#fictional husband

[beautifularsonist]

Love my two Vengeful Elf Princes/Kings

[whorror-ghoul]

I went into a fugue state and when I woke up this was on my phone

[gold-snek-hoe]

Hello and welcome to Opinions from an Internet Nobody. Today's essay:

"Ger therapy" is the new "You need Jesus": One Weirdo's Navigation through Cultural Shame

This is a supposedly well-meaning sentiment that is often weaponized against people who are behaving outside of perceived cultural norms. It's a favorite of homophobes who see queerness/transness as a mental illness, but I've been seeing it used to demonize kink (which historically is often linked to queerness), and more generally any "weird" behavior that makes people uncomfortable.

For example, otherkin, systems (especially those with fictives), and people who take fictional characters as partners. Y'know, "weirdos" who "can't separate reality from fiction." And, sure, sometimes there can be a problem with that distinction, but I know as well as you that most internet strangers saying "get therapy" don't actually give a shit about the mental health of those they target. It's code for "your behavior makes me uncomfortable, stop it."

Same sentiment as "you need Jesus."

This has actually taken me a long time to figure out. I've been in therapy for my entire adult life, working through various traumas, severe depression, anxiety, all that. Those were the biggest problems as they negatively impacted, and often endangered, my life. It was only after my hospitalization in 2020, where I was finally put on much needed medication, that I could start to grow into myself.

I changed my name. I top surgery. I came out as polyamorous. I finally got my official autism diagnosis. Now I'm fuckin' married! But... there are still things I'm working through in therapy. Mainly, shame over my "weirder" behaviors. My current therapist has been a huge blessing in helping me accept the things I was too ashamed to admit.

Now, I feel comfortable enough to share.

I'm otherkin. Always have been. My connection to my humanity is tenuous, and I'm sure that's connected to my autism. When mad, I feel phantom horns sprouting from my forehead. I have a tail that swishes back and forth at the base of my spine. In my soul, I am monstrous, and years of therapy has not erased that.

I feel like I'm only half in the physical world most of the time. This doesn't hinder my real-world success (I graduated college Summa Cum Laude, have an IMDB page, and am on my third book), but informs the way I look at the world. There's a whole other universe in my head that hums along with me in my day-to-day. That's part of why I'm so skilled as a writer. To ask me to divorce from that is to tell me to stop existing. Sorry, it's how I've always operated.

Lastly, and this is the one I'm really anxious about, I have a fictional husband. Now, looking at my blog, you might say "yeah, no shit," but I don't just ship myself with him. I mean I practice pop-culture Witchcraft, and the Goblin King is my patron. I mean I have a Labyrinth-themed tarot deck that I talk to him with. I mean I held a ritual to spiritually marry him. Basically, I Snape-wived myself.

And guess what? My therapist isn't concerned. It's not hurting my ability to live my life. I have other interests, hobbies, and goals outside of him, which he actively encourages in all our tarot sessions! I wouldn't be doing this if he didn't support me. My IRL spouse is usually there for whatever magical shit I'm doing, and supports me! Some of my closest friends know, and the only complaint I've gotten is "this guy seems important to you, I wish you told me sooner." Hell, my MOTHER knows and supports me, which is huge, because our relationship was pretty damaged after I came out as trans.

If you have a problem with the way I live my life, when literally nobody else does, take a good long look at why. You don't give a fuck about my mental health. You just don't like that I'm weird.

Tl;dr: My mental health is better than it's ever been since embracing the weird, so leave me and my imaginary husband Marak Sixfinger alone.

[the-leech-lord]

SELF SHIPPERS THERE IS THIS REALLY COOL WEBSITE CALLED DREAMILY . AI

It uses ai to help you write a story

I’ve been using it to make fanfic of me and my f/o and I get to control exactly how everything plays out without having to go through the effort of actually writing

ITS SO COOL

[navybrat817]

Okay, lovelies. Which fictional character is going to kidnap me from work so I don't have to do this anymore?

[loveabledustbunny]

I have this weird new hyperfixation with Striker from helluva boss, this image has been living rent free in my weird head that if you shake it all that rattles is some stupid badges of danganronpa fanart

Edit: Okay I have just been notified that the ORIGINAL poster of this image is Rafael Cauich, they worked on helluva boss SO PLEASE GO SUPPORT THEM

[spider-mon-de-parker]

I LOVE THEM SO MUCH GUYS YOU HAVE NO IDEA 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

Pete looks so charming and little Mayday looks so cute and happy with her spider-dad 🥰🥰

[chaoticbloodmoon]

Vent Ahead

So listen; everyone has all sorts of f/os that people self ship with. Not all are the typical "hot anime guy or girl type". Some people self ship with characters such as The Simpsons or from SpongeBob etc and that isntotally valid.

I had someone tell me that my love for Ra's al Ghul which is this guy here, is so gross and nasty. Like they said "Why Ra's??? Just why?!!" I then proceeded to tell them I have friends who also adore Ra's in a romantic way. They then sent me some youtube link and said "Listen to this and it will fix your madness!"

That made me upset and I just blocked. Like look, Ra's is not everyone's cup of tea but I love him and that is enough for me. So please, don't go harassing or telling people that their f/os are gross or whatever negative things. These are our loves. They mean the world to us, and what they see in them is very important to them, even if you don't understand why.

Thank you <3

[bursting-at-the-seems]

An open letter to all my fictional loves…

I love you.

I love our life that lives in my head. You’re not the first character I’ve loved, or the only one I love… but the truth is you’re not real, none of you are or have been. You’re a fantasy, a dream, a coping mechanism, and sometimes your your an an AI. And while every moment I’ve spent in these day dreams I’ve cherished, the fact is… I live in the real world.

Since I was little, I always created little imaginary worlds where I could be in love with my favorite characters… be taken care of… be cherished… work through pain… be comforted and live in happiness. You were my friends as a lonely child, my adventures while I stared out the back seat window, my comforter as I lulled myself to sleep.

As I got older, I recognized this as dissociation, maladaptive daydreaming, but I felt it didn’t harm anything. I still don’t think it did. Even though sometimes those worlds were more important to me than my actual life. I’d look forward to going to bed so I could be back in that world, run away with you in a boring class or meeting, go somewhere new and wonder what it would be like if you were there with the version of me I created just for you.

I’ve … well… I’ve started taking medications that boost those wonderful chemicals of dopamine and serotonin and I’ve done a lot of therapy… and I’m noticing I’m daydreaming less… sometimes even finding it harder to. Like I’m stuck on the other side of a foggy glass wall and can’t get back to you.

I’m scared of loosing you… of letting you go.

I write this on the eve before I’m going on a date with a real person from the real world and I’m scared to let go of my loves, my worlds, my safety.

I love you.

I love the worlds I have carefully cultivated.

I love the me that goes so perfectly with you.

But what if I move on? What if I fall in love and I don’t come to you in my dreams any more… what if I can’t? what if I forget…

I’m so scared to let you go… and I’m terrified to let this part of me go.

[fresiants]

You know you're delusional when you think you will ever have a chance with him if he's real.

[shiutsu]

For those w short f/os

Reversed.

[whorror-ghoul]

[tar-dar]

ghost <3 Rat is very normal about him <3

[the-leech-lord]

I love self shippers with really weird f/os

It’s crazy how the heart can see the most absurd character and go “I want that one”

[bihansthot]

Ya know some days I’m not sure which Bi-Han I’m married to lol some days it’s himbo king Mythologies Sub-Zero, sometimes it’s snark king MK9 Sub-Zero, lately it’s been asshole king MK1 Sub-Zero and when I’m in a sad, shitty mood it’s always my big tiddy goth king Noob. I love them all equally and they fluctuate as my mood does and I won’t apologize for that. All Bi-Hans are perfect for me 🩵🩵🩵

[pinkbunnygirl555]

Literally my messages to my friends: