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clowns in the ballpit 🎁

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"Ifva phy hrghgph hurr phuh?"

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fruit review #58: wax apple

These are another variety of syzygium similar to mountain apples, also called a water apple or rose apple. (i know rose apple as a whole other fruit. also, i’ve seen that basically any large syzygium is interchangeably called water apple, rose apple, mountain apple, or wax apple. whateverrr)

These are smaller than mountain apples, less sweet, and have no seed. extremely crisp skin (probably where the wax name comes from?) and cottony flesh. they are less flavorful than other syzygiums i’ve had but VERY floral. eating it has more of an effect on your nose than your taste buds. they are also less juicy than other syzygiums, and a little tart and astringent. the flavor itself is similar in ways to tart melon or lychee, but super watered down. I personally do not enjoy these as much as most other syzygiums but i still like them a lot! definitely a recommendation if you like watery crunchy mild tasting foods

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My life had massive improved ever since one of my very best friends gifted me a crochet doll of my favourite oc (speaking of, turns out I developed a special interest on him..which.. Idk why it surprised me, but I do know I wasn't previously aware could happen on own ocs) on my 20th birthday..

I find myself looking foward for bedtime because of this wonderful creation, I calm myself remembering I got a plushie waiting at home.. It's just the little comfort needed to get myself thru the day, especially with how rough studies are and will be.. It's nice to look foward. I even started tidying my bed just to see him tuckered in! It makes for a sweet routine.. This plushie means a lot to me

It feels just sometimes emberrassing to find an emotional relief from just laying next to a plush, but I do and, well..nothing really I can do about it.. especially since it doesn't harm anyone, and is very benefitial for me!

The plush's existence also encourages me to not stay up too late studying, since I often have my eyes wander over to the bed - just to see him sleep so peacefully..

Can't wait for sesija(exam month) to be over, So i could sew him even more new clothes and carry him around for comfort

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Look at my beautiful husband💞

A friend of mine helped out a bit with redesigning him, especially since I treated myself to a bit of a CC-downloading marathon couple of days ago.. doesn't he look absolutely amazing?

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This is one of those things that had been keeping me motivated.. For like more than a week I've been feeling constant, and I mean constant lack of sleep! No matter how long I sleep, how and what I do, I've been in constant state of exhaustion.. It's honestly maddening, on top of all the stress of education, multiple health(mental and physical) stresses and much more.. I know I'll be fine but this is kind of insane???

My grades are also kind of insane! And while try to be lowkey chill about it and there are plenty of times I don't think/care about them, dear god does it hurt seeing all the failed exams... It sometimes really gets to me.. and now I seek fulfillment in things such as sims 4 to give me some sense of accomplishment

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I REALLY don't like sims 4 as a game but I do admit having moments like these to fulfill some sort of need for physical affection towards an OC I hold so dear is...very nice! (Please excuse the sweaty face and hairy arms, I was so locked in on capturing this moment I really didn't notice.... Also if ur wondering who's urn it is - it's Sodal's, the same guy whom is in this picture...I ended up reviving him but thought keeping the urn would be funny)

I do much more prefer sims 2 in terms of that, but at least in sims 4 I managed to recreate him much more

I will admit another reason I do enjoy sims 4 at least a bit is the fact that things just happen SO randomly, like..spontanious calls, random pushups, weird dramas and.. honestly it's absurd and there's appeal in it?? But Sims 2 is most closest to my heart.. maybe I should post some screenshots here too asp

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Being obsessed with a character to an extend I do is odd! Back in summer of 2022, I created an OC for a roleplay - gave him the name "Sodal Grant".. (on the right in the picture above)

Around december of the same year, I swiftly developed an almost..romantic interest within him. An oc crush, if you will! And so until even this moment, I found myself ""married"" to him, as.. strange as it sounds

It's bit taboo of a topic for me, but at times I genuinely feel like my mind belongs to him.. like, I am his wife, you know? Even if I know it's not in a literal sense.. his existence and my fixation on him has brought me continuous comfort thru tough patches in my life.. I believe my attachment to him was also caused by a stressful moment in my life, too

It worries me sometimes, that due to said situation, I won't be able to find an actual partner.. or a partner whom would be comfortable with my oddity of self-shipping.. but, that's with a lot of personal themes I'm not sure on sharing about

I renamed him to Saulat Grant, as to fit more with his half-pakistani and half-british heritage... Since I realized Sodal was more used as a surname, than anything.. Been thinking of making a post or two about him - he means a lot to me.. Comfort oc, lover oc.. not sure what to call him at this point, but it's weird how my brain did that

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Clowns, jesters if you will. If you won’t….uh idk…

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Clowns and jesters, perhaps…

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Every damn time that clown says “do you require the services of the fool of hearts ?”

WHY DID HE SAY IT LIKE THAAAAT???

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Ayo!! Started up this blog in midst of some stressful times and remembered about it during OTHER stressful times.. So, I might as well post something to kick this blog off from

Some basic facts about me:

Name's Una

Pronouns She/Her

An autistic artist

Special interest for years now being clowns, jesters and etc. Aka lover of silly!

Collecting vintage and not-so-vintage items of clowns and entertainers (including dolls, figurines, music boxes and etc)

Been in multiple fandoms (currently not really active in any), such as: Pizza tower, Undertale, Знауомьтесь - боб, Team fortress 2, Rayman and many more!

Residing in an european country

Plus here are some music bands and artists whos songs I enjoy!! (Could link a spotify album here at some point)

Oingo Boingo | Король и Шут | That Handsome Devil | Серебряная Свадьба | Koffin Kats | Браво (therefore also Валерый Сюткин) | Will Wood /- and the Tapeworms | Нежное Это | Masayoshi Takanaka | Go2 ...

This blog likely won't focus on art as much as occasional character stuff (since I haven't done this type of blog before) and instead let this be a more impulsive moment of me posting random stuff to do with my collection, interests, hyperfixations, ramblings about life and other!! :o)

Until next post!!