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and I keep wondering

It it was my fault

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You're never there for me when I need you.

You said you'd always be there.

But you lied.

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Cecil Castellucci, First Day on Earth

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I don’t feel anything anymore, I’m so exhausted. I just want to be gone.

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If I'm going to feel this way for the rest of my live I'd rather not live at all.

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I am so tired of trying, of fighting every day when nothing ever comes of it.

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because it's all over now // all out to sea

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“I do not like who I am. There is nothing good about me anymore. I am sick of wasting my time. I am worn out, I am really tired.”

— there is no point of me being here if I am not doing anything useful

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“I feel like I am so far behind in life that I will never catch up. Everyone is doing so many things with their lives. I am just here. Frozen. I have been a ghost for years. I wonder if that is all I will ever be.”

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