I couldn't do anything but run away and try to make myself feel better, all by myself because I didn't want to feel the same betrayal again." The memory relived in his mind again, but he pushed it away. Because he still needed to tell you everything. Because he couldn't let everything fade away because of his cowardice and emotions.

"You were all I had, Diluc. You were literally everything to me. I didn't know if I should blame myself for being too dependent on you or blame you for leaving. But you took me in when I was nothing but a pest in this world and my heart had no choice but to cling to you to have a reason to live. And when you left I— I just— I d-don't know—" Your voice cracked again and again and before you knew it, you were shaking and crying.

And then before you knew it, you were in his arms, feeling the same comfort, the same security, the same lips on your forehead, and the same feelings.

if you're lonely,

Oh god, you were weak against him. Almost pathetic, really.

"It was my fault. It was my fault. You— never blame yourself for my own fault. I was just hurting so much that I forgot that you needed me. And when I realized it was a jerk move to leave you alone for long I was scared you might've already hated me. I needed to steel my heart in case you had already decided to blame and hate me. I was a coward. To scared to be hurt again so I chose to stay away."

You shook your head. "I understand. I understand you needed the time away, why else am I not screaming at you for leaving me right now?" You let out a small chuckle in between your sobs. "You needed time to breathe and me being your responsibility won't make it better. I needed to learn how not to rely on you all the time. Maybe— maybe this was our lesson."

He hummed.

You both bathed in calm and peaceful silence for a while, giving each other time to process and breathe, him still rubbing your back comfortingly— as if saying 'i'm here now'.

"I understand if you don't want to get associated with me again. I did hurt you still, no matter what my reason is. It's perfectly reasonable for you to not want me in your life anymore." You were about to say something when he had gestured for you to stop and kept on talking. "All I ask for you is to listen to me this one last time." You nodded.

"Please, if you can't stand me anymore, atleast let me love you, even from just these stupid glances and watching you smile."

Ah, you felt your eyes water again.

"I can't ask of you to bring back what we once had. But all I ask from you is to let me make it up to you and show you that you do mean something to me. I know this is out of character for me, but I don't want to make mistakes again."

You wanted to roll your eyes at the world. Archons, why are you so weak when it comes to this man?

You took his hand and let out a watery smile. "It's been years, Diluc. I can't say I love you as much as I did before, nor as much as you do to me, but I know I still some spark left."

He finally let out a smile. And it almost made you melt.

"So show me, Master Diluc."

come be lonely with me

a/n: oh my god it's been so long since I posted. I'm a bit rusty so please forgive me :')

[lazyalani]

‧₊˚✧RIDE TO STRANGERS✧˚₊‧

William J. Moriarty X F!Reader

Summary; William & you are riding a train after spending a vacation with each other in a faraway place. The two of you have decided to part from each other after a relationship of six years. The following entails the conversation (name) & William had before going your seperate ways:

The skies above are scowling, rumbling and gray, thunder ready to strike as the rain hails down below against the roof of the train violently. The dimly orange lit cabins inside the train tremble faintly while the train moves gingerly over it's tracks at a slow, languid pace.

You look down at your palms which are set atop your lap while William has his head ever-so-slightly tilted to the side, gazing over your facial features with a sad, thoughtful expression; eyebrows furrowed & expression pinched.

“Must we truly go through with this?” William speaks first, gazing at you sadly yet with eyes that still hold adoration and love for you.

“Yes.” You reply curtly, blinking rapidly in hopes to push the tears back in which now happen to be stinging your (eye colour) eyes.

“(Name), I don't understand. Was it something I did or said? Is it me, darling? I promise, I'll change, so if you just—” William attempts to speak, voice breaking at the end; soft and tender before he cuts himself off.

You look up at his sudden interruption of himself and find William's lips pressed into a thin line, eyelids shut tightly.

Your gaze falls to his neck from where you see his adam's apple work up and down his throat - presumably to swallow the lump that had grown in it.

When he speaks again, his voice is quieter, barely comprehensible & not very audible. “Please.” He whispers rather quietly.

You don't notice the wetness against your cheeks until William reaches over to brush his thumb lightly against your cheekbones. You slap his hand away & he looks at you with an expression of hurt.

“Please, heart of mine. We can work this out we can. I promise. Please reconsider, darling. Everything was fine at the hotel, wasn't it? Even at the beach, too. (Name), plea-”

It's not him who cuts himself off this time. It's you, looking at him with a bitter expression.

“Everything was fine, William.” You scoff, shaking your head at his words. “Until that noble assassination happened. It was you, wasn't it? You can't even spend time with me, even while we're supposed to be at vacation. Your mind always travels back to that- that horrendous mission of yours! There's no place for me in your heart & mind, that is evident.”

William's eyes turns away from you shamefully, looking around the cabin.

“I'm sorry..” He whispers quietly. “This won't happen again, so please-”

“It's a done decision, William. I'm breaking up with you.”

“Please, (Name).” William's jaw tightens, gaze downcast. You shake your head at him.

“I know of your suicide plans. I overheard your conversation with your brothers. Did it never cross your mind, William, that when we first entered a relationship, it would hurt me deeply when you were going to kill yourself at the end of your mission? Did you never think how absolutely selfish that would be? Leaving me all alone? I've promised my life to you, you haven't.”

You're practically yelling at him now, voice growing louder in volume. Tears flood you, dripping down your cheeks little by little.

William flinches sharply at your words, biting the inner side of his cheek. "Love.."

“..Why haven't you? Why haven't you promised yourself to me? Was I not enough?” You sob out, the sleeve of your dress working furiously to wipe away at your tears. You didn't want to seem vulnerable. Not now. Not infront of him.

“No! I mean—” He leans forwards, horrified at the aspect of you implying you weren't enough for him. He inhales sharply.

“What I mean is..” His voice becomes softer, quieter, filled with warmth & devotion. “I.. I understand if my hesitation made you doubt yourself, but please believe me when I say that it was never about you not being enough, my love. You are more than enough. You are perfect. Perfect for me, as I am for you.”

You look at him, unbelieving of his words when the train comes to a halt. The train had finally reached it's destination. You'd already made up your mind, after all.

You gather your belongings, letting it drape loosely over your arm and standing up from your seat, looking down at him - only a table to seperate the both of you.

“Goodbye, William.” You tell him, turning your heel.

William's eyes widen, jumping to his feet he follows after you - cabin after cabin; his desperation & panic reaching an all-time high. He shoves people out of his way, trying to reach you, ignoring their hurls of insults at him. Finally, the two of you are out in the open space of the train-station.

“(Name)! Please don't do this to me. Don't do this to yourself. You can't leave me.” He grabs you by the wrist, borderline pleading.

You hurl around, turning to look down at your wrist that he now has in his grip between the two of you. In a flash of anger, you slap him across his face — hard and painfully.

William staggers a step backward in shock but still doesn't let go of your wrist. One hand of his reaches up to rub the area over his stinging cheek, jaw clenching. He exhales shakily before opening his mouth to speak.

“If there is anything left of me, I do not want to lose it. And I do not want to lose you.” He begs you desperately. Pleadingly, Needily.

“Let go, William.”

“I can't. I can't let you go. How can you ask me to let go of you when you're already too well tangled with my soul? Please don't leave.”

“I said let go.” Your stern, firm voice is a stark contrast from his soft one.

You withdraw your wrist from his tight grip harshly and look down at the redness, his fingermarks having left their imprints on your wrist.

“(Name)..” He murmurs softly. “I love you.”

Your bottom lip quivers and William takes notice of this - just like every other small detail he seems to notice about you.

He takes you into his arms, hand softly placed on the small of your back - your own hands curl into fists against his chest when you attempt to push him away.

“I love you.” He says again.

You've broken down into tears; a sobbing, whimpering mess into his arms when he kisses you softly and tenderly, first on your lips, then on your nose, your forehead, your chin - everywhere. Once you've finally calmed down enough, he detaches his face away from yours ever so slightly and pants for air softly.

“I..love you, too.” You murmur. You swear you see his eyes light up for the tiniest of moments before you speak again.

“But there is no future for us, you must understand that. Not if you're going to proceed with your suicidal mission.” You say.

William nods his head somberly, keeping quiet as he listens to you speak.

“You're always harming yourself.” You tell him.

“I am.”

“You're always putting yourself in danger.”

“I am.” He concedes.

“You've lost yourself.”

“I have.” He sucks in a breath, knowing the words that you've spoken to him are true.

“Therefore..” You begin by pushing him away by the chest. He steps back willingly, the same soft, sad frown plastered on his face.

“I will part with you until then.” You turn away, gripping your belongings close to your chest.

William's eyebrows raise in confusion, looking down at his polished Oxford shoes. “What?” He mumbles thoughtfully to himself. When he looks back up at your general direction to watch you walking away from him and the train station, he calls out more loudly to you.

“What- what do you mean? Until when, love?”

You stop waking, not turning to him when you part open your lips to speak to him:

“Find me, when you've finally found yourself.”

And just like that, William regards you & your words with utmost sadness and grief as he watches you dissapear among the crowd in the train station - a lonely tear falling down his cheek.

[lazyalani]

My personal fav part of shu streams

[lazyalani]

this gojo and geto parallel is the WORST thing to exist

they were both too late — even if one was able to save the other, the other sacrificed himself and let go, and the other lost a part of himself.

[lazyalani]

✧˖°. Kimetsu no Yaiba

i don't want to just live

— tanjiro, kanao, shinobu, gyomei, yoriichi

the world is cruel,

— ume, gyutaro, nezuko, zenitsu, kanae, shinobu, kanao, sanemi, obanai, gyomei, inosuke, tanjiro, akaza, ubuyashiki family, giyuu, kyojuro, muichiro, senjuro, tamayo, yoriichi, rui, spider mom, satoko, shinazugawa family, tokito family, kamado family, rengoku family, mugen train, michikatsu, drum demon

even so, i still love you

— tanjiro, gyutaro, sanemi, obanai, sabito, makomo, kyojuro, koyuki, yuichiro, urokodaki, yushiro, uta, tetsuido, kuwajima, genya, aoi, kazumi, saburo, kotoha, shinjuro

no matter what you sacrifice,

— nezuko, sanemi, shinobu, ubuyashiki family, tamayo, kyojuro, demon slayer corps, chachamaru

even so, i will still protect you

— tanjiro, yuichiro, gyutaro, kotoha, gyomei

[lazyalani]

| Genshin Men

| Them as Angsty Dialogues

| angst angst angst, hurt no comfortish

Ft. Zhongli, Childe, Aether, Kazuha, Scaramouche, Dottore, Xiao, Diluc, Kaeya, Ayato, Thoma

| It was bound to break anyway.

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just gonna stand there and watch me burn?

AETHER

- “You’re allowed to fall apart a little.”

— a letter from you to him : you don't need to always be strong for the people counting on you, you are not a machine, aether. you don't have to continue like everything's fine, it's alright to show that you're tired, that you just want your sister back.

but that's alright,

XIAO

- “I pushed you away because you deserve better.”

— a letter from him to you : i pushed you away because you didn't need to be with someone who is in constant fear of him hurting you. you didn't need to be with someone like me.

because i like the way it hurts

SCARAMOUCHE

- “You don’t have to love me.”

— a letter from you to him : it's okay, you don't need to love me back, you just need to sit there and see that someone here still loves you. that you aren't alone. you aren't abandoned, you won't be abandoned again. just be there and take my love.

just gonna stand there and hear me cry?

ZHONGLI

- “I don’t expect a happy ending. I just want an ending.”

— a letter from him to you : but perhaps, even if it all ends, as long as the both of us end happily, as long as i get to see you smile in your end, as long as the ending is not bloodshed, as long as there isn't any greif, even in this immortality, whether a gift or a curse, it will always be a happy ending for us, my love.

but that's alright,

CHILDE

- “I’d rather deny my feelings than have to explain them.”

— a letter from you to him : i'd rather keep this all in than have to face the consequences of loving someone on the other side of the battle, of loving you, as if i'm not already facing this longing in my heart.

because i love the way you lie

KAZUHA

- “Could you stay a little bit longer?”

— a letter from him to you : i know that what we have will not last long, i know that i will have to leave again, i know that despite these precious feelins i have for you, i will long for the sea again, but still, perhaps i could stay a bit longer. just a little bit more time.

i love the way you lie

DILUC

- “I was drowning right in front of you, and you were too busy to notice.”

— a letter from you to him : perhaps i was too naive, too inlove to realize that you already had so much to your plate, and that me being by your side instead of easing your burden, will just increase it. maybe i should have just settled for having no commitment with you, so that i don't have to worry about you managing your time between me and the things you have to do. i know you don't mean to work too much, and it makes it hurt more.

i love the way you lie

KAEYA

- “No one can break your heart if you keep it broken anyway.”

— a letter from him to you : maybe in another life, i could've let you in. maybe in another life, i could've let you fix me.

you ever love somebody so much,

DOTTORE

- “I tried.” “I know, and that was your mistake.”

— a letter from you to him : maybe trying was a mistake, maybe trying to see your old self was a mistake, maybe trying to fit myself in your current life was a mistake. but my zandik, you were everything to me.

you can barely breathe when you're with 'em?

AYATO

- “I’m here. I know that’s not enough, but it’s all I got.”

— a letter from him to you : despite the protests of the elders, i long for you, despite the threats of being with you, i bear these feelings for you, but despite these feelings i hold dear, my clan is still on the top of my heart.

you meet, and neither one of you,

THOMA

- “It hurts when I realize I’ll never mean that much to someone.”

— a letter from you to him : it hurts that i'll never get to the experience the treatment they get from you, i get that they are your masters, but it doesn't make it hurt less. it hurts to know that they will always be your priority. it hurts to realize that i knew that from the start and just accepted that fact just to be with you. it hurts that i'll never mean that much to you.

even know what him 'em

[lazyalani]

can there be an angst ver of the reader giving birth where like the reader dies while giving birth but the child survives and like one of the readers friends gives the hsr boys{dan heng,welt,jing yuan,sampo,gepard,luocha,blade}a letter the reader wrote incase she died while giving birth and the letter said like take care of our child or smt also sorry for this being so specific

Oh snap okay I’ll absolutely try this!

Alternate ending to this, but we’ve added Welt lolol

Cw! Pregnancy

-Honkai Star Rail men and reader who died during childbirth-

Dan Heng: is heartbroken, of course, to hear the news. But his child survived? A little piece of you lives on. I imagine he’d find a way to name the kid after you.

After receiving your last letter, he’s even more determined to raise this kid for you. He wants them to grow up to be like you: kind, compassionate, all of that, so he strives to act like you so his child will imitate. He still struggles with being a distant, and now a SINGLE father, but he makes do with what he has. He also has the Astral Express crew to help him in times of need, and March 7th is a great babysitter when he needs to go on a mission or something.

He misses you so much though. Sometimes he writes you letters, and he stores them in a little letterbox in the archives.

No one else is allowed to read them, but one day when his kid is old enough, he’ll let them look at them.

Welt Yang: Welt Yang immediately asks about his child when he hears the news of your passing. His child is alive, thankfully, the only good news he could’ve hoped for.

He tries to make the best of his situation, without you. Of course he misses you. More than he can say. But he knows he can’t dwell on you forever. Especially once he receives your letter, telling him not to be sad, but to take care of your child to the best of his ability.

And he really does. For himself, and for you. His child is raised in a loving environment, aboard the Astral Express, and Himeko is of great help in raising his child. She becomes a sort of mother figure for your child.

Welt likes to think you would be okay with that.

Jing Yuan: Jing Yuan, for once in his life, is at a loss for words, and he genuinely doesn’t know what to do with himself when he’s handed his baby but told you didn’t make it.

But the General is familiar with loss. It’s not a foreign concept to him. Doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt any less to lose you, but he knows for his own sake, and the sake of his child that he must move on.

Yanqing becomes an older brother figure to your child, and with his help Jing Yuan finds coping with your passing a little easier. When he’s not busy raising his child, he spends his time in the gardens, reflecting on his time with you, and how short lived your life together was, and how regrettable it is. But he also remembers all the happy times, those are truly important, he knows this, and chooses to focus on honoring the good memories he shared with you, and he looks forward to when his child is old enough to hear about you. He treasures your letter, and keeps it in a drawer of his nightstand, so he can remind himself of the mission you gave him as a father and not as the General.

Sampo Koski: Didn’t want this child in the first place. He’d much rather have you. But then your letter arrives and he does feel a twinge of guilt in his soul. Alright. Fine. If your dying wish was for him to raise this child, then he’ll TRY. He’s still not a great dad. He’s very busy with ‘work’, but he does make a bit more of an effort to speak to and understand his kid.

He’s surprised, but he actually likes his kid quite a bit. They’re like a little you. That’s so precious. Maybe being a father isn’t so bad?

He has a Lot of room for improvement when it comes to fatherhood. He really does. But he does his best too. The type of father who probably brings you up when his kid is a little too young for the news. It’s hard to blame him. He’s just excited to tell his kid about you.

Gepard Landau: takes the news pretty hard. He’s handed his child and all he can think about is you, and how you should be the first one to hold this baby but No you’re DEAD and you can’t hold your baby and-

He spirals a bit. He has a hard time raising the child on his own. At first. Until Serval comes to him with a letter from you, begging you to please do his best if anything should happen to you.

Well, it fills him with determination. Determination to make you proud. Determination to take care of his child.

Serval babysits while he’s at work, which is often, but even when he’s exhausted from work he always comes home and makes time for his kid.

He really is a good dad. Your letter was just what he needed to pull him to his senses. And he has his sister to help him when he needs that assistance, or a nudge in the right direction.

Luocha: (based on my own assumptions about this mysterious man that will Probably be disproved or something in later game updates lolol) Luocha takes the news…a little angrily actually. He can’t believe you’d go and die on him like that, especially for a child he doesn’t even really want. He receives your letter, resists tearing it to shreds in anger. He knows he’ll regret it if he did that. For him, death is not the end. He’ll find a way to bring you back. And he devotes himself even harder to studying immortality.

He doesn’t necessarily…neglect his child. But he’s not a great father without you around. He’s distracted. Focused on his research and work. He doesn’t really have time to raise his child, but he will, since you seemed to desire it so much.

Let’s just say he does his job, but he’s not a great dad without you around. He’d be much better if you were alive and well and by his side.

Blade: Blade is just as quiet and as impassive as ever when he receives the news. But anyone who knows him can tell he’s taking the news HARD.

He entrusts his child to Kafka and Silver Wolf, and just disappears for about a week, your letter in hand. If this is your last wish for him, then fine, he shall fulfill it, he just…needs a moment to grieve you properly. Hence the sudden disappearance.

He grieves hard. He actually cries over your death, in private, away from everyone. He misses you so much. He can’t believe you’d just…leave him alone in this world.

When he returns, it’s like nothing’s happened, except for the fact he has a child to take care of. He quietly thanks Kafka and Silver Wolf for taking care of them while he’s away, and then takes on the responsibility himself. He’s still distant and cold towards his child, but he’s trying his best, and he has Kafka to help him along.

[lazyalani]

How You Get Back Together with Him (Part 1)

Pairing: Honkai Star Rail Men feat. Dan Heng, Gepard Landau, and Jing Yuan x Reader (separately)

Genre: Comfort/Fluff

Warnings: LONG POST AHEAD. All GN except if you’ve read Jing Yuan’s part from the angst fic, the reader is implied to be afab.

A/N: Of course, I wouldn’t leave it just at angst! Each part is quite long so I decided to divide the comfort fic into two, with three characters in each part. Unlike the angst fic which was mostly descriptive, this one has a LOT of dialogue.

**This can be read as a stand-alone but I highly recommend that you read my angst fic - What They Do After Their Break Up with You before this for a better experience of hurt/comfort.**

Keep reading

[lazyalani]

danheng who firsts transforms into his dragon form & regains all his past memories & wants his old life back in luofa leaving the astral express + reader or uhh insecure reader who thinks blade & kafka look better together

ooh nice! I'm gonna go with the Dan Heng one, I don't know very much about his dragon form other than some of the stuff that's been in some pictures so most of the emphasis is on the whole Dan Heng leaving and staying on his home planet. Gender neutral reader, angst.

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"I'm staying, and you know you can't be here." Dan Heng states, seeming to be somewhat over the relationship. He doesn't hesitate when you ask him if he's gonna be coming back to the astral express, following him transforming.

"But what about-"

"My purpose was to find my place." Dan Heng continues. March 7th, the trailblazer and Welt Yang watch on as they waited for you to finish up before returning to the express.

"I can adjust to being here." You halfheartedly ask, only for Dan Heng to shake his head.

"We both knew this wouldn't work. I warned you about me, and you still humoured the idea of a romantic connection with me." Dan Heng explains, watching your face morph into a myriad of expressions, none of them happy.

"You could have rejected me instead of beating around the bush, you know?" You grumble, Dan Heng waiting for you to finish. "Welt Yang warned me to be careful - he told me you weren't ready. I feel so stupid for going against his advice and asking you to date me."

"I will cherish the memories we made." Dan Heng admits, hoping he doesn't see you cry because of his difficult decision to stay after realising he feels at home on this planet.

"Don't lie to me." You cough up, turning around and walking towards the team, tears streaming down your face. You manage to stop your cries from becoming vocal, right until the moment before you're teleported with the rest of the group.

[lazyalani]

HES GETTING EVERYONE GIFTS AWWW

He’s overthinking and everything 😭 liam wants matching brother cups I’m deceased!!!!!

PLEASE HES SO CUTE I LOVE HIM. THIS WHOLE CHAPTER WAS SO 😍😍😍😍

[lazyalani]

im lowkey embarrassed but also not at all

[lazyalani]

I can feel the dread of those drawings coming

IM GETTING THE HANG OF TUMBLR WOO

[lazyalani]

I open and close this app like it's a fridge

[lazyalani]

This is the price I pay for spam writing angsts :')

We're Fading

Pairing : Kaveh x gn!reader

Sypnosis : Your relationship suffered because of the long-distance.

TW : angst, implied break up

Your heart pounded with anticipation as you sat by your laptop, waiting for a message from Kaveh to appear on the screen. It had been days since you last spoke, and the once vibrant connection between you now felt like a fading echo.

The long-distance relationship had taken its toll, leaving you with a never ending sense of doubt and insecurity.

One evening, your friends gathered around you in the living room, trying to cheer you up. But their smiles masked the unease they felt about the situation.

It was then that one of your friends, Sara, hesitated for a moment before showing you her phone.

On the screen was a picture of Kaveh, laughing and having fun with a group of people, including a girl who seemed to be getting a bit too close for your comfort.

Your heart sank as you stared at the photo. Your mind raced with questions and doubts. Why hadn't Kaveh mentioned this outing to you? Was he hiding something from you?

The photo seemed to confirm your worst fears – that Kaveh was growing distant and maybe even interested in someone else.

Trying to fight back tears, you excused yourself and retreated to your room. You didn't know how to confront Kaveh about the photo without sounding accusatory, but you couldn't keep the turmoil inside any longer.

Late at night, when you couldn't suppress your emotions any further, you finally mustered the courage to call Kaveh. As the phone rang, your heart trembled with fear of what you might discover.

"Hey, Y/N," Kaveh's voice greeted you warmly, oblivious to the turmoil in your heart.

"Hey," You replied, trying to sound calm despite your trembling voice. "I saw a photo today... with you and some girl."

There was a brief pause on the other end of the line, and your heart sank even further.

"Oh, that," Kaveh finally spoke, his tone unsure. "She's just a friend. We were hanging out with a group, and someone took a picture."

You felt a mix of relief and lingering doubt. You didn't want to jump to conclusions, but the lack of communication between you had fueled your fears.

"Kaveh, I miss you," You admitted, tears streaming down your cheeks. "But it feels like we're drifting apart, and I don't know what to do."

Kaveh's voice softened, "I miss you too, Y/N. The distance has been tough on both of us, but it doesn't mean I don't love you. I promise I'll make an effort to communicate more, and we can work through this together."

But as the days turned into weeks, the communication between you and Kaveh didn't improve as you had hoped.

The insecurities and doubts weighed heavily on both of you, and your once passionate love began to fade.

You mustered the courage to bring up your concerns again, only to be met with silence from Kaveh. The message went unreplied, and the silence stretched on for days.

Your heart shattered, realizing that Kaveh had grown tired and had given up on the relationship.

Unable to bear the pain any longer, you made the difficult decision to let go.

You sent Kaveh one final message, pouring your heart out, but it was left unanswered like so many before.